A/N: I am so excited for this chapter! Please read and review...I would love to hear your feedback! All rights to Shondaland and ABC, even though I'm sure all of us wish we could own the lovely people in it :) Enjoy!
xx
Meredith sat in stunned awe as the driver came around to open her door. Strands of tiny lights wove their paths through green ivy that was twisting around the stone walls of the restaurant, and the glow from numerous candles lit up the windows from the inside. She could see couples enjoying their dinner through the window, and the cobblestone pathway was bordered by short, ivy covered stone walls that were laced with more lights. She could hear the faint sound of classical music being played inside, and she eased out of the car, her eyes flashing and taking in every detail. Meredith's heels clicked softly on the walkway, and she reached the door of the restaurant, and an attractive man stopped her.
"Hi, I'm Meredith…my girlfriend Addison Montgomery wanted me to meet her here." A smile played at the corners of Meredith's lips. The word "girlfriend" would have seemed so unnatural merely three weeks ago, and now she relished in the feeling it gave her.
"Oh yes, of course, come with me please." The host took her through the winding path in the restaurant, and she marveled at the array of paintings and the intricate swirls in the architecture. The inside was pure elegance. The man reached a set of glass French style double doors, and he opened them, gesturing her through. She nodded and thanked him, and as she turned her head back, her eyes went misty with tears as they set their sights on the most breathtaking red-haired woman she had ever seen.
The clicking of heels caused Addison to turn from the stone wall she was looking over, and a gorgeous blonde woman was at the top of a set of stone stairs with her hand on the black metal railing, her other hand over her mouth and her warm blue eyes wide open. A formfitting black dress came down to about four inches above the knee, and the low scoop neckline exposed the swell of her breasts, held up by halter style straps that started right before the underside of her arms. Her hair was in loose curls, and the warm Pacific breeze floated through, moving the front strands off her face. A pair of black peep toe stilettos adorned her French manicured feet, and Addison was lost. She was no longer in control. Her body moved forward towards the woman of its own will, and tears pricked her eyes as she gravitated in the direction of her girlfriend.
Meredith could hardly breathe. The woman in front of her was the most beautiful woman she could ever imagine seeing. The olive colored dress she wore dipped down between her breasts and came to a point just below the breastbone and flowed down her hips and to the floor. The jewel encrusted halter straps criss-crossed over the woman's back, and was otherwise backless and cut out, the fabric starting again barely above her backside, and it flowed down neatly, the wind rustling it and blowing the slight train of it out across the cobblestone patio. The woman's fiery red hair was swept back loosely into French twist in the back, and tiny curled pieces came down and framed her face. Her piercing blue eyes contrasted heavily with the smoky eyeshadow and liner, and dramatic black mascara. The redhead was so beautiful it was almost painful for Meredith to look at her, and even more so to see her moving towards her, completely and irrevocably in love with her.
The sun was settling down over the horizon, and the sky was streaked with hues of pink, purple and orange. Addison reached Meredith, who had somehow managed to ease herself down the steps, with the help of the railing, and the two reached each other in a tearful kiss. There were no words, just their lips fused together in an understanding need, a need for each other. When they broke apart, Addison took Meredith by the hand and led her past the single round table by the corner near the cobblestone wall. There was a single candle on the table, and the lights in the ivy were the only lighting there. They came to the wall side by side, hand in hand, and looked out over to the ocean, where the sun was disappearing over the horizon. The land dipped away from the wall, and Meredith realized it was built on a hill. The wind tousled her hair, and before she could move her hand to her face to correct it, Addison's hand was there, running underneath, cupping her cheek.
"Addison…" whispered Meredith, and the redhead pulled her to her once more, spinning her slowly around, easing her onto the top of the wall, and moving her lips hungrily over Meredith's. Adrenaline coursed through Meredith's body, and she felt dizzy, like her world was spinning on its axis, and the only thing keeping her grounded were Addison's trembling lips moving passionately over hers.
"Meredith, you're beautiful."
