Thanks for the festive messages guys. It's nice to get messages just for me and not for updates ;-p

To those few who feel Stefan is too feminine and weak, I thank you for your opinion and I think that you've made yourself clear. Let's move on now and enjoy everything else happening.

Love to all and hope you had a nice Hogmanay. I spent mine in a little cottage by the sea, drinking whiskey and contemplating the next year ahead. Sounds very Scottish really doesn't it? Only thing that was missing was my violin, which I haven't picked up for a year now because I am always writing hahaha. Oh well, you can't do everything!

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Chapter 11 TH

Stefan felt his skin burn and he tossed and turned in discomfort. His body stuck to the sheets, reminding him of the perspiration coating his skin.

"Mhnn." He grunted and opened his eyes feeling dehydrated to the extreme.

Damon's face appeared above his and he huffed again at the heat.

So beautiful, my mate.

Damon channelled and rubbed their noses together. Stefan's loins reacted and he groaned and tilted his pelvis up. Damon kissed him softly, making cooing noises at the back of his throat. He pulled his face away and left Stefan trying to sit up. His body felt like a dead weight and his head was almost spinning. Fake heat. That's what this was doing to him, overcompensating with all of the symptoms. Nathan had said that a fake heat could be triggered to help with packs bonding. Obviously it had to be intense and brief to seal a union and convince the alpha male that the partner was viable.

He groaned again and reached down to relieve some of his discomfort, taking his manhood in hand and pumping it. His hand was removed and replaced by a word mouth and tongue and he gasped and tilted into the heat of it, into the motion of Damon's tongue. He moaned loudly and wiped his face as sweat trickled down from his brow. Damon scented his sex with care and kissed over his abdomen as Stefan writhed.

Damon lay on top of him and scented his face and under his jaw, making him tilt his head back. Damon's tongue was cold and fabulous against the heat in his skin. Stefan practically purred like a cat as Damon cooled him down. The cramps would start soon though. He opened his eyes and looked up at the ceiling, sighing in comfort. Damon continued down his body, tending to him and now pumping his manhood too, to help stave off the discomfort to follow. Stefan smiled widely and gyrated as he did so. Damon bit playfully over his chest, making him chuckle and then returned to his face to search his eyes.

Stefan pulled him down to his mouth and they kissed deeply this time. Stefan slid his hand down between their bodies and took a hold of Damon's erection, stroking in time with him. They'd practised before their heat, doing just this, but this time they would enjoy the full experience of it.

Damon pumped harder and Stefan gasped but chuckled, doing the same to him. Damon raised his head and they looked into each other's eyes as they began to pant and squirm at each other's touch. Stefan's entrance flooded with fluid and he began to struggle as his body tingled with the oncoming climax. He opened his mouth a little and Damon grinned, sealing their mouths together and using his tongue to reduce Stefan to a shaking panting mess. Stefan's climax hit him like a freight train and he broke away from Damon's mouth to shout out and arch his body. Damon kissed into his neck and slowed his hand movements.

Stefan's body twitched as he breathed. He looked over to the bassinet. No sound from her at all. He smiled and exhaled relaxed. Damon kissed down his body again, scenting him with a warm tongue and he closed his eyes in comfort. Damon paused over his abdomen and began to lick in long lines there, rubbing his nose along the tingling skin. Stefan lay his hand over his head and twisted his fingers in Damon's locks lovingly. Damon was obsessed with the smell inside of him.

So fertile. Strong cubs. Beautiful babies.

Damon's thoughts made Stefan smile and stretch. Yes, they did seem to have that combination of genes. Vida was going to be a knock out when she was grown. Stefan looked over to her bassinet again and Damon raised his head and looked over too.

Our baby.

Stefan channelled to him and he kissed Stefan's abdomen again. They both looked over to her corner as she sighed loudly and made a small movement. Damon sniffed and Stefan watched him, watched as Damon scratched his chest.

Milk?

