This is based on a mature aspect that I thought the story needed... I don't know I like to put my own expieriences Ito things and this just happened to spring out to me... Well I am just going to you read now!

Sirius stormed into his dorm and sat on his bed as he groaned loudly.

He looked across the room into the mirror on the back of the door.

"Sirius you're an idiot." he told his reflection

"you had her. She wanted you. You had your chance that you've only dreamt of. You got the opportunity to prove Lucius and Remus wrong, but you didn't take it why? Why be so stupid!"

He groaned again and laid down.

"I will tell you why cuz she isn't a toy to use to prove people right she's more. She deserves better than whatever I am. Someone who will treat her the best she can be treated buy her pretty things for no reason. Love her. Be there for her not you. Your worthless. You know she was in such a shock from finding out you love her that she jumped to thinking she loved you. It wasn't real."

He tried convincing himself.

"Sirius." said a nervous voice from the bed above him.

"Remus?"

"yes... Question."

Sirius stretched on his bed and sighed,"ask away."

"you really love her?"

"Yeah, I guess I do."

"you have for over 2 years now?"

"Well umm yeah, but..."

"You were protecting her from Malfoy and slytherins, you sent her letters and gifts?"

"you knew about the letters?"

"No, I suspected. I was with her and lily and she dropped one once I only got a quick glance before she picked it up... Why?"

"why what?"

"Why her? What's the difference between her and all your other birds?"

"She's not just another bird... She has this type of glimmer in her eyes when she laughed at a prank or a joke. It was just so beautiful an it made everything else about her more wondrous."

"Why set her up with me then?"

"I wanted her to be happy... I didn't care who... I just I loved her so much I wanted her to have someone she wanted ,someone good like her. And I knew how you felt about her."

"I never saw it."

"what?"

"the sparkle in her eyes, I never noticed it. Beauty yes, but spark, not so much."

"Don't get all sentimental on me now mooney."

"Pads, I'm afraid you've already gone sentimental. She's got you hooked."

"I know."

"so why don't you go after her?"

"You'd hate me... I would only end up hurting her. Need anymore reasons? I've had 2 years to come up with them."

"Do you know why you still love her and you never gave up? It's because no matter how many reasons you have to stop loving her. You have one to keep on... Somewhere in your mind you have hope she might love you back. Even if you won't admit it to yourself."

"Remus, She deserves better."

"define better."

"good. Someone who won't hurt her. Who will make her happy."

"if you had her would u hurt her?"

"I can't see myself doing it, but I also never saw myself falling in love with any bird let alone Hermione."

"I think that you're not scared you will hurt her. Your scared she will hurt you. Your saying you're not good enough and all that, but really you know she should be with you. You know deep down you would treat her better than any other guy. You just think she will find someone better than leave you. That's what I think Sirius."

"What do you know? YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I THINK OR HOW I FEEL..."

"That's it yell at me and storm out! Hit me if you get that mad but I know it's because your upset that I'm right and won't admit it! The more enraged you become the more I believe my own words to be true Sirius so go ahead yell ,scream ,throw your tantrum it won't change the situation!"

Sirius was now silent he had nothing to say to him he sat back down on his bed and rolled facing the wall.

"You say you want her to be happy. You say you want her to have the best. You say you love her. If that were true you would open your eyes and realize she won't be happy without you. That to her you are the best you always were. You would see she loves you just as much and has for longer than you."

Remus waited for his reply but once convinced Sirius would not reply he walked to the door and opened it just as he was about to walk out Sirius spoke his voice low almost a whisper the words he said made Remus think he never even said a thing at all.

"Your right." was his only reply as he lay in the bed stiff as a board.

Hermione sat in the tunnel frozen from shock. He loved her? But he rejected her.

He says she doesn't deserve him? But doesn't he know he was all she ever wanted now he wants her and he won't for her own good? Doesn't he know how she feels?

With her thoughts swirling she walked slowly to her common room. She was almost there when a tall figure stood before her towering over her.

"I'm not in the mood Lucius!" she snapped at him.

"oh where's your little peasants ,princess?"

Deep down she knew he was only teasing her and testing her patience but the words still stung and she couldn't help but sniffle abit before retorting ,"knock it off Lucius!"

"oh the marauders are gone with that mudblood? What about your knight in shining armor? Where is black I thought he'd jump at the chance to 'protect' you from any evil slytherin." Lucius kept taunting even when he had a full inclination of thesituation

"Lucius... Not now." she said pushing the tears back

"oh what's wrong princess some guy not jump when you told him to? Or let me guess he didn't jump high enough." This time he waBrit teasig her he was being quite real.

How could he say that? She was not some horrible dictator. Is he still mad for the break up from two years ago? Why is he tryingTao hard to hurt her? What has she ever seen in him?

"I'm not horrible Lucius I'm hurt enough as it is. You used to love me too you know! Can you just leave me alone please?"

"let me guess you went after the little traitor and he rejected you? How's it feel to not be good enough?"

"shut up! He told me I was too good for him."

"ah you see that means your worthy but your too much a prude for him. We both know how he is. He is trying to let you know nicely he doesn't want girls like you."

"You know Lucius you're a real git!" she yell as the tears fell uncontrollably down her rosy cheeks.

She turned to leave when he grabbed her arm tightly.

"let me go Lucius."

He refused to and pulled her into him.

"Lucius... . Go. Now." She said reaching for her wand in her back pocket with her free hand.

"looking for this?" he asked holding her wand. Then chuckling twistedly

Hermione locked his glare with one of her own. Her eyes held determination and ruthlessness. No fear which disappointed Lucius to some degree.

"I don't like being rejected mudblood. Even if it has been two years since. I have not forgotten." he said and covered her mouth with his one hand and pushed her behind a statue then put a silencing charm and uncovered her mouth.

