an: Sooo I realized...I've skipped two Kouga chapters u.u I feel bad, lol so next chapter a nice long, Kouga! er, yea.

"Loosing Control."

Chapter 11: Everything falls apart.

We got the bus working within a hour of the mechanic coming, an then we were on the road. Everyone was here, all minus Miroku. Miroku was living it up in peace on the girl's bus. i would kill to be in the same situation. After Inu-Yasha and Miroku's fight Inu had stormed onto the bus , and began the trip to the next city. He had remained silent while driving, well till I decided to get involved.

I did the best I could to remain standing in the front of the bus, it seemed Inu-Yasha was taking his anger out on me an purposely hitting every pot hole, and bump he could manages. Being the stubborn man that I was, his attempts to knocking me to the back were not working. Ha.

"You are being a massive ass."

"Sesshomaru..not right now."

"Yes, now Inu-Yasha. This is more serious then you are making it out to be."

He took a second to turn from the road to stare daggers at me. Turning his focus back to the road, I watched as he calmed himself enough to talk without the tone. "No it really isn't. Me and Miroku fought,but he just needs some time alone."

"Inu-Yasha, you can't tell a guy not to be interested in a girl-"

Cutting me off with his hand I saw the anger rising in him once more. "We agreed, we ALL agreed. Not to get involved with any of the girls."

I stared at him blankly. "Is your ass jealous of the amount of shit that just came from your mouth?"

"What?!" His anger was starting to get the best of him. I guess guilt does that to a guy.

Leaning close enough so he could see my face out of the corner of his eye, I leveled him with a stare. "You slept with Kagome. Last time I checked she was in the very same band as Sango. SLEPT with her Inu. The worse thing Miroku did was hold her damn hand."

"How do you know? He could be lying. He is infamous for sleeping with anything that walks."

I did all I could not to punch Inu-Yasha in the throat. That was a lot of will power, but I managed. "Look who's talking."

"I made a mistake.."

"So take it out on your best friend? Our drummer?"

"You just don't-"

"Understand?" Finishing for him, I looked down at his face. I could see what all this was doing to him. The hurt was everywhere. Good.

Pissed didn't cover how I felt at this moment in time. Looking at Inu-Yasha I knew what I was doing was a lost cause. he was as stubborn as a mule. I just had to let him figure it out. And god did I hope he figured it out.

I gently shook my head at him. It was just best to leave him alone, not before some parting advice of course. "Bottom line Inu-Yasha. You don't know what happened. You are all about ethics, but you were the one to fuck Kagome. Stop taking your guilt on your best-friend. if we lose Miroku because of this. i will make it personal."

I didn't wait to hear any more excuses from him. I was done at this point. I just hope I got through somehow. If this ruined the band I don't know what I would do, but strangling Inu-Yasha would be right on the top.

Needing to forget this situation I knew there was only one cure. Making my way over to my bed I found her laying on top. I smiled, I gingerly caressed her from top to bottom. "Did you miss me?"

Mimicking a high pitched feminine voice, " Oh Sesshomaru, it was so lonely on this bed. Never leave me again!"

"Don't worry Ivory, I got you now."

"Just touch me already."

"Don't worry baby I got you." I was enjoying myself to much, but everyone had to find fun somehow. Mine just happened to be talking to my bass.

"Reeeeeal creepy you talk to that thing let alone make it talk."

Looking over my shoulder I did all I could not to snap. I still had memory's of him hiding her under his bed. Picking my bass up, and perching myself on the edge of my bed I stared at Kouga. Scowling, "Shut it."

"Hear me now. when you start peeling faces off of people. I called it."

"Everyone's entitled to a stupid, but you are abusing the privilege."I looked up at his laughter, I had to take a double take, seeing what was in his hands confused me. "What's that?"

"I SAID,WHEN YOU START PEELIN-" Assuming I meant I didn't hear him, the smart ass started to talk in a louder volume.

"I don't know what makes you stupid, but it really works," Thrusting my hand forward I waved at the guitar in his hands, " That. What are you doing?"

"Clearly I'm practicing."A look of embarrassment crossed his face, bending his head back down ,Kouga began to play one of our songs.