Stefan channelled and Damon grunted. Stefan looked to his chest fascinated. It was feeding time. He wanted to see it all this time, be part of it. He sat up and Damon looked to him.

Want to help.

Damon searched his face a little confused and Stefan brought their faces together and rubbed their noses side by side. Damon leaned into him and nodded. Vida made a small gurn and Damon rose, getting off of the bed and moving to her. Stefan watched. Damon lifted her from the bassinet and she opened her eyes just a tiny crack. She seemed to still be sleeping but somehow aware that it was time to feed. Damon deliberated for a moment and then brought her back over to the bed. Stefan moved further in towards the middle, moving their soiled blanket nest aside and Damon climbed onto the bed and sat against the headboard.

Stefan kissed his shoulder and helped him position the evidently sleeping baby onto his chest at the right position. She exhaled and opened her tired eyes again and Damon nuzzled her and cooed. She opened her mouth slowly and he tilted her to his nipple. She latched on and began to feed slowly. Stefan watched closely as her body seemed to relax completely and lie in Damon's hold. There was nothing more amazing that watching this, the complete trust and devotion she had for them both. Stefan scented her head and stroked her back and she made some sounds of acknowledgement.

Damon exhaled and Stefan looked to his face. There was an almost imperceptible expression there. The nearest emotion Stefan could attribute it to was utter peace and contentment – he'd seen something similar on the faces of monks in Thailand when he'd been travelling through there years ago.

What does it feel like?

Damon blinked and looked to him.

Love. Love for her.

Does it hurt?

A little, but feels good too. Satisfying.

Stefan looked down at his chest again. So strange to see the same tight and well formed muscles there – no change in their appearance and yet they had milk. Stefan shook his head and touched the free pec. Damon lay his head back and closed his eyes, happy to allow Stefan to explore. It was odd. Damon's need in this rut was to breed his mate, to have as much of his seed inside of Stefan's belly as possible and yet, his body also needed this too. Did that make them both hermaphrodites now? At least it would mean they'd be the same again –kind of. Yin and Yang. He was sure Damon would freak after all of this, so he needed to capture all of this amazing ability in his mind now so he could replay it for him later with a memory share.

The longer Vida suckled and Damon cooed to her softly, encouraging more, Stefan felt his body respond amorously. It was arousing watching how well Damon could nurse their cub. It made him want him. He shook his head and buried his face in at Damon's neck to scent there. The wolves had no idea! There wouldn't be the same mating rules for them. Clearly they both provided functions for growing babies and caring for them, so heats would be very different from on.

He grew hard as he scented Damon's neck and he channelled feelings of desire to him. Damon hummed a little and turned his head so they could kiss. Stefan leaned into him a little deeper and captured his mouth hungrily. He wanted him, wanted to lick at his chest and taste all of him, taste the life giving milk he was producing, drink from him and have him. Damon seemed to sink into the headboard a little.

Vida, as though on cue, stopped suckling and exhaled sleepily, her lips loosening their hold on Damon's nipple as her head fell back into the crook of Damon's elbow. They broke apart their mouths and looked down to her. Stefan's body vibrated, itching with lust and he scented her face to make sure she was full and sleeping. She closed her mouth and exhaled again and he took her carefully out of Damon's arms, crossing over to her bassinet again and laying her inside.

He looked back to Damon, who was yawning now and he gave a small growl. His erection was jutting out now.

Want you.

He licked his lips and Damon looked at him. Stefan knew that usually a heat/rut was for breeding and so Damon should want to be on him, in him all of the time like during the spell, but there was no fighting the desire pooling in his stomach. This show of tenderness and ability to provide for Vida, had turned Stefan on so much that he had to be inside. Rules of breeding be damned.

He blurred to the bed and lay on top of him. Damon lay back in surprise – his thoughts a little jumbled as he tried to figure out why he wasn't the one aching with an erection. Stefan cooed at him and slid his hands under Damon's bottom.

Different for us. We are unique. We are the same.

Stefan channeled and Damon frowned a little and made a sound of confusion.

