Ok so I don't know if y'all like it that I post so many chapters at once, but I think that y'all will enjoy these next couple of chapters, EXPECT SOMETHING BIG AND BAD TO HAPPEN (Aka climax) IN LIKE CHAPTER 13!? Anyway, as always, let me know what you wanna see :)

Chapter 11

Jace POV: (When she runs off)

All I hear is a boom then Clary's usually light and melodic voice drifting to my ears harshly, using a voice that I'd never associate with her. I bolt out of my room to see a flash of red swiftly darting down the stairs and out of the house. Damn, she's fast, I think to myself as I run after her, tripping only once as I walk out the door. I catch up with her as she is almost a block away from Magnus' place, I grab her arm gently making her look at me. "What the hell is wrong with you Clary?" I ask in a nice soft voice, so she doesn't get even more pissed off at me. I don't even see it coming, but I feel the stinging slap on my cheek and gasp, then lift my head back up, after having it flown aside in wonder. I watch her walk away, her stride long, very prideful, but I can see the hurt way she carries herself, as if she doesn't care too much about what happens to her, or doesn't care about herself at all.

I watch her walk away, then turn on my heel rushing back inside to where I can hear Isabelle ranting and bitching about something. When I walk in she stares at me angrily, then comes over and slaps my cheek –the same one Clary hit– and screams at me "What the fuck is wrong with that bitch!? I try to wake her up because it is late now, and she flips her shit. I know she's probably getting into fights or something along those lines, did you see all the bruises along her arms. Either she gets into fights or she hurts herself, which really wouldn't be that surprising, she's a crazy bitch." I increasingly get mad, as she runs her mouth and I come forwards threateningly, her shutting up quickly as she backs into the wall.

I lean over her slightly and whisper menacingly into her ear "You don't know what you're talking about so I think you better shut up before I do something that you would regret, do you understand me Isabelle Sophia Lightwood?" I turn around and stalk off, going into the training room in the house to blow off some steam, knowing that I should do that before I go and try to find Clary to see what happened. I start punching the bag after pulling out my iPod and just try to get all of my anger and frustration out, I don't even realize as time passes, I keep punching, past my hands bleeding and breaking point. I jerk and start to punch outwards, towards the source when someone grips my shoulder turning me towards them. I breathe heavily and yank out my earbuds, ignoring the blood running down my hands that I smeared on my cheek. "Yes Magnus?" I ask annoyed, and ignore the sweat spilling down my back and chest, having taken off my shirt and pants a while ago, still having basketball shorts on.

"Go find her, calm down, take a shower and go find her, have her explain what happened to you. Trust me, she needs you just as much as you need her." I bite my lip listening to Magnus talk, chewing on the inside of my cheek, and nod then rush out the room. As I am walking out the room I hear him yell again "Oh, maybe before you do take a nap? You've been at the punching bag for six hours now" I falter for a second, six hours!? Damn, I never go that long! I think to myself as I rush up to my room, finally feeling how exhausted I am. I quickly take a shower, and collapse onto my bed, I'm only going to sleep a few minutes, and I need to find my Clary Sage. I need to let her know how much she actually means to me.

I wake up a couple hours later and look over at my clock then outside, it is barely morning and I drag myself out of bed, ignoring my sore muscles. I get up quickly getting dressed in some sweat pants and a hoodie. I grab my beloved iPod and walk out the house, always having loved being out this early, it is quiet with the occasional drug deal going on. One minute, drug deal, would she go back? After last time? She probably is there, it's the only place that I could see her being at, seeing as I don't know where her house is, and if she isn't there, I can always ask someone there if they know where her house is. I start jogging faster, finally seeing the inevitable crack house in sight, I can practically feel my beautiful red head as I go to the front porch. I walk in and look around at the sad pathetic uses of life, the dangly hair, tattered and unkempt. I look at the sunken in faces that come with being a druggie for so long. I take in the smell of smoke and sex, then smile at one guy, the least sickly looking man and ask "Have you seen a short red head lately? Or maybe she's with a guy named TJ I think" He nods and nods towards the door. I smirk and nod then go over to it, knocking softly, then I hear my sweet little Clarissa's voice drifting out of it. When I hear her voice I open the door and what I see breaks my heart in half.

