A/N: So I had a complete idiot moment and had finished the first half of the chapter on another computer and thought I sent it to this one, so I deleted it from the other one.. Turns out I didn't send it to myself so I had to rewrite the whole entire beginning which sucked because my other beginning was awesome. Anyhow I love this quote below but the author was unknown so I can not give the person credit unfortunately. Anyways enjoy reading and review if you please. (Sorry for all grammer and spelling mistakes I tried to hurry this update)

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or New Moon they are the property of Ms. Stephenie Meyer.

Quote: Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

Chapter 11:

I don't know how long Edward and I just sat there contemplating the pain and hurt we were about to inflict on people who we cared about. We must have been sitting there for hours before I heard Edward's family approach. I could tell he was trying to figure out what they were thinking. Isabella you must do something, they are going to think you doing something wrong. He got up and started pacing the living room floor.Edward's eyes locked with mine and mouthed to me "act mad". I tried to think of the thing that made me really angry and then it hit me. Flashes of Edward putting his arm around Nicole and him kissing her flooded my mind; the rage was building in my body now. I stood up and started pacing the floor with him walking back and fourth. I ran my hands through my hair as a nervous habit when I was stressed. I knew I looked a mess my hair was probably sticking up all over the place and I could feel strands falling down around my face. I continued to pace back and fourth my breathing becoming more ragged with every passing second.

"How could you ever think that we could be friends after you left me," I know longer was attempting to act mad, I was mad. I was more than mad I was livid.

Edward's face held surprise at how harsh my words and voice were. I must have struck a cord because before I knew it he was growling under his breath. "What do you mean after I left you, Bella you practically threw me out the door."

His words stung I knew he was right. I had ended the relationship No you didn't he ended the relationship when he refused to change me. "What did you want from Edward was I just suppose to sit there and turn old as you stayed young for forever? Is that what you wanted from me or maybe you didn't want to be with me at all and me breaking things off was just an easier way for you to leave." I could feel the non existing tears building in my eyes. His families' footsteps had completely stopped coming towards the house. They were probably scared of what they would find if they opened the door. My dry sobs were about to take over my body I couldn't take it anymore I couldn't be here. I had to leave no there was nothing else for me here. Being with Edward would cause so much pain, maybe our relationship was filled with to many holes to mend. As my mind began to think these things the aching in my chest returned with a vengeance. I wanted so badly to just scream out in pain, to just scream at the top of my lungs and tell Edward that he was truly all I ever wanted and more.

"I would have never left you, I would have stayed," His voice was getting quieter by the moment "I would have never left you," He stepped towards me and took his hands in mine. I was shocked his family was standing right outside the door "Bella I would have never left you." His voice was too sincere too concerned I couldn't take this. I wanted to be with Edward, I always had but I didn't want to hide it from anyone I didn't want to have to feel guilty every time he kissed me or held me close. I couldn't even stand to be around him, or be around myself. My guilt was too great what we were doing was wrong. I
dropped my hands from him and turned around and walked towards the door. Before
I could even open it Edward was standing in front of me. He mouthed to me "Please Bella don't go, please don't walk out that door."

I replied out loud not caring if his family heard. "Edward I have to, I don't know if I will be back." I wanted to come back my mind was screaming at me don't leave but I had things I had to do. I had to correct things with Christian and Gabby before I could even think about a future with Edward. I would wait until we got back to Oregon to tell him the truth. There was no reason for us to fight now and make me getting my things from the home even more awkward, plus I needed to talk to Gabby and see if she would be joining me.

He looked at me one last time and mouthed to me "Bella I love you so much." He put his head down in defeat and moved out of the way so I could open the door. I wanted so badly to just say I loved him and for him to hold me in his arms, but it couldn't happen now. This was not the right time. I took a deep breath and opened the door to see all the Cullens looking at me with puzzling looks on their faces. Nicole's face looked broken. I felt a twinge of guilt in pain. The aching in my chest hit me with a shock of pain, because of what I was putting his family through. I looked at them all one last time and took of running. I didn't care that I would have to run all the way back to Seattle, it actually was a good thing it would give me time to collect my thoughts, to plan my next move. As I started to approach the city I slowed down and decided to stop into a shop. I didn't want Christian or Gabby to think that I was to upset about anything. I needed to act normal until we got back to Oregon. Lucky for me I found a small shop with a mirror in it, just as I had predicted my hair was a mess and my eyes had purple splotches underneath. I will have to go hunting soon. I quickly pulled my hair out of the ponytail and let my long brown hair fall down and surround my face. I didn't even want to have to look at myself in the mirror so I left as much hair in my eyes as possible and pulled my hair back up. I figured it was getting late and I should head back to the hotel. I began my slow human walk towards the hotel.

