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Herrmann's POV

It started out as a great day. I woke up to my beautiful wife and children...Before they started screaming. Today the Chief was getting married. It was going to be a normal day. At least that's what I thought.

The day progressed as it usually would, the Chief had a beautiful ceremony at Firehouse 51...I couldn't get him a church...He seemed pretty upset when I told him until we parked out the front of 51. The girls had done a wonderful job on decorations.

It wasn't until we got that call, that all hell broke loose. We were called to an abandoned building, where two people were trapped and needed our assistance.

We arrived on scene, and Casey threw us his orders. We were to go in and do a primary survey. To find those who need our help. Squad 3 followed and we went up together. We found a casualty on the third floor. It looked like he had fallen off the stairs from quite a height. Our radios were cutting in and out, must be because the building was old. Casey told some of us to go ahead and he would follow after informing the two paramedics.

We continued up the stairs, Casey soon joined us. We were about to go to the next floor to join Squad when...BOOM! Everything went black...

It was less than five minutes later, when I woke up to multiple PASS alarms going off. Casey and Severide were yelling at each other to find Dawson and Shay. I started to help my fellow firefighters with getting debris off each other and helping each other stand up. Everybody seemed okay, multiple cuts and bruises on their faces and bodies, Mills had a broken leg but he was going to be okay. The men of 81 and 3 were all standing and leaving, helping each other to get out of the building in case of a secondary collapse. Casey gestured for me to follow him. I obeyed, I followed him down the stairs. We were looking for Dawson and Shay!

We found them on the floor below us. Their patient was gone. But what startled me the most was that Shay wasn't up and joking with everyone. I looked to find Dawson and Severide doing CPR on her. Our one and only Leslie Shay. This could not be happening. Of all days. There was too much blood loss and she was without oxygen for too long. I knew that, Dawson knew that. But she continued her rescue breaths anyway while Severide did chest compressions. We went over and picked up her motionless body and pulled her away from the prying hands of Kelly and Gabriela. I continued chest compressions anyway, to see if it would make a difference. When we were outside, we loaded her onto a gurney and into an awaiting ambulance. They sped off and we were left standing there with silent tears running down our cheeks. Before we turned and headed back in. Despite other companies arriving on scene. We had a job to finish and people to find.

We arrived at the hospital an hour later to find Gabby crying hysterically and Severide no where in sight. And then I knew. Our Shay wasn't coming back. She had skirted around death one too many times. This was it. She was gone from this world. But she would never be gone from 51 or our hearts.

I walked out of Lakeshore in a daze and went home to see my wife and children. Even though my children would be at school, except for Kenny. The moment I walked through the door, Cindy knew something had happened. She knew something wasn't right about the call.

"Shays gone Cind! She's gone and there was nothing I could do! What are we going to do without her? Kenny is going to grow up, never knowing his godmother!" I sobbed as I hugged her tightly.

Was the world meant to go on without Leslie Shay? Was everything meant to go back to normal?

It was meant to be Always!

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With writing these chapters and POV's, I have cried with writing each chapter. I know what its like to lose your best friend/sister, as I'm sure all my readers do.

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This is my take on how Herrman is feeling and the emotions he would have felt during this episode. Mill's POV is up next!