I'm really sorry I didn't post earlier, my computer crashed and I mean crashed.
and also my school decided that my A on one of my assignments went to a D because I missed a test because I was sick so I was running around getting doctors certificates and principle signatures and teachers letters just so I can do it, and guess what?
Tomorrow I get to do it, also another yay thing; I got my results back for my English exam…I GOT AN A! I was sooo very happy.
Edward sat back against the sleek black leather chair and furrowed his brows for the hundredth time since we'd come back to the store the two shot glasses in front of us filled to the brim with pure straight vodka that would add the burn to my throat that right now that I desired, he hadn't said anything yet and my tummy was in knots, I felt guilty although I knew I hadn't done anything logically wrong
"this is not what I needed" he uttered
I was sitting in the chair across from him, frowning. "Why would you say that? He was checking where I was, it's really not a big deal" I scoffed.
Edward laughed. "that's nice, nothing really seems to be seen as a big deal to you, so give me an example of what a big deal is, if a guy texting you the day after he was clearly trying to get you into bed and you responding whilst your out with me isn't a big deal?"
When he put it that way, it sort of sounded like I was in the wrong, but I knew I wasn't he was melodramatic.
"Did you sleep with her?" I asked, he ran his hands through his hair as though it was compulsory then paused mid stroke and cooked his brow at me
"with whom? What are you talking about?" he scrunched his face up and threw his hands up in the air
"the brunette, the one at the bar who had been eye fucking you before you walked me outside, did you go back to her and sleep with her?" I asked, cutting the bull shit, if he felt the need to point out what he thought was a big deal then I'm going to bring him down a notch or two
"excuse me?" Edward said, his voice filled with anger
"..Edward, it's pretty simple to answer"
Edward fell silent, digesting my words
"things were crazy that night you made me feel insane I couldn't even think straight, I drank a lot" probably referring to the numerous glasses that I had seen around him that night, from my perspective he was disastrous that night, but for all I know he could say the same about me
I rose my eyed to look at him directly, willing him to get to the point and answer the fucking question.
"yes." He said simply, casting his eyes down to the shot glass, I followed his eyes and leant over and picked my glass up, swallowed, felt the burn and then slammed it back down.
"that's what I classify as a big deal, you getting mad at me for a guy calling me and then later texting me, both of which you knew about and treated as though I was breaking vows and then there was you who dropped me, literally then went inside and fucked some girls brains out that has bigger boobs then IQ, so don't make yourself sound like the victim here Edward, if we're putting the cards on the table then really go ahead and lay it all out for me" I spoke calmly and I really expected myself to spit the words out, but it felt as though it was the eye of the storm just before all hell broke loose
"how are we going to turn this around?" Edward asked, playing with a loose thread on the edge of his shirt
"you need to tell me what you think is wrong and what is making you snap at me constantly and then I'll tell you, and whilst you speak I won't say anything at all, I'll sip on my chai and have a blank face then I'll do the same thing, sound okay?" I thought this would work in fact I hoped it would
Edward sat silently for a while before nodding and leaning forward resting his elbows on his knees
"jasper likes you…" I went to interrupt him clearly fucking confused about this information "he does, I don't think you realise it because you don't focus on things that don't automatically grab your attention but he does like, and I told him 'that was cool' and I didn't mean it, it makes it sound like I told him to go fuck you and I hate that I can't just say ill rip him apart if he lays a finger on you because your mine, and I hate domain? dantre? Demetri? Yeah demetri I fucking hate him, and I don't like that we can't have a conversation where we're either flirting or fighting that we can never just be at peace, I know nothing about you except that with everything serious you clutch things tighter like your doing at the moment with the cup, and you suck on the bottom of your lip, but I don't know why you're here, or when your birthday is, or if there's somebody else or what makes you so nervous that you hide it, I want to be with you but there's so much shit that we cause together" Edward frowned once he finished "yeah so that's what I had to say so go ahead…"
I took a moment to go over everything he had just said, then I spoke
"I didn't know, about the jasper liking me thing which I'm not sure about but if he did it's not a big deal, I want to rip apart the brunette or find out her name so I can facebook her and make myself feel better by calling her ugly names even though she was exotic and beautiful, and Demetri? I only took notice of him because he was the complete polar opposite of you he didn't make me question anything and you make me question even little things like if I should change what I'm wearing if you'll notice me more or if I'm sitting correctly and stupid shit like that, he was easy and his sweet and his a friend Edward a friend okay? You can't go all caveman over the opposite sex being my friend because you're my friend, I'm not going to open up easily and you haven't either so it's really a two way street, give it time but just so you know my birthday is in two days, I'm here because I couldn't be there any more, there's no body else…not anymore at least, everything makes me nervous and you revolve around that and I hate that, what even is this?" I finished with pleading eyes
"this" Edward said moving his eyes from us "is how difficult we make everything"
I sighed putting my cup down and resting my head in my hands and closing my eyes, feeling my hair cascading down over me, blocking the last remaining bits of light from shining through my eye lids
Edwards hands peeled back the fingers that were clutching my skin
"open your eyes Isabella" he spoke softly, I opened them and a sad smile graced my lips as I faced him, Edward was now kneeling on the ground in front of me
"we need time it's so obvious I've known you for a few days and everything's just too much right now, I would give so much to call you mine but right now we need to get to know each other" Edward spoke making sure not to break eye contact with me, I nodded agreeing mostly
"but we need rules or we're going to end back up where we are now" I nodded again and he leaned over the table and grabbed some post its and a pen before facing me again
"rule 1. No demetri infact no anyone that has any sort of attraction to you or you to them except me"
I laughed, he was cute and insecure and he was Edward.
"Rule 2. No skanky girls who want babies with you" I said tapping the post it making sure he wrote it down exactly
at the end we ended up with,
1. No demetri infact no anyone that has any sort of attraction to you or you to them except Edward himself
2. No skanky girls who want babies with Edward
3. No flirting unless for free chai
4. No dates
5. No fucking the brains of girls in public bathrooms or banging people with clipboards
6. Commitment without actual commitment
7. When we feel like stabbing each other, walk off
we agreed, then both signed the bottom, Edward even made photocopies.
"Am I allowed to see demetri if I'm at the club and have a conversation?" I crossed my fingers waiting for his answer because demetri was a nice guy
"well am I allowed to see the brunette?" Edward asked, and I snarled
"point taken, but in my defence I haven't fucked demetri but if you want me to even the score…" I smiled deviously
"that would be breaking rule 1, 3,4,5, do you want to do that?" I shook my head and he continued
"you can see him but just don't hurt me" he leaned towards me linking his fingers
"I won't" I didn't want to wreck my friendship or whatever this is with Edward this kind of thing can sometimes wreck a friendship especially friendship's that already have issues to begin with. Like if one person is kind of possessive or controlling or both are.
Edward sighed "we need to get back to work, I'll wait for you to finish tonight"
he looked thoughtful and he got up from the ground walking to the back room as I stood stretched and turned around as Amy walked through the door.