(A/N What if I ended it here, would y'all murder me ;))

She's naked, and I breathe her name "Clary" I look at her, from around the guys back, then I notice her come to walk to me, him tightening his grip on her hips and thigh, then he gives her his shirt. I watch as she only in his shirt, with his arms around her lightly, looks at me, him holding her behind his back still. I bite my lip and suck in a breath as I see her obvious bed head, then my eyes slide down her face seeing multiple hickeys on her neck. I let my eyes slide down further seeing the hand marks, obviously fresh on her lower thighs. I close my eyes taking a deep breath, she was sleeping with him all along, probably just playing me so she could get even more popular than she already is. I don't know what I ever saw in her, yea she might be getting hurt at home, but still, I don't think I could handle her having sex with a drug dealer just to forget about it.

I don't even realize she's talking until I vaguely hear "It's not what it looks like, and either way, why are you here? This isn't a place you'd usually hang out is it? So what are you doing here, what do you want?" I rear back as she says it, what do I want?! Haven't I made it obvious I want her? Damn I'm so stupid, why'd she play me like this, it didn't seem as if something that she'd do, but whatever. I'd make her regret the way she treats me, I don't want her sympathy, or fake adoration. Screw her, or better yet, crush her.

"I came looking for you, I looked around all night after I found out what happened with my sister and you. None of us are mad at you" I let my eyes trail down to where the shirt ends, watching the way he's protectively curled around her, and barely keep myself from growling, they had sex last night, and the way she's acting probably mind blowing and a lot of it. "But I guess that you didn't care about that as you came over here and just had sex with him, probably laughing at me for how stupid I was to think that you'd ever actually like me. I was stupid, yea 'it's not what I think?' Is it? What do I look like stupid? Don't ever think about coming around me or my family ever again. We don't want anything to do with you now, just stay away." I bite my lip and storm out slamming the door, ignoring the hurt on her face as I talked. I also ignore the way she flinched as if I had smacked her, ignored the heartbroken way she stared at me, and damn sure ignored the slight tear that rolled down her face as I left. I ignored it all because what does she have to be sad about, she's the one who hurt me. Fuck her, fuck her and her problems, fuck everything about her, I don't want to know or talk to her ever again.

I run back to Magnus' house, everyone living here because we don't feel like living at home after Max's death with our parents, them having beat him to death, he was only nine, and they beat their youngest son into the hospital then grave. I will never forgive them. I slam open the door then slam it shut yelling throughout the house "She is never allowed back in this house again. We don't want anything to do with her!" I storm up the stairs and into the room that I have here. I plop down on the bed, thinking about going to a whore house, a good rump would get my mind off of things, and she obviously already moved on, it's my time too. I shake my head and decide against it, I don't want to do anything right now but go to sleep, I'm exhausted.

I'm running through a forest and all of a sudden I see a red flash and my head whips towards it, I hear small soft giggling and turn to see Clary, her smiling face, she's wearing a flowing white sleeveless dress and looks amazing. There's no bruises or cuts or anything on her arms and I smile for a second before noticing a growing red stain in her stomach area. Her giggling turns to harsh screams as she screams at me "You did this! It's your fault!" The growing red stain continues to grow as I try running towards her, only to have her continue to get further and further away, knowing I'll never reach her. I break down and fall to my knees slowly as I watch her fall as well bleeding out in front of me. No, no, no, no, no. This can't be happening. I look over at her watching as bruises pop up on her arms, and legs, the blood now pooling around her. I want to help, to call out, to do anything but something won't let me. All I can do is listen to her agonizing cries and cry myself, this can not be happening.

While her life bleeds out in front of me, I see and hear something from the corner of my eye, a big crash then agonizing crying again. "It's your fault! You did this!" I hear my family screaming. No, no, no, anything but this. I look back at my Clary and notice her dead face is still screaming the same thing. I stand up shaking my head and pinching myself. I must be dreaming, please let me be dreaming! I look over to the car crash and see it's happening again. But before we even got to this point, it's all playing out in front of me. I see my little nine year old self asking to go to a football game in our town, the Patriots were there, I wanted to see them live!

"Daddy! Can we please go! I want to, they're my favorite team! Please daddy?!" I whine looking up at my parents, I see them share a small smile then jump slightly when I hear the loud thunder outside, my mom leans down to me and I smile pleadingly with her. The smile mommy and daddy always says will break ladies hearts one day. She smiles back at me and leads me to the window looking out of it and I smile looking outside at the rain and thunder. It's dark already, even though it's in the middle of the day, and they say in a couple of weeks there should be a hurricane. I smile at the thought, which would mean we'd have to go stay with the Lightwoods who live further into town, not nearer to the coast like us.

