A/N: I felt so bad for leaving it like that! So here's another chapter! Happy Valentine's Day! (A request or two shall be made today!) I don't own the characters.
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Reid woke up with a smile on his face. He had Morgan. That's all that mattered. He slowly sat up and climbed out of bed. He walked into the bathroom and prepared for the day he was spending with Morgan. He usually didn't get out of bed on Sunday's. They were his day of just relaxing, but he wasn't his home. Morgan took him in to help him get better. Reid smiled at the thought. Morgan is really thoughtful. Once he was dressed comfortably, he tiptoed to the hallway. The house was silent. He heard the pitter patter of Clooney's paws from downstairs, but not any footsteps. Reid walked downstairs and look at the clock. It was only six in the morning. Morgan doesn't wake up that early. Reid sighed and sat on the couch. Morgan wouldn't wake up until about ten. Reid couldn't even start breakfast. He did, however start the coffee pot.
Reid sat at the kitchen table and thought for a few minutes. He allowed his thoughts to drift to Mark and his sister. A part of him was still disgusted with what had happened and he tried to push any memory, new or old to the side. He wish he didn't have his eidetic memory. He could live without remembering everything he felt, heard, sensed in perfect clarity. He ran a hand through his hair and felt the nausea wash over him. Five seconds later, he found himself heaving in the bathroom toilet. He closed his eyes as he shook involuntarily. Waiting for the memories and disgust to pass. He hoped Morgan wouldn't wake up. He looked behind him and was slightly comforted that he had closed the door behind him. Reid took a couple more deep breaths. He was sure that the nausea had passed for now. He just had to keep his mind from thinking about it. He flushed the toilet and wiped the sweat from his forehead. He stood unsteadily and brushed his teeth. He decided to just go for a walk. That may calm him down. He took the spare key and headed out the front door. The cool wind hit his face refreshingly. Reid couldn't help the fact that he felt vulnerable and open. He wrapped his arms around himself and walked down the street. He just needed to clear his mind.
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Morgan rolled over tiredly. He hasn't go this much sleep in a while. He opened his eyes and looked at the clock, it was barely 8. He would have gone back to sleep, but he remembered that Reid was in the room next to his. Morgan had to go check on him. Morgan got up and shuffled out of his room and headed towards the bathroom. Once he was refreshed, he headed straight to Reid's room. He opened the door slightly to see that no one was in the bed. With a slight frown, Morgan looked into the bathroom. Still no Reid. The tiredness disappeared and turned into alertness. He quickly walked down the stairs and looked around. Sure Reid had made coffee, but where was he? Morgan looked at Clooney. Clooney looked back, ears perked.
"Find Reid," Morgan ordered. The dog jumped up and trotted to the front door. Morgan nodded and saw that the spare key was gone. Reid must have went for a walk. What Morgan didn't know was when? Should he be worried? Morgan sighed and went to grab his cell phone. He wasn't comfortable with Spencer out there by himself. Especially since Mark is also out there. Just as the phone started ringing, Spencer walked into the living room. Morgan hung up and faced Reid. Reid blinked twice and waved slightly.
"I was worried," Morgan admitted. Reid nodded and set the keys down.
"I'm sorry. I just needed some fresh air," Reid admitted with a soft half crooked smile. Morgan felt the tension wash away and stepped over to Reid, pulling him into a hug.
"Good morning to you too," Reid giggled slightly, but hugged Morgan back awkwardly.
"Good morning," Morgan smiled. "What time did you get up?" Morgan asked.
"Around six," Reid shrugged.
"Well that's early. How about we do something relaxing," Morgan said raising an eyebrow.
"Like?" Reid said mimicking Derek's expression.
"Like how about you and I go to my room and relax," Morgan suggested pulling Reid close. Reid nodded with a small smile, but internally he was panicking. 'Why did Morgan want him in his room? What was he trying to do? Did he have something in mind?' Reid swallowed the questions before they made him sick.
Morgan smiled and let Reid go. Reid dashed up the stairs and Morgan chuckled. Morgan headed to the stove and made some toast and a bit of eggs. He could tell that Reid didn't have much of an appetite, so he got something that would not mess with Reid's stomach.
Once finished, he grabbed some coffee and headed up the stairs. He walked into his room and smiled as he saw Spencer standing there looking so confused. Morgan smiled and sat their breakfast and coffees on the bed stand. Morgan went to close the door and crawled into the bed. He looked over at Spencer and saw that Spencer was too deep in thought to move. Morgan frowned. Something wasn't right with Spencer.
"Come here," Morgan said softly as leaned back against the headboard. Reid nodded and crawled in next to Morgan. Morgan carefully wrapped his arm around Reid's waist. Morgan could tell Reid lost a bit of weight from the past couple of weeks.
"What's wrong?" Morgan questioned. He felt Reid shift slightly. "You can trust me," Morgan said gently. He heard Reid sighed.
"I remember," Reid said quietly. Morgan wasn't even sure if heard him correctly.
"Come on Spencer, a little more than that," Morgan pushed carefully. He waited while Reid fell silent. He could feel Reid tense up and Morgan instantly held him tighter.
"I don't want to remember what happened, but there's no way I can forget. They may have distorted my memory, you know, visually, but I can remember everything that had transpired between us until you came. I don't exactly want to go into detail on those actions," Reid admitted willing away the blush that crept onto his cheeks.
Morgan nodded in thought. Internally he was angry, but he didn't want to scare Spencer.
"Was that your first time?" Morgan questioned instead. Reid fell silent once again and this time, Morgan pulled away to look at Reid. Reid looked back at him with a slight frown.
"No," Reid admitted.
That simple answer had Morgan in shock. What? Reid was practically perfect! He would never… Right?
Seeing the confusion written on Morgan's face Reid decided he should explain.
"Morgan, when I was still addicted to dilauded, I did some pretty stupid things. Things that I'm not all that proud of," Reid answered in his own defense.
"We all have," Morgan stated.
"Yeah, that's why I try not to drink a lot when you guys force me to the club. I get stupid," Reid said shyly. Morgan couldn't help but chuckle at Reid's comment. Reid smiled back in response.
"I'm guessing Mark knew that?" Morgan questioned raising an eyebrow. Reid shook his head.
"If he did then he wouldn't have drugged me. All he had to do was shove a bit more liquor down my throat and I would've happily obliged to anything. Instead I'm stuck with the memories of me telling him to stop, that I didn't want it," Reid said in a defeated voice.
"We should've had him locked up," Morgan whispered.
"I couldn't explain it to the team," Reid said wrapping his arms wound himself.
"Why? You don't want them to know that you're interested in guys?" Morgan frowned. Reid only shook his head.
"I don't mind them knowing. I just don't want them to pity me. Also, I feel like it's my fault it happened. I'm so stupid!" Reid said feeling the frustration build up in his chest. Morgan sighed and pulled Reid in for another hug.
"It's not your fault. They forced themselves on you. Made you do things that-
"That I've done before! It's not like it was anything new. It's not like I fought at first. I let it happen, until it went a little too far," Reid finished softly.
"You didn't consent in the end. You told him to stop. You told him that you didn't want it. They disrespected you and continued anyways. You don't deserve that," Morgan said softly. He hoped Reid believed him.
"I just feel so disgusted with myself. Like I'm dirty," Reid admitted still buried in Morgan's chest. Morgan could hear the tears in Reid's voice. He wanted to wash them all away.
Morgan gently laid Reid down. He took note of how vulnerable Reid looked at that moment.
"I love everything about you. I don't care if you willingly get silly with someone else, but I do care when someone takes advantage of you like that," Morgan said softly. He watched as a tear slid down Reid's face.
"You are better than what they did to you. I understand your pain. Just talk to me anytime you feel like you can't handle it. I promise I'll be there," Morgan said leaning down to give Reid a soft kiss. Somehow, it made Reid feel a bit better, and he gently added more force into their kiss. Morgan smiled at the small gesture. He didn't want to pull away from Reid, but he knew that at this moment, Reid didn't need the extra intimacy. Reid needed someone to be there. Morgan pulled away slowly, and earned a pout from Reid.
"Today will be nothing but lounging around. No work, not brain teasers, no conflict," Morgan smiled.
"No closeness?" Reid questioned with puppy eyes. Morgan laughed and pulled Reid close.
"We are never close enough," Morgan smiled kissing the top of Reid's head. He promised himself that he would be there for Spencer. From this day on, Reid was number one. If Mark ever got any closer than he was now, then Morgan would personally see to the fact that he doesn't live to see another day.
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A/N: Wham-Bam! There it is! So when I finish this, then I'll get back to other one….
I felt so bad that I had to continue it, lol!