Authors Note: This chapter is a little adventure but mostly working out emotions at the end. I promise the next chapter will have more action and some steamy hot lemons.
J POV
With a huff I slowly awoke and opened my eyes, looking around the room I was confused. Lying next to me was Edward snoring lightly on the pillow we shared. My heart beat began to slow as I remembered that we were in paradise on our vacation. I looked at the clock on the wall that said it was 6:30 am. I turned my head toward the glass wall of our hotel suite and notice that the sun is just beginning to come up. The sky was still dark but small wisps of orange color were beginning to break over the horizon.
A small smile came to my face as I remembered Edward giving me the best orgasm of my life last night as we watched the beautiful sunset from our private patio. A small shutter rolled down my back at the memory of the intense pleasure. I vaguely remember Edward holding me for what felt like hours until I started to fall asleep. He gently helped me stand and led me to the bed where he removed my clothes and pushed me to lay back on the bed. I was asleep before my head hit the pillow.
Being together for six years Edward and I have learned how to touch and explore each others bodies to maximise our pleasure. I know that Edward has a spot on the back of his neck on the left side right under his hairline, that if I suck on long enough I can make him come without even touching him below the waist. What Edward did to me last night under the sunset, stroking me softly and gently is one of those things that I love and hate at the same time. The first time he did that to me was our first date. I didn't want to sleep with him on the first date because I wanted to get to know him and let things evolve naturally.
By the end of our date we were sitting on his couch in his apartment at the time. We started kissing and touching each other and Edward told me he wanted to try something. I was apprehensive at first but agreed when he told me to lay against his chest, and then the torture began. I was turned on because it felt amazing but a little frustrated because his touch was so light and his stroke was agonizingly slow. Of course I begged and pleaded with him, and when I had that first orgasm with him I felt like I was going to die. He gently coaxed my orgasm out of me, the intensity was mind blowing. I don't let him do it very often because it drives me crazy, but when he does I am pretty much worthless for a good few hours.
I slipped out of bed careful not to wake Edward and stretched both arms over my head to wake my tired limbs. Slipping on my jeans I padded over to a door I hoped was the bathroom. I opened the door and flipped on the light. When my eyes adjusted to the brightness I found the bathroom was huge and just as beautiful as the room itself. A huge white whirlpool tub sat beside a full shower in closed with clear glass. I walked over and found my toothbrush and tooth paste was already next to the sink. Edward had unpacked our bags it looked like after I passed out last night. Teeth brushed and business taken care of I left the bathroom to go find the room service menu.
After ordering a pot of coffee and some fruit for breakfasts I went in search of Edward. He was still sleeping soundly in the huge fluffy bed. I briefly thought about looking into one of those beds for our apartment but was quickly brought our of my revere when Edward stirred. His eyes didn't open but his arm reached out for me, only finding empty space where I had been sleeping. His eyes shot open and his head leaned up looking for me. "Morning baby" I murmured standing next to the bed running my hand through his tousled hair. He sighed and laid his head back on the pillow with a sleepy smile. "Morning" he replied sleepily rubbing his eyes with his fists.
I stepped back chuckling. "I know it's early, but I figured we could have some coffee and go for a walk on the beach to watch the sunrise...The sunset last night was..." I trailed off when my face burned with my blush. Edward's chuckle vibrated deep in his chest as we both remembered what we were doing as the sun sat last night. "The sunset was amazing huh?" he replied with a devious smile. I knew he hadn't seen much of the sunset due to the fact that he was busy driving me crazy. I blushed even more and looked all around the room avoiding his eyes. When there was a knock on the door I whirled around and headed to get our breakfast. I heard him chuckle again as I walked away.
