A/N: don't hate me! I kno its been a while! But super busy here! On the verge of failing civics! The teacher has issues…lol! So this past week was spirit week! Wooo! Wacky tacky day was awesome! Too bad homecoming was canceled cuz of rain! Grrr! N-e ways! Easily side-tracked…sorry for the wait…its hard to keep up when we have to make our own constitution! Lol! Enjoy!
My Spark of Happiness
"Push Mrs. Swan!" The room filled with Renee's screams. Phil was on her left side, holding her hand while I was at her right holding her other hand. I barely felt the pain shooting through my hand from Renee's death grip. I had so much adrenaline pumping through me, I felt as if I could win a wrestling match against Emmett!
"One more push!" Labor was brutal. Who knew 30 minutes could seem like a lifetime! Now here we are, just one moment away from being a big sister!
Then there it was. The miracle of a life. The sounds we have all been waiting for. The cries of a baby. I was no longer an only child. Mom had another child. Phil was a father.
"It's a baby boy!" Tears were streaming down my face, down Renee's face, and down Phil's face. This is the happiest moment of my life! I watched as Renee held her son for the first time.
"Mom, he's so cute! I have to go tell the others! I'll be right back." I made my way out and to the waiting room down the hallway. As soon as I turned the corner, I saw all there anxious faces. Alice and Rose jumped out of the chairs instantly.
"It's a healthy boy!" We all squealed with joy. The boys were wise to stay back until we got it out of our system! After we finished our squeal-jump parade, I ran into Jason's arms. I still had a lot of adrenaline going!
"Come one Alice and Rose! You have to see the baby!" Without another word I grabbed there arms and we ran back to the room. "Stay here. I'll go in and see if it's ok." I opened the door and closed it quietly. Renee was sitting in her bed and holding my baby brother. I love saying that! My baby brother!
"Hi mom. How's the baby?"
"Cade is great! And so cute! Look at him!" Renee was glowing just like she was on her wedding day.
"You named him Cade! I love it! Can Rose and Alice come in and see him?"
"Of course! I want them to see Cade!" I opened the door back up to see Alice and Rose standing there, looking very impatient I might add.
"Come on in guys! Baby Cade is so cute!" Alice being Alice danced into the room squealing.
"I love that name! Can I hold him?" Renee let Alice hold him and we all talked about how cute he was, who would all help out, and a way to celebrate. Which would be kind of hard considering we have a new baby. A new baby brother! I never get tired of that! We finally gave the baby back to Renee and Cade fell to sleep after a short time. Of course they wanted both Renee and Cade to stay over night. So the gang decided to head to my house.
"Why don't we head to the park? I need to run around! I still have some adrenaline pumping!" We all agreed and headed to the park. As soon as we parked, Alice ran off dragging poor little Jasper with her. Emmett, Rose, Jason , and me walked together in comfortable silence. Wait, let me repeat…Emmett, Rose, Jason…where was Edward? Where was my mind? How could I not have noticed he was missing?
"Where's Edward at?"
"He's on a date with some girl he met the other day." Rose answered.
"He's on a date." I tried to understand my feelings. Anger? Sadness? Confusion? What was that last one?
"You're not jealous are you cause you are already dating me so it shouldn't matter." Ah, yes. Jealous, that's the last one.
"Of course I'm not. Don't be silly!" Why would I be jealous when I have a wonderful boy friend?
"Bella, you're a horrible liar so just tell the truth. You're jealous that Edward is dating someone else besides you." Ouch harsh. I didn't even notice we had stopped walking until Rose mumbled something and dragged Emmett away.
"I'm not jealous Jason. I'm just a little mad that he wasn't there when my brother was born." Even this starting argument could stop the spark of happiness I got when I said my brother! No Bella, focus.
"Why should you be mad? Your boyfriend was there for it, that should be enough!" Ok, now he was making me mad.
"Don't even start with that Jason! I have ever right to want my friends to be there!"
"It's one thing to want Alice, Rose, and even Emmett there, but its another thing to want Edward there! The guy that you liked before!"
"What do you mean that I liked before? I never liked him more than a friend!" Ok, so that wasn't entirely true. I liked him before but I'm over it now, right? Wait, that's not a question. I AM over him. It was a small crush. He and I would have never dated.
"Oh come on! Everyone could see it in your eyes! The way you looked at him! You wanted to jump him ever minute you were around him!"
"I did not! Jeez! Who are you to tell me what I feel! It wasn't even none of your business!"
"You're right, it wasn't none of my business. But NOW it is! We're dating and you want to date someone else!" Ok, saying I'm ma right now would be an understatement. More like totally and completely pissed would still not be close enough!
"First, it is not your place to tell me who I like. Second, if I liked someone else, I wouldn't be dating YOU!" I was yelling by the end. We were both fuming and glaring at each other when Alice came running over.
"Jeez, you guys! People are staring! Leave the fights for home!" Jasper was walking over now.
"Alice, maybe you should leave them alone right now."
"No I shouldn't! Not with a pregnant Bella stressing! What have I told you about that? You could kill the baby!" I heard a few gasps nearby, breaking Jason and my glare. I looked over to see none other than the devil's themselves.
"Bella, Jason got you pregnant?!"
Crap.
This is definitely not how I planned on people finding out. In all their sluttish glory were Lauren and Tanya. Great, just great. How could this get any worse? Me and Jason are having our first fight, Lauren and Tanya know I'm pregnant, and they think the baby is Jason's. (A/N: can we say ironic!) School is going to suck tomorrow.
