Alex was sitting on the couch, rolling her wedding rings around her finger, thinking about everything that was going on right now. She looked to the side, startled from her thoughts as she heard the doorbell. She got to her feet and walked over and peered into the peep hole, getting a funny feeling in her stomach as she saw Maggie and Hayden waiting in the hallway. She took a deep breath, before she opened the door. "Hey," Alex smiled at her wife before looking down to her daughter. "Morning monkey."

"Hi Mummy," Hayden shouted excitedly. "We is here."

"Yeah, I see," Alex ruffled Hayden's hair as she'd leaned forward and hugged her leg. "Uh, come in." Alex looked back to Maggie and moved to the side, letting Maggie into the apartment. Hayden ran over to the toybox in the corner of the room as Maggie walked in.

"Emmi is over at Summer's house but this one likes the playpark and going out for lunch." Maggie said, gesturing over to Hayden who was pulling out toy after toy from the toybox.

Alex felt herself smiling a little. "Yeah, just uh…." Alex looked down on herself. "Let me get changed out of my sweats and I'll join you." Alex turned around and started to walk down to the bedroom.

"Alex," Maggie said, causing Alex to stop walking and turn around to face her again. "Did you ever drink when you were solely responsible for the kids? Or drive with them in the car when you'd had a drink?" Maggie hated she was asking her this, but the trust had been broken and she had to ensure she could trust Alex with the girls. That Alex hadn't brought drink around them or did anything with them when she was under the influence.

Alex pursed her lips as she played with her hands. "Not that I can recall."

Maggie gave a little nod, sucking in her bottom lip. "I'm pretty sure that you wouldn't ever put the kids in harm's way, but you are an alcoholic, Alex, and you're newly sober again and you are pushing back stuff that you need to be dealing with and are still going through a lot," Maggie told her. "I guess I'm just scared that you could…" Maggie averted her gaze from her wife.

"I won't," Alex shook her head. "I might want too, but I won't because if I relapsed again then I know I really would lose everything," Alex told her. "I can't just keep getting chances. It's not fair on you or the girls," Alex said. "I just hope that this chance is still…that we're…." Alex stopped talking, looking downwards.

"Hey," Maggie stepped forward, her hand lightly rubbing Alex's arm. "We are still working on us," Maggie assured her, Alex facing her wife again. Maggie saw tears in Alex's eyes. She understood why she'd be so emotional right now. There was a lot going on and Alex wasn't dealing with it in the best way. "Sweetie, it's going to be okay," Maggie enveloped Alex in a hug. Alex held tightly onto her wife, her head resting down against Maggie's shoulder, Maggie lightly rubbing Alex's back. "You gained my trust once and you'll get it again," Maggie told her, still rubbing her back. "And I know it all wasn't entirely your fault and that the PND counts for a lot of what you did, but surely you can still see that I'd feel hurt by the drinking and the lying regardless of how it came to be."

"Yeah," Alex lifted her head up to face Maggie again. "You asked me countless times if I needed help. If I was drinking, and I…." Alex trailed off, shaking her head. "I still wasn't honest. I didn't ask for the help that I needed, and in the end, I…." Alex eventually more or less got caught other than coming clean when she thought she'd come home still drunk from her night with Beth.

"Well I guess there's no point on dwelling on that time," Maggie said. "We uh…we got you help and you are sober, and I see you are trying," Maggie told her. "And now, I need to cut you some slack and stop punishing you and -"

"No, Maggie," Alex shook her head. "You've done nothing wrong, okay. You…" Alex pursed her lips. "You have a right to feel hurt but maybe now we can just move forward. I know I need to talk about the ra…." Alex stopped talking, not able to bring herself to say the word. "We talk. We keep talking and I mean, I really will talk this time. Like I'll properly tell you how I feel and things."

"Sounds good." Maggie gave a little smile as she nodded.

"Uh." Alex looked across the room to Hayden, knowing now wasn't the time to talk.

"Take her to the park," Maggie told her. "Emmi needs picked up at 4. You can hang out with the girls and then you can take them for dinner," Maggie suggested. "Hayden will love it if she gets taken out for lunch and dinner on the same day," Maggie glanced over at Hayden who was building something with the Duplo bricks. "Bring them home in time for Hayden's bedtime and we can spend some time with Emmi because she needs it," Maggie said, tucking her hair behind her ear as she spoke. "Then when we send her up to bed we can talk." Maggie suggested, Alex giving a little nod, liking the plans.

