If you didn't notice the rating change on this story, this chapter will explain why. But first, before you read, I want to apologize for lack of posting. I have been so sick for the past three weeks and no one knows what is wrong with me. Sorry to bore you but I wanted to explain myself. I vow to make it up to you with some serious posting. Thank you everyone for supporting me and reading my story, it means a lot. Thank you to caskettshipper3, you know why I am thanking you, for everything. Thank you Erin for making me push my boundaries. Thank you Alicakes and Stephanie for being surprised by my writing but supporting me by helping me feel comfortable with writing stuff like this. And thanks Jennifer for sharing my story, that meant the world to me. Thank you readers and the awesome ones who leave inspiring comments, I write for you. With love, Always, ChelseaMarieC

Part 11

"I can't believe you dragged me back to the city before September." Rick leaned against the hallway while she opened her door.

"Calm down. I'm just getting a couple of things, we're not staying. Do you really think I am ready to say goodbye to the Hamptons already? If you say yes, I will never have sex with you again." She leaned on her unlocked door and waited for him to step closer.

"That would be a tragedy Ms. Beckett. As is, I'm looking forward to spending the rest of the summer with you, finding out everything that you are capable of." And with that he pushed her further into the door, demanding her mouth. He opened the door, ushering them inside her dark apartment. He kicked the door shut after him and began to tear at her clothes.

First off came his jacket and hers. Then he yanked her t-shirt off and over her head. She unzipped his pants and let him unbutton his shirt. He silently cursed those buttons. Their mouths never left each other's. Her tongue suckled along his and she felt his moan in her mouth.

Once they were stripped of their clothes, he picked her up and carried her to her bedroom. Her legs wrapped around his waist and their naked bodies were pressed firmly together. This was what was meant to happen. All along. They were so woven together the minute they saw each other, even if they didn't realize it. This was supposed to happen. They were each other's Always.

"Rick, condom?" He slid her back onto her bed and took the one she held out for him. He slid it on, slightly difficult to do, and climbed back on top of her. "Glad we came home?" And she didn't need to say more. He kissed her everywhere possible, some spots longer than others. She moaned and let him fill her. She rose her chest to his and every time they collided, their bodies melted together.

"Kate… Kate…" He let her finish with him and held onto her while she did so. Every flick of her tongue made him grow more aroused. He didn't hide the way she made him feel. Every twitch of his body or moan, let her know what she was doing, was really working for him.

And with one last suck, she pulled back and let him ooze with pleasure. He pulled her mouth to his and they sucked on each other's lips and tongues. This by far was their most intense night of love making. They ignored the worries of rushing with each other and lived in the moment. After she explored him, he slid down and returned the favor. His lips met hers one last time before going to work. She held his head in her lap and let out happy sighs and moans while his tongue did things to her no one had ever done before. She never would have let anyone do what she was allowing him to do. He pushed into her with all his might and her legs quaked, squeezing his head as she did so.

"Rick! Rick!" But he didn't pull back and she eased into him. His mouth pulled away from her and they fell back, side by side. Their breathing was ragged and their chests lifted up and down. He watched her breasts move with every deep breath she took in. Then, even though they were out of breath, he pulled her lips to his and begged for more of her. Her tongue slid along his and she felt the goose bumps rise back on their flesh as they went for each other again.

He pulled her body on top of his and she happily straddled him. His hands pulled on her back to lower her body to his as he brought himself into her again. Their mouths tore at each other in a mad frenzy. Even though they were as close as two people could get, they somehow wanted more. It's not that they weren't satisfied with that they had, they just needed more, desired more. His hands pulled on her backside and he slid her closer to him. He gave her one last thrust and then she slid off him.

"Do… you… think… that, we will ever be bored of each other?" Her breathing was so rough that her words barely got out.

"What do you mean?" He leaned on his elbow and turned on his side. He watched her turn to him as well.

"Like, with us having sex. Is that all we are?" Deep down, she felt more in tune with him than with herself. She wanted to share every little thing she may have been holding back from him. She cared for him so much but she wasn't sure she should share that. What if he ran?

"Are you kidding me? Kate, I have loved you for so long. I have shared myself with you more than I have ever shared with anybody else. And I don't just mean sharing my body with you, I mean personal stuff. I could only share that with someone I am madly in love with. No one, and I mean no one, knows how I truly ever feel. Well, no one besides my mom and Alexis but I think you get the picture. Even I don't share with them what I share with you." His arm pulled her closer to him.

"You don't think we are rushing things? I don't want to move too fast because what if you…" Her words stopped and she could no longer look at him without feeling like a child. She slid off the bed and headed to the kitchen. Her footsteps slapped against the wood floors, and his were not far behind.

"What if I what? And do you feel like we are rushing things? I don't but if you do…" He hovered by her as she studied the contents of her fridge instead of looking at him.

"I don't feel like we are rushing things. I just don't want you to run from me. What if after you learn all about me, you stop caring? What if I'm not as interesting as you like to think. What happens when you find that out?" She closed her fridge and leaned her bare body against the cool door.

"Kate, I could never be bored of you. And I want to spend the rest of my life learning all those little things about you. I could never not care about you. Kate, I'm in love with you. Not just the idea of you, you. I love how you bite your lip when you're nervous. I love how your eyebrows pull in when you are studying the murder board. I love when you answer your phone you pull lips together. I love how you run your fingers through your hair when you get frustrated. And I love that no matter what, you fight. I love you Kate. And nothing, no one could change that, not even you." He watched her look at him, with a confused face. "Don't give me that face. I know you, when you get close, you want to run and push people away. You aren't scared about me pushing you away, you're scared that you'll push me away."

"That isn't true. And by the way, did you mean what you said about loving me?" She crossed her arms and uncrossed them in a matter of seconds.

"Yes it is and yes I did. Kate, you don't have to hide from me. I've seen all of your pieces and I'm still here." Then he pulled her into his arms and held her to him. She relented and clung to him like a lifesaver. She wasn't sure why she did that, it had always been. But she never hated herself more for pushing him away. She didn't want to, in fact she wanted to be as close as you possibly could be to a person, but that didn't stop her from doing it anyway.

"I'm sorry. I don't mean to do that especially with you. I don't know how to stop it." She allowed herself to shed those few tears she was holding back. And it didn't matter if she showed herself being vulnerable with him, it was Rick.

"Don't apologize. Just know that I won't let you run from me. Does that help?" He watched her nod then let her kiss him.

"Thank you. I love you Rick." She grabbed at his bare back and just relished in the moment that they were creating. She was completely vulnerable with him, both physically and emotionally.

They were both startled by the ringing of her home phone. "Shit!" It was mutually felt. He let her go and laughed at her. "You still answer your home phone."

"Shut up! You still have one even if you don't use it." She grabbed the cord phone and immediately answered it the way she always did. "This is Kate."

"Girl! Man am I glad that I got ahold of you. Seriously. I know you aren't doing the whole cell phone thing but I had to try something." Lanie's voice calmed down with every second she was talking to Kate.

"Lanie. Relax. But you lucked out, what's up?" Kate watched as Rick tensed just at Lanie's name.

"I have a fresh one and the boys can't come down to check it out, will you pay a quick visit?"

Kate looked at Rick and felt a ping in her chest. She promised him. And she knew herself better than to just check something out and not get involved in the case. Once she was in, she was in it for the long hull. She wanted more of Rick, she wasn't quite ready for work again. But what should she do?

MORE TO COME…