A/N: I've been having writers block lately so... I even had LEATHERnGOLD type up a little A/N for myself (I wrote 2 lines of my own A/N):

A/N: Sorry I'm a bitchhole updater lately. I've been busy with my Las Vegas trip... and as they say, "What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas"...and maybe I'll tell a friend or two in Cali and Florida... I've also been preoccupied with getting naked and taking pics in my company bathroom. I'm also officially 21 so one of the things I do is no longer illegal! I've also been busy getting busy with my toys! and discovering LEATHERnGOLD is just about the coolest fucken asshole I know... and without her u wouldn't have this update because she threatened to cut off my clit and I can't go without my female penis. So here's r chapter enjoy!LEATHERnGOLD was mine first so back off Fucktards or I'll cut you! + I love her more than a fid kid loves cake & she's more spectacular than me, and I belong on the yellow bus with a peanut butter & banana sandwich with yoohoo.

Selena's POV:

Most of the visit was spent in silence. I didn't really know what to say to her now that she feels like a shell. I'm hoping she'll get better soon so it could go back to the way it was. Even if it was before her and I started dating. I'd rather have the bitchy crazy Demi than for her to feel so empty. Not to sound selfish, or full of myself but I really thought I'd be enough...

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Demi's POV:

The walls are white, and very plain. Maybe a bit of color will brighten the mood in this place, but I suppose this is fine. My visit with Selena was okay. She was quite upset though. I feel uncomfortable seeing her like that because I know that she shouldn't feel like that. I understand I'm much different now, but Selena doesn't like it. Well, then. It's decided. I'll do it, just to see... She deserves it, after all. I'm pretty stable with out them, I suppose. I'll try for her... she's the only one that tried for me.

My next dose is in a few hours... I'm not taking it. I'll just hide it, and if they check, I'll just throw it up. Selena needs to feel happy again, and I understand that I need to feel again. It's simply wrong. Whenever she walked into the room, it always felt like I saw her for the first time... but I simply saw her as another person, and that just can't be. She's an amazing person and she deserves it... and I definitely owe it to her. I treated her so terribly for all those years... I love her.

With in three days, this crap should be out of my system... By next week, everything should be back to normal.

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I was completely dragging ass to go see Demi. She's just so different, and the only thing that got that out of my mind was hanging out with Jennifer's crazy ass. She was a huge help with the whole situation, and she would even drive me there and pick me up. But I haven't said a word about Demi's drastic behavior change. I doubt she wants anyone to know about that.

I brought over the usual crossword puzzle books and a new journal... she might like that. I feel like a bad girl friend, because I really just don't feel like putting up with it. Jennifer was able to sense that there was something wrong, but she knew not to pry into whatever I was going through only if I said it openly. We shared our goodbyes and I dragged myself in to go see her.

As soon as I stepped through the door, I felt a small hand grasp my wrist and slam me against the now closed door. I forced open my eyes to see Demi with a large grin piercing through me. "Surprised?" she asked seductively, and quickly connected our lips together. I nodded as we kissed, as if it mattered if I answered or not.

When she finally let me up for air, I spoke, "I don't want to sound ungrateful, but..."

She pressed her two fingers against my lips, hushing me. "I stopped taking my meds for a whole week." she said in a very low voice, but still in a very ecstatic. "They repressed everything! So now, I have to put all that repressed energy into something..." she smiled wickedly, as she pulled me to the bed by my belt loops.

"So," I somehow ended up straddling her on her bed. "How're feeling without them?"

"I'm feeling." she smiled brightly at me and pulled me so that I was on top of her. She raised her hips, and rubbed herself so she could feel the pressure against herself, and groaned. "And it's amazing." she exhaled.

Pulled me in for a kiss, despite feeling my hesitations… I wanted to know more about it, but I suppose I understand. She's here the whole time with the thoughts in her head about what she has to do to feel normal, and I guess she'd want a break from that.

Demi held my ear to her lips and whispered. "I love you… I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you." She exhaled. "I'm sorry I couldn't say it that way before, but I feel it and I want you to never forget that."

"I love you too, Demi... W-when do you get out of here?" I whimpered as I remembered where we were sharing our romantic moment.

I felt a smile grow against my cheek as she began to speak. "Only one month and two weeks."

"Only a month a two weeks..." I looked at her in disbelief. It was a lot sooner than I thought, not that I was ungrateful or anything, but I assumed that she'd be there a lot longer than three months.

She giggled. "Yeah, I just have my evaluation and they have the last say if I have to stay another three months or if I can leave." she chuckled. "And I'm a very good actor." she grinned. "All I have to do is play sane until I get out of this place."

"Aren't you sane?" I asked and pulled away slightly.

Demi slipped... "Y-yeah, of course I am, it's just these walls don't make me any better." A smile plastered across her face yet again. "C'mon. I haven't seen you in over a week." she pulled at my belt loops. "I really don't wanna talk about stuff like that; you're here now and that's all I want to focus on."

Luckily that para isn't breathing down our necks anymore. I doubt that she would approve of what we were about to do behind closed doors, in this white room, on her white sheets.

A/N: I'm going to attempt to start the next chapter right away (with a returning guest), or at least continue with Divided... I hate having writers block so if there are any suggestions, I'd love to hear them!