Sorry this is so short but i really needed to end this i just wasnt feeling it anymore sorry. Anyways review. on an up note i can focus more on my other 2 stories without this one nagging my mind.

"Thanks for letting me stay here with you." I said as we made our way into his apartment.

"Its not a problem." Chris said. "Stay as long as you need to."

"Things are just messed up right now." I told him.

I have no idea how things got so bad. First I'm with Randy and I can't stand it then I'm with John and the next thing I know I'm back in Randy's bed again.

I took a seat on the bed and he sat beside me. He took me in his arms and rocked me back and forth. "Everything is going to be fine ok?"

"I know."

He lifted my chin to meet his gaze and placed a sensual kiss on my lips.

"What was that?"

"Something I should have done a long time ago…"

"Chris we can't…"

"Shhhh." He said silencing me with another kiss.

Maybe I was just vulnerable but it felt so right. This moment was what I needed. I had forgotten all about John and Randy and let him comfort me.

"But your married."

"I'm leaving Jessica."

"But you were so happy."

"Not in a long time." He told me running a hand over his newly short hair. "I just don't love her anymore."

"Where do I fit in to all this?" I asked him.

"I'm in love with you."

"Oh."

"Katia all the times you and Randy would fight when he would hurt you over and over all I wanted to do was hold you and protect you. That time you didn't come home I was so worried, it was the scariest day of my life. And the first day I saw you was the happiest day of my life." He said running a hand across my face.

A single tear rolled down my cheek. "That was the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me." I told him pushing my self on top of him.

"I don't want you to do this because of some pretty words."

"I'm doing this because I want to…I want you."

We made love for hours and I never felt like I belonged more in my whole life. Chris was there in front of me this whole time and I didn't even know it. He didn't push me, he sat back and let me be who I was until I found my way to him on my own. He looked out for me from day one without ever having to have an alterative motive.

I placed an arm on his chest. "I'm sorry." I said.

"For what?"

"Not seeing this sooner."

"You're here now, and that's all that matters." Chris said kissing me again.

It wasn't Randy, it wasn't John, and love was right in front of me in the form of the greatest man I'd ever known my best friend and now my lover.