"Mmmm, and so are you darling." Meredith murmured, their foreheads pressed together, and at that word Addison went weak in the knees, and she closed her eyes briefly. She wrapped her arms around Meredith's back, and eased the intern off the wall back onto her feet, and Addison led her to the table. There was a bottle of wine chilling on ice at the table already, and Addison poured them each a glass and held Meredith's chair out for her before taking her own.
"I could spend forever just looking at you Mer." Addison said with a smile, her eyes still roaming over Meredith, taking everything in. The blonde felt heat rush into her cheeks, and was grateful for the dark that was setting in. She took a sip from her glass, relishing the taste of the bittersweet liquid. Strawberry wine. Meredith leaned over the table to press a quick kiss to Addison's lips; the woman was irresistible.
"How did you manage this Addison? I don't think the terrace has your name on it," Meredith joked lightly, picking up the illustrious menu that was perched on the table. She scanned it quickly, her mind full of thoughts that were entirely unrelated to food, and she realized with a second look that there were no prices by the menu items. The waiter came over to the table, and she whispered across to Addison. "There aren't any prices on here…I think they gave us the wrong menu."
The waiter cleared his throat loudly, and Addison reached across the table for Meredith's hand and squeezed it gently. "Honey, don't worry about that. I'm taking you out tonight; let me do the worrying." She smiled and clearly wasn't paying it any second thought, so Meredith relaxed and pointed to a seafood dish on the menu.
"And I'll have what she's having." Addison smiled as the waiter took the menus away, and she continued to hold Meredith's hand, rubbing her thumb over the woman's knuckle.
"Addison, this is perfect. I love it. But you know, you didn't have to go this much out. I would always be perfectly content with ordering pizza in from room service and just staying in bed with you." Meredith said.
Addison's lips curled upwards and her eyebrows rose. "And that's what I love about you, Meredith Grey."
There was a silence, and Meredith finally broke it. "Addie, there's something I need to talk to you about."
Addison straightened up in her seat. "Okay, just as long as you're not about to tell me you're sick of me already."
"No, I'm not. I talked to Cristina this morning, remember when I came back to bed?"
Addison nodded, and the waiter brought their salads out to the table. She thanked him and as he disappeared inside the doors, she picked up her wine glass to take a sip. "Yeah, Mer, what's up?"
"I want us to have sex tonight."
Addison choked on her wine, and Meredith sat there with an amused expression on her face.
"Uh, Mer, honey, I don't think that's such a good idea…" Addison started hesitantly, trying to ignore the slight flutter in her stomach at Meredith's bold statement.
Meredith stood from her chair and pulled it over close to Addison's. She sat back down, crossing one leg overtop the other, and she rested a gentle had on Addison's cheek, hooking a finger tenderly under her jaw and pulling her face close. Meredith parted her lips slightly, bringing them to brush gently across Addison's, and she moved them down to focus on her lower lip, sucking gently before releasing her lips. Addison's eyes remained closed briefly before she slowly opened them.
"I want you Addison. I want to show you how much you mean to me."
Addison's stomach did a somersault at the intentions behind those words, and she swallowed hard. "Meredith, I know you love me. You don't need to have sex to show love."
"Please listen to me."
Addison gave her an apologetic smile, and she took another bite of her salad. "I'm sorry honey. Go ahead."
"This whole time, I wasn't scared to have sex with you because of what happened that day with Derek in the on call room." Addison bristled, and Meredith put her hand on the woman's leg and took a deep breath before continuing, "I was scared to have sex with you because whenever I have sex with someone, something bad happens. I slept with Derek and fell in love with him before finding out I was just his mistress, and I slept with other random inappropriate guys, and they somehow ended up complicating my life. I complicated my life by having sex with inappropriate people, and now, I'm head over heels in love with someone who I can't imagine life without, and I'm scared to ruin it. I'm not broken Addison, Derek didn't break me. But you, being without you would break me. I'm terrified Addison, I am terrified to lose you." Meredith's eyes glimmered with emotion, and Addison felt her own emotions well up.
