AN: Sorry for the wait everybody! Please enjoy!
Beta'd by Astridt244...hearts you hon!
Bella tried to widen the gap between her and Jake. Still feeling the buzz from her drinking binge, she stumbled backwards into her door; fighting the urge to run into his arms. It was one of the hardest things she'd ever done in her young life. She loved him still, but he was no longer hers and he had hurt her in the worse way possible. He didn't deserve her love and affection; or her forgiveness.
"What the hell are you doing here, Jake?" She repeated her previous question, this time with a little more hostility in her voice.
Jake stiffened slightly before advancing on her. When he was close enough to touch, she placed her hand on his chest, stopping him in his tracks.
"Please. Don't."
"Bells…"
"No! You don't get to call me that anymore!" Bella sniffled as fresh tears started cascading down her face.
"Bella, please? I-I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you." Jake reached for her and she pressed her body firmly into the door.
"No. No. I-I can't do this with you, Jake. You have to go. Please. I can't see you right now."
He moved closer.
"Honey. I'm sorry. Please forgive me." She continued to shrink back. She was trapped between Jake and her bedroom door.
"Get away from me." She whispered.
He brushed a stray strand of hair from her face. He brought his other hand to her chin and tipped it up towards him.
"Bells." He whispered as he leaned in close. Bella knew from the moment she saw him in her room that she was a goner. He knew what he did to her. He knew just how to touch her to make her lose all reason. Everything in her body craved him.
"Please. Jake, don't." She whispered.
"I love you, honey." She melted against him almost immediately; sobbing against his shoulder.
"That's it, honey. Let it out." He wrapped his arms around her, comforting her as she cried. He rocked her back and forth and she lost herself in him. She remembered how it felt to be held by him; and relished in the feel of being enveloped in his arms. She shook her head against his shoulder, trying to clear her mind. Regardless of how good it felt to be in his arms, she no longer belonged there.
Bella struggled to regain her strength. She couldn't allow him to make her weak. He grabbed her chin, tilting her head toward him. His lips had barely grazed hers before she turned her head away from him.
He growled in frustration; pushing away from her.
"Damn it, Bella! Why are you making this harder than it has to be?"
She stared at him as if he'd grown another head.
"Excuse me? How am I the one making things harder? You come in here and you pull this shit on me after you rip my heart out? Do you understand how difficult it's gonna be for me to get over this? To get over you?"
"Apparently, not difficult enough." He mumbled.
"What?"
"You're already over me, Bella. That's what you were coming to tell me today, wasn't it?"
"I-I don't know what you mean."
"Don't you?"
He started pacing.
"I knew what was going on, but I didn't believe it at first. And that fucker always blocked his thoughts, but not today. No, today, he let it slip."
Bella stared at Jake questioningly. In all honestly, she was a little scared.
"What are you talking about Jake?"
His eyes snapped to hers.
"Do you honestly think I'm stupid, Bella? You think I didn't notice all the times you came around smelling like Paul? You think I didn't notice how close you two were becoming? Fuck, it just didn't make sense until now. Until all this fucking imprinting shit came out in the open."
"Jake wh-"
"You're Paul's imprint, Bella. Didn't you know? Or were you just fucking him behind my back without that prior knowledge?" He snarled.
Bella was taken aback. Jake had never spoken to her like that before. After her brief moment of shock, indignation set in. Who the fuck did he think he was?
"Excuse me? I never had sex with Paul, we only made out; and yeah, this was going on before I knew I was his imprint. Hell, I didn't even know what an imprint was because some jackass decided to keep that little tidbit of information from me!"
Jake flinched at her words but recovered quickly.
"So you admit that you were screwing around with him behind my back, before you found out about the imprint?" He growled.
"Well, yeah, but only because I couldn't fight it! And believe me, I tried! I always felt like shit because of what we were doing and I was coming to break up with you, yeah. But what do I find out when I come to talk to you? I find out exactly what an imprint is, and that you already have one, and that you've been fucking her for god knows how long!"
Jake was pissed. He moved toward Bella backing her up into the door once again.
"Keep her out of this!"
"Why? You brought Paul into this didn't you? And he's my imprint, so why can't we talk about yours?"
He growled low in warning. She didn't care. She knew he wouldn't hurt her.
"Tell me Jake. How long were you fucking Mina, huh? Did she know about me? Did she know you had a girlfriend? Did she know that you never told me shit about the wolfy voodoo that is imprinting?"
Jake slammed his hands down on either side of Bella, causing her to flinch.
"And if I didn't? Hmm? What difference does it make, Bells? You don't belong to me anymore, anyways. What good is it gonna do to know any of that?"
"I want to know, Jake. You kept so much from me already. I think both of us deserve to know the truth. Look at what lying has done to everybody!"
He huffed angrily; his breath fanning out over her face.
He laid his forehead against hers, causing a painful twinge deep inside of her.
"Bells I…I don't want to hurt you anymore than I already have."