"I'm very disappointed in you Bella. And shocked that Jason would even get in the bed with you." Tanya was really helping my mood.
"Just as surprised as I am that Edward is on a date with someone besides you." Tanya's face turned to pure hatred. Mine would to if she got me that bad! Haha!
"I'm not surprised to see you're jealous even though you're dating Jason." Oh no she didn't.
"I wouldn't push me Tanya if you don't want that screwed up nose job fixed." I could hear Alice snickering from somewhere beside me.
"I would push the person who knows your deepest darkest secret, Bella." Don't stress, it's not good for the baby. Don't jump her, it could hurt the baby. Walk away. I had to repeat this a few times in my head. After a minute I turned around and headed to the car. I was screaming in my head from frustration. I am going to kill Alice, bring her back and do it again! At got into the passenger sat and slammed the door shut. Five minutes later and the rest of the crew piled in. No one talked the whole ride home. I stared out the window trying so hard to calm down. I kept repeating in my head, save it for when we get inside.
Rose spoke up when we were right around the corner form my house.
"I told Edward to come to your house after the date so he should be there." Sure enough, I saw his car parked in the driveway. We all got out just as quiet as we were during the ride. I was the first to walk through the door. I saw Edward watching TV in the living room. I walked toward the couch and turned around before sitting, knowing the one I wanted would be there.
"WHAT THE HELL ALICE?! YOU CAN'T JUST GO AROUND YELLING I'M PREGNANT! ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE MY LIFE HARDER THAN IT ALREADY IS?! NOW I'M GOING TO BE THE HIGHLIGHT OF EVERY FREAKING RUMOR! THIS IS HELPING MY STRESS!" Deep breath. I felt a little better, until I saw the look on Alice's face.
"DO NOT YELL AT ME! I WAS WORRIED ABOUT THE FACT THAT YOU WERE PUTTING YOUR BABY AT RISK! I KEEP TELLING YOU! STOP STRESSING! AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW? STRESSING!" Now we were both breathing heavy.
"HOW CAN I NOT STRESS?! TANYA AND LAUREN KNOW I'M PREGNANT! AND ON TOP OF THAT, THEY THINK IT'S BECAUSE I SLEPT WITH JASON!"
"IT'S NOT LIKE YOU CAN KEEP THIS HIDDEN FOREVER! YOU'RE GETTING BIGGER EVERYDAY! THEY'RE BOND TO FIND OUT!" I felt like such a jerk right now. Curse hormones! This whole mess was screwing up everything!
"I'm sorry Alice. I just panicked. I shouldn't have yelled at you. I…I wasn't thinking." I sat down next to a very scared Edward.
"You were just being a caring friend. I know, I ws just freaking out a little"
I was being the one thing I hated, a Tanya. That was what Rose, Alice and I called it when you acted like a total beeyotch. We sometimes called it a Lauren.
"It's ok Bella. Just try to think before you speak, ok?"
"Is all that yelling necessary?! Jeez, lets bring it down a notch." Some blonde girl I've never seen walked into the room. I looked at her like she was crazy. Everyone looked at her as if she just walked into a locked cage with a hungry lion in it, all probably thinking, is she an idiot? My temper flared again.
"What did you just say?"
"Did I stutter? Stop. Yelling." Who is this? Some replica of Tanya? I was standing again glaring at Edward.
"Who is this and why did you bring her here?"
"Bella! Think!" Alice put her hands on my shoulders and turned me around to face her. "Deep breath." I took about 5 deep breaths before I actually started to calm down some. "Now, I think you should apologize." Wow, she sounded like my mother! I would laugh if I wasn't kind of scared of Alice. I slowly turned toward Edward, but Alice stopped me. "I meant to Becky." I looked at her like she was crazy. I already knew she meant the blonde tramp. "Now."
"I'm sorry. Got to love the hormones huh?" I let out a laugh though it was halfhearted. She just glared at me. I ignored her and turned back to Edward. I sat back down next to him resting my hand on his.
"I'm really sorry Edward. Jeez, I'm apologizing a lot today!" I let out a real laugh this time. "You forgive me?"
"Of course, Bella." He gave me that crooked smile that anyone could love. I got up and headed for the kitchen to get popcorn. "Movie time!"
"I'm choosing this time!" Came Emmett's booming voice.
"It better be something good." I was not sitting through a cheesy comedy like last time. I popped the popcorn and made the drinks. While in the process Jason came in. I didn't look at him though, I was still a little mad at him.
"Hey." Hey, was that it? Whoa Bella, don't say that out loud. Take Alice's advice. Think.
"Hey." Simple, no more problems.
"I'm sorry Bella. I shouldn't have said what I said."
"Don't be. You were kind of right. I used to have a crush on Edward but it was nothing. I don't anymore. I'm with you now and that's all that matters." And that was the truth. He must have saw that because he pulled me into his embrace.
"My life's a mess." A total and complete mess.
"But you can get through it." He raised my chin up and placed a small kiss on my lips. "Now lets go see what movie we're watching.
"Totally action packed Live Free or Die Hard!" I wonder if Emmett was ease dropping? Who cares, I'm around the people I love…and I have a baby brother! Yup! That same spark of happiness is there! Ugh, but tomorrow will be hell.
A/N: no flames plz! I know…we all hate Jason…I do too! But what kinda story would it be with no drama and suspense…and total irony! Lol! and the baby's name, Cade is my cousin's name! so cute! i luv him!
Btw: Live free or die hard is an awesome movie! Yup!
So next chapter we see how the school day goes! Du du du! Lol! Now…review! And I'll put the trailer for the movie on my page…