Utau POV
Count down, four days till talent show. I kept repeating to myself. We are going to win this contest and I'm going to forget about Kukai. C'mon Utau you can do it. You can do it. Just don't think about them…
I sat on my bed tossing and turning trying desperately to fall asleep. However I fail miserably. I just couldn't forget about Kukai no matter how hard I tried. I need stronger willpower…
Maybe I'll just stand by the balcony. It was 1:40am and it was colder then usually. I walked over slowly and I looked at the night sky unemotionally. I then started thinking about everything I had lost. I started thinking about Kukai and his friend. She was beautiful and she was a much better athlete then I ever could dream of being. I sighed feeling sorry for myself.
"Utau…" I heard someone whisper behind me in a sad tone. I turned around startled and looked at them with soft eyes.
"Rima? Yaya? What are you doing still up." I asked faking a smile.
Rima looked away stubbornly, Yaya was holding her hand. "Well Yaya couldn't sleep and she woke me up."
"Yaya was wondering if Utau could sing her a song." Yaya asked shyly. I smiled a real smile this time and thought of a song to sing.
"What did you have in mind?" I asked unsure.
Rima looked over at Yaya and Yaya smiled, "My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne."
I couldn't help but smile. "Alright, but I'll need your help." They nodded they're heads happily. "But what about Amu?" I asked
"Oh she said she was going to bed early," Rima said "Besides her door is locked, Yaya should know she tried after going into Rima's room." Yaya pouted.
I giggled, "Let's begin. Do you want to sing without the music?" I asked unsure. I didn't see Yaya's ipod or speakers.
"Yes," they both said eagerly. "Utau your voice is so pure, soothing and pretty," Rima smiled. I couldn't help but smile back. "Rima, Yaya, Amu and Utau have cute voices. Didn't you hear us at the talent show." Yaya said proving the obvious. Rima and I laughed along with her.
I took in a small breath and began:
Lets talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
I then motioned for Rima to sing along. It was painful to see Rima sing or even say these words.
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
I stopped singing so Rima could have this moment and these words. She looked at me curiously at first but I smiled to her and she understood.
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Yaya echoed
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
So much for my for my happy ending
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(oh, oh, oh, oh)
(oh, oh, oh)
Yaya then started her part. She sang emotionally, it hurt to hear her sing the words
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the stud that you do?
Rima sang her part again
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it.
Rima then looked at me and I understood she wanted me to start again so I obeyed.
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
All of a sudden Rima and Yaya stopped singing and before I knew it I was singing alone as the watched me.
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done.
Yaya now joined me but Rima stayed silent.
He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
Now Rima joined in as Yaya just hummed along.
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh…
"Thank you Utau." Yaya and Rima said in soft voices and then they walked back into they're rooms. I just smiled back at them waving goodnight.
I waited until they were completely out of sight before I let my tears fall. I looked up at the stars as I wiped my tears away. "Why am I crying so much? I'm so weak!"
"Your not weak…" I looked up to see who was talking to me.
"Who are you? Why do I hear your voice whenever I think about Kukai?" I asked my tears spilling again as I let them fall.
"…you let a boy be your whole world and now that he's gone you think that you have nothing right?" Her voice was faint, but she spoke the truth.
My tears slowly stopped as I nodded my head. I don't know if it was from the blurriness of my eyes but I faintly saw a girl like me. Everything about her looked like me, but I could tell she wasn't.
"Who are you?" I asked confused.
She was right in front of me now, face to face. She was like an angel. She wore her hair like mine and her face looked exactly like me, except she was wearing an angel's outfit. She could past off as me, but her eyes were not mine. I could tell she had led a harder life.
"Utau, you are strong. You just gave Rima and Yaya their courage back. Now you just have to find a way to express yourself." She said in her soft voice
"I've already tried singing, but its not working!" I argued
"That's because singing is something you do all the time, try screaming your feelings out." She whispered.
I looked at her with determination and nodded my head. I looked out at the moon as the wind pushed away my tears and hair.
"Kukai you idiot I hate you!" I screamed and afterwards ran into my bedroom slamming my window shut. I was panting by now as I lay on my bed. I looked over to my clock and it read 2:10am. I held my heart to keep the beating steady. I couldn't explain how I felt at this moment, but I felt stronger.