Addison set her fork down and brought her hand down on top of Meredith's and clasped it firmly. She brought it up to her lips and brushed the cool hand against her lips. Addison brought her hand to Meredith's face and stroked her knuckles against her cheek.
"Meredith, I am going to say this to you as many times as you need for you to understand. I am not going anywhere, regardless of how bad, little, or often the sex is."
Meredith giggled. "Hopefully the sex isn't bad. I mean, I've never done this with a woman before…there were always the girls in college, but that was just drunken shenanigans. I've never made love with a woman."
"Neither have I, but I know how to love a person. I know how to love you, Meredith." Addison smiled, blue eyes locked onto grey ones, and both eyes twinkled with the reflection of love. They didn't break their gaze even as the waiter set their dishes down on the table.
Addison didn't look up as she spoke. "Could we get these to go?"
Lips crashed upon lips, and hands roamed up and down sides. Addison and Meredith tumbled into the back of the waiting limousine, and they burst out in laughter at the driver's raised eyebrows as he moved to roll up the partition.
"The hotel, please." Addison reached back for Meredith who was giggling in the corner of the backseat, and her giggles were absorbed by Addison's lips and gave way to a moan. Every nerve ending came alive inside Addison's brain at the noise; she felt as if she were to explode. She swirled her tongue into Meredith's mouth, their tongues mingling together, and Meredith ran her hand up Addison's side from her hip up across her ribcage to the middle of her chest, and she ran it over Addison's breast, cupping it gently, dragging her thumb across. Addison whimpered into Meredith's mouth and threw her head back as Meredith's lips moved to her neck. She sucked roughly on Addison's pulse point and the attending moaned.
"Oh, god, Mer!" Addison cried out as Meredith moved her onto her lap and her thigh was pressed tightly against Addison's center.
"Shhhh, darling. I don't want to share your sex groans with anyone else." Meredith laughed and gestured towards the driver with her head, and silenced the attending with her lips. She could sense Addison's need through her lips; her whole body was alive and pulsating. Addison grunted her frustration and let out a small whine when Meredith pulled away.
"Addie, I want to make love to you for the first time in a bed, not in the backseat of a limo. Not that the limousine isn't absolutely perfect, but I want to do this right." Meredith smiled as her girlfriend eased off her lap and threw her head against the seat in frustration.
She sighed and opened her eyes, locking onto Meredith's twinkling grey ones. "You're right. I've never…I've never wanted anything to be this special…" she sighed again, "I've never needed something to be this special. I've never even used the term 'making love' for Christ's sake."
Meredith laughed and shuffled over, smoothing her dress as she settled forward, propping herself up on Addison's chest. Addison leaned down and their lips connected in a light kiss.
"I've never thought making love was something that fit anything in my life. Until I loved you." Addison's eyes closed as Meredith tucked her head under her chin, her heel clad legs folding up onto the backseat. Meredith sighed contently as she listened to Addison's heart pounding loudly underneath her cheek. She leaned forward and placed delicate kisses onto Addison's chest.
The car pulled around and the front of their hotel loomed in front of them. Meredith unfolded her legs and crawled out of the car, and turned back to Addison who was sitting still in the backseat.
I do not want to screw this up.
"Addison." Meredith's voice called out to her, shaking her from her thoughts. The intern's voice was low and tender, making Addison's heart clench at the feeling that voice gave her. Meredith held out a slim hand to the older woman and gave her a reassuring smile. "Let me love you."
Addison stretched her long, graceful legs out of the limousine and took her girlfriend's hand. "Okay."
They walked hand in hand into the elevator. Addison leaned forward and pressed the button for their floor, and Meredith pulled her gently around into her arms. Her arms encircled Addison's waist, and she rested a slim hand on the small of the older woman's back, right where the material of her dress began again. Addison sank into the embrace, wrapping her arms around Meredith's neck, and she pressed her lips lightly to Meredith's. There was no tongue, no heat, just tenderness.
"Oh, darling." Meredith sighed, and Addison gasped lightly against Meredith's lips; there it was again, that lightheaded feeling that made her weak in the knees. Addison had heard all kinds of terms of endearment from her past lovers, but none of them had the power to do what that word did when uttered from Meredith's lips. Her knees buckled, and Meredith tightened her arm around her, holding her up.