I looked on as he strummed along, he sounded perfect, never missing a beat or a note. This man never practiced a day and he sounded amazing. I knew for a fact on our breaks he never touched his guitar. I lived with him, I would only time he practiced was for a new song, and it was like playing it once he absorbed it in and had it encrusted in his mind. He was like a musical prodigy ,so why now?

Shock still must have shown on my face once hi finished. Giving me a scathing look he barked, " What?"

"Oh nothing. Just think the world is ending. You just continue 'practicing'."

"Sesshomaru, say whatever you want to say." I heard the tiredness in his voice. Something was eating at our little Kouga. Being the man of tactlessness that i was I smiled pleasantly and asked.

"Since when do you fucking practice?"

Looking at me with a questionable look , he shrugged his shoulders."Why not?"

Giving him a look of equal value, " Because Kouga, you never practice. You don't need to."

I looked on as he sighed heavily, placing his guitar beside him he intertwined his fingers together. Resting his head on his hands I heard his muffled voice. " With Miroku leaving-"

"Who the fuck said Miroku was leaving?"

He lifted his head, his eyes darted to the front of the bus then back to me."Did you hear any of what happened?"

"Meant nothing." I dragged my bass to my lap, ignoring the stare that bore through me I played the same song Kouga had just finished.

I heard Kouga clear his throat, choosing to ignore it I continued playing. The clearing grew in intensity, till the point it was painfully obvious he was dying for my attention. Rolling my eyes I stopped to level Kouga with a stare. "What?"

"You know as well as I do, what happened was serious."

"Kouga give it a rest. Things are cool, they both just need to mellow out." Turning my eyes back to my bass I went back to play her.

"What if it's not."

He just didn't stop. "It is."

"But what if-"

"What if Miroku decides to start cross dressing and join Siren's theory?" Having enough of it I growled in frustration. "We just aren't going there Kouga. Got me? We can't think like that. We think that then it happens. Got it?"

"I got it."

"Good, Now shut up and play, or just shut up."

Laughing Kouga started to play, Matching his rhythm we played a solid few songs before we just completely stop. Kouga went to sleep a bit and I sat here staring off into nothing.

Sitting in silence, It sat at the back of my mind. What would we do if Miroku decided he had enough? Yea it would be easy to find a new drummer, but you couldn't find a new Miroku. There would be a void in our band that not just anyone could fill.

I didn't tell Kouga all this, he didn't need to be more worried about a possible future. We all had to remain hopeful this crap blew over. I know I would make damn sure things blew over. If I had to beat sense into Inu-Yasha I would. He wouldn't be single handily destroying this band any time soon.

Time to buck up and get over yourself.

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I felt more the saw the bus pull up and stop. Looking out the window all I saw was the back of a building.

"Were here, you guys good back there."

I looked up to see Inu-Yasha standing. It took us a while, but we had made it to our next venue. The sun was long gone, the darkness of night loomed over the bus. Glancing out the window I saw the line of people beginning to wrap its way around the building, only meant the show would be starting shortly. It was going to be a packed one tonight.

I studied the fans as the bounced and chattered in excitement. If they only knew half the crap that went down. Peering down at a still sleeping Kouga I lightly nudge him with he tip of my shoe. "Wise and shine princess."

"Five more minutes." Rolling over He did his best to ignore me.

Chuckling I bent down, "Either his royalness wakes up now, Or I will pick you up and throw you into the pit of fans out there, naked. They may not be to kind to you."

"Damn it Sesshomaru I'm up!"

I watched as he groggily got up, picking his guitar up I watched with amusement as he stumbled his way off the bus. Swear I was like this god damn bands father sometimes. Picking my own instrument up I followed suit.

Almost colliding with a little body I cursed, I watched as Kagome stumbled back. Fear crossed her face, slowly looking up and realizing it was me she relaxed a bit. "Sorry Sesshomaru, in a hurry." Moving to past me she would have made it, if I wasn't faster. I grabbed a hold of her arm turning her to face me. This would be my only shot to talk to her, and I needed to know what the hell was oping on around here.

"Kagome. With whats going on-"

"Please Sesshomaru not right now." Looking down into her pleading eyes I felt something break inside me. Nodding I let her go.

