Chapter 11

JAREDPOV

For the next week Bella's doors were always locked and her blinds were always shut. Charlie always answered the phone and hung up as soon as he knew it was me. The whole pack hated me-especially Paul.

They were glad I gave Jacob what he deserved, but they were mad at me for scaring Bella. The only person who sort of understood was Leah.

I always waited outside Bella's house-I don't care if it seems stalkerish! Just then Leah came out of Bella's house.

"Jared, you look like crap."

"I don't care." And I didn't. My heart was breaking. I just had to go and hurt her more; after all she's been through.

"Jared I'm going to try and talk some sense in her. I get that you wanted revenge and all and you were just protecting her. But that was sort of scary. You were like a monster."

She whispered the last part.

"It was the wolf in me. Protecting my mate." Stupid, stupid wolf.

I know. Wait here. I'll try to talk to her.

I couldn't hear voices; Leah must have taken her upstairs. A few minutes later Leah came out; her face void of emotion.

Before I had chance to ask her how it went she was in her car and driving off. After ½ hour there was still nothing. I sighed. I guess it was pointless.

I was just about to get up when I heard movement.

Then, my miracle occurred. Her small, beautiful, delicate, there are so many words; hand snaked through the letter box. Wow, mine would never fit.

I instantly grabbed it in both of mine, needing the contact. She didn't move away, I'm guessing Leah can work magic.

I knew this was my chance and I instantly took it.

"Look, Bella I am so sorry. I really didn't mean to scare you. The wolf inside of me just told me to attack. What he did, what he said, was horrible. I hate to see you hurt and I just want to protect you from the world. I'm so sorry if I scared you and I assure you I am generally not a violent person. He just set off a rage inside me. If it was anyone else I would have just scolded him. But you see Bella, it wasn't anyone else...it was you. It is you. You are so perfect and kind and sweet in every way possible and nobody should ever hurt you. From the moment I first laid eyes on you I knew. You are special. I...i'm in love with you Bella."

I held my breath as I nervously awaited her reply.

Would she forgive me? Oh god, did I say it too soon?

Half a second later her hand went back through the letterbox.

My heart shattered. It was too soon. She was in pain and I just had to say that? She is never going to forgive me. She shouldn't. I don't deserve it. I'm a monster.

Then I heard it. Her front door locks being unbolted. Then it opened to reveal a crying Bella, a beautiful Bella, who looked like crap let's face it. My heart mended again.

She held out her arms and I instantly walked in and pulled her into my arms where she belongs.

I plonked down on the couch and pulled her on my lap whilst whispering into her shiny hair.

"I'm so sorry Bella." Over and over again.

Then she did the thing that I was least expecting her to do.

She kissed me.