"Mer," she whimpered, moving her hand up into Meredith's hair, entangling it and deepening the kiss, her lips moving silently over to her ear. "Oh, Meredith," she breathed, her eyes fluttering shut.
The elevator doors opened and the two of them stumbled awkwardly out the doors in their heels, neither one of them breaking the hold they had on the other. Meredith backed Addison up against their door, and she crashed her lips against Addison's, slipping her tongue instantly into the redhead's mouth. Addison laughed against her mouth and fumbled for the room key. She kept one hand steadily on the side of Meredith's ribcage, absentmindedly digging in her purse for the key. Meredith stepped closer, their bodies pressed together, and Addison found her mind going hazy as the intern moved down her neck, her hands dancing down Addison's breasts to her gently sloping hips. She thrust her leg between Addison's thighs, and Addison's hand stilled inside her purse as she sank down onto Meredith's thigh, her head reeling with desire, and she tried to ease the aching between her legs.
Meredith trailed her lips to Addison's ear, and whispered roughly in her ear. "Mmm…Addie, as much as I'd like to fuck you right here and now up against this door, I think the other guests in this hotel would prefer us to be on the other side of it." Her hands eased off of the older woman as she pulled away momentarily, giving Addison time to clear her lust-clouded mind. Addison took a cleansing breath and focused her attention on her bag, opening it, and her fingers searched hurriedly for the room key. She spied the blasted key in the bottom corner, and she pulled it out, her hands trembling as they went to the lock. She turned the key and the door eased open, and Meredith grinned devilishly as Addison launched herself back at Meredith, pulling them inside the door, and shutting it with a resounding slam.
"Well, if we hadn't woken them with our lust-crazed groping in the hallway, they're definitely awake now." Meredith smirked as Addison pulled off her heels, slipping the ankle ties off her feet.
"Honey, no one is getting any sleep in this hotel tonight." Addison growled, her hands shooting to the back of Meredith's neck, hands fisting themselves in blonde locks, and Meredith whimpered, her right arm dangling down, clawing at her ankles, trying to get a hold on the stiletto pumps on her feet. Addison felt the movement, and slid her way down Meredith's body, kissing her way down her neck and lingering briefly on her gently curving breasts before dropping down to her knees in front of the intern. Addison kissed her smooth, toned thighs, exposed perfectly with the short black dress, and Addison's skilled surgical hands grasped the heels of the black pumps Meredith wore while she opened her mouth and touched her tongue to Meredith's creamy thighs, dragging the tip along to the inside of the woman's legs, nibbling gently and pausing to suck on the soft flesh. Addison heard Meredith's sharp intake of breath, and it fueled her desire. She felt Meredith's hands go to her head, fumbling with the twist, and pulling desperately at it, and she moved her head upwards, bunching up Meredith's dress, kissing up towards Meredith's throbbing core.
"Addie…" Meredith mewled, pulling lightly on Addison's head, and the neonatal surgeon stood back up, and was instantly spun around. Meredith pressed herself flush up against her back, and Addison's sense stood alert as she felt Meredith's breasts pressed against her bare back. Meredith leaned forward and captured Addison's earlobe in between her teeth, and Addison shivered as she felt Meredith's warm breath in her ear. She moaned as Meredith's hands traveled the length of her body, moving, almost hesitantly for a split second, under her plunging neckline. Meredith's mouth opened and her lips traveled their way down to Addison's neck, and Addison's head fell back onto Meredith's shoulder as Meredith's right hand worked its way over to her left breast. Meredith's stomach dipped as she realized Addison wasn't wearing a bra, and her finger glided over a hardening nipple. Addison let out a high pitched moan, and Meredith's heart surged at the noise that came out of the redhead.
"Addie, darling," Meredith murmured against her neck, "I want to see you. I want to know every inch of you."
