Hello all! I can't remember the last time I updated so I'll just assume that it was quite a while ago and apologize for my tardiness with an update! Unfortunately I don't think that this is one of my best chapters, mostly because it's in Sirius' p.o.v. and I just don't identify with his character as well as I do Severus'. I hope it's ok…or at least acceptable.
And, of course, I thank all of my reviewers for your support and I'm glad that at least some of you are enjoying what you're reading.
Sirius' P.O.V.
Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! I get to hang out (well sort of) with Severus in… five hours! Yeah, it's five o'clock in the morning. But I can't sleep! Did I mention the 3 cups of coffee I chugged down before leaving the kitchens three hours ago? And it's time to start getting ready anyway. Like for starters, we're going to be studying so I need my books. Except that my books are all beaten up and now Remmy's not here to lend me his, so… "Reparo". And now they're not. Now…why didn't I do that four months ago? Anyway, now I have to remove all of the SS+SB forever and all the hearts I wrote on them. Once I had to convince James and the guys that the 'SS' stood for Sophia Stord; some random Hufflepuff girl that I once heard of. I'm going to have to thank Remus for that eraser he got for me for Christmas. With it you can "Erase everything, even your enemies".
So, now my books are clean and shiny and it's time to move onto my clothes. I could wear my school robes like Severus will surely be doing, but when have I ever conformed to what other people do? I would much prefer to wear those muggle pants that James bought and I 'stole' from him that are too big for me so in my opinion fit perfectly. And I have my simple black top that goes really well with those pants. Okay, clothes are settled. And that's it. I guess. I think…maybe…maybe not.
Well, let's look back at our previous encounter and see what went wrong. Actually now that I think about it, what went right? It was horrible and awkward and I turned into a bumbling idiot. I have to prepare some stuff to say, I never got so tongue twisted around girls. Then again, that's probably because I'm gay; I just didn't know it then. Is that really it? I get nervous around Severus because he's a guy. Then I just have to pretend that he's a girl. Problem solved.
Argh! It's already 6 o'clock! What do I have left to do? Ummm...shower. Okay, going, going, gone. Holy shit, I just realized that I'm seventeen and I'm in love for the first time. After all of the times that I said those three sacred words, I'm really going to mean it this time. Because I am going to tell him. Some day. I can't keep all of this locked up inside forever; it'll drive me insane.
Mmmm…this soap smells good. I love having a Prefect for a best friend. And they get fluffier towels than we do! I uh…I have a slight towel obsession. I can't help it, I love fluffy towels. Oh shut up! Alright, here we are: muggle jeans and t-shirt. They fit perfectly as usual.
They should be serving the 'early bird' breakfast right about now. It's seven o'clock. Bite me; I like long showers along with my fluffy towels. So the remainder of the plan is breakfast, brush teeth, check hair, get books and head on down to the library. With an hour and a half's worth of time to spare. Oh well, it'll give me time to get to know a bit of whatever we'll be working on as I do NOT want to look like a complete retard in front of Severus. Oh the horror, studying during the blessed holidays. It should be illegal (or as Remmy would say, I should have already done my studying if I wanted to have a work free vacation). But let's not forget that it's for a good cause. No actually, it's for a great cause.
So, what's for breakfast this fine morning? A nice bowl of cereal and a tall glass of orange juice, for starters of course. And after that I'll have some eggs and potatoes and a nice fruit salad to top everything off. What? I'm a growing boy and growing boys need lots of food.
I love the Great Hall. Due to its penury of students during the holiday, they've replaced the four huge tables with one smaller round one. And they decorated the entire room with Christmas trees and ornaments and instead of having snowflakes fall from the charmed ceiling, they have flakes of gold. It's amazing, and I'm the only one here! Apart from Dumbledore that is. And we're about to be three people as the enormous wooden doors are opening. Yes! It's my love! I mean Severus, yes, just Severus. At least he's not likely to notice me as he has his nose buried in a book. Always so eager to learn…I wish I was more like that. Oh damn, I think Dumbledore's been talking to me.
-"…win the Quidditch Cup this year?"
"Um…I'm not too sure, sir. But my congratulations to whoever does." I guess that was a good answer because his eyes are twinkling even more than they usually do and he's nodding at me. Man that guy freaks me out sometimes (and just as a side comment, I was banned from the Quidditch team after the Shack incident).
You know, I never would've guessed that Sev would be toast and orange juice kind of guy, but there he is, eating toast and drinking orange juice, yes, I'm very bored.
What if I screw up everything in library and Sev never speaks to me again?
-"You won't, and I doubt that he would stop speaking with you. He values your opinion more than you know." Dumbledore just read my mind, didn't he? NOOOOOOOOOO! I've been mind-raped! That's illegal-wait did he just say that Severus values my opinion? Argh! He's gone! He disappeared, someone kidnapped him! -Or he's finished breakfast and is currently on his way out of the Great Hall. Now I feel dumb.
-"Are you okay?"
"Ah!" What the Hell was that! Severus Snape is chuckling, at me, or more probably at my response to his question. Speaking of which: "Yeah, I'm fine. Why wouldn't I be? "
"Because normally people don't gawk like madman around empty rooms for no apparent reason." Hey! I had a reason! That bastard, he's not even letting me answer as he's gone back to his reading/eating. Well, I'm bored, so his reading can bloody well wait. Why is he reading now anyways? We're going to be studying in about two hours. I wonder what we'll be studyi-.
-"What do you want to study today?" Alright, now that is getting really freaky, and annoying.
-"I don't know. What do you want to study?"
"Well, I was thinking we could get Herbology and Charms out of the way first, because they've been said to be the easiest to pass. Is that alright with you?" Yeah, whatever, I don't care. Oh wait, sorry.
-"Yeah, it's fine." And now he's leaving. And now I'm all alone in this creepy tinsel filled room.
Right…well my breakfast is now cold and I have lost all appetite so I think I'm just going to go back to the Common Room and get my stuff and stay there for a bit, then I'll walk very slowly and time consumingly towards the library, and I should arrive there just on time.
I hope he doesn't grill me on what I'm already supposed to know, especially in Herbology, because I know next to nothing about plants except that they need sunlight and water…except the ones that need neither. Great, now I'm utterly nervous.
-"Blubberplank." That's our new password, not some random gibberish I just invented. Have I ever shared with you how much I adore our Common Room? No? Well, I really like it. Except that there's nothing to do here, unless you have friends with whom one can plan insane schemes and pranks. I feel so alone…
One sheep jumped over the fence. Two sheep jumped over the fence, three sheep jumped over the fence-alright that's really not working. Oh screw this; I'm going to the library. At least there I'll have something to do. And of course, Sev is going to be there! Why didn't I think of that before?
Urg! I hate moving staircases! They sound really cool at first, and the concept is awesome, but it gets really annoying when want to go somewhere and you have to wait five minutes just because the stupid thing decided to change and stay that way.
And there is the library. And there is the Severus. Well, my Severus. Still reading his potions book…only now he's also taking notes too. Awww! Isn't that just cute! And he's playing with his hair, and tapping his foot on the ground. And he's-
"What are you waiting for, young man? An invitation? Either get in the library or leave; don't just stand there in the doorway gawking like a fish out of water. And if you're here to cause trouble, I suggest that you leave and take your schemes with you unless you want to be the first student in Hogwarts history to get a detention on Christmas day! Do I make myself perfectly clear?" Oh god must answer. Can't move. Too scared of the evil lady. Piercing black eyes ripping my soul to shreds. Can't breathe…
"It's alright Madam Pince, he's with me. He won't be causing any trouble today. I give you my word." Ah! My saviour! Is it just me or does that incredible god-like boy always show up right when I need him the most? It's like we were meant to be.
He's got nice hands…especially when he's waiving it in front of my face like that.
"Heeelllooooo! Is anybody home?" Wow, he looks good when he's staring at me expectantly. Wow, he has really nice eyes…they capture a lot of light. Wow his lips feel REALLY good against mine. WHAT?