"You can come," Alex told her. "We can take her to the park together."

"No, it's okay. I uh….I'll let you spend some time with her. I'll go do some errands and stuff…" Maggie pointed towards the door before looking back in Hayden's direction. "Right monkey, Mama is going so you have fun with Mummy okay?" Hayden just nodded her head, to engrossed in her building to look up to her mama. "See you later." Maggie looked back to Alex as she spoke.

"Yeah," Alex nodded, looking into Maggie's deep brown eyes. "See you." Alex said, the pair of them gazing at each other for a moment.

"So yeah," Maggie cleared her throat. "See you tonight." Maggie said before she let herself out of the apartment, hoping they'd be able to make some progress when Alex came around to talk.

Maggie walked into the office, waving as she saw Officer Hall. He gestured for her to come across, so Maggie walked over to him. "I thought you had the weekend off." Hall said, putting his pen down and stopping the paperwork he was doing.

"I do," Maggie answered. "I'm not here," Hall gave a little nod of understanding. "Dickhead not around?" Maggie looked around the room, like she was searching for Johnson.

"He is out to lunch," Hall answered, following Maggie's gaze as she looked down to his desk, looking at the files. "Nothing yet." Hall knew why Maggie had turned up and why she was looking around his desk.

"Wanna go for a drink?" Maggie questioned.

"I'm in the middle of my shift." Hall looked a little confused at her question.

"Yeah," Maggie exhaled. "I was thinking Shorty's would be a good place to go." Maggie said, her eyebrow raising suggestively.

"Right uhm," Hall looked unsure. "Johnson will be pissed if he finds out."

"You think I care what that dickhead thinks?" Maggie questioned. "The longer we don't find this woman the more chance she has of doing this again to some other poor woman and it's going to take my wife longer to deal with what happened to her."

Hall looked sorry for Maggie. "You think she'll talk if she's arrested?"

"Who? Alex or the date-rape bitch?" Maggie questioned.

"Alex," Hall answered as he stood to his feet. He'd go with Maggie to check out the bar. That was probably going to be the most likely place they'd find her, so they had to keep checking there. "I figure she's not talking right now."

"No," Maggie answered. "And that's why we need to find this bitch, so she can focus on all the stuff she needs too." Maggie hoped that once the woman was caught, Alex would start working though everything.

"Well we best get to this bar then," Hall started walking out of the office, Maggie following after him. "What do we tell Johnson if we do find her?" Hall questioned. "You're not supposed to be on the case," Hall said as they walked out of the building and into the car park. "Oh wow." Hall widened his eyes as he saw Supergirl standing in the middle of the car park.

"What you looking so surprised for?" Maggie questioned, looking up to Hall's face, the man looking super impressed with the woman standing before them.

"It's Supergirl." Hall said, his gaze on her as he didn't blink.

"You've worked with her plenty." Maggie told him.

"Yeah but she is hot. Don't you think she is hot?" Hall questioned.

"Just get in the car," Maggie hit Hall in the chest before she walked over to Supergirl. "You uh….you looking for me?" Maggie questioned.

"What's your problem?" Kara asked, her arms folded across her chest.

"Excuse me?" Maggie said, looking a little confused.

"Alex," Kara told her. "How can you kick her out when she is dealing with so much?" Kara questioned.

"Firstly, I didn't kick her out," Maggie replied. "We agreed it was needed right now. That time apart would be good for us." Maggie told her sister-in-law.

"Yeah, when you thought she cheated," Kara retorted. "But you've since discovered she didn't and she was raped," Kara said. "She needs you Maggie. I can't get her to talk and Eliza can't," Kara shook her head. "She needs her supportive wife, so if you could let me know where she has gone, that'd be great."

"I'm still here," Maggie raised her voice a little. "We are still talking and she can talk to me about anything she wants and she knows that," Maggie told her. "But, Kara, it's not as simple as that and you know it. Yes, I know she had PND, but she's still lost my trust. She lied to me, she was sneaking around drinking, she didn't take the offer of help when I was there for her and now look what's happened," Maggie said. "The trust has gone, and I'm hurt that she didn't feel like she could talk to me. I asked her countless times if she needed help and not just for the drinking but just so she'd start talking and she…." Maggie trailed off, shaking her head. "I love your sister so much, Kara. I just need to gain some trust back." Maggie assured her.