Addison turned around, her eyes opening wider as she took a couple quick gasps of air to try and slow her racing heart rate. Addison nodded at Meredith, and the intern's hands slipped the gathered sleeves off the tops of her shoulders, sliding them down her arms, the green dress pooling around Addison's feet. Meredith's eyes roamed Addison's body. She had never seen anything so beautiful in her life. Addison's bone structure stood out just slightly in the collarbone area, and her breasts curved naturally, the light pink nipples standing out against her fair complexion, and her hips curved gently outwards down towards toned thighs. Meredith's gaze traveled over the juncture at the apex of her legs, the hint of a thatch of hair failing to cover herself, and Meredith blushed momentarily before bringing her eyes up to meet Addison's bright blue eyes. Addison smiled and took the step towards Meredith, closing the distance between them. She drew Meredith to her, and Meredith's head spun as she felt Addison's skin pressing up against her. Addison's left hand came to rest on Meredith's upper back, soft waves of the blond hair brushing her hand, and her fingers found the zipper at the top of the dress.
Addison moved the zipper down an inch, and paused as she felt Meredith tremble. She wrapped her arms around the woman, cradling her against her body. "I'm not going to hurt you Meredith." She felt Meredith nod her head against her head, sweeping red waves mixing with blonde ones, and her hand pulled the zipper down the length of Meredith's back, her right hand following and trailing down the exposed skin. She spread her fingers out and splayed them across the small of Meredith's back and leaned her forehead against Meredith's. Their eyes connected, an inch apart, and each seemed to peer into the other's soul. They stood like that for what seemed like a lifetime, connected in a way that ran so much deeper than flesh. Addison moved first, slipping the halter strap off over the top of Meredith's head, the dress dropping to the floor, and Meredith simultaneously backed them onto the California king bed. Addison landed on her back, settling her head back into the white pillows, and Meredith lowered herself on top of her, leaning her weight on her elbows on either side of Addison. A shock jolted itself through her body as they were finally skin on skin. Addison's skin was so soft on hers, never had she known that another woman's skin was so soft. Her hands reached up and grasped the red tresses, and she looked longingly at her girlfriend.
"I love you Addison Montgomery." Meredith spoke softly, her voice cracking with emotion.
Addison lifted her upper body off the bed a bit, bringing her hands to the sides of Meredith's face, pressing her lips to the intern's.
"I love you Meredith Grey," Addison sighed, her hands traveling the length of Meredith's sides, feeling the curves of the woman lying on top of her, her hands running over Meredith's buttocks, clenching softly, feeling the fleshy backside of her girlfriend. Meredith moaned in response, her body arching back, the caresses of the redhead striking her into submission. She channeled her energy back into Addison, her lips finding Addison's neck and she lowered herself down Addison's body, her lips whisking their way down Addison's collarbone to her right breast. She opened her mouth slightly, taking Addison's breast into her mouth, sucking tenderly at the creamy mound, and flicked her tongue along the hardened peak, getting a throaty cry from the surgeon.
"Mer…oh god Mer," Addison moaned, arching her body into the young intern, and Meredith smirked as she scraped her teeth lightly across the erect nipple, before encompassing her lips over it, sucking delicately as Addison pulled in her hair, urging her closer. Meredith wanted to be closer to Addison, more than humanly possible, and she became suddenly aware of Addison grinding herself into her thigh, and she felt a warm dampness on her upper leg. Meredith's brain exploded and her senses were flooded with desire, and she felt her own arousal as she moved herself down Addison's lithe body that was now arched in the air, and she replaced her tongue with her thumb continuing to tease Addison's nipple as she rolled it between her thumb and forefinger, eliciting another moan from the redhead. Meredith drug her tongue down Addison's stomach, winding its way around the slight dips and curves of her body.
