They drove at a steady pace, the only thing breaking the silence was the sound of Peyton sobbing. She had never been so fucked up, her eyes hurt, her throat hurt and the shakes had yet again taken her over. "You alright?" Nathan asked having sensed her discomfort.

She let out a breath before blowing on her freezing hands, "cold" was all she could say as she stared ahead. "How can you be cold it like a million degrees out here..." he begun but then remembered the withdrawal symptoms she had been suffering from recently. She watched him carefully deciding if she should put her full trust in him or not as he fished a blanket from the backseat of her comet, to be honest if she should never trust anyone again it was Lucas, but she was just thankful that hopefully he still loved her enough not to tell about the drugs and her being raped. "You know what Nate just take me home I'm not feeling so good" she whispered as he looked at her before giving her a slight smile.

"Just try and have a little nap before we get there" Nathan said rubbing her arm with his free hand before placing it back on the wheel.

She closed her eyes before nodding and drifting off into some sort of micro-sleep. The journey to the Scott Residence had take a little under ten minutes, once the pulled up almost instinctively Peyton snapped awake her eyes instantly widening at the realization of where she was.

"What the fuck Nathan?" she asked as her eyes squinted together in anger and she took in a shaky breath to keep herself from falling apart. "Your dad and other people are expecting to see you it would be rude to just bail" he tried as she shook her head and looked away.

"I'm not going in" she protested, and before she knew it she was out of the car and was being led up to the doorstep by Nathan's forceful hand. "Get off me" she sneered as he let her go once they reached the front door.

She watched as he knocked her insides eating each other as the overwhelming sense of fear begun to take her over, then she collapsed onto Nathan exhaustion creeping over her "Come on Peyton stand up" he said as he stood her up straight, she blinked a couple of times as her knees begun to feel like jelly.

Lucas had been avoiding Brooke ever since they had arrived, he had finally admitted to himