And so we now have NC-17/MA for the next two chapters...

Chapter 11

Elizabeth furious with herself. Somehow she had managed to put him in the position where he felt he needed to kiss her. Now he was angry with himself for doing it, or maybe he was angry with her. She tried to hold back the tears but the forced themselves from her overloaded eyes.

Jason gathered himself and finally approached her. Although her back was to him, he could tell that she was crying because her hands had repeatedly wiped at her cheeks. "Elizabeth" he slowly whispered.

She sighed and turned around. Her eyes were red and her hands were shaking.

"God, I'm so sorry." He barely managed to get out.

Her eyes lifted to his in question, "You're sorry? Why?"

He swallowed hard, "For-for taking advantage of you."

"Of me?" she sniffled. She was getting really confused, "You weren't taking advantage of me. Is that what you thought that was?" she asked pointing at the bench.

He shrugged, "What do you think it was?"

"You kissed me out of obligation." She simply said.

He crossed his arms over his chest, "Obligation?"

"Yea, because you wanted to make me feel better about everything and…"

"Whoa, whoa… wait a minute. Elizabeth, I kissed you because I wanted to… b… because I'm attracted to you."

Her eyes met his in shock. She let his words sink in for a few seconds before shyly whispering, "You don't have to say that."

"Elizabeth, would I lie to you? I… I wanted to kiss you, I want to."

Her eyes nervously met his before quickly looking away and back at the ground and she admitted, "Me too." They stood in silence, neither moving and neither knowing what they should say. They both felt completely vulnerable and nervous. "Now what do we do?" she mumbled.

Jason shrugged and moved beside her, leaning against the railing as well.

"I rationalized the whole thing as you pitying me but I wanted it. The only thing stopping me was the fear of losing you." She picked at her fingernails as she continued. "I don't want to lose you Jason, not as a friend or anything else. We have already crossed that line and now I'm afraid that I already have."

"Already have what?"

"Lost you." She answered.

Jason shook his head, "You could never lose me… no matter what happens I will always be here… always."

"But things are already different. We already crossed a line." She blinked and a tear fell from her eye. "I wanted to talk to you about last night but I couldn't. You came home and I just pretended to be sleeping because I couldn't. I never had trouble talking to you before."

He turned to face her, his side now leaning on the railing, "You were awake… you were pretending to be asleep?"

Elizabeth blushed, "I didn't fall asleep till long after you did."

Jason found himself blushing at her admission. "So what are we then?"

"What do you want?" she asked coyly.

Jason dodged the question, "What do you want?"

"You avoided answering my question."

He took her hands in his and sucked in a deep breath then slowly exhaled it before speaking. "I can't explain what is happening here anymore then you can. Maybe everyone has been right all these years. Maybe they saw something that we didn't. Maybe we never had the opportunity to pursue anything beyond a friendship because it never presented itself. At least one of us has always been in a relationship since we became friends. T-to tell you the truth, I think I have always felt this way… I just never realized it till now." His eyes avoided hers as he continued. "Maybe the lack of an opportunity stopped me from really feeling it or acting on it."

"And now?" she asked

"Now what?" he asked and she angled her head in annoyance so he continued. "Now, now…" he paused for a second then just said it. "Now I can't stop it. I can't stop the feelings, I cant stop thinking about you. I tried to but I can't. I can't stop kissing you and touching you."

Elizabeth felt the same way but her mouth couldn't form the worse. Instead she just stood there looking into his enchanting eyes. She took a step and closed the distance between them. Her arms wrapped around his neck and she tugged him down to her, bringing his lips down to cover hers.

Jason snaked his arms around her waist and pulled her body flush against his. Her hands instantly slid around him and found the bottom seam of his t-shirt. She slipped her hands beneath and rubbed then along the length of his back causing him to groan into her mouth. Jason smoothed his hands down her sides, over her hips and wrapped them around to the back of her upper thighs. He scooped her into his arms and started toward the door.

Elizabeth tightly wrapped her legs around Jason's waist as he started walking. His hand fumbled with the door handle but his lips never left hers. Finally getting the door open, he slowly shuffled through the house until he reached the bedroom they had been sharing. When he reached the end of the bed he placed her back on her feet and pulled his mouth from hers. Their eyes connected and she placed her hands behind his head to pull him back down for another kiss but he stopped her. He grabbed her wrist, "Wait."

She looked at him with lustful eyes. Their breathing was heavy as he struggled to regain his composure. "Do you want to stop?" she murmured.

He shallowly shook his head and his hand cupped her chin. "Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked.

She did not answer him, instead her hands moved to the bottom hem of his t-shirt and she slowly pulled it up his body, exposing his toned abs and muscular chest. He helped her pull it over his head. He remained still as her hands slid over his shoulders and roamed over the expanse of his upper body. His muscles twitched under her touch and his skin burned the ached when her hand would move. Her head dipped and she kissed his chest where she felt his heart beat hammering beneath her touch. She lifted her eyes to his and found him watching her so intensely that she froze.

Jason took the opportunity to take control. He spun her around and backed her up until the back of her legs hit the end of the bed. Suddenly his mouth was on her neck and she was floating again. The heat pooled inside her and she whimpered his name. His hands slid around her waist and beneath the back of her tank top. His mouth left her neck and her let out a groan when his hand reached the top of her back and he realized that she had not been wearing a bra. She lifted her arms so he could pull it over her head. After tossing the shirt on the floor, he snaked an arm around her waist and flipped them back onto the bed. His mouth again found the column of her neck and he trailed his mouth and tongue up her neck to her chin, finally stopping on her mouth.

Elizabeth could feel him pressing against her center and she rolled her hips causing a rumble from deep in his chest. He pulled back and slid his body along hers till he was sitting straight up, straddling her thighs. His fingertips brushed across her stomach while his eyes took in the sight of her naked upper body. She trembled under his gaze. "You are beautiful." Jason whispered when his eyes landed back on hers.

Her teeth again nervously chewed on her bottom lip.

Jason shook his head, "You don't believe me?"

She closed her eyes feeling self-conscious under his analysis. She tried to move her arms to cover her chest but he grabbed them and planted them on either side of her head. His hands twisted around her wrist and he linked his findgers through hers. His body hovered over hers, "Beautiful doesn't even do you justice." He whispered huskily, his mouth next to her ear. She shivered when she felt the warmth of his breath, "You are perfect Elizabeth."

Elizabeth struggled to find her voice when his mouth closed over her earlobe. "Oh god Jason." She panted. "You…"

He released her earlobe and lifted his head, "Shhh." He hushed and kissed her swollen lips, pulling her bottom lip between his teeth then soothed it with his tongue while he released one of her hands. His newly free hand moved between their bodies and cupped a breast. "Perfect." He mumbled then slid his body down hers, trailing kisses along her neck, down her chest and stopping at the valley between her breasts.

He looked up at her face, her eyes were closed and her face was flushed. He freed her other hand and moved his to cover her other breast while he continued to kiss his way to her stomach before following the same path back up to the valley between her breasts. He removed a hand from her and replaced it with his lips, teasingly placing feather soft kisses around the raspberry hardened peak. She grabbed fistfuls of his hair and held him when his mouth finally opened then closed over the aching peak. Elizabeth let out a sigh when his teeth raked over her nipple then he gently sucked it into his mouth. After much attention, he moved and gave the other side the same treatment. When he finally lifted his head she was dizzy. Her fluttered eyes opened and she shifted to reach for the waistband of his jeans. She made quick work of the button then lowered the zipper and pushed them as low as she could, making it to his thighs. Jason rolled over to the side of the bed leaving her in the middle. He sat up and reached down to pull his boots off his feet then stood and turned back in her direction. She watched him intently as he lowered his jeans, leaving him in only a pair of black boxer briefs, his impressive erection pushing firmly on the thin fabric.

He slowly crawled back to her and hooked his fingers under the band of her thin cotton shorts. His eyes met hers again, "Are you ok?" he asked knowing that if she said no he would have trouble stopping.

Her eyes were glazed over and she could only manage a nod before he slid the shorts agonizingly slowly down her legs, taking her panties with them. He was kneeling at her feet and she lifted her body, moving to the end of the bed on her knees beside him. Her hands smoothed down his chest as she peppered kisses along his neck and collarbone. Slipping her hands under the waistband of his boxer briefs, she roughly squeezed the muscular cheeks of his ass. Jason groaned, grabbed the sides of her head and kissed her roughly while she slid his briefs down. Then her hand was wrapped around him, he broke the kiss and moaned. Her eyes met his as her hand tightened firmly around him and slid down his length. The look in his eyes when her hand moved over him was pleasure. "Elizabeth." He softly whispered and wrapped a hand around her wrist, halting her movement. A slight smile formed on her face and her hand slightly tightened causing him to forcefully pull her hand from him. In one quick movement he took her other wrist and flipped her back on the bed. He held both of her wrists over her head with one hand and struggled to remove his briefs with the other. Finally free of them, he kicked them aside and moved between her legs. His free hand smoothed down her side and between their bodies.

Elizabeth moaned when his finger came in contact with her slick flesh. He watched the pleasure on her face as he teasingly traced her slit. He had hoped to take his time with her but once he felt how soaked she was for him, all hope was lost. The wrists he had pinned over her head were released and she quickly grabbed his head and pulled his mouth down to hers. He positioned himself at her entrance but hesitated and broke the kiss. "Elizabeth…" he whispered huskily.

Her eyes fluttered open and she smiled.

He shook his head, "Fuck." He growled.

Elizabeth cupped his cheeks, "Jason, I want to do this, don't you?"

Jason met her eyes and nodded, "But I… I don't have anything…"

Her eyes widened at what he was saying. She understood his concern but she didn't care, "It's ok Jason."

"Are you sure?"

Elizabeth slid her hand down his arm and pulled at his hand. He lifted his hand off the bed and she linked her fingers in his. Her legs lifted off the bed and she wrapped them around his hips, "Don't stop." She whispered softly. His hand tightened around hers as he snapped his hips and entered her as far as her body would allow. "Oh god Jason." She moaned and her eyes fluttered closed. He held still to allow her body time to adjust.

"Open your eyes." He whispered.

Her cheeks were a bright shade of pink. When she didn't open her eyes, Jason leaned down and gently kissed each of her eyelids. Her eyes opened and Jason whispered, "Perfect" then began to slowly move. They quickly found a good pace and she was meeting him with each thrust, raising her hips off the bed to meet his. Her hand pulled at his back and he began to drive into her. He was afraid he would hurt petite body her but her moans told him that he wasn't. His lips crushed hers while his hand sought out the small bundle of nerves just above where their bodies were joined. His touch sent a blazing sensation through her body and he swallowed her moans. Their hands held each others so tightly, their knuckles where white. Her other hand dug into his back deeper as the waves began rolling through her body. Her walls clenched around him and he pulled his lips from hers as they both went over the edge and watched each other's orgasm flow from their bodies.

Jason collapsed on top of her, crushing her body beneath his. He released her hand and she wrapped it around his back. Still breathing heavily, with his arms planted on the bed he attempted to lift his weight off her but she held him on her. He lifted his head and kissed her, softly moving his lips over hers.

"Wow… I never knew…" Elizabeth started to say.

"That we could be like this together." Jason finished for her. He rolled them onto their sides, keeping their bodies connected.

Elizabeth smiled shyly, "Well that and I… I never… umm." She sucked in a deep breath and continued. "I haven't… until just now… it was always fake I always thought it was just my issues because of the rape and… oh god." She buried her face in his shoulder as he let what she just said sink in.

Jason's lips turned up in a satisfied, primal smile. "You never had an orgasm?"

She sheepishly looked up at him, "I have, just never during… oh forget I said anything."

"Never?" He asked but she again buried her face in his shoulder. He leaned into her ear and whispered, "We should have done this sooner then." His tongue traced her ear and his hips shifted, she felt him harden inside her, "And we definitely shouldn't miss another opportunity."