Need to impregnate…

Stefan chuckled and took Damon's hand, placing it on his stomach.

Full. Full of you.

Damon's eyes widened and Stefan kissed him gently, sliding his hands to caress his rear. Damon seemed to understand that he was still performing his duty to breed and could relax. He sat up and deepened their kiss, holding Stefan around his back.

Just need to check.

He grunted and Stefan chuckled into his mouth and nodded. Damon pushed him back down onto his back softly and Stefan opened his legs lazily and smiled at him. Damon's look of concentration was hilarious. He wished he had a camera to capture it. Damon's hormones still demanded that he check he'd done his biological duty before they could continue.

Damon sniffed over his stomach and Stefan exhaled relaxed and hummed. Damon seemed content and moved down to scent Stefan's sex, which was struggling to wait to be inside. Damon licked the length with a growl of appreciation, which had Stefan chuckling again. He then opened Stefan's legs wider and sniffed his entrance, checking he could smell enough of his own seed in there.

See? Full.

Damon hummed satisfied and began to lick Stefan's fluid. Stefan's breath caught in his throat and he gyrated. He tilted his head back and grunted. He wanted both sensations, to be penetrated and licked like this but also to pin Damon beneath him. Wonderful to be able to have both, but conflicting. He moaned as Damon pushed his tongue inside and he fisted some of Damon's hair.

Wait a minute, he knew what Damon was doing. He was doing this on purpose to get Stefan to beg to be filled again. He shook his head a laughed through a gasp and yanked Damon's hair to lift his head. Damon frowned at him and he laughed again.

I want your insides.

Stefan gave a growl and let his eyes change to wolf again. He felt the subtle difference from the tingling that came with vampire hunger to the hunger and lust of his inner wolf. He was beginning to understand the wolf side a little better with each time they joined. It was coming to the forefront. He launched himself on top of Damon and pinned him, biting in at Damon's neck to hold him down as he growled in demand. Damon fought a little, trying to roll them over and Stefan bit a little harder. Damon grabbed at him and they fell off of the bed onto the floor. Their bodies separated and they both grinned and crouched ready to spring.

You want me? You'll have to pin me down.

Stefan channelled in challenge and let his fangs protrude. Damon grinned widely and licked his lips, his teeth also sharpening. This was going to be fun!

Damon sprung first in his predictable fashion and Stefan blurred away chuckling. He knew Damon's moves. Damon chuckled, delighted and stood on two legs, demonstrating his pleasing, aroused manhood.

Are you showing off your goods my black haired one? Hmmn.

Stefan cocked his head, in a very wolf like fashion and chuckled. Damon's eyes were gleaming with confidence.

I'm not sure. Not sure.

Stefan gave a little snort and Damon's face fell. He recovered after a few seconds and lunged for him again, this time catching Stefan's legs as he moved and dragging him along the floor back towards him. Stefan kicked back at him, twisting onto his front and Damon jumped on him, sticking his tongue right inside of Stefan's entrance and growling in desire. Stefan's head spun for a moment, enjoying the licking and then he decided to apply one of Damon's other tactics, one of his old ones. He tilted his rear and made a whining sound and Damon relaxed his hold a little, burying his tongue inside deeper and Stefan pushed himself backwards, throwing Damon back and kicked him hard in the chest.

Damon fell onto his back coughing and Stefan got on his feet again grinning. His fluid was now leaking down his thighs and he knew it would entice more competition. He'd have to be quicker and smarter.

Damon got onto his feet again and grinned. They both flushed with desire and became hard, both erections growing as they stared at each other. Stefan moved to grab him from the side and they tumbled over, grabbing at each other and growling, scratching each other's backs and trying to bite to pin down. Damon twisted Stefan's legs up and entered him and Stefan moaned loudly. Damon began to thrust quick and deep in determination and Stefan writhed and whined in pleasure. Damon relaxed a little as Stefan's body arched for him, submitting and then suddenly he was on his back, his head hitting the wall as Stefan jumped on top of him and threw his legs to either side of his waist. Damon opened his mouth to growl and Stefan plunged his manhood inside of him and held his chest down again.

Stefan's flexed his hips to make Damon cry in pleasure and Damon tried to fight it, tried not to succumb. Stefan held him down by his throat now and choked him a little, biting in at his neck to feed and start the blood wave as he pulled Damon's pelvis deeper to impale him with his member.

"Stefan, Stefan..!" Damon whined, somewhat in defeat and in need also and Stefan sped up, shaking the floorboards beneath them and rattling the broken pieces they'd both put their fists through in frustration earlier.

Stefan's triumph went to his head quickly and as Damon squirmed and moaned, he lost his control and climaxed with a loud shout. He'd never climaxed so quickly before! Damon held him tenderly and scented his neck and shoulder as Stefan lay his face down and sank his body onto Damon's chest.

Stefan closed his eyes and hummed. Damon bit playfully and rocked his hips until Stefan's manhood slid out and lay soft against Damon's hungry one. Damon slowly rolled them over and began to scent Stefan's body meticulously. Stefan fell into a dream and relaxed.

Damon cleaned him, enjoying the fluid settled on Stefan's thighs. He raised each leg one at a time to gain entry to scent there and finished by biting at the artery to feed. Stefan was the world. Stefan's penis could make him scream and he loved it, loved that it didn't make him feel weaker for wanting it. Love what Stefan could do with it. The way Stefan could flex his body to get at the right spots was unbelievable. Stefan's fluid tasted like a golden elixir too. He was perfection.

Stefan dozed off and Damon kissed around his stomach, smelling his seed and eggs in there. Hopefully they'd be pregnant again in a few hours so Stefan could make another baby. More. So many more. All as beautiful as Stefan was. Strong, fast and caring. More daughters. He smiled to himself at the thought and lay down beside his mate, holding him and encouraging him to wrap his arms around him. Stefan turned onto his side and did just that, laying his face in at Damon's neck and sighing. The whole room smelled of roses. God they were both ripe and potent.

The wolves must be able to smell it. He closed his eyes thinking on their power play. He liked it. Part of their vampire nature was to play with prey, to hunt and he guessed that was equally matched by their wolf nature too. Strange to think of their inner wolves coming out. He'd wanted to keep all of that at bay, but it was impossible. When he thought about it, it was more a part of their bodies than the vampire element. After all, they had been born potential wolves. It was part of their DNA. A vampire had just gotten to them first. Now they were playing catch up with instincts which they should have grown to experience normally. He wasn't going to hide from that anymore.

He lay thinking for a while as Stefan slept soundly. His head was beginning to clear from the fog it had been. He'd felt confused for days and days. What had happened during that time? He remembered bits and pieces – Ian trying to talk to him, building this hut unsuccessfully a few times. Stefan going into heat while away from him.

His eyes widened. He'd gone after that wolf – the one he'd smelled on Stefan's arm. He gulped and exhaled trying to remember. Had he killed him? He just remembered feeling angry, angry and territorial. John had had his baby nearby and she had been crying. He shook his head as he struggled.

He remembered blood and then being dragged away as Vida cried and reached her little hands out for him. Nisha had been there too. He'd been dragged away. The pain of that separation from his baby had made him wild. He remembered lashing out and having to be chained.

Stefan exhaled in his sleep and squeezed him. He must be feeling some of Damon's gut wrenching emotion. Damon kissed his head and sniffed deeply in his hair comfortingly.

"Damon, calm down, listen! We can help! Just tackle us. Come on try it. Try and get us. It'll help make you feel better I swear. Vida's ok. Stefan's ok." – The wolf Ian had tried to get him to tackle, rather than pull at his chains.

What the hell was the point of that? Then they'd tried to entice him to join the game they were playing. He bit a few, injuring them and they muttered about him being too strong. Too dangerous. Bet your ass he was and he was going to rip them all apart and get his baby and mate!

He exhaled and squeezed his eyes closed, trying to calm down. It was over. Stefan stirred, nuzzling him and then Damon's heart stopped as he remember having Stefan, wrapping a chain around him to drag him closer while the wolves shouted at him frantically. Then Stefan's smell hit him and he wanted him. Had to enter him right there in the dirt so the other wolves knew Stefan was claimed. Stefan was his! He'd torn at Stefan's clothes though, forced him into the mud and hurt him.

He began to pant in panic as he remembered. The wolves were right. He had almost raped him. Oh god!

Stefan awoke to Damon's elevated heartbeat and lifted his head to look at Damon's face. Damon was pale and shaking as he avoided his eyes.

"What's wrong?"

Guilt, self loathing. Oh god Stefan why are you still with me?

"What?" Stefan cooed and cupped his jaw.

"I tried to rape you." Damon's voice was barely above a whisper.

Stefan's expression changed to understanding and he turned Damon's face towards him commandingly.

"No. You did what your body told you to do to protect me from being claimed by the other wolves. You're not to blame for anything you did Damon."

Damon exhaled and let tears roll down his face.

Listen to me. You are a wolf now and you shouldn't have had to go through that. You didn't have control ok? They understand that.

I tried to fuck you while they all watched Stefan. How the hell can you forgive that? Why are you even here with me when you can be with someone who isn't a crazed lunatic? When you can be with Nathan?

Stefan bore his fangs and squeezed Damon's throat. Damon's eyes widened. This slightly scary new side to Stefan's forcefulness was so sudden, but not entirely unwelcomed. Damon choked a little and Stefan continued to growl.

You are mine. Understand? Mine! You're the only one I want inside of me. We are animals now and every fuck up we make, we take the consequences together. We learn from them and don't hide anymore.

But it was me who…

Stefan squeezed his throat harder and made Damon gasp.

Stop talking and fuck me, mate. Time to make amends later. Not now.

Damon searched his face in utter disbelief and Stefan reached between them and began to rub Damon's manhood.

"I am your wolf and I am in heat for you. I'm aching for you. Are you going to lie and cry about things we couldn't control or are you going to bend me over?" Stefan growled softly in a dangerous tone.

Damon gasped as his manhood hardened. Stefan was so forceful, so animal. He liked it. Stefan removed his hand from his throat slowly, dragging it down Damon's chest.

Catch me and fuck me. Stick inside me so I can't escape.

Stefan grinned in challenge and Damon's blood boiled. Talk about primal. Stefan wanted the chase. Damon shot up onto his feet and tackled him. They rolled around biting at each other and trying to overpower. They were both so strong they ended up rolling around and punching each other, laughing and licking at the blood spilled. Stefan was quicker in bending Damon over and entering him but Damon repeatedly got out of his hold and threw him to the floor. The more they crashed around, the more they laughed and began to kiss in between each assault, pinning each other down to kiss and bite seductively while the other managed to enter the one pinned. Both of their bodies glowed from the brief moments of joining, until Damon began to tire a little. Stefan was so fast. He made a quick lunge and Stefan ducked and elbowed him in the back, making him fall to his knees and grunt.

He'd knocked the wind out of him. As Damon gasped, trying to drag air in, Stefan bent him over and climbed on top of him, eagerly biting into the scruff and holding his wheezing mate down.

Predictable my black haired one. So predictable. Now I'm going to fuck you for the second time today.

Stefan pushed his manhood inside and Damon cried out and panted. Stefan wasted no time, getting his rhythm going and sliding his arms around to Damon's stomach tenderly. Damon grunted a little in defeat but began to moan and gyrate.

Mine, my strong mate. So fertile.

Stefan channelled, taking a hold of Damon's manhood and pumping it. Damon made a few small whines of pleasure and opened his legs wider.

Feeder of cubs. So strong. Full of milk.