I was trying to avoid the hotel as much as possible. I took the stairs up to our floor just so more time would pass and I would not have to stare at Christian's or Gabby's face for too long. I slid my key into the hotel room door slowly not wanting to see the faces behind it my breathing was becoming more ragged as the thought of breaking Christian's heart came into mind. Gabby and him were watching TV and laughing about their driving adventure today. I put on the happiest looking face I could and walked into the living room. When you get back to Oregon you will tell him.

"Hey do you guys think we could leave now?" I asked trying not to sound to desperate for their answer to be yes.

"Why? Did they do something to you, did something happen?" Christian was quickly at my side. I backed away from him slightly not wanting him to smell Edward's scent on my lips.

"No it is just that I am done here, there is nothing left for me and I just think it is better that we leave."

"I guess so I don't see why not. I'll go buy the plane tickets off." Christian's face held hurt, and curiosity as to why I backed away from him. He turned around and walked downstairs to the hotel lobby to arrange our travel arrangements.

"So why do you really want to leave Isabella, your tired of messing around with Edward." Her voice was higher than usually, anger was present in every word.

"I am not going to argue with you Gabby you couldn't possibly understand what I am going through right now." My voice was low and filled with guilt and remorse.

"You are right Isabella I have no clue what you are going through. You and Christian are great together and you just go through it out for nothing, for a stupid boy who wouldn't even change you when you wanted to be with him forever. Tell me Isabella what kind of true love was it that he wasn't even willing to have you at his side for forever."

Gabby's words were way to strong the raged raced inside of me. Before I even knew it she was pinned against the wall my face inches from hers. My breathing was ragged, snarls were forming under my breath. "Don't you dare ever say that about Edward, he wanted what was best for me, he wanted what was best for us."

"Oh I guess what was best for you two was for him to be around you every minute wanting to kill you and drain you of every ounce of blood." Gabby pushed me off of her and smoothed back down her shirt. "You don't deserve Christian, he is way too good for you. You are stupid Isabella if you think that Edward is ever going to take you back, you are stupid to through away what you and Christian have."

Her words were tearing at my insides. I knew what she was saying as true but I did not want to accept it. Edward would take me back wouldn't he?"

"You better tell Christian everything," Her finger was pointing at me as if she was scolding a young child.

"Don't worry I plan to," I turned and walked away, I turned around and decided I could never look at Gabby the same "Gabby out of all people I thought you would understand. I thought you would get that I was never over Edward. I wasn't any were close to over him when you basically threw Christian and me together."

"Don't you dare blame me for what you have done, as I remember I wasn't the girl who was just at her ex boyfriend's house shoving her tongue down his throat." Before I could even answer Gabby ran to her room and slammed the door shut.

I feel to the ground and began to dry sob. I would have to tell him without the support of my best friend. She obviously didn't approve of my behavior and the way I was treating Christian, but who could blame her. I stayed there in the middle of the floor just sitting there not caring if Christian saw me or not. I was lying in a fetal position hiding my face from view. I didn't even hear him come in, I didn't even hear him approach me, all I felt was his arms picking me up and carrying me over to our bed.

"Christian I am so sorry," I managed to stutter the words out through my dry sobs.

"Isabella you have nothing to be sorry about." He replied in his most soothing voice.

If he only knew what I had done, I felt my chest burst in agonizing pain as the thought of Christian disowning me came to mind. I cried out in pain, but it only made him grip me tighter and pull me closer into his arms. He sat me down on the bed and wrapped his arms around me giving me the comfort I so desperately needed, that I so desperately craved. Why are you doing this? For true love was the only answer I could come up with. Christian sat with me for the rest of the night never questioning what had put me in such a bad mood. His eyes were flashing from black with anger, he obviously thought the Cullens had done something to hurt me. As early morning passed I felt Christian leave my side. He took his shower, got dressed and started to head towards the door.

I jumped out of the bed and fled to the door "Where are you going?"

"To talk with Edward about why he had to put you in such a state," before I could even open my mouth he was gone. I stood there in the doorway and crumpled. This was going to be the day Christian found out and it wouldn't even be from me. My mind started racing I had to stop him. I called downstairs to get a car. If you drive fast enough you might be able to catch him. I heard Gabby approaching me.

"Isabella I am sorry," she replied her voice filled with shame.

"Gabby don't apologize you were right. It is all my fault and now Christian is heading over to the Cullens house." I could feel a breakdown coming on again.

Gabby's eye widen with horror. "I'll drive, you aren't in the shape to drive," with that we fled downstairs to the Mercedes I had rented, it was the same models as Christian except it was a midnight blue. Gabby hopped into the driver's seat as I sled into the passenger's seat. I barely had time to close my door before we were speeding off towards the Cullens house. I only hoped we would get there in time.

A/N: I know this was a rather short chapter and all, but with the fact that I deleted the first half and I had to rewrite it I couldn't recall everything, plus I felt like I have been slacking a little bit with my updates. Well hoped you all like the chapter. Review if you please. Peace.