The characters of Star Wars are not my property, neither the cover art.
Lyrics by Apocalyptica
Note: Sorry for any grammar mistake that might have escaped, English is not my first language, bear with me, I'm trying to put my ideas out.
Anything but love
The next couple of days Kylo didn't reach out for Rey, she wasn't blocking him neither he was blocking her so eventually the bond between them would bring them together. Rey concentrated in her mission. It was better this way after all they were enemies. A couple days later when she was reading in the library she felt him, but when she turned around he wasn't there anymore. Similar episodes repeated through the next days, sometimes when she was practicing in the ruins or in the inner garden of the lodge. Rey wasn't comfortable with that because it was annoying and somehow made her feel like she was losing her mind again.
It was night time, she was having difficulty translating some parts of the texts when she felt him in the room, but when she turned around he was gone again. She took a deep breath,
Kylo, are you there?
no response
Kylo - this time she reached out for him, he was about to leave his room, he looked back to her over his shoulder
Can I help you? - he asked her with a fake annoyed tone
actually yes, there are a couple of things I want to ask you - she replied, he turned around - by any chance do you know ancient Natillus?
That picked his interest
no I don't - he replied walking towards her
ok then, by any chance do you have some reference book about ancient Natillus?
I might have one in my power - he replied, she could see him tracing some sort of plan - why so interested?
well I might need that book to translate other book - she said trying with innocent tone
and what book that might be? - he asked her
A book wrote by Master Ying and three other of the first Jedi Order - she said and she bit her lower lip
You need to stop doing that Fenik one of this days you are going to cut yourself - he said taking her chin in one of his hand and freeing her lip with his thumb, Rey smacked his hand away and looked at him with angry eyes
Are you going to lend me the book or not? - she pressed
I will, but you will have to come to the Finalizer. I hope you understand is a very valuable book
mm I'm here - she said as if this was obvious
no, I mean really here Fenik - he said in a tone that it didn't leave out his second intentions
yeah fat chance Kylo - she said annoyed - the only way I'll really come to this forsaken ship is dead
Kylo straightened up
and by the way, can you stop behaving like a kreep! I know you've been coming and going! you need to stop behaving like a child!
He was clearly angry, she took a deep breath and turned around to return to her room and her books.
They didn't saw each other until a couple of days later. Rey was struggling with the book and the translation.
I could help you - he said to her, she closed her eyes her face clearly showing her annoyance - you know my terms - he said in a lower tone that sent electricity down Rey's spine. She restrain herself from biting her lip
no thanks - she replied returning to the book
He sat down and watched her work.
It looks like is going to take you a long time to translate all that - he pointed out, the book was quite thick - do you have the time for it?
Listen Ren- said Rey annoyed - if you are not going to be helping keep your mouth shut or leave
what happened with the our game of xang-chi? we never finish it - he said after a while
Is in the Phantom 5, we can finish it after I finish this - she lifting the heavy book
Kylo signed
good night Fenik - he said resting his hand over her shoulder before leaving
Rey let her head felt on the book
How on hell he managed to have that effect on her with such commons words? uh! seven suns! when he spoke to her in that tone she felt like she was breathing for the first time... oooohh!
She punched the table.
Does it feel good to deny
Hurt me with nothing
Some sort of sick satisfaction
You get from mindfucking
She had spended four week in the city and had fallen into a routing. That morning was different, when she visit the ruins of the temple the monk didn't showed up for their training session. She didn't considered a big deal but when he did showed up the next day or the following she started to worry. Something was wrong. She went around the nearby neighborhood, since he came walking to the ruins she assumed that he must live nearby. After questioning various people someone told her that they also notice that he was gone which was very extrange because he had been living in the area for such a long time. Unfortunately the person didn't know the monks exact address. Rey was decided into finding it out but she sense a presence so dark as Kylo but not as strong as his. Rey didn't even tried to look around or called for Kylo. Instead she decided to go to the south of the city to the markets.
She had to move quickly, turning every now and then. The only way she thought she could really loose him was totally disconnecting from the force but doing so she would also be unable to know where he was. When she managed to put a considerable distance she entered to one of the stores and bough a bluish gray cape (a similar color of the stones of the city) and cutted the connection with the force. She threw the cape over here and left the store through a different exit. She went for the public transportation and took a cable bus towards the east of the city. She needed to return to the lodge fast.
While on the car she didn't even dare to look down to the people on the market, she kept her head down her eyes on her boots her hands ready to go to her gun if she needed to. Thirty minutes later she was in the farther east point of the city. She runned up the hill to reach the lodge and darted to her room. With her heart racing and short of breath she quickly packed her few possessions on a backpack. Quickly went down the stairs and barely stopped to talk with the owner of the lodge. She payed for her stay
You don't know me - Rey said reaching into the mind and memories of the woman - You have never see me or heard about me - she said reaching deeper and erasing every memory of her from her mind - I was never hear - and with that she had erased her tracks or at least she hoped that the lodge owner wouldn't fall into a terrible end like the monk probably did.