This was my first time smiling on my own "Thank you angel." I whispered and started to drift to sleep peacefully.
Maybe I was imagining it but I felt someone patting me on the head. I felt someone's eyes and I heard a faint, "I'm the mistress of Summer…" I turned around blurred vision as I saw her disappear.
"Wait are you me?" but I was too tired to continue to stay conscious.
Kukai POV
"Kukai!" Nagi yelled at me, for like the...seven time?
"What? Get out Nagi!" I threw my pillow at him, but he dodged.
"That girl from your gym class is calling you on the phone, hurry up and pick up."
"Hello?" I asked, who was calling me now?
"Kukai? It's Misty, hurry up or I'm not waiting to walk to school with you." She yelled.
"Alright, I'm coming." I quickly hung up and sighed.
"Nagi, I'm a terrible person," I sighed again louder.
"Yeah you are." He joked along. I glared at him
"What about you, I heard you totally ditched Rima for Danielle." I augured back
"Well you know I didn't mean too, we're only hurting them so they can be happier later on." Nagi retorted
"Yeah…" I sighed again.
"Hey you've got to stop sighing, I don't think it's very healthy. You could die and I'm not giving mouth to mouth," Nagi laughed. I nudged him and kicked him out of my room.
"I've got to change and get to Misty's. Get Ikuto to drive Tadase and you. Kairi is still out with Samantha for the next few days." I yelled through the door.
"Got it!" I heard Nagi respond.
But no matter how I put it, I knew I was hurting Utau. It hurt me a little too, but there's no going back now.
Ikuto POV
I let the wind rush through me as I rested looking at the sky, how bright the sky looked. I was still awake from my meeting with Amu last night. I closed my eyes and thought of what happened.
I was sitting on the roof as usual when I glanced over and noticed Amu out on her balcony. Just staring into space. I decided to take this up as my opportunity to take her out. She's been so unemotional since Tadase stopped caring or whatever happened.
I leapt up and landed right beside her. I never noticed how close my room was to hers. I waved my hand in front of her face.
"Amu?" I whispered. She didn't pay much attention. She was still dressed like she did at school, except she had a white scarf, so icy, like her mood at this moment.
She didn't flinch so I picked her up and jumped down. When we landed she was clutching my shirt and I couldn't help but laugh.
"Ikuto what are you doing?" She asked more like yelled angry
"When I promised to take you out again I wasn't lying." I placed her down and led the way.
It was a quiet walk; because Amu was off in her own world of fantasy's to complain. I didn't want to admit it but I was excited to bring Amu here.
"Were here…" my voice lingered, pulling Amu out of thought. At she looked at me, but her eyes wandered off to the light and the amusement park.
She actually smiled and my mind slowed down, "Ikuto this is so pretty." I heard her say impressed.
"Yeah I used to come here a lot as a child." I looked around. "Alright since you're obviously still depressed about kiddy king why don't you pick the ride? We only have time for one." She looked over and smiled.
"The cups!" I looked at her like she was stupid. "The cups? How am I supposed to fit in that tiny thing, with you?" I asked confused.
She laughed, she's been able to be herself little by little again, "C'mon we'll make it happen." She grabbed my hand and we sat down as the cups slowly turned. We were fairly close but she didn't mind, so why should I? I mean she thinks I'm a pervert right?
I looked at her with a bored expression and she started laughing. "And what's so funny?" I asked annoyed.
"You are Ikuto," She said in between laughs and breathing
"So I'm the reason your in this state?" I asked
"Yup," She nodded smiling
"Well then I'm glad." I smiled to her
"She looked at me confused. "Why does this make you happy?"
"Since kiddy king left you alone, you've been so unemotionally and numb. I don't want that to happen to you. Even though we may be ice, you don't need to become like that." I smiled to her again, but it was turning into a smirk when I noticed a light blush.
We got out of the cups and started walking back home slowly. She finally decided to speak, "When Tadase left I heard this voice inside of me. She kept saying things to me."