"Kagome. Wait." Anger boiled over in me as I watched the last man she needed to be around called out , and began walking towards us. She had almost made it free. I saw her flinch and edge towards the door, ignoring Inu-Yasha.

"KAGOME!" Her back stiffened as he yelled at her. I saw the thought of running run through her mind. her eyes kept darting to the door, but she stayed put. Hearing foot steps behind me I knew Inu-Yasha was here, Kagomes chance to escape had passed her. Not being able to tell what was going on with him I watched as he just stared at a defeated Kagome."Did you hear me call you?"

"Yes." her voice was soft, if I didn't know better I could swear I heard a muffled sob.

"Why didn't you stop then?"

"Because I'm not your fucking dog. I'm here now. What do you want?" Studying her face I lost my cool. Tears traced her cheeks. No matter how strong she tried acting she was still at the point of breaking.

Shit. Moving forward I went to put a stop to this. Oh Inu was getting it. The look on that girls face. She had been crushed, he hurt her so damn bad. Douche bag wanted to get on Miroku's ass, and look what mess he made.

"Enough Inu-Yasha, fuck!" Turning I was unable to stop the full force of what was going to happen. Miroku stormed towards us. "Go inside Kagome, I got this."

Not waiting for Inu to turn back to her, she scurried into the building. As the door closed I turned my attention back to Miroku and Inu-Yasha. Double shit.

"Can't you just mind your own business Miroku."

"You are my business. Can't you cut her some fucking slack?"

"You butt your way into it before I could even talk to her."

"You don't need to talk to her."

"Who are you? Her mother?"

I watched as they slowly began to snowball, Doing this out here in public was not the best of things. People were stopping and staring. if they kepy this screaming match up they would attract fans. Even better.

"Guys why don't we just chill-" I walked forward, only to have Inu-Yasha push me.

"Stay out of it Sesshomaru."

Grinding my teeth I stepped back. Hands held up in surrender. If they wanted to be stupid, fine by me. They were on their own now. I would watch till they fucked each other up.

"I swear to god. How does anyone put up with you." Miroku turned to walk away, Inu-Yasha continued his assault.

"That's right, walk away. poor little Miroku is having issues so he runs."

Yelling over his shoulder Miroku didn't bother to stop. "Whatever you say Inu-Yasha."

"Whatever you say Inu-Yasha." Mocking Miroku, Inu-Yasha stood there fuming, not knowing what to say.

"What's your problem?" Miroku stopped as he reached the door, turning he gave Inu a questionable look. He was willing to let it all go. Not Inu-Yasha though. man was a to head.

"You are."

"If you have a problem with me, write it down on paper, fold it, and shove it up your ass Inu-Yasha."

"Just walk away Miroku, Like the little bitch you are."

Cursing under my breath I watched as Miroku stopped, turning he made a bee line back to Inu. Fist clenched, "I've had enough of your mouth."

Reaching us in a few seconds Miroku had grabbed a hold of inu-Yasha's shirt, pulling him closer to him, with one balled fist he began to punch Inu in the face. One punch struck Inu-s lip splitting it, blood rushed down his chin. Two more blows landed into Inu-Yasha's eye socket. A loud crunch alerted to anyone around that someone had something broken.

Three punches in before Inu-Yasha had gained a hold of his Miroku's arm, pushing him back Miroku lost his balance. Stumbling Inu took that to his advantage. Running towards him Inu planted a kick in Miroku's chest

"Miroku!" Sango came rushing out and over towards the the kick to the chest had set her into drive. Holding my arm out I stopped her and simply shook my head.

"Let it go."

"But Sess-"

"I got it if it gets out of hand. Trust me Sango."

Not liking it she kept silent as she fearfully looked on at the brutal beating before us. I didn't like it anymore, but these two needed to get it out of their system.

Gasping for air Miroku fell to the ground. Arms tightly pressed to his chest he looked up as his former best friend loomed over him. ,Inu again took advantage. Straddling his waist Inu took a hold Of Miroku's shit and began his own flurry of face punches. Blood poured from both their faces, yet it didn't stop them. Miroku laid on the ground, struggling, weakly punching into Inu-Yasha's exposed chest. The blows didn't stop Inu from continuing assaulting Miroku's face.