"Meredith, oh shit…honey," Addison pleaded, fisting her hands in the blonde hair, and Meredith glanced up, seeing those blue eyes cracked open, staring at her, and she responded, coming back up to pour a passionate kiss on Addison's parted lips. Meredith's tongue pried into Addison's mouth, hands entangled in each other's hair, and Meredith moved her knee roughly up into Addison's dripping center, and Addison gasped loudly, her lusty shriek muffled by Meredith's mouth. Meredith began a slow rhythm, alternating between thrusting and grinding her thigh in circles against Addison, and she could feel the warm juices of Addison coating her leg. Addison threw her head back and her hips rose to meet Meredith's thrusts. Meredith released her right hand from Addison's red locks, and slid it slowly, dragging it out, down Addison's curves as she bent her head to suck at Addison's neck. Her cool hand splayed out between their bodies, and Addison let out a whimper of anticipation that turned into a low growl as Meredith's hand traveled lower between their bodies, down her abdomen. Meredith's fingers found the thatch of carefully groomed hair, and she swirled her fingers around, down the junction of her pelvis and thighs, and they trailed lazily back up. Addison hissed as Meredith's forefinger skimmed the tender flesh of her sensitive parts, and Meredith's lips were at her earlobe, whispering.
"Mmmm…darling," she drawled in a throaty ragged voice and bit down on her earlobe, and Addison cried out at the sensation, and Meredith's hand slid down, running through the fine hairs before her fingers were covered in Addison's arousal. She swirled her fingers around, tracing the fleshy lips, but being careful to avoid the places Addison needed her the most. Addison's hips thrashed, and the redhead moved her hand down to where Meredith's was, trying to move it to where she ached so badly, but Meredith smacked her hand away.
"Mer-" Addison pleaded in a desperate tone, and she met Meredith's furious gaze. Meredith's grey eyes were smoldering with want, and Addison felt herself tingle in anticipation of what her girlfriend was capable of. Meredith's fingers slowed their circling, but never stopped exploring every crevice of Addison's intimate parts. In their pattern, her fingers stilled as she passed over Addison's opening, and the attending's body contracted; her legs parted slightly wider. Meredith crashed her lips down on Addison's as her middle finger found Addison's throbbing clit and Addison cried out, and she moved her finger in circles over it as Addison's legs tightened around her, pulling her into her. Addison's hips rolled in time with Meredith's rhythm, her juices covering the intern's fingers, and she felt her world go blurry as the heat started spreading up from her toes through her body.
"Mer…oh fuck…Mer!" Addison called out, her body bucking frantically as she felt the first grips consume her. Meredith stilled her finger and Addison whimpered feebly in protest, which turned into a lustful moan as she felt Meredith's finger probe her opening. Meredith's thumb picked up the rhythm on her clit as her forefinger simultaneously drove up into Addison, making the redhead's body jerk as her hips thrust harder against her hand. Addison felt the pulsations roll off her body, matching the pounding in her head, and she gasped in pleasure as Meredith added a second finger inside her. Her velvety walls surrounded Meredith's fingers, as she pushed harder into Addison, and she turned her wrist slightly, the new angle allowing the tips of her fingers to brush up against that sweet spot inside of Addison, and Addison's mind went hazy as the fire inside her flared and the heat began to consume her.
"Don't stop, don't stop, oh fuck...please...Mer…oh fuck, Meredith!" the attending cried out as her orgasm overwhelmed her, and her walls contracted around Meredith's fingers, and Meredith covered her mouth with her own, muffling the softening cries Addison was emitting. Meredith's fingers slowed, knowing Addison needed to recover, but she didn't want to pull out of her body.
Addison was coming down from her euphoria, her body still trembling with the aftershocks of her orgasm, and she dimly felt Meredith's fingers still inside her body, but she was glad she was still inside of her. She felt whole. Meredith collapsed on Addison's side, pulling the attending to her with her free hand, and Addison buried her face in Meredith's hair. Meredith eased her fingers out of Addison, her hand slick with Addison's juices, and she opened her arms holding the older woman to her. Addison turned her head and pressed her swollen lips to Meredith's. She broke away, and Meredith caught her grinning at her devilishly.
"Addison Montgomery, what are you thinking?" she asked, laughing lightly at the way Addison's eyes were burning into her.
"Mmm, Dr. Grey, I'm thinking of all the extraordinarily dirty things I'm going to do to you." Meredith shrieked with laughter as Addison rolled on top of her.