Jasper's POV

3 months later

Bella was finally released from the hospital. She was back on her feet, but she was still in pain and quite weak. I was worried for her, but I promised that I wouldn't let her out of my sight. I never wanted a repeat of something like this again.

Bella was lying in bed for a long while and finally decided to get up. I could hear her moaning in pain. "Perhaps you should take it easy today, Bella." I said rushing to her side incase she needed help.

"I'm fine, Jasper." She admitted a little bitterly. I'm guessing that was the pain talking through her.

"Well, you just got out of the hospital though, Bells. I think you should be taking it easier with yourself. Besides your cuts haven't quite healed themselves up yet. I don't want you hurting yourself more."

"Jasper, I'm starving. Just let me get something to eat." She begged. "I can do this myself." She admitted, which didn't make me believe her at all. She was quite a horrible liar, but I knew she wouldn't give in. She was always so stubborn.

"Alright fine, but if I sense any emotions of pain I'm coming to get you and I'll be putting you right back into bed." She smiled at my concern, and then got up.

I waited long and anxiously, nervous that she'd do more damage to herself. But maybe I just needed to trust her more. She finally came back, but she didn't have food in her hands, instead she had papers laid against her thigh, and her face was discontent, unhappy, and I could feel her pain, but it wasn't her physical pain that concerned me anymore. It was her mental pain that I was worried about. Tears were rushing down her face.

"How long have you known?" She asked looking away from me. I wasn't quite sure what she asking though.

"Excuse me?" Was all I'd let myself ask.

"How long have you known, Jasper!" Her emotions were mixed now.

"How long have I known what?" I asked looking at her confused. Suddenly instead of her speaking, she threw the papers at my feet. I looked closely and saw that these were her medical papers. Listing her problems and what might be causing them. Miscarriage was listed. Oh. "Bella, I-"

"You knew all along, huh?" Tones of tears were falling off her cheek.

"Yes, I did, but I honestly forgot." That wasn't a good answer.

"Oh, so you just forgot that we lost our child." She cried harder. I couldn't stand to see her cry, especially since I knew her crying was my fault.

"No, Bella. Honestly I've been so worried sick about you; I hadn't had time to even think about it. You're my main concern. You always will be. Not that it wouldn't have been nice to have a child either, but I'm more worried about you than anything else. I love you." I spoke calmly.

"Why didn't you tell me then at the hospital? I, mean you managed to tell me everything else that happened. Don't you think you left out a minor detail?" She folded her arms. This conversation wasn't headed somewhere good.

"Bella, the day that happened, Carlisle told me to make sure that you weren't in any stress under any circumstances. And don't you think you would have been stressed and upset when I told you that day? I was only concerned about your health; I didn't mean to forget to tell you." I hugged her so that I could send a calming wave through her. She did begin to relax, but that didn't stop the crying. Though I wish it had. She then, no sooner did I realize, fainted. This worried me immensely.

I carried her to her bed and laid her down gently, rubbing her head with a warm washcloth repeatedly. "I'm so sorry, Bella." I whispered in her ear and kept rubbing the clothe against her cold head. I kissed it a few times and lay next to her, feeling guilty and unworthy of her love. I knew that I messed up major, and I wasn't quite sure how to make it up to her.

I guess I could understand why she was so hurt by this. She already had lost one child before ours. But there was always an option of trying again. But of course, Bella in her conditions, there was no way that we would be able to start trying for a while. She could barely stand up without fainting. And my control isn't quite as good as I hoped it would be. For I hadn't hunted in almost two weeks.

Bella was going to a check up tomorrow though. That was the perfect time for me to go hunting quickly. Her being gone for a long while would give me enough time to catch some quick food, come back and set up a romantic evening just for her. I'd cook her a dinner of her liking, and we could go from there and perhaps this would make things better. Or perhaps make them far worse than they already are which is not what I'm hoping for.

The only problem was I would have to make some arrangements, but with who? Then the thought occurred to me, I would have to go to the one person I never thought I would have to go to at all for this. It was Alice, and Rosalie both, being my sisters could helped. But I am sure that ever since the wedding shower things would be awkward, but then again they grew awkward as soon as Alice cheated on me for my brother. So, it was fair game.

I got out my phone and began to hesitate as I dialed Alice's phone number, my hands shaking and all. But I had to man up, if I was ever going to make things better between Bella and I, this is what I had to do. I waited as the phone rang at least three times. Finally Alice picked up. "Hello?" She answered politely. I was surprised how light her tone was considering she knew who was calling her.

"Um, hi." I cleared my throat quickly and smiled forgetting what her voice almost sounded like. I was so at my low point right now.

"Alice, I need you to do something for me. Do you know Bella's dress size?" I asked quickly and quietly, hoping she would not hang up.

"Shouldn't you know your own wife's dress size, Jazz?" She questioned. I had a good feeling she was going to be this way when I asked. I would have reacted the same way if she asked me questions like this about Edward. Alice was one brave woman.