Stefan loosened his hold on the back of Damon's neck as he began to moan and drool onto Damon's skin. Damon's erection began to leak and grow even larger and Stefan changed his angle, pushing Damon further head-down so he could penetrate deeper. Stefan slammed in and out of the tight heat and Damon climaxed into his hand howling in pleasure. Stefan panted and grunted, feeling his aching entrance pulse and he removed his hand from Damon's empty manhood and plunged his fingers into himself. He moaned wildly and climaxed inside of Damon, almost weeping.

Damon breathed, listening to Stefan's climax and he gave it a second before he rolled them over, taking Stefan by surprise. Stefan fell under him, still with his fingers in his own entrance and Damon opened Stefan's legs wide and tried to grab his hand away. He would need another minute before he could be hard so he would have to hold Stefan here in this position. Stefan read his mind and brought his knees up high to his chest in offering and Damon smiled and leaned down to kiss him when Stefan kicked him like a kangaroo and sent him falling back across the room onto his back. He coughed again and groaned.

Enough Stefan please. Want to stick inside now.

Damon had enjoyed the fighting but he was tired now and wanted completion. Stefan however had one last motivation before that happened.

Stefan was on him like a flash, pinning him down and attacking Damon's nipples with his mouth and fingers, stimulating them desperately.

Want to taste. Give me some. Give me some.

Damon arched, feeling his body vibrate at Stefan's yearning. The milk wasn't for Stefan, it was for cubs. It was food, not for sex. Still, Stefan sucked and licked determined and Damon's nipples sensed the change in the attention. Stefan bit down on one, making Damon cry out and Stefan inserted his fingers into Damon's entrance again. He bent his fingers upwards to stroke his prostate and Damon began to curse in mumbles and struggle with the pleasure.

Give me some. My mate, my body, everything mine.

"Stef…" Damon whispered desperately and then he shuddered, feeling some milk being drawn out.

Stefan held him tight and sucked. Finally, something came out. The sweetness of it, hit Stefan's tongue and he immediately stopped the movements with his fingers inside of Damon but held them inside in ownership of Damon's body. Damon arched and made small moans and gasps. Stefan licked appreciatively and lifted his face, seeing the other nipple leaking too. He licked at it eagerly. It was wonderful and nutritious. He could feel the power in it. His body felt stronger. If Vida was drinking this in large amounts she would be strong and healthy.

His eyes filled with tears as he thought on what an amazing gift this was for her. He looked at Damon's face in pure love. Damon opened his eyes and looked at him.

Love. Chest bursting love Damon.

Love.

Stefan slowly licked the last of the milk and placed a small kiss on each nipple in thanks. He wouldn't take any more. It was for Vida. Damon hummed, hearing his thoughts and slid his fingers into Stefan's hair softly. Stefan moved to his mouth and they kissed slowly, wrapping their limbs around each other and caressing.

Please little blood machine?

Stefan nodded chuckling and allowed Damon to roll him over gently. Damon pumped his manhood for a few seconds, kissing Stefan as he did so and Stefan opened his legs wide and relaxed.

Breed me.

Stefan channelled seductively and Damon's eyes flashed gold once again. Stefan felt his change too and he tilted his neck for a bite. Damon lay his mouth into the side of his neck and bit down to drink. They both felt the blood wave flood them and they curled into each other. It was satisfying to delay the completion of joining like this. The fighting and chasing had heightened everything.

Damon entered him carefully, reverently and they began to move together, Stefan rocking his hips up into every thrust as they shivered and whispered each other's names in ecstasy. Their bodies were desperate and ready so the milking began every quickly. They both shuddered and held each other tight as Damon began to grunt and moan into the motion.

Now I'm milking you. All for me.

Stefan panted and Damon lay his face in at his neck as they both climaxed and shouted. This climax was like a tidal wave – huge in the first waves and then continuous as the smaller waves hit afterwards. Stefan became vaguely aware that the sounds escaping their mouths had escalated from shouts to howls – wolf like howls. Then, Damon was pulled in deeper and they fell silent. Sealed together.

Damon sagged into him, passing out and Stefan exhaled noisily and wrapped his legs around his back. They were one, wolf and vampire.