A/N: Thank You all for the continued support! I just want to give you all a heads up, I am going to try to stick with a MWF schedule and possibly once on the weekends if I get ahead. Enjoy!
Olivia awoke the next morning to cool air against her back. She blinked her eyes a few times forcing away the sleep and turning over looking for Elliot. What she saw took her breath away.
Elliot was laying there with one arm above his head, and Noah cradled in the other. Olivia reached down and picked up Elliot's dress shirt, putting it on. Once she was covered she moved closer to her sleeping boys and kissed each on the head. She cuddled in with them and stroked Noah's hand until it opened for her. She put her finger in his palm and allowed it to close around it.
Elliot stirred and looked over at her and smiled "Good morning gorgeous," he said as he ran his free hand through her hair.
She leaned up on her elbow and kissed him on the lips "Good morning yourself." She looked down at Noah and stroked his head "How'd he get in here?"
Elliot looked down at the sleeping boy in his arms "Well, he woke up a couple of hours ago and I thought you could use a little more sleep," he shot her a devious smirk. "So I went and got him. I changed his diaper and got him a bottle, then we came in here to lay with mommy."
She couldn't believe how much she loved this man, he was truly amazing. He wasn't even back in her life a day yet and was already caring for Noah, which both warmed her heart and scared her "You didn't have to do that."
He watched Noah as he sucked on his pacifier, he rubbed his finger along his cheek and under his chin "But I wanted to. He was no trouble."
"You should have woke me up, we haven't been together that long and I love my mornings with him" she told him as she quickly picked Noah up, careful not to wake him, and laid him down on her chest. It was her job to protect Noah, and that duty included protecting him from Elliot.
"Whoa Liv," he said as he held his hands up as if to surrender "I thought I was helping you out, I thought you deserved a morning off." Elliot had heard that she had just received custody of Noah, but that's all the further his knowledge went.
She knew he was doing it out of love for her but the pain he caused her by walking away was bad enough the first time and she was not going to go through that again with Noah. She looked down at Noah, completely peaceful and oblivious to the dangerous territory his mother was about to enter "I know, but he hasn't been around many people and I don't want him getting attached."
Elliot sat up and turned his body to face her "What do you mean by that?"
She rubbed Noah's back, trying to buy herself some time before responding. Olivia didn't want to start an argument, especially after their wonderful night together, but this discussion needed to happen sooner rather than later "Is this what you really want, Elliot?"
He didn't even have to think about "Yes, Olivia ... I want you."
She moved both of her hands to rest on Noah, subconsciously trying protecting him "I know you want me, but it's not just me you're signing up for." She bent her head down to kiss Noah "I'm a package deal."
Elliot just looked at her, kind of confused as to where this was going, even though Noah wasn't her biological son, he knew her love for him was just as fierce as it would be if he was her blood and he had every intention of taking both of them "Yes I know that Olivia. I want you, and if Noah is part of that deal, okay."
She moved away from him, a dejected look appeared on her face "Is that how you see Noah? As just some hassle that you're going to have to put up with?"
"What? No! What are you even getting at here, Liv?" he asked frantically as he moved towards her.
She put her hand out trying to stop his advances "Noah is not just some baggage that I'm hauling behind me. He's my son, and he isn't going anywhere." She brought her hand down and ran her fingers through Noah's hair "I have wanted this, a child, for my entire life and I can't control the fact that I'm doing this at the age I am, but I'm okay with it." She looked back up at him "I won't have you come in and out of his life. He doesn't deserve that."
"You're scared I'm going to leave you? That's what all this is about?" he asked incredulous, raising his voice "What about last night, Liv? Didn't you hear anything I said?"
Her eyes went wide as she backed away holding Noah against her chest "You will not yell at me in front of him!" she yelled in a harsh whisper.
Elliot realized then, something he had long forgotten. There was nothing stronger than a mother protecting her child. He didn't want to yell or even have an argument with her but he needed to make sure she knew where he was coming from and what he meant by what he said. "I'm sorry, Liv ... uh, this really wasn't the way I thought our morning was going to go," he said dejectedly, lowering his gaze.
Olivia looked away, her defense weakening, "Let me just put him down and we can finish talking."
He nodded, the mood a somber one, he knew this wasn't going to be an easy conversation.
Olivia took Noah into his bedroom, shut the door, and sat down in the rocker, cuddling him close "I love you little man. I'm going to try to do what's best for us here, I promise you that. You're my only priority. Elliot is a really good man and he would be a great role model for you. He might have made some mistakes but he's trying really hard to make up for them." She kissed his head as she moved to put him down in his crib "Mama loves you Noah, so much."
After putting him down, she closed his door and walked back into her bedroom. Elliot was sitting on the edge of her bed with his head in his hands. She didn't want to startle him so she walked in and stopped in front of him, softly calling his name "El..."
He dropped his hands away from his face and looked up at her, his eyes red rimmed and glistening with unshed tears "I don't want to lose you because I'm terrible with words."
She brought one hand to rest on the side of his cheek "You're not going to lose me ... at least, I hope not ... but we do need to talk about this."
Elliot took her hand in his and kissed her palm before standing up and bringing it to rest on his heart "I love you, Liv. I want to have a life with you, and I didn't mean for what I said earlier to come out the way it did. I don't think of Noah that way, you have to know that."