Ten minutes later Edward had pulled on his jeans and brushed his teeth while I got us both some coffee. Hand in hand we walked out to the white sand and fallowed it to the shore line. The sun was just cresting over the horizon and the top of the water was bathed in a burnt orange color as the waves crashed into the shore. I stood behind Edward with my chin on his shoulder and my free hand splayed flat against his torso, his free hand laid over mine. It's hard to describe a moment like this without sounding cliche. The smell of the air, the gentle breeze, the beautiful colors the sun threw over everything it touched, crystal clear blue water and the beautiful man in my arms.
It's no secret that my life has been stressful lately. The beating and coma has taken a huge tole on mine and Edward's life. Riley stole from us what was suppose to be our happy future. He took from me my sense of security and gave Edward an overwhelming sense of fear. Fear that he would lose me. Fear that someday Riley would be out of jail and he would decide to get revenge, this time not stopping until he had finished the job. I knew he was in jail, but I was constantly haunted by memories and dreams of that day. The dreams affected Edward as much as they did me because, every time I woke up in the middle of the night screaming or crying he was there. He would hold me and kiss me and tell me he loved me as many times as I needed to hear it.
It's easy to be thankful to just be alive and breathing, but truthfully we are both broken. Every kick and punch and word spoken in anger that day I relive almost every night in clear detail. Some nights I can pull myself out of the horrid dream's and some nights I can't. Last night sleeping in a different bed, in a different country the dream's didn't come. I don't feel scared or insecure I just feel loved. This sunrise has reminded me for the first time in a long time that there is true beauty in this world. Maybe we were meant to stand here, silently holding each other. Maybe if we stand here long enough staring at the pure untainted beauty of this sunrise we can see the beauty in ourselves and begin to heal. This thought brought a smile to my face.
After watching the sunrise Edward and I walked back to our room and crawled back on the bed to eat our breakfasts together. "so what do you feel like doing today?" I ask Edward because I know he has lots of activities planned for us. He leaned back against the pillow and drained the last bit of his coffee. "I figured we could just explore up and down the beach today, the water is crystal clear and maybe we could go for a swim" Walking along the shore hand in hand with Edward sounded like a wonderful plan to me. "sounds good to me, I just want to relax and be with you" I said with a sigh. He smiled sweetly and gave me a small kiss on the lips.
An hour later we were both showered and headed out of our room heading toward the beach. Edward wore a white t shirt and tan cargo shorts with sandals. I decided on black knee length swim trunks and a tan t shirt, deciding to forgo sandals or shoes. The beach was peppered with people but I was pleasantly surprised that Edward had chosen the off season to have our vacation. The beach wasn't crowded and we were free to have our private moments without making a spectacle of ourselves. Edward and I walked close enough to the water that our feet were in the water and we could feel the soft white sand under our feet.
As we strode along I watched all the different color fish and the coral swaying under the water, I let my hand slip from Edward's to lean a little closer to the water so I could see a group of deep purple fish swimming by they were beautiful. "Edward, look at this there amaz..." My words were cut off as I felt Edwards arms surround me and launch us both into the water. I let out a loud yelp before my head was submerged under the water. His arms let go of me and I struggled to right my body and stand up. kicking my legs I finally broke the surface of the water and stood in the waist deep water dripping wet. I looked over to see Edward standing five feet away from me. He was pushing his lips together and his eyes were on the sky flipping back and forth, trying to seem innocent. I narrowed my eyes at his innocent face "You" I said in mock anger "You are so dead" I took of running as fast as I could through the water as Edward let out a loud laugh and bolted down the beach.
When I caught Edward finally I wrapped my arms around his waist and threw us back into the water laughing like kids. We swam and laughed and explored the under sea life most of the afternoon. "Baby, I'm exhausted" I wined to Edward once the afternoon was almost gone. Edward chuckled and took my and as we started back for our hotel room. "How about we go have a nap and then we can go have dinner at the hotel restaurant. It has tables outside close to the beach were we wont be disturbed." I sighed and leaned in to give him a kiss. "That sounds great, I'm starving" He chuckled as he slid the card into the slot to unlock our room. Quickly we both got in the shower to rinse the salt water out of our hair. When we got out we put on the complimentary big fluffy white robes hanging on the back of the bathroom door and climbed onto the freshly made bed. Both of us on our sides facing each other I nudged my knee between his legs so we could twine our legs together. I reached my arm around his back pulling his body flush with mine and kissed him softly for a few minutes before I buried my face in his chest. With a deep sigh I fell asleep.
