Beni's Pov: I was lying down on my bed in my apartment staring at the ceiling... I still cant let go of the fact that the entire worlds has been saved a year from tomorrow. Its hard to believe that I actually have friends now. I was wearing my knee length icy blue night gown with a ribbon at the back. "Your not good enough." my self conscious beated "there all pretending to like you." the only source of light I had was a small candle that dimmed my room. The candle reminded me of life and how short it was. "You don't need friends to survive." it said "They think your worthless." the feeling of neglect was taking over me. I want to feel Gen's soft warm hands being wrapped around me. He along with Guren were the only ones who could resurrect my happiness. I remember... the day my father died.. it scar me for life that I never cared until his existence faded... that I never got to say that I loved him.
Flashback (One Year Ago)
Beni's Pov: I was sitting at the waiting room of the hospital with my head hung low, my bangs covering my eyes. My father had lung cancer and was having surgery. Why did I even bother showing up? He never held me close to him.. he not once had made me smile.. but the fear of being alone had gotten to me "What's wrong?" a familiar soothing voice asked. I lifted my head to see Guren giving me a concerning look. I smiled weakly "Nothing..." He raised a eyebrow and sat next to me "I know there's something on your mind. Whatever it is I wont leave your side." my cheeks turned a bright pink returning a thank you expression. Guren smiled softly "Don't worry to much Beni, Im sure everything will be alright." he said reassuring me. I could tell that he himself was afraid his eyes started trembling not to mention that he had no clue what was going on. "Beni." Guren called softly biting his lower lip nervously "Do you mind telling me what's going on." I took a breath and crossed my arms "I told you there's nothing wrong." he grew silent and held his hands together.
"Hn, you seem rather lonely." a very familiar voice spoke. Guren smiled softly "took you long enough Gen." He rolled his yes and sat on the left side of me while Guren sat on the right. He looked at me with a worried expression "let me guess family issues." I nodded slowly and sighed "My dad is suffering with lung cancer.." Guren's eyes widened "Oh Beni.." he said sullen. I smiled at him weakly and giggled "Don't worry he has many heath problems and usually situations turn out alright in the end." Guren made a curious expression "I wonder how long we have to wait here?" Gen folded his arms "I guess until we know the outcome." Did your studies of Quarton mean more then your own daughter? Was I of any importance to you? I felt like a stupid bitch worrying about some rodents life. I smirked and chuckled "Hn why did I even bother showing up for someone who was meant to die. His life was meaningless.. in my eyes he will forever be known as the bastard who didn't spend time with his own daughter.. such a waste of space in this world. A father who deserves to go to.." Gen slapped my face hardly and growled "Enough Beni! his life was brought into this world for a reason. I know you and your dad aren't on good terms and that he paid more attention to Quarton. But that doesn't give you the right to curse him!"
My eyes widened from the amount of pain against my cheek my blood began to boil "Gen you idiot!" I screamed loudly "You don't understand anything! He wasn't even a father to me! You would say the same thing if your dad was going to die!" Gens bangs covered his eyes "My father commit suicide when I was young.. you should be grateful that both of your parents are still alive." his voice sounded hurt but angry "you never changed Beni your hearts still as hard as stone." I took a deep breath and hugged Guren. He looked at me with shock and disappointment but pulled me close to his chest. I could hear his heart beat race, his chest was warm and brought tears to my eyes. The only person who held me this close was my mother his arms were wrapped around me like a blanket "Gen." He said "there was no need to slap her with such force. She's in a lot of pain." Gen rolled his eyes and said "Your going to easy on her Guren." He turned his head to me "stop acting defenseless and weak in front of Guren." I clutched on to Guren's shirt and buried my face deep in to his chest.
Gen was a bastared... a low life who should've been murdered. A doctor with chocolate brown wavy long hair approached us with her left glove covered with blood "The surgery was a fail.. he died in the middle of it but.." She grabbed a small silver coated necklace out of her pocket. The necklace had a cross attached to it "he wanted you to hold on to this." she handed the necklace to Guren who placed it on to my hand. "Ms. Beni" the doctor said "he has mentioned that you were a special key chain to him. Your life is even more precious then his very own. the thought of you had made him teary eyes. He felt lousy and ungrateful for leaving you in the cold." I looked up to the doctor who was on the verge of tears "All he wants is for his daughter to smile and enjoy life." I released my grip on Guren and sat up "Is that so? Is that really how my father feels about me. or are you just saying that for me to care about him?' the doctor looked down and replied "I would never lie to anyone." I stood up and threw the necklace at Gen "Keep it you low life! It was about time he died! Now my life will be more peaceful." I stormed out of the waiting room and held myself tightly.. No one understands me... I am forever alone
(End of Flashback)
I wiped away the tears that were racing down my face. Guren.. I want to see you again.. you were the only one who filled my heart with joy.