"Like what?" I asked interested
"When snow melts away you don't just stay depressed. You remember all the fun times you had and you let go. You don't see it but the sparkle of snow can be found in someone else." She had a thinking face on.
"Why do you think you heard that?" I asked again, interested
"I think its because Tadase left me and I really liked him. But I waited too long and I lost him." She gave me a sad smile.
"Well if you think he's special wait for him, he'll come back, maybe, someday…" My voice drifted off. She looked at me with a warm smile and held my hand as we walked.
I looked at her confused and she smiled, "Thank you Ikuto." My heart started changing paces. I went from bored to unsure.
"Ikuto?" She asked pulling me out of thought.
"Yeah?" I asked trying to seem bored again.
"I need your help," She said
"With what?" I asked again
"Well I need to get back to my room. You did get me down." I looked around and noticed we were back home. I picked her up but at the touch of skin contact I felt a weird churn in my body. I leapt up and placed her back on her balcony and jumped back to mine. She waved to my and gently shut her balcony door.
I opened my eyes and whispered to myself, "When snow melts away you don't just stay depressed. You remember all the fun times you had and you let go. You don't see it but the sparkle of snow can be found in someone else." I sighed completely understanding. Amu is so dense, but if she wants it like this then fine. She can wait for her kiddy king. I got up and went inside my room. School would be starting soon.
Nagihiko POV
Kukai is right we are terrible people. No matter how you think of it we've done them wrong. I can't just stop seeing Danielle now though. Kukai just can't go back to Utau and leave Misty. Kairi and Tadase are enjoying themselves so much and with Lulu and Samantha Tadase and Kairi...we just can't.
"Life is so hard and stupid, when you try to do something good!" I yelled to myself rubbing my head.
"For flower to bloom a little rain must fall. In life everyone will end up hurting you, you just need to find the one's worth enduring." I remember hearing that last night. It was coming from Rima's room, she was probably trying to figure out what it meant.
Ricky said the girls would remember things from their former life. Andrew, Ricky, Jay and Jacob left because we were here for the girls and they wanted us. I wonder what they'd think if they knew how we ditched them. I felt my heartache at the thought of Rima thinking this. We had ditched them…
I heard a knock on my door.
"Yo Nagi are you coming or what? We can't be late again or our creepy teacher is going to have a heart attack after yelling." I heard Ikuto call.
"Yeah, yeah I'm coming." I called back
I looked out my window and I saw the girls leaving for school. Locking the front door. They were wearing hats so I couldn't tell if they were happy or sad or anything. They hid their faces.
Tadase walked in my room and I explained how terrible we were. Tadase understood how it looked but what we were doing wasn't like it seemed.
"Rima!" I called; I wanted to know if she was ok.
"Amu!" Tadase yelled, hoping the same thing
Rima turned around slowly and looked up at me, Amu did the same looking at Tadase. They both froze and Tadase and I were wondering what was wrong. Then Yaya rushed over and led Rima to Utau's car and Utau pushed Amu in. They looked back at us for a quick second and looked away.
They quickly got into their car and left, leaving nothing by dust. I sighed and walked out to Ikuto's dark blue convertible with Tadase.
"We deserve that…" I sighed to Tadase
Tadase just nodded.
"I don't want to know yet." Ikuto unemotionally said
Kukai/Nagihiko/Tadase/Kairi/Utau/Rima/Amu/Yaya POV
I feel terrible…but this will make me stronger…
Yes I left Ikuto out for a reason. I didn't forget! Lol. If you haven't already, you have to listen to My Happy Ending by Avril; it's a good song. It's also the title of my first story, "My Happy Ending," followed by, "Princess of Myself" ^^
This chapter was interesting to write and very emotionally for everyone. For the next two chapters I will focus on two couples per chapter. Like for EXAMPLE: next chapter will be about Rima X Nagihiko and Kukai X Utau and the one following and Tadase X Amu (Ikuto maybe) Kairi X Yaya
If there's a couple your dying to find out about just review it and I'll write about it if you want ^^ Oh and the reason I added Lulu is because one review suggested it. Samantha, Danielle and Misty are OC'S! ^^ Review –inserts heart- Hime-Chan