PART TEN
HOW DO YOU GIVE UP THE PAIN?
Paige knelt down as the pain grew more intense. This pain that she had been carrying around since well since she could remember was finally at the point where she knew would kill her if she didn't let it ago. She knew that she was all ready dead from her human body so even if the pain did kill her she was all ready dead. But she knew that if she allowed the pain to kill her spirit than she would never again be in the same place with her mother, Grams and Prue. She knew that this was her last chance to let the pain and sorrow to finally find it's release from her. Paige just didn't know if she could let go.
How can you let go of the pain of being born? Of your mother giving you up after you were born? Of having to learn to trust and allow a strange woman be your new mother? How can you let go of the pain of your first diaper rash? Of learning how to sit up, creep, crawl? How can you let go of the pain of teething? Of taking your first tender steps and falling on your butt?
How can you give up the pain of the first time you feel asleep without your parents in the room? Of falling out of your crib? Of falling off a changing table? How can you give up the pain of going to school scared our of your mind? How can you give up the pain of your first crush that turned into a mean taunt? How can you give up the pain of loves heart break?
How can you give up the pain of doing drugs and knowing that you have hurt your parents? How can you give up the pain of taunting the fact that you drink in front of your parents? How can you give up the pain of yelling at your parents that they weren't your real parents so you didn't love them?
How do you give up the pain of saving yourself and allowing your parents to die a horrible death? How do you give up the pain of searching for your birth family so soon after your adoptive parents died?
How do you give you give up the pain of finally feeling happy that you found your birth family? How do you give up the pain at learning of your birth mother's death a year after you were born? How do you give up the pain of learning that your oldest sister had died before you could meet her face to face? How do you give up the pain of your half sisters not accepting and loving you right when they first meet you? How do you give up the pain of knowing that you weren't the sister they wanted to be with them? How do you give up the pain knowing that you were not even in the running of the amazing sister whose power you inherited?
How do you give up the pain of finally meeting your mother and knowing that you can't get to know her? How do you give up the pain of finally being in your mother's arms again and knowing that the moment can not last for a life time? How do you give up the pain of watching your mother turn back into a spirit in front of your very eyes?
How do you give up the pain of being given away? How do you get over the pain of always thinking that you weren't loved? How do you get over the pain of learning that your life was basically a lie? How do you get over the pain of saying good bye to your normal life and your friends? How do you get over the pain of learning that you have to live a hermit's life?
How do you get over the pain of having to fight for your rightful places in your sisters hearts? How do you get over the pain of always knowing your sisters can't completely allow you access to their hearts and souls? How do you get over the fear of knowing that you don't fit in your own natural family?
How do you give up the pain of learning that your father wasn't dead after all but a selfish white lighter drunk? How do you give up the pain that your father didn't want to get to know you at first? How do you give up the pain of seeing what a waste your father was and how you were just like him?
How do you give up the pain of your sisters not believing you when you told them that Cole was still a demon? How do you give up the pain of being silently hurt and your sisters never figured out who had hurt you? How do you give up the pain for ultimately killing your sister's love? How do you give up the pain of your sisters turning on you and not making things right until their white lighter tells them too?
How do you give up the pain of knowing that when it came down to your life and one of your sister's the remaining sister would automatically pick the other sister? How do you give up the pain of knowing that if your sisters had a chance to bring the dead sister back to life but you would cease to exist the sisters would bring the dead sister back without a second thought to you?
How do you give up the pain of finally seeing your family tree and not seeing your name on it? How do you give up the pain of still feeling left out of your birth family as your sister told you that they just forgot to write your name on it after finding you? How do you give up the pain of willing walking into the demon market and allowing yourself to be weaken of your powers? How do you give up the pain of knowing that you help set the trap to lure your sisters away from your first born infant nephew for the power sucking eating demons to go and hurt him?
How do you get over the pain of knowing that you are going to die? How do you get over the pain of having to leave your sisters who turned into your best friends? How do you get over the pain of leaving your nephews behind without a chance to watch them grow up?
How do you get over pain period?
END PART TEN
Author's Note: I started this chapter where I was going to write a few paragraphs with how to get over the pain question; but the more I wrote the more I thought of Paige's life. So I dedicate this chapter for the question How do you get over the pain? The next chapter I promise I will go into more depth of Paige's life.
Also I said nephews instead of nephew; even through I stated in "The Power of Two" story that I was writing this series at the beginning of season 6 so no one knows who Chris truly is. But this Paige 'up there' so obviously she knows the truth. I all ready stated this fact in an earlier chapter. But thought I would explain myself in case anyone forgot by now.