Two hours later I woke up when I felt the bed shift. I opened my eyes to see Edward slipping out of bed. He turned and smiled as he realized I was awake too. "Time to get up sleepy head, dinner is in half an hour" With a moan of protest I rolled to my back and stretched my aching limbs. My stomach suddenly rumbled loud enough for Edward to hear and he threw his head back and laughed. Edward held out his hand to help me up."come on baby lets go get you some dinner before you waste away." Dressed and ready Edward and I walked down the beach to the restaurant.
We were sat outside on the patio where we had a great view of the beach. We talked and laughed and watched the sunset blushing every time our eyes met. When we were finished eating and our plates were pushed aside Edward reached over and took my hand on top of the table. "I never got the chance to ask you if you had one of your dreams last night" Edward said rubbing circles in the palm of my hand. "No, actually I didn't dream at all last night" I said blushing. "I must have been exhausted" I said smiling playfully at Edward. His smile faded after a few seconds and I could tell he wanted to talk about the dreams and ask me how I was feeling. I cupped the side of his face and looked into his eyes. "Will you take a walk with me, maybe we can talk for a while before we head back to our room." He nodded his head and let go of my hands so he could pull out his wallet to pay for dinner.
Standing from our table I places a soft kiss on his lips and lead him back out to the beach. We walked in silence for a long moment along the shoreline. We were nearing the path that took us to our room when I stopped Edward and linked both of our hands together. I leaned up to lightly touch my lips to his and just stared in his eyes. I slid my hands up his chest and around his neck. "I know there is no music out here baby, but would you dance with me?" I asked because I needed to be close to him. Still looking in my eyes he slowly nodded his head and his arms came around my body resting on the small of is back. I turned my head and laid my ear over his heart as we began to sway and slowly turn in a circle.
Still laying on his chest and swaying back and forth I began to speak. "Watching the sunset with you this morning got me thinking" I said softly. "I started thinking about how describe the beauty of it to someone without it sounding cliche and then I started thinking about us and everything that has happened" His hold on my body tightened, but still he said nothing. "I feel like what happened with Riley has sort of broken us. Not in the sense that we don't love each other, but in the sense that I'm scared all the time. I can tell you are still struggling with almost losing me and I see the fear in your eyes every time I wake up with one of my nightmares." I lifted my head so I could look in his eyes.
"For whatever reason, I didn't have a nightmare last night. I haven't felt scared all day and I haven't seen the fear in your eyes since we arrived." We stopped swaying and just held each other. "I was just wondering to myself this morning if maybe we were meant to be standing on this beach. I wondered if maybe we stood there long enough watching the untainted beauty of the sunset, if maybe it could remind us of the beauty inside ourselves and start to heal us." I felt kind of foolish spilling out my random thoughts from this morning. I was about to laugh off my logic when suddenly I felt his breath hitch. His eyes were closed and I could tell he was trying not to cry. I reached up to cup the side of his face. "Baby, whats wrong?" I asked.
Edward stepped back and took both my hands in his. "I love you so much Jasper, I hoped bringing you here would help stop the dreams and make you forget at least for a little while how bad things have been lately. I want to be us again without the fear and doubt." I smiled and leaned up to kiss him. "I want that too" I replied. I slid my arm around his back and leaned my forehead on his chest. "Make love to me" I whispered into his chest. Edward laced our hands together and lead me back to our room. Tonight wasn't going to be fast or hard, we weren't going to tease. Tonight was about loving each other slowly until we both fell apart together.
End Note: I'm not happy with this chapter, but here it is. Let me know what you think.