"go ahead now you can scream for help. Scream for Sirius to come and save you. Do it! They can't hear you. No one can. You cannot be saved now.

"why? Lucius you used to love me remember ? What happened to that Lucius."

Lucius eyes were now cold and hard as he locked hers. She could see the pain and torture that was burned into his eyes that were once so full of life.

"all the things they say about him is true, but when you expierience it first hand it's just... Aweful."

"You don't have to be like him. If you do this then your as bad as he is. Your not evil Lucius you are no monster."

"that's the thing though... Your right I am no monster... Not yet. I am not yet evil... I am not him, but I could be. And doing this will give me the first step to it. And in a few years I could be better than him. And I could be the most powerful wizard. People would fear me they would obey me."

"Lucius nothing is forever. Nothing. Darkness only lasts until the sun comes out. No matter how long that will be. People will always rebel. No matter if it's good or bad. If darkness rules the good will rebel until they over power it no matter how long it takes. When it is light, the bad will always rebel until they over power it no matter how long it will take."

"that's where your wrong, princess. I will change it. I can change it."

She saw in his eyes there was no saving him now she was too late to. He was morphed into a deatheater and that meant there was no talking him out of this. She was going to be raped and she had no way out of it.

"yes now your scared aren't you mudblood go ahead beg me not to."

"no. I'm not scared. Not of you Lucius."

"so stubborn ,you are."

She just stood there staring into him hoping he wouldn't go through with his plan or that she would think of a way out Of it.

He smirked maliciously and advanced on her slowly grabbing her by her waist and pressing a forced kiss to her lips. She stood still pressing her own lips together as hard as she could and not returning his kiss.

"I thought you would be smarter than this. You are going to do this and cooperate. If you don't then I will have to give you this." he pulled out a small vile from his robes she did not recognize.

"it was a gift from him. A type of welcoming present. It will make you cooperate with me within seconds after drinking it... Almost like imperious curse..."

She took a deep breath and shut her eyes tight begging for some type of plan.

Lily ran to sirius' dorm and as soon as she opened the door she yelled," Sirius Orion Black! If you don't tell me where hermione is I will curse you into next year!"

"Lily? What do you mean? I haven't seen her since I went to talk to her after dinner an hour or so ago.

"well where is she. She's not with any teacher ,the library lake, common room ,the room no where!"

"hold on." he said and walked over to the map.

But when he looked at it his face instantly paled and before he could mutter any words he dropped the map and started to run. Pushing lily out of the way as he did so.

Lily picked the map up n saw just what got Him so worked up hermione was in a secret passage with Lucius Malfoy.

"HERMIONE!" Sirius screamed as he ran behind the statue.

"Right on schedule Mr. Black. Now you can collect Her and drag her back to gryffindor tower for me."

He looked to see hermione her hair was wild and messed she was biting her lip her eyes were wide and she looked like she was fighting back the verge of tears.

"What did you do to her Malfoy?"

He flashed him a mocking grin and said," I did the very thing that I knew would hurt you most."

"why me?"

"the dark lord doesn't like to be rejected and neither do i. He told me do whatever I feel necessary to make you feel as much pain as possible."

" . . ." he said through clenched teeth.

"took the thing that made you love her and protect her."

"not even you are that sleazy to go so far as to rape a girl."

"You sure about that?" He asked before handing him her wand then running out in his pompous way.

"Hermione... He didn't...Did he?" Sirius asked in a soft tone as he knelt next to a fear stricken hermione and handed her ,her wand. But she didn't take it.

She didn't move at all just kept staring at the wall with that face of pure horror.

"Hermione talk to me. Please , hermione."

"I-I can't. If I do I might start to..."

" you can cry I won't tell anyone I promise."

"he-he wasnt Ly-lying."

"you mean he? HE RAPED YOU?!"

She nodded once and started to sob. Sirius sprang up but she put her hand on his leg, "No please don't leave me Sirius."

He looked down at her and forgot any types of feelings of rage or hatred. He forgot about everyone that was not Hermione. Because she said the words he had been waiting to hear from someone he knew that it was his fault for leaving all his ex's but not one person ever asked him to stay and even though she meant it in a different sense he could not refuse anything she asked at the moment

"Never again." he said to her as he wrapped her into a tight embrace and softly stroked her hair as she sobbed into his shoulder.

"this is all my fault hermione I'm so sorry."

"how is it your fault?"

"I'm supposed to protect you and I was stupid and chose to sulk and get advice from mooney who only yelled at me because, nevermind the point is I was supposed to be there to protect you it was the only thing I could do.

"you see that's where youre wrong. You could have done so much more. You could have made me happy-real happiness- you have the chance to love me and you don't. I don't understand you Sirius I really don't... Maybe... Maybe Lucius was right." she said as she stood up and went to walk away but he grabbed her arm. And she jumped and let out a tiny scream as the flashback of Lucius came into her mind. Sirius loosened his grip and studied her with a worried expression.

"I'm trying to do whats best for you."heh choked out his voice almost cracking at the thought of him breaking her heart now something he was trying to avoid.

"how are you supposed to know what's good for me when you don't even see whats good for yourself ,Sirius."

"I'm walking you back."He told her firmly

"I don't need you." she said sternly secretly dying for him to take some sortunregistered courage and tell her she was his for now and forever.

"your not going alone. I promised you I wouldnt leave you and I never will."

"You already have Sirius. I will be fine I doubt he will try anything else if I see him I will just scream. And stay out of the secret passageways." she wanted him fight for her more. She wanted him to realise what she already knew, but he was too thick headed to see any of it.

And she walked out leaving him confused as ever.

Okay now I'm sooooo sorry next chapter will haveloads of happiness! Writers honor!Is that even a thing? Well it is now REVIEW! I luvs you all!