"Sesshomaru." Sango's voice held a note of panic. She was getting just as worried as I was. They were reaching a breaking point. If this didn't stop someone was bound to call the police.

Winching at every blow, I heard bone on bone. If this continued they would break something, even if they hated one another now they both would hate to disappoint the fans. I growled and ran towards them. Yanking Inu back I held him at a distance.

Picking Miroku up He went to lung, Weakened from the fight they could only manage a struggle against me. "ENOUGH!" Voice booming they both ceased struggling. Breathing heavily they stood, bloody and in pain glaring at one another.

I was beyond the point of anger, I wanted to bash their damn skulls together. I looked between the two, fuming. " Really?! This is what shit has come to?"

"He started-"

"Fuck you, you had to put your nose where it didn't be-"

"I DON'T GIVE A FLYING RATS ASS WHO STARTED WHAT!" Keeping a hold of them both I watch as people scurried to get away from the scene. Focusing back at the two at hand I felt my anger reach a new peak. "Two more shows. After tonight we have two more shows. After that a break. Which you clearly need."

"He'll be lucky if I come back."

"Drummer's aren't hard to come by Asshole."

"Good problem solved-"

"Shut...The...fuck... both of you need to just shut it and listen." I let go of them, turning my back to Miroku I thrust my finger in Inu-Yasha's face. " You need to get over yourself. Get the fuck off Miroku's balls. You slept with Kagome. You broke her heart. Only person you should hate is yourself."

I turned to point a finger at Miroku. he wasn't getting off any easier. " You."

"What I was defending Kag-"

Giving him a look he shut his mouth. " I appreciate it. But Kagome is an adult an can handle her own battles. You need to stop acting like a little girl. I get it Inu is a dick. he fucked up. I would be just as pissed, but throwing away YEARS of a friendship is stupid. You know you weren't in the wrong."

Stepping back I ran my hand through my hair. " I'm not your mother. You guys are adults. If you want to destroy each other fine. Just remember me and Kouga are inside ready to do out fucking jobs."

Turning my back I walked away. i no longer had the patients for these jack asses. if they wanted to tear each other apart fine by me. I no longer would be here to watch them both self destruct. They wanted to destroy all we worked for fine.

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This might have been the first time in my life where being on stage I felt awkward. I glanced over at Kouga across the stage, he looked just as lost ass I did. Usually during shows Inu-Yasha would interact with the crowd, hell he and Miroku usually played it up together. Since they weren't talking I could understand that bit. But the fans? Not tonight, He had remained in one place, singing a song after another. No breaks, no saying hi to the fans. Just singing.

His face was now blood free, but it was clear he had been involved in something serious. Bruises were appearing around his eyes, his lip was busted open. A clear split down the middle. His knuckled held tightly to the mic in his hands, they were busted and scrapped open.

"S-s-ssorry guys. I know we seem to be-e-ee lack luster tonight." Speaking for the first time I stood there, spine going ridged. I figured out where he was while I waited inside the green room with Kouga. My anger came back with a full vengeance. This was going to end badly. His works were slurred A drunken smile on his lips. Turning he winked at me, "I don't know if you can tell,but I was in a bit of a fight this evening."

The crowed jeered, boos and heckling ensued. "I bet you kicked his ass!" Someone from the crowd screamed over the rest, earning him a cheer of his own.

Inu-Yasha laughed harshly. He turned, acknowledging Miroku for the first time tonight. I watch as the same amount of anger broke on his face. "Why dooon't we ask our lovely drumm-mer here, huh?"

Miroku looked just as bad as Inu had. his eyes were black, and blood still clung to his shirt, in drying patches. Ignoring Inu-Yasha I held my breath as he tried to calm himself. The sticks in his hand trembled.

"Aww I think wittle Miroku is mad at me guys." Heckling Miroku into talking , I took a step forward. if this continued it would only end in another fight on stage." Look! It's Sessy!"

Cringing at the nick name I covered the mic with one hand, I hissed darkly into his ear. "What are you doing?"