"No, but even if I did, I can't design and make beautiful dresses like you can or least buy one pretty enough. But do you think you could get a dress that's long and elegant?" I asked nervously.

"Jazz, why are you asking me to do this for you?" She asked sighing.

"Because you're the only one I know who can do this fast, I'll be needing Rosalie's help for decorating as well." I admitted rubbing my arm, feeling so humiliated.

"You must be really desperate to get laid, huh, Jazz?" She laughed. This was even more humiliating than before. I had no response to that comment. "Fine I'll do it, and I'll try to convince Rose to help, but no promises alright?" She grunted and hung up.

"Thank you, Alice." I said content and pleased.

Bella's POV

The next day

I woke up feeling unease set in my stomach. The room was spinning, and my head was pounding horribly. I got out of bed and looked at the time. Realizing that I was late, I hurried getting dressed and getting something to eat, ran out the door, and into my Chevy, and drove to the Cullen's. Finally arriving there I pulled in the drive and walked up to the front door, knocking as quietly as I could to keep the head ache I had still mild.

"Bella!" Alice opened the door and hugged me quickly.

"Alice…" I said less enthusiastic, it almost sounded like I was depressed, which happened to be at the moment.

"After you see Carlisle for your check up, I need to show you something. I want to see if it fits you." She smiled brightly. This made my world darker than it was before.

"Alice, I don't-"

"Shh… After you're done." She said again and then walked away. I looked at Edward hoping to get some kind of sign that this wasn't going to turn out so bad, but all he gave me was a quick shake of his head, his features looked displeased.

"You have no idea what you're getting yourself into, do you?" Edward asked, smiling his famous half smile that he knew I always loved. It made my day a little brighter, but that day would soon be gone.

"No, I don't." I chuckled a little. Edward rolled his eyes. I'm assuming because of Alice. "Are you guy's still-?"

"Yes." He seemed unhappy about answering the way he did.

"I don't understand, if you can't stand her…. Than why are you two still getting married?" I asked quite confused.

"I don't know." I could tell by his voice he was being honest. " I guess I still lover her, she's just a little less tolerable since then. But think about like this, you loving Jasper as much you do, could you stand to lose him?" He asked. He did bring up a good point, but I do not think that certain people who cheat on their soul mates deserve to get away with it.

"No, I don't think I could even bear it." I admitted wearily. It hurt just too even think about something like that happening. "But if you don't love her……"

"What makes you think I don't love her?" He asked confused.

"I don't know, just the way you look at her, you seem like you can't even stand to be around her. Like you're annoyed with her almost." He smiled at this.

"Believe me, I have my moments when it comes to Alice. She's always self-centered now. She isn't how she used to be anymore. Almost like, ever since she dumped Jasper, she's been a whole different person. I don't like won't she's becoming, and I'm not sure I like what I'm becoming, here. But it's better than being alone." He sighed.

"Edward, can I ask you something?" Jasper is still the same Jasper that I knew and still loved, or perhaps he was pretending the whole, as in not to make me feel horrible.

"Sure, Bella." He smiled gently.

"The night of the kiss between Alice and Jasper. What was Jasper thinking?" I asked curiously.

"He was appalled that Alice did that, especially at Him, and your's wedding shower. He's was really worried at what you would think of him after that. He thought that you wouldn't love him anymore. He was, in other words, ashamed at what happened." Edward said, pained as he remembered that kiss.

"So, he was telling the truth. Edward, I feel awful that you're miserable and lonely. Well, I'll tell you what. How about you come over and hang out some time. Jasper and I are kind of separated at the moment." I admitted rubbing my arms to avoid awkward quietness.

"I heard." Edward laughed slightly.

"Who-?"

"Alice saw it happening." He answered quickly.

"That's humiliating."

"And plus he called her." He looked down. This made me feel a little uncomfortable.

"Why?" I asked slowly, trying to hide the anger.

"He needed something." So now he's going to Alice for advice. When I see him he better pray that I'm either on the verge of fainting or dead. " Well, this is just great."

"Bella, you have nothing to worry about." He hugged me quickly. I wasn't expecting a hug, but for the first time his body was warm and it felt soft to me.

"Thanks, Edward." I sighed a little and then looked to see Carlisle behind us.

"Ready, Bella?" Carlisle asked politely. I shook my head as a reply and went with him to his office. " So, have you been feeling today, Bella?" He asked curiously having his pen and clip board ready.

"Okay, I guess." I shrugged weakly and looked to the floor.

"Any problems since you came home?" If by problems he meant relationship problems then yes.

"Yeah, I fainted." I mumbled lightly.

"What was happening before you fainted?" Bad karma.

"Jasper, and I were fighting." I sighed quietly.

"So, stress?" He corrected.

"Yes." I answered back.

"Well, my advice would be to keep yourself calm. You don't want to cause anymore damage to your body, Bella." He patted my shoulder.

"Bella!" Alice called.

" Staring now." Carlisle motioned for me to go with her. I did as I was told and let her drag me to her room. "So, I have something I made and I wanted to know if you liked it. She took a long, white silk dress, that was draped in layers of silk. It was beautiful.

"Oh, my God, Alice." I picked up the dressed and looked at it closer.

"Well, don't just stand there try it on." I took the dress and put it on. It was the perfect fit and I felt beautiful in it. I looked in the mirror and smiled. But was curious.

"Who's it for?" I asked curiously.

"You." She smiled slightly.

"What's the occasion?" I wondered.

"I thought it would be a good apology gift. I'm sorry about what happened, Bella." She hugged me.

"It's okay." I patted her back and took a deep breath.

"Well, I think you should keep it on, and go show Jasper. He's gonna love you in it." She smiled warmly as I walked to my car and got in the truck. Something seemed not quite right. I pulled in Jasper and I's drive way and went inside. Candles were set up everywhere, but there was no sign of Jasper.

"Jasper?" I called picking up the dress so I didn't walk on it. "Jazz." I called again.

Jasper's POV

"Jasper?" Bella called my name from the living room, as Rose and I were still decorating the room. " Jazz?" She called again.

"Rose, go. Thank you." I said hugging her quickly and watched her run into the woods. " I'm right here, Bella." I saw her in a beautiful long white dress. It made her look so beautiful, not that she wasn't already. "Oh, Bella, you look absolutely beautiful." I smiled. I was lucky to have such a wonderful wife like her.

"Thank. You. Okay, what's going on?" She asked looking around the place confused.

"I wanted to make it up to you tonight." Her face didn't look pleased, just shocked.

"Bella, you can't stay mad at me forever. I'm so sorry love. Whatever you want to do we can do tonight, movie night, we could go to the lake, go out for dinner name it." Our hasn't been visited by us in a long while. It was a beautiful sight. We swam in that lake on our wedding night.

" We haven't been to the lake in a long while." She half smiled. I nodded and smiled as well, taking her hand so she wouldn't have to walk. She got on my back and I ran there at vampire speed. We finally arrived. This was a night where the stars were out, and they would shimmer on the lake beautifully.

We sat on the grass looking up at the stars, and occasionally staring at each others eyes for a long while. I'd steal a kiss here and there as she'd do the same. She'd cuddle close to me. I could feel her forgiveness, which made me even happier.

"Jazz… I'm sorry about everything. It's just that. I don't want to lose another baby, and I guess the fact that it was ours, is what made it even worse for me. I guess I could see why you didn't want to tell me. You always want me happy. But you do know that there will be times where I'm not always happy, Jazz." She kissed my forehead and smiled gently. Her lips were warm against my head.

"I know, I'm sorry I kept something like that from you." I held her close not wanting to let go. She began to kiss my neck as I held her close to me. She then began to giggle into my skin which felt good. "mm, what is it my love?" I asked looking at her and smiling.

"You want to know something that I want to do really bad?" Hmm this a very exciting question.

"What is it, Bells?" I asked

"How cold do you think the water is right now?" I looked at her confused, where was she going with this?

"Well, considering it's spring right not I would say pretty cold, why?" I asked curiously.

"I really want to jump in badly." She laughed. I didn't realize that she was serious

"No, way." I smiled excitedly. " Wait, you can swim right?" I asked quickly.

"Yeah, we should go jump in, why not?" She questioned, and I agreed. Finally we're having that best bud fun that we used to have.

"Wow, you turned out to be a lot of fun, Bella. Sure, why not?" I smiled and kissed her cheek as we got up, to face the tip of the lakes edge. Bella was still standing there, hesitating. "You're sure you don't mind getting your clothes wet?" I asked before she jumped in and started to regret getting that beautiful dress soaked , and not to mention dirty.

" Well, maybe I'll take off the gown part, I have a slip underneath." She smiled taking off the long dress, leaving only what looked like a silk night gown. I must admit that it took every bit of strength I had left to keep my cool. She then jumped in and water splashed all around her. I took off my shirt then joined her and laughed as she did.

"You are something, Bella." I smiled as she swam towards me and she wrapped her around my back and clasped her hands around my chest and held onto me. Kissing my shoulder and looking into my eyes. She then swam around to my front and kissed passionately, almost like she was lingering for more and more kisses. I smiled at this and held her close, realizing she was shaking not too long after we got in. " Do, you want get out and lay down on the grass, love?" I asked kissing her head once or twice.

"Yes, please" She shivered and I carried her out and laid her on the ground. She began to kiss me as soon as I reached her level. I didn't hesitate to kiss her back. The passion grew as the night went on. I made up for everything that I screwed up that's for sure. "I love you, Bella." I kissed her one last time before she dozed off.