"Then let her come home. She needs to be with you. You can still get that back when she is at home," Kara pointed out. "And all of this was because of the PND. An illness, Maggie. It's not her fault. Okay, I get there could be trust issues now, but deep down you have to know it's not her fault."

"It doesn't matter about who's at fault anymore. The trust has gone regardless and what matters is us working on getting it back." Maggie glanced at the car, Hall waiting patiently for her.

"Something more important than this chat?" Kara questioned. "Weren't you supposed to have the weekend off?"

"Yeah, technically I'm off. I'm not really here," Maggie answered. "We are going to check out the bar in Alex's case though. I can't sit back and let that dickhead Johnson do nothing."

"Why is he not doing anything?" Kara questioned.

"He's a homophobic dickhead that's why." Maggie muttered.

"Okay, well I'll come with you." Kara said, starting to walk over to the car.

"Wait, Kara," Maggie tugged on her arm, causing Kara to stop and turn back to face her. "How are we going to explain Supergirl coming on this case? You want me to tell him you are my sister-in-law?"

Kara shrugged. "I know Alex well because I worked with her a lot when she was out on missions," Kara suggested. "I care and want this woman stopped. I have good senses so maybe I can use my powers to find this woman." Kara said.

"Yeah, he'll buy that. He'll probably be too excited about the fact you are coming with us to even care why you are there," Maggie murmured. "Just one thing, Kara," Maggie said, Kara staring down at her. "If she is there, don't go all Supergirl on her. We want her going down on the maximum penalty so just kept it together," Maggie warned, Kara scrunching her nose, looking a little offended. "No Supergirl strength on her."

"Sure," Kara sighed. "Let's hope this woman is there though. If we can get her then hopefully it will give Alex some peace."

"At least that's one thing we agree on right now." Maggie murmured as they made their way over to the car, hoping that they'd be lucky in their search at the bar.

Officer Hall, Maggie and Kara had been sitting in the bar for almost an hour. Kara had gotten a few stares from the people who were already in the bar drinking, them clearly wondering why Supergirl was in the bar. "Probably going to have to get back to the precinct," Hall said, glancing at his watch. "We could be waiting hours and hours and her still not be here."

"Well you can go back if you want," Maggie said, looking over to the door as two women walked in. Kara turned her gaze to look at them, but Maggie shook her head, both of them red heads and not the woman they were looking for. "I'm staying longer."

"Look, Maggie," Hall exhaled lightly, swirling the little cola he had left around the bottom of the glass. "I know you want to get her after what she did to your wife, but Johnson took you off the case. What exactly are you going to do if she does turn up?"

"Arrest the bitch," Maggie retorted. "I'll just tell that jackass that I just happened to bump into her while he was too busy not caring about the case." Maggie spoke with venom in her voice, clearly angry with how Johnson was handling the situation.

Hall raised his eyebrows as he stared at Kara. "Don't look at me like that," Kara said. "I'm with her."

"Fair enough," Hall sighed. "I can't just leave you in this dodgy ass bar though."

Maggie sniggered. "I'll be okay."

"Well you are with Supergirl, right enough." Hall looked to Kara with twinkly eyes.

Maggie rolled her eyes. "Don't you have a wife?"

Hall cleared this throat, averting his gaze from Kara. "See you at work tomorrow," Hall told her before he quickly glanced at Kara again. "Supergirl, always a pleasure."

"Ethan," Kara smiled at him before he walked away, leaving Maggie and Kara in the bar. "So," Kara looked back to Maggie. "Maybe we could play pool?"

Maggie glared at Kara. "You want to play pool with me?"

Kara shrugged. "Well, just makes it look like we are here for a reason."

"It's a bar," Maggie answered. "Pretty sure the fact we are having a drink is a good enough reason for being here." Maggie said, picking up her beer and taking a drink.

"Alright," Kara exhaled. "It was just a suggestion."

