A/N: As I'm sure you've all guessed...there's a character death in this chapter...I don't really know how I feel about this chapter...But here it is..
Blaine headed out and met Cooper at the car. He thought about Sebastian on the way. Once they were home, Cooper finally spoke up. "Are you okay?"
Blaine nodded. "Yeah..I'm just kind of worried.."
"What about?" Cooper asked, wrapping his arms around Blaine.
"S-Sebastian.." Blaine said quietly.
Cooper's entire body went stiff. "Why..? Did he do something?"
"No.." Blaine said. "Not really. He's just…not himself. He barely even spoke today. He looked so upset.."
"Maybe he was just having an off day?" Cooper suggested. "We all have those.."
Blaine just nodded, letting his brother hold him as he tried not to think too much into it. Cooper was most likely right. Sebastian would probably be back to his usual overly sexual self tomorrow.
The next day at school was a normal day. Blaine went to his classes and did all of his work, finishing his work before most of the others as usual. It wasn't until Warbler practice when things started to feel weird. Blaine didn't know what it was. The Warblers took their seats and Wes came in looking a bit stiff and uncomfortable.
"I umm..I have some bad news.."
The room went quiet as they waited for him to continue. Wes took a deep breath. "As you all have probably noticed, S-Sebastian isn't here…H-He won't be…returning…"
"What do you mean?" Jeff asked.
"Did he change schools?" Trent added.
Wes held his hand up, signaling for everyone to stop talking and Blaine's heart sped up. "No..He…He committed suicide…His mother found him late last night.."
Whispers and gasps suddenly filled the entire room. Blaine couldn't believe what he had just heard. He and Sebastian weren't close. They never had been. But he was still a Warbler…A brother of sorts. Without warning, the memories of seeing Sebastian yesterday impregnated his mind. The lost look on his face and the disconnected tone of his voice. Blaine felt like he should've done more. Maybe if he had, Sebastian would still be here. He could feel the tears welling in his eyes as he stood up.
"I-I know this is a bit sudden and close to competition. Maybe some of us weren't his biggest fans..But he was a Warbler. I think we should honor him and sing a song for him for sectionals.."
The rest of the boys nodded. "Do you have anything in mind?" Wes asked Blaine.
"Yeah.." He said quietly, walking up to the front of the room and trying to calm his nerves as he started to sing.
"I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong…"
The other Warblers listened and watched Blaine sing as he got more emotional towards the end of the song.
"I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you could step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand…" Blaine finished, his voice breaking on the last line. He couldn't help but think that he could've prevented this.
Practice ended early, everyone agreeing to use that song for sectionals in honor of the deceased Warbler. Blaine sat outside on a bench as he waited for Cooper to pull up. He slowly got in the car, not saying a word.
"Why did you get out early?"
Blaine sank down in his seat. "C-Can we talk about it when we get home? So you won't be driving?"
Cooper looked over at his brother, fully concerned. "Alright.."
When they got home, they settled down on the couch and Cooper looked to Blaine expectantly. "Well..It's apparently something very serious..What's going on, B?"
Blaine broke down, tears spilling down his face as he curled up in his brother's arms. "I-It's my fault..I should've stopped it..I should've known.."
"What is? Blaine, what happened?" Cooper asked quickly, rubbing circles on Blaine's back.
"S-Sebastian.." Blaine gasped. "H-His mom..She found him last night…He's dead, Cooper…He took his life.."
Cooper froze, his breath catching in his throat. This couldn't be happening. This was all his fault. And here was Blaine, blaming himself for not seeing. He had to tell him. But what if he never forgave him?
"Oh my god..D-Do they know why?"
Blaine shook his head. "I-I saw him yesterday…He wouldn't talk to me..I should've made him stay and gotten him to talk to me..M-Maybe he'd s-still be here.."
Cooper pulled Blaine closer. "Blaine..It's not your fault…"
"But I could've done something! I could've done more. But I just watched him walk away.." Blaine sobbed in his brother's arms.
Cooper sighed deeply. "There's something I need to tell you…But you can't tell anyone…"
Blaine looked up at Cooper. What was he talking about? And why now? They were talking about Sebastian. "W-What is it?"
"God..You're going to hate me.." Cooper whispered. "I-It's my fault.."
Blaine looked at his older brother with wide, confused eyes. "How? You don't even know him.."
"The other night…After you told me what he did to you…You fell asleep and I sent a text to him from your phone telling him to meet me…He thought it was you so he went…I was just going to tell him to leave you alone. But he found out…a-about us and threatened to tell people if I stayed with you..I snapped.." Cooper explained quietly, starring at the floor to avoid Blaine's gaze.
Blaine gasped. "C-Cooper…What did you do…?"
"I threatened him. I told him to leave you alone…To not even talk to you…And if he didn't stay away, I'd tell people about his past..things he didn't want anyone to know. B-But I swear, I wouldn't have really done it..He was saying he'd tell the headmaster about us and have you taken away from me..I-I didn't know what to do…I didn't mean it. I just wanted to scare him…B-but he…he…" Cooper trailed off as he started to break down. He couldn't look up at his younger brother. He knew Blaine hated him now. He was the cause of Sebastian's death. How could Blaine still love him even as a brother..?
Blaine stared at Cooper in shock and horror for a moment. He couldn't believe his brother was capable of doing that. But he did believe that he hadn't meant it and that he only wanted to make sure Blaine wasn't taken away. Blaine reached out and took his brother's hands. "I-I don't hate you.." he said softly.
"Why..?" Cooper asked. "If I could've held in my jealousy…If I hadn't texted him…He'd still be here.."
Blaine shook his head. "Whatever it was you said..It was something that he still felt strongly about. It was something that had followed him his entire life and you can't know that it was because of you. There could've been more going on, Coop. Sebastian…He didn't open up to anyone. I don't know. But you're my brother. You're more than that. And I will always love you. But..no one needs to know about this…I don't want people blaming you. We don't know what he was thinking. I really wish I could've gotten him to talk…"
"I-I'm so sorry Blaine…" Cooper said, choking on his own words.
"Shh..I know..I am too…I shouldn't have used him like that…Just…Make sure you're at sectionals. Not just for me…But for him..We're singing a song for him.." Blaine said quietly.
Cooper nodded. "I'll be there.."
A/N: As I said before, I'm in the middle with this chapter. I kind of rushed it. I wanted to get this chapter out of the way so I can move on to other plans but I got called into work for the closing shift so I kind of just hurried with this one. I hope I did it justice. I know a lot of you aren't fans of Sebastian. I am. But I think that's more because of the story I write with my girlfriend, It Started As A Negotiation. But anyways. I hope you all liked this chapter. Reviews always make me feel better :))
AAAAnnnnddddd It would mean a great deal to me if people would check out the story I uploaded a few days ago. It's called What You Own. It's written by my girlfriend. It's a Glee/Hunger Games crossover. To be honest, I haven't seen the movie or read the books. I don't even think I've even seen the books in person. Although, I will soon :D But anyways, my point is, I've been reading what I uploaded and what she has ready for the next chapter and even though I know nothing about The Hunger Games, it's very easy to follow and I think it's so interesting. But enough of me fangirling over my girlfriend xD Please check it out and review please? Love you all!