"My job, duh?" Wobberling he had a hard time maintain focus. Laying a hand on my shoulder he smiled, breathing into my face I turned my nose up at the booze stench. "It's ok Sessy .I wont upset you little Miroku."

Dismissing me with a pat He sauntered away to continue talking to the crowd. Kouga made anther attempt at my attention. Shacking my head I went back to my place. There was no hope for any of this. Please let this end. And let it wend fast.

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I ended up having to drag his ass out halfway through the show. That was a first and last. once this drunken idiot woke up I was letting him have it. I was tired, so damn tired of this crap. inu-Yasha was usually a great performer. What the fuck was going on with him? What made him decide this was a good idea? Throwing him on his bed I walked out, I watched as Miroku limped slowly to the girls bus.

Taking a deep breath I went to catch up with him. I had time till sleeping beauty woke up, I needed to clear things with Miroku.

Seeing me approach he held his hands up in defense" Listen i kept my cool. i wanted to deck him again but I didn't."

"No I know. Thanks by the way."

"No problem." Limping the rest of the way to the bus, Miroku sighed in content as he rested his body against the bus. it was clear he was hurting. Looking up he narrowed his eyes. "You're here for a reason. Whats up?"

"Just wanted to see if you're good."

"And?"

"Can't I just check on you.?"

"No."

Well he was right. I did wanna see how he was doing, but I did have other motives. "Are you really leaving us?"

Puzzlement crossed his face, then he realized what I was going on about. Moaning he banged his head against the bus, Closing his eyes he responded in a dull tone. "Sesshomaru I don't know. Why are you asking me this now?"

"Just answer the question."

"Yea, No. Shit." Standing on his own two feet, he slowly made his way to the girl's bus door. Looking at me I could tell he was truly confused. He didn't know what he wanted anymore then the rest of us. Staying silent for a few, he finally blew a breath out."If he can pull his head out of his ass,let me run my own life, and gravel. Sure I'll stay."

"Listen, two more shows. Then were all on a break. We need it. I'm going to talk to his drunk ass and let him know a few things. Just don't leave us. Kouga and I are still here. And we need you."

Nodding, the conversation ended. i watched his back as she slinked into the bus.

Looking over at our bus I knew I was in for a fun time myself. Walking the short distance I hopped up the stairs to the sound of something puking their guts up. Good serves his dumb ass. Emerging over the stairs I stared at Inu-Yasha's hunched form. His face was buried in a bucket. I watched as his back hunched every time he threw up. Smiling I waited patiently till his pail face looked up.

Looking up he moaned, I couldn't tell if it was me or the pounding headache he had to have. All I know was that look make me giggle with glee on the inside."Please Sesshomaru, I'm drunk. And dying."

Sitting next to his weak form I patted him hard on the back. His face dove back into the bucket for another onslaught. "We need to talk."

Eyes breaching over the bucket he tried pleading with his eyes. "Sesshomaru later-"

"I would much rather chuck puppies into a wood chipper then talk to you right now. Shut the fuck up and just listen."

Not protesting anymore I took that as a sign. "Now. We have an issue. Tonight? Will never happen again-"

"I'm sorry I kno-"

"Shut...Up." Glaring at him he shut up for the second time. Knowing he wouldn't interrupt anymore I continued. "I don't know, nor do I care whats going on with you. Here's the solution though. Two more shows, you two get along. You will act like best friends. And then we have a month break. That month break you will be using it wisely. You will be saying sorry to Miroku, and you will be getting it together. Am I clear?"

"Yes.." A low growl emitted from him. Cutting my eyes to him I stopped his little tantrum from bubbling any further.

"Inu-Yasha I mean it. Fix it. And do it right." I couldn't stand to be near him any longer. I was ashamed to even be his brother at this point. he was falling and bringing the rest with him. I was putting a stop to that crap tonight. Walking away I made it to the stairs before shouting over my shoulder. "If you can't do this Inu-Yasha. I'm cutting you out of my life. If we loose Miroku, I'm cutting you out. I hope you make the right choices."

I continued to walk. I didn't need to have a response, I knew it would sink in. I hope it did. I meant every word I had said. I was willing to cut the strings to this shit show.