"I know, sorry," Maggie sighed lightly, running her hand over her forehead. "This is just getting to me. It's like she's just disappeared off the face of the Earth. All 5 women said they met her at this bar and we've been every day this week and…." Maggie trailed off, shaking her head.

"Yeah," Kara pursed her lips. "But Maggie, we will find her. We won't stop till we do," Kara said. "Someone in here is bound to know her," Kara looked around before her eyes settled on the barman. "Like, he'll probably know who she is."

"Yeah but we have no real picture of her and she keeps changing her name," Maggie reminded Kara. "He doesn't know a Beth or a Mandy or Jessie or Laura or a Natalie," Maggie ran through the list of names. "Honestly, it's like she's just vanished."

"Maybe you are looking for someone who can easily hide herself." Kara suggested.

"Huh?" Maggie scrunched her face up a little.

"C'mon, Maggie, you're smart," Kara told her. "And you are currently in the company of a…." Kara stopped talking, pointing to herself as she spoke.

"You think she could be an alien?" Maggie questioned, realising what Kara was getting at.

Kara shrugged. "I'm just saying maybe it's a possibility and it wouldn't hurt to check the DEO database," Kara said, Maggie giving a little nod, knowing that it was at least worth a look. "Maybe that's why its so hard to track her down," Kara said. "Maybe she is an alien and she knows you are looking for her so she's avoiding the bar." Kara suggested.

"I guess. Maybe." Maggie mumbled, knowing that they had nothing to lose in checking for her on the DEO alien database because it wasn't looking likely right now that they'd find her by just hanging out at the bar.

Alex, Maggie and Emmi had just finished watching the live action Beauty and the Beast. After Alex had put Hayden to bed, they'd baked brownies with Emmi and at Emmi's request, they'd watched a movie together. "Right," Maggie looked down to her. "Bedtime."

"Aw Mama no," Emmi pouted. "Let me stay up longer." Emmi pleaded, her hands clasping together.

"You've already got to stay up later than usual and you've got school tomorrow, so c'mon, up you go." Maggie told her.

"Can I read my book?" Emmi questioned as she jumped off the couch.

"For 10 minutes," Maggie told her, knowing she'd probably sneak a little read, no matter what her answer was. "And I mean 10 minutes. Mum will come up and make sure it's lights out, okay?" Maggie said as Emmi leaned down, giving her a goodnight hug and kiss.

"Okay, night Mama. I love you." Emmi said as she pulled back.

"I love you more." Maggie responded.

"I love you most," Emmi told her, before looking to Alex, leaning down to give her a hug and kiss too. "Love you most too, Mum."

"Goodnight sweetie. I love you," Alex told her, giving her a tight squeeze as she kissed her again. "I'll be up soon." Alex said as Emmi pulled back. She glanced at Alex and Maggie for a moment, a little smile on her face.

"Okay." Emmi said before she ran out of the room.

Alex and Maggie looked around to each other, both of them wondering if they should start talking. "Uhm…" Maggie pursed her lips, rolling her rings around her finger. "I'm sorry."

Alex looked confused. "What are you sorry for, exactly?"

Maggie looked around to Alex. They were both sitting on the couch, but there was a gap between them where Emmi had been sitting. "Maybe I'm being a bit tough on you. Harsh." Maggie shrugged.

"No, Maggie," Alex shook her head as she leaned across, her hand going on Maggie's thigh. "I broke the trust and you are allowed to feel how you do."

Maggie glanced down to Alex's hand that was lingering on her thigh. She sucked in her bottom lip as she looked back to Alex. "I thought that maybe tough love was the way to go. The way to get you to talk, but…." Maggie trailed off, shaking her head. "I tried for months to get you to talk and that clearly didn't go well, so I…" Maggie let a puff of air escape between her lips. "I guess I thought I'd try a different approach."

"Maybe it kinda worked," Alex twisted her lip. "I know that I'm not going to get anywhere without talking," Alex told her. "It just felt easier not to," Alex admitted. "You get me?"

"Oh yeah," Maggie nodded her head. "But not talking never really works."

"Nope," Alex removed her hand from Maggie's thigh and rubbed her hands together as she spoke. "I think that the most important thing I need to talk about is uh…" Alex paused, taking a deep breath. "What she did." Alex was still rubbing her hands together, looking nervous.