"Just get it over with Jake. Please. I deserve to know, right?"
He sighed and moved back to her bed.
"It's been a while, Bells."
"Define 'a while.' "
"She lives on the Makah res. I went up there with Sam a few weeks ago to pick up Emily from her mom's. Do you remember that?"
How could she not remember? That was one of the nights where he was the most passionate in their lovemaking. It was over a month ago.
"Are you kidding me, Jake?" She shrieked.
"I'm not done." He growled, effectively shutting her up.
"I imprinted on Mina the moment I laid eyes on her. She's Emily's cousin. She was the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen."
Another twinge of pain.
"But I ran. As soon as I realized what happened. I ran straight back home to you and I fucked Mina out of my mind. Every time I thought of her, I fucked you harder. Do you remember that? You said it was the best out of all the times we'd ever had sex."
Bella stared at him in disbelief.
"You didn't notice how extreme our lovemaking got Bella?"
She did, but she just thought that he was getting more into her. She was wrong. He was missing Mina.
"You fucking used me? To get your mind off of her?"
He sighed.
"It wasn't like that at first, Bells. I just wanted everything to go back to how it was before the imprint. But the more time I spent away from her…"
"The stronger the imprint pull got."
He nodded meekly.
"You fucking asshole!" She screamed.
He growled.
"It's not like you're a fucking saint, Bella!"
"No! And I won't pretend to be one. But the shit that you did, Jacob, is seriously fucked up!"
She swallowed back her rage.
"So did she know about me?"
He shook his head.
"No. She didn't know about you. Until today that is. There's this thing about imprinting, where we can't really lie to our imprints about anything; and let's just say she had a lot of fucking questions."
Bella filed that little bit of information away for later. As if she would need it. She was dead set on cutting every single member of the pack out of her life. Except for maybe Seth and Leah.
"So she was just an innocent bystander in all of this?"
He nodded again.
Damn. She was dead set on hating the girl. Guess she couldn't really hold a grudge against her for not knowing. Unless…
"So where is she now?"
He sighed.
"Gone. She left as soon as I told her what happened."
Yep. Mina was okay with her.
Bella stood directly across from Jacob, her arms crossed firmly across her chest; her buzz officially gone.
"What about the pack, Jake? Your dad? Why would they keep this away from me? Why the hell would Sam place a gag order?"
"To protect you, Bells." He got off the bed and pulled one of her hands free. It was futile to fight against his hold on her. Stupid fucking werewolves and their super strength.
"I was trying to fight the pull of the imprint. Dad, Sam, fucking Emily, everybody begged me to tell you about it, Bells. But I begged them to keep it from you. That's why Sam gave the gag order. It was fucking selfish of me, I know, but I wanted you. I didn't give a shit what the wolf or Taha Aki wanted for me. I know what's best for me and that's you."
"What? What the hell are you talking about Jake?"
"I'm talking about us. About putting this shit behind us and starting over, Bella."
Bella used her unengaged hand and rubbed her forehead in frustration.
"Jake, would you listen to yourself? You want me, why? Because Mina left you? If she hadn't left Jake, would any of this even matter? Would you even fucking be here? And anyway, even if I could get pass this, how would I know that the first chance you got you wouldn't run off to the Makah res? Huh? How do I know that you wouldn't go back to her?"
Jake looked at her, crestfallen.
"Bella…"
"Don't Jake. Just don't. What we had was great. It was perfect. But it obviously wasn't meant to be. So please just go. Get the hell out of here. Go back to Mina and try real hard to forget about me. Cause I'm gonna try my hardest to forget about you."
Jake pulled back slightly; tears in his eyes.
"You don't mean that, Bells."
"I do, Jake. I just can't be with you anymore. Ever. You have Mina. Go back to her and try to make things right. It's over between us, Jake. Go home."
Bella couldn't hold back the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes. They were spilling over as Jake wrapped her in his strong arms once again.
"I'm sorry, Bells." He whispered.
He planted a soft kiss on her lips and then he was gone. Bella sobbed as she slid down her bedroom door. She couldn't believe it. Jake had orchestrated the entire thing. His dad, the pack, everyone; they were only doing what he asked them to. And he had the fucking nerve to ask her for another chance. If she wasn't sure before, she was definitely positive now. She was staying the hell away from the La Push werewolves.
Bella stood slowly as her tears started to subside. She realized that getting out of Forks would have to be her top priority, if only for a little while. She was thankful that school was almost over and it gave her an excuse to do what she needed to do. Before she could stop herself, she picked up the phone and dialed the number.
The phone rang several times before anyone answered.
"Hello?"
Bella breathed a sigh of relief when Renee answered the phone.
"Hey mom."
"Hey baby. Is everything okay?"
"Everything's fine, mom. How would you like it if I came down to visit for a little while?"
AN: For all of my Jacob lovers, please don't hate me. I love him too, but his character in this story is a little bit of a douchebag. Don't worry, things will get better. Still with me? *smiles*