Here's the last chapter! Please review I possible and thanks to all who have done throughout x -Sophie x

1.11.14

I can't do this anymore.

My life, my job- it's just too much.

I've been reported to social services for child abuse. And deep down, I know that they're actually right. All I ever seem to do is shout at her, and shout at her. She deserves better than me.

So this is it. This is my note.

No-body wants me here, I know that. Nobody cares, so I'm going to do you all a favour and leave. But before I go, there's a few things I want to say.

Firstly, to my dearest Grace. Darling, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I failed you, I really am. I love you more than anything else in the world, and I hope you have a much better life with daddy and grandma. You deserve the world my sweetheart, and I just can't give it to you. I have always loved you, and I always will. Don't worry, I'll be looking over you every step of the way.

Secondly, to Zoe. I realise now how much of a bitch I've been, and how you really didn't deserve it. You were a brilliant clinical lead, much better than me. I underestimated you and what an amazing member of the team you are. Look after them Zoe. I know you asked me to do that, but how could I when I couldn't even look after myself? They're an amazing lot, and I did care about each and every one of them. Tell Tess I'm sorry for pushing her and that she's an amazing member of the team. Tell Ash I'm sorry for putting him through everything. Tell Dixie and Ian to carry on their amazing work, and tell Rita I'm proud of her and what she's managed to achieve. Tell Lofty and Max that they're just as important to the department as anyone else, and tell Charlie that I couldn't have lasted so long without him. Tell Noel, Louise and Big Mac that they have the best people skills I've ever seen, and the ED couldn't work without them. Tell Lily she's an amazing doctor and I wish her all the best for the future, and tell Ethan he's one of the sweetest men I have ever met. And finally, tell Cal to look after this Taylor I've heard so much about. He's a good guy deep down, and he deserves happiness. That's why I never gave into his advances.

And lastly, to you- my diary, for being there for me. I've decided to name you Lola- it means "Lady of sorrows". You see, it feels like I'm talking to someone who understands, who knows what I've been going through. Lola is also what I was going to name Gracie, until Sam put his foot down.

So Lola- thankyou. For everything.

For the last time,

Yours,

Connie x

So, did you get the P.S'? They were a countdown to her death!