"Alex," Maggie leaned over and put her hand on Alex's arm. "If you are not ready, don't. I don't want you to push yourself."

"No, I…I need to do this." Alex told her.

"I just want you to talk, Alex. If you feel more comfortable talking about this with Kara or Rachel or Sadie, then talk to them," Maggie said. She gathered she wouldn't want to talk to her mother about this. "Okay, just that you start talking is what's needed."

"I think it needs to be you," Alex said. "Uh…you are my wife and the person I'm hoping to be intimate with again, so…" Alex cleared her throat.

"Sweetie that's…." Maggie sucked in her bottom lip. She missed the intimacy with her wife. It had been around 10 months since they'd had sex. "That'll come back in its own time," Maggie said. "You just need to focus on your feelings right now." Maggie reached out to touch her, but stopped herself, because they were talking about her rape and Maggie wasn't sure how comfortable Alex would be with the contact.

"Yeah," Alex took a deep breath. "Uh…a couple nights ago, I had a dream or more like a nightmare, or well I guess it was a flashback, a memory," Alex twisted her lip. "I was in her bedroom. She was pulling at my shirt," Alex started pinching at the skin on her wrist as she spoke. Maggie wanted to stop her, but again, she didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable. "I told her I had a Maggie," Alex said. "I guess I was trying to say I had a wife," Alex pursed her lips. "She uh…she said it's okay and she pushed me down to the bed," Alex's voice was quivering as she spoke. "I remember her kissing my neck and then she…" Alex looked downward, still pinching her wrist.

"It's okay, Alex," Maggie told her. "Can I?" Maggie tentatively brought her hand out. She needed to show her some comfort. Alex nodded lightly, and Maggie took Alex's hand, stopping her from pinching her wrist. She gave her a gentle squeeze, her thumb rubbing over her palm. "We've made a start. Don't push yourself." Maggie knew it would be hard for Alex and that she was struggling with the conversation.

"I just want to stop feeling like this," Alex told her. "I want to stop feeling so ashamed."

"Hey, you have nothing to feel ashamed about." Maggie assured her.

"I'm a DEO Agent," Alex reminded her. "I may not be out working missions very much anymore, but I should have been strong enough and had the skills to stop her."

"No, don't do this to yourself," Maggie said, still rubbing her hand. "You had been drinking and you were drugged," Maggie reminded her. "You were not in control. You couldn't help yourself, Alex, she was…" Maggie took a deep breath. "You have nothing to feel ashamed about." Maggie said again, because she wanted to make sure Alex knew it wasn't her fault and there was no need to be ashamed.

"No?" Alex stared Maggie in the eyes. "I feel ashamed about everything," Alex confessed. "About closing off from you, about not being able to safely carry Carter, about not being strong enough to resist the urge to drink." Alex stopped talking but Maggie knew she could go on and add more to the list.

"None of that is your fault," Maggie told her. "With Carter it was just…" Maggie shook her head. "You did nothing wrong."

"I don't know if I am ever going to not feel responsible." Alex admitted.

"Well, you should know it wasn't down to you and I don't blame you so there's no reason why you should be blaming yourself," Maggie kept rubbing her hand. She didn't like the conversation topics, but they were needed so that they could move on. "You know I don't blame you, right?" Maggie worried that maybe she'd pulled away because she thought that she blamed her for their son being stillborn.

"I know you don't," Alex said. "But we wanted another baby and I failed to…" Alex took a deep breath. "I'm so sorry I let you down." Alex's voice broke as a tear escaped her eye.

"No, no, no," Maggie spoke softly as she shook her head. "Alex, you haven't."

"I was awful to you. You were trying so hard to keep us together and keep us strong and then the girls," Alex said, looking into Maggie's eyes as she wiped tears from her cheeks. "You didn't get any time to grieve because you were too busy looking after them and helping Emmi understand what happened and trying to get me to talk and….I'm so sorry. I did let you down. I really screwed everything up and I'm sorry. I'm so, so, sorry." Alex broke down into tears.

"Come here." Maggie murmured as she moved closer to Alex on the couch. Alex leaned against Maggie, Maggie wrapping her arms around her and holding her tightly as she let out tears that needed to fall, Maggie knowing that right now, holding Alex as she cried out some of her tears over everything was the best thing she could do.

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