Epilogue- Next book will be out soon: Falling Together In A World Falling Apart
~We began as all good love stories should.
Forged in blood, fire, fluorescent lights, fuzzy socks
on waxed, slippery floors.
Shrieks of laughter
and joy.
His heart beats like a drum against mine in sync.
His skin against mine burns like a firework
We explode.
We belong together always
He says, his voice
One of hope.
We don't fall out of love
We implode in the midst of a war.
Meaningful coincidences
You know there is no such thing.
We were built on love and lies
We were a house of cards
Destiny, mistake.~
The week we had together was a glorious thing. Love under warm blankets, hot chocolate by a faulty heater. Too many kisses to count.
What was that saying? Use your time while you have it? Even though he hadn't said anything, I knew our time was coming to a close.
It was a Friday when he left. The snow blanketed the world outside, let me stay home from work in the empty apartment. Where he once laid was still warm.
No note, no words of goodbye. Just waking up to find him gone.
It creates an empty feeling, a hole in the heart that had once been so full of love. No words can describe the loneliness.
Snow kept falling. The sun moved through the sky. As I looked at the clouds, I could only hope he was looking back down at me.
~Because I love him,
I do,
And here's the miracle:
he loves me too.
I was allowed
to lick off the color from his lips
to listen to the hymns in his pulse
to bask in the sunlight of his voice.
I was allowed
to have him.
We love each other,
we do,
And here's the tragedy:
it's not enough.
I was allowed
to watch the sun swallow him whole and burn him up
to stain my fingers to the bone holding him together
to count the constellations in his eyes as they blink out
I am not allowed
To save him.~