She squeezed his hand "I know that, you're not that type of man, Elliot, but this is a lot for anyone and I know that this is probably a lot more than you bargained for. I don't want you to feel trapped. It's just all moving so fast."
He moved closer to her, their bodies almost touching, and he ran his hand through her hair "Yeah Olivia it is a lot more than I bargained for, but Eli was a lot more than I bargained for and I love him so much and I couldn't imagine my life without him." He took a breath, and ran his thumb over her knuckles "If you had asked me a week ago if I thought I'd be signing up to raise a baby at 47 I would have said no," Olivia started to pull away from him, the devastation written on her face, but he pulled her back "Wait, Liv! I'm not done." She stopped struggling in his grasp and he continued "If you would have told me I would be with the love of my life and her son, in her apartment, I would have said you were delusional, but here I am, and I wouldn't change it for the world. I meant what I said about me not leaving, no matter what. Maybe we are moving a little fast but I think the last decade we wasted was enough."
She wiped at the tears that had started falling somewhere in the middle of his speech and cleared her throat, hoping the answer she was about to get was the one she longed to hear, "So what are you saying, Elliot?"
"What I'm saying, is," he said stepping into her, pulling her flush against him and tilting her face up towards his, "I want you Liv... and Noah. I want to help you raise him. I want to sign up for bottles and diaper duty and spit up and everything in between. I want us to be a family. I've only been around him for a couple of hours and he already has my heart... just like his mother." He bent his head down and gave her a gentle kiss. "So Liv, I want in, if you'll let me?"
Those were fighting words. Elliot had brought out the big guns. She thought about all he had said, really thought about it, and weighed all the pros and cons. She looked back up at him and knew he was being completely serious and genuine. "Elliot, I believe that you want it all, not just to have me but because you truly do care about Noah, and I love you for that," she told him as she reached up and kissed him. "But, if you walk out on that sweet little boy sleeping in the next room, I swear on everything that I am I will kill you myself."
He tried to contain his chuckle, but received a glare from Olivia. He kissed her softly on the lips "I know you will because you're an amazing mother, just like I thought you would be, but that won't be necessary. Nothing in this world will ever take me away from either of you. This is where I want to be," he kissed her again, more passionately this time. When he pulled back, her eyes were still closed and she was enjoying the moment. Once they opened again he spoke "I love you Liv, more than words could ever explain, and I will never leave you, or him, ever ... my heart wouldn't be able to handle it."
She wiped away the few tears that betrayed her and replied "Mine either," and kissed him passionately. Trying to coax his mouth open, she was granted entrance and immediately deepened the kiss. She ran her hands up along his naked chest, up over his shoulders, and stopped at the back of his head, pulling him closer to her.
Elliot moved his hands down her back, stopping at her bottom he pulled her closer to him. He moaned as she moved her body across his groin. He started kissing down her neck, exploring more of her body with his hands "I need you now, Liv," he growled into her ear.
Olivia pulled back, with a mischievous look on her face. "Okay," she said seductively as she pulled his face back to hers, kissing up his jaw line and down his neck. She stopped at his collarbone and pulled back quickly "But first, I need breakfast," she said, smirking at him as she started to walk out of the room.
He watched her slightly stunned as she started walking away "You're just gonna leave me here like this," he whined motioning to his obvious arousal.
"Awe poor baby," she teased him as she made it to the door "You're a big boy, so you can either take care of that now, by yourself ... or, you can wait until later and I can give you some help with that," she replied sensually as she ran her eyes up and down his gorgeous body.
He considered his options for all of two seconds before he responded "Yeah, I'm going to wait till later."
"That's what I thought," she replied as she made her way into the kitchen and started a pot of coffee.
"Do you want me to make something or do you just want to order in?" he asked as he moved in behind her, lacing his arms around her waist.
Olivia looked at him over her shoulder "All I have is baby food. It's been a long few days," she chuckled at the enormous understatement. She turned around in his arms, hugging him closer to her "How about we order in so I can enjoy you for a little bit longer. Noah should be getting up soon."
"Okay. You order, I'm going to grab a shirt," he told her as he kissed her and made his way back to the bedroom.
Elliot came back out from the bedroom and saw Olivia sitting on the counter with her legs crossed as she sipped on her coffee. "I've never seen anything more beautiful in my entire life," he told her as he walked up to her and ran his hands up her thighs, pulling them apart so he could move in between them "And you need to wear my clothes more often," he kissed her on the lips, sucking on her bottom lip ", so sexy."
She took his face in her hands "You just want to get lucky," she said as she playfully slapped his cheek.
"Yeah maybe, but it doesn't make it any less true," he replied as he ran his hands over her lace panties and up her back, and began sucking on her neck.
They were in a heated moment of foreplay when they were startled by a knock on the door. Elliot pulled back from her, panting, his face red from their recent activities "That was fast. I'll get it."
Olivia jumped down from the counter top and attempted to fix her hair and cover herself back up as she went to grab money.
Elliot grabbed the door handle, swinging it wide open after the second round of knocking "Sorry man I was..." he trailed off upon seeing who was behind the door.
"Elliot?"
