It was Santana's lunch break and so she sat in her usual nook outside in the courtyard. Michelle had called the office not long ago when Santana was with another call. She left a message saying she was heading to the apartment instead of meeting her at the office and that she would see her when she got home. Santana often came to this nook in the courtyard to do her thinking. She was best when left in complete silence because she has always been easily distracted. She sat there doing a play by play of every situation that could happen when she was to tell Michelle things were over between them. Just as she was going through what seemed like the worst case scenario in her head, Michelle popped up in front of her. Santana whipped her headphones out of her ears and stood up to give Michelle a hug.

"What are you doing here?! I thought you were going straight to the apartment..."

"I thought I'd surprise you, the office told me I could find you down here".

"Yeah, it's my little nook. It's where I come to do my thinking".

"What are you thinking about?"

"...nothing really specific. I'm happy to see you".

She went in for another awkward hug but she could tell something was wrong. She felt Michelle being distant which made her think she knew what was going on.

"So I heard from the office that you have been off for a few days..."

"Michelle...I can explain".

"Explain what?"

"When Quinn went into a coma I freaked out. Brittany was so sad and I didn't want to leave her, she needed someone there with her".

"So you lied to me about it?"

"I didn't exactly lie".

"Santana, you told me work was busy when I talked to you on the phone not long ago. Meanwhile you were living it up in New Haven with your ex-girlfriend from high school".

"She's just a friend Michelle".

"Is she?! Last time I checked you stopped talking to her because she broke your heart".

"Exactly. That doesn't mean I'd abandon her when another best friend of ours got into a car accident".

"How's Quinn now?"

"She's awake but you knew that already, she gets out of the hospital soon".

"Why didn't you come home and back to work when you found out she was going to be okay?"

"Because they're my friends and I wanted to be sure they were both alright before I left".

"So while Quinn laid there in a hospital bed recovering, what were you doing?"

"I was there most of the time".

"And the other times?"

"Brittany let me stay at their place".

"Oh I see...did she let you sleep in her bed too?!"

"Oh come on Michelle! You really think I would do that?! Go behind your back and shack up with my ex...I slept in the guest room if you must know and never once did we sleep together".

"I bet it took every ounce of your morality to keep your hands off her. You don't think I know...you love her Santana! You always have! I'm just someone you decided to use in order to try and get over her. And I'm the stupid one who fell for your charming ways".

"That's not true!"

"Which part? The part where I call myself stupid? Or the part where I said you love her and always have?"

Santana went completely silent. She may not have run through this scenario in her head but it was happening right now. Not exactly how she expected to spend the last twenty minutes of her lunch hour.

"Can we talk about this later?" asked Santana.

"Why not now? It'd make it a lot easier for me if we just did this now".

"Because this isn't how I pictured it".

"Pictured what?...are you breaking up with me?!"

"Michelle...please..."

"You're totally breaking up with me!"

"Go home and I'll see you there".

"Home?! That's not home to me anymore!"

"Stop! You're acting like a child!"

"A child?! I thought that was you...running back into the arms of your high school sweetheart. The same exact person you said tore out your heart and spat on it! The same exact person you said you never wanted to see again. Looks like someone got reeled back in. Was it her sad puppy dog face when she thought Quinn might die? Or was it when her hand grazed against yours as you walked by her, sending sparks all over your body? God Santana! You must think I'm stupid...you've got it written all over your face. Something happened in New Haven but you're not telling me".

"Nothing happened!"

"Don't play dumb...you kissed her didn't you?"

Santana ignored Michelle's jealous rage and kept looking down at the sidewalk. This isn't how she wanted things to end, not like this.

"...didn't you?! Just stop lying! You did!"

"We didn't kiss! We didn't share I love you's! We didn't do anything! We just talked about the past and that's it! You don't have to believe me but I'm telling the truth. You know you've made this so much easier for me Michelle".

"Made what easier?"

"Letting you go..."

"So you are breaking up with me! I knew it!"

"I can't walk around like this anymore. I can't pretend like everything is okay between us because it's not. I've been hiding all these emotions from you because I didn't want to do it over the phone. I can't sit back and pretend like you being in London for another six months is making me happy at all because it's not! And yes going to New Haven made me realize that I still have feelings for Brittany but I would never act upon those feelings when I knew you and I were still together. I love you Michelle but I don't love you more than her. She may have broken my heart but I did the same to her. I could've fought for her love but instead I backed away, I moved on...I pretended like I didn't want her back. Being in New Haven with her made me realize I can't do that again. I can't run away from her because it'll be the biggest mistake of my life".

"Wow...you love me but not as much as you love her huh? That has to be the single most hurtful thing anyone could say".

"I'm sorry Michelle, I really am. But if we're being honest, it's her...it always has been".

Michelle sat down out of complete exhaustion. She had just been dumped by the prettiest girl in the world but she couldn't even be mad. She knew how much Brittany meant to Santana so she had nothing left to fight back with. She sat there in silence as Santana watched her begin to cry. Santana didn't know if it was appropriate timing to be placing an apologetic hand rub on her shoulder but she did it anyways, sending Michelle into a full upright standing position.

"You love her that much huh?"

"I love her more than anyone in this miserable stinkin' world".

Michelle lifted her head to meet eyes with Santana. She gave her a slight smirk before saying the last words she'd ever speak to Santana again.

"Make her happy".

"I will, I promise".

Michelle turned her back to Santana and walked away in tears. Santana sat in the courtyard, staring at the ground with such hurt. She didn't think it would be that hard to say goodbye to someone she had been with for just over two years. She wanted to smile so badly because she knew she could now explore those re-kindled feelings with Brittany but she couldn't. All she could think about was how much she hurt Michelle. Love truly stinks sometimes.