She threw the cape over her again and payed for a speeder to take her to the hangars up in the north of the city. Rey fidgeted with her ring and tried to remain calm as they got near to the hangars. Again she moved quickly she didn't want to come across any stormtrooper or who ever was after her. As soon as she got into her Phantom Sailor she connected with the Phantom 5.
Phantom 5 what's your status? - asked as she started the engine of her ship
We are in orbit ready for your return captain - replied Sam
ai, I'll be there soon, keep watch for any First Order ships
ai captain - her small crew replied
She didn't felt safe until she was back on the Phantom 5. She sat on the main control table (the captain seat) and set course to the Rodia system.
Kylo found her later that day leaving the small training room. A couple of red marks on her arms and legs where the droid had hit her.
what happened this morning? - he asked her referring to her being disconnected, she gave him an angry look
I shouldn't be talking with you, actually I should be blocking you! - she snapped at him
I have no idea of what is going on Fenik! - he yelled back
Oh! so one of your knights just happened to stop by in Alpha Lampro - she said with sarcasm
I haven't send anyone after you - he pressed
Then explain me why he was there, why he was chasing me?
I have no idea - Kylo replied trying to remain calm
sure - she said with sarcasm and turning away
Fenik! - he called her - if I wanted to capture you, I'll do it myself
Rey couldn't contain the fire in her anymore and she threw a wave of energy at Kylo pushing him away and breaking the connection.
Back in the Finalizer, a very angry Kylo Ren was demanding his knights to report to him right away.
Yes, supreme leader - the six knights replied through the communication system
have any of you came across with the jedi girl? - he ask almost growling, a brief silence
I was near the sector 1A tracking some movements related to the Resistance when I felt a big surge in the light side of the Force and I decided to investigate. It didn't occur to me that it was the Jedi girl - replied Aghus, he was the second in command of the order of Ren
And what did you find? - asked Kylo still at the edge of rage
She had been visiting one of the ancient Jedi temples of before the first war - he reported
anything else? - he requested, Aghus swallowed
I went after her but I lost her - he admitted
Concentrate in your missions, leave the Jedi to me - Kylo spoke after a short moment of silence
Yes supreme leader - they replied and the communication ended.
if I wanted to capture you, I'll do it myself
Days later, Kylo Ren's words kept lingering in her head, specially during sleep. It was going to be a tedious journey to Rodia if she kept blocking Kylo, but if she allowed the connection to happen then Kylo would know where she was.
if I wanted to capture you, I'll do it myself
Rey kept tossing and turning in her bed. Her only consolation was that Kylo was probably suffering just like her.
After the third night without able to rest properly Rey gave up. She couldn't afford to loose control and harm her friends. She had to set her pride to the side and bring the wall down, and he was there in less than a minute.
You know well that by blocking the connection you only make the energy to accumulate - said Kylo walking towards her livid, she just looked at him with angry eyes worth it of Fenik Von Rothbart and he stopped walking - we should retake our previous arrangement - he managed to said after taking a couple of deep breaths
what if we try to break the connection...permanently? - she said, the expression on his eyes wasn't the one that she expected to see ever again on Kylo's eyes.
He was hurt.
I can't have you around when you are chasing me or the Resistance down - she justified herself
I'm not the one making you the enemy - he said trying to contain his anger
This was the path that you decided to take - she pressed
so did you - he said with pain remembering how she had rejected him on the throne room
I can't …. I can't continue like this, there must be a away to end it
the only way I can think it would end is if we unite our forces...or if one us dies - he spoke after a short silence.
Rey didn't like any of the options, she bit her lower lip hard in her frustration that she bleed. Kylo scuffed. She walked to a mirror in a dressing table to check the damage.
shit! - she caused out loud as blood run free, she took a paper napkin and pressed on the cut. Kylo went to her
I'm not good healing cuts but I might be able to help you - he said in his calm softer voice as he rested one of his hands on her shoulder and lifted her chin with the other. Their eyes met. Rey swallowed and nodded, shivers all over her body.
He removed one of his gloves and then the paper napkin from Rey's mouth. For a moment she thought that he was going to kiss her, instead he pressed his thumb over the small injury. Rey swallowed again trying to remain calm and not to shake like a lief in the wind. Kylo concentrated in the small cuts and soon enough they were gone
Done - he said, removing his hand
Rey swallowed again holding her eyes on his. She was about to bit her lip again
Don't - he remain her, she restrained herself from do it, he put a little distance between them - should I return in twelve hours?
Rey nodded
very well then - he said as he put the glove back on - hopefully we would be able to sleep tonight - he said with a grin in his face before leaving
did he just smiled? - she asked herself when he was gone
Oh stripped down to my naked core
The darkest corners of my mind are yours
That's where you live
That's where you breathe
Notes: I had to improvise with some stuff, like the names of the knights: Aghus, Bhadur, Cadoc, Demir, Eckart, Fayk (in hierarchical order); also the game of xang-chi is based on a mix of Xiangqi and Mahjong. When Rey is playing/fidgeting with her ring she is actually sending a message to the Phantom 5
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