"Look honey, see how it's already raining outside?" My mom says with her soft kind voice and I nod continuing to stare out into it "Well, would you really want to sit in the bleachers with this kind of rain going on? You'd get completely soaking wet, and probably sick as well, do you really want to do that honey?" I nod excitedly, of course I still want to go see them play! I play football in the rain with Alec and Sebastian all the time anyway! Why not watch other people play in it, while we watch?

"Yes mommy! I want to go still! I play with the boys all the time in the rain!" I start up the waterworks knowing that always makes her crack, and she reluctantly nods. I do a mental fist bump and smile widely at her, hugging her tight around the neck "Yes mom! You're the best! Wait until the boys find out! They'll be sooo jealous!" I see my mom crack a smile and know I'm already in the clear. My dad smiles at me and we all get our coats on. I run outside like the happy, excited kid I am and run into the car, bouncing with excitement as I wait for my incredibly slower parents, what makes old people so slow anyway?

I smile and continue bouncing in the backseat, looking out the window at the rain and lightning, I think mommy called it a thunderstorm, it's starting to get late, and if it's even possible darker. I don't notice as there is a bright light coming towards us, nor to I initially feel the impact, my mother screaming as the car crashes into us from the front. Me getting jerked forwards, gripping my seatbelt tight. I hear the curse from my father's mouth when he notices the light then nothing from him either. I feel the car swerve, and flip a couple times before stopping, I look out the window and see grass. I scream as we flip, something in my leg breaking and hurting bad.

I slowly pull out of my seat, screaming as I crawl up the seat, us having landed on our side. I shake my father "Daddy, daddy, wake up, we were in a crash we need to get out before it blows up like in the movies!" I can't wake him up so I go over to my mom where she's crying. "Mommy, mom! Come on, we need to get out..." I break off as I see her hands holding her stomach, then notice the big piece of glass sticking out from her stomach. No! No! Anyone but her! I back up, ignoring the pain in my leg when I fall back onto the seat. I vaguely hear her telling me and pushing the phone into my hand to get out and call help. I crawl out and try to get her out, leaning against the car to get her out too.

"No Jonathon, go, I love you" My mother says to me and I cry at how weak she sounds then fall to the ground crying loudly, I crawl away, not putting any pressure on my feet and crawl to the road, keeping an eye on the car. I dial nine-one-one like my mom always taught me and wait for them to pick up.

"Nine-one-one, what's your emergency?" I hear from the phone and I cry into it "We we're in a car wreck, I don't know where we are and-" I break off with a loud wail as the car blew up. I watch as it all convulses in flames "You have to help them! You have to hurry! Help them!" I cry into the phone, shaking my head with tears and snot running down my face. They're dead! It's all my fault. I shake my head and pull my knees up to my chest, ignoring the lady that's on the phone trying to talk to me and ask me if I'm alright. I just stare at the burning car, even when they get here with ambulances and police cars, and fire trucks. I ignore them and cry into the ladies shirt who comes to help me with my leg.

I watch as they push something into my arm and I feel all dizzy and confused. Everything around me is blurry and I quickly fall asleep. When I come to, everything around me is white, pristine white and at first I wonder why I'm here. Then it all comes back to me and I let silent tears fall down my cheeks. I look up, making my face clear and strong when someone walks in, then all of a sudden I'm being swallowed in a hug by Izzy, my best friend's sister. As I hug her back I look up and see Alec, he's almost like my brother and he's crying too. I open one arm for him too and he comes over giving me a hug as well. I look up at their parents and they give me a sad smile.

"Well Jace, you're going to be staying with us from now on. We just got everything situated which is why it took us so long to get here honey. When you get out the hospital you'll come straight to our house. Is that alright?" I nod, they were already like my second parents anyway, and I continue to cry silently, knowing I killed my parents. If I just would've been happy with waiting and not going to see the Patriots play, they would still be here. We wouldn't have been on that road, nothing would've changed.

If only I knew then what I know now, everything changed. And not only for the better.

Ok I felt as if this was a perfect place to end it, and I'll probably pick up from there my next chapter. Like it'll be him waking up and shiz, so bear with me guys, I'm not leaving you hanging :) I hope y'all liked this chapter, and don't kill me please! Anywho, tell me what you wanna see and I'll make it happen :) love y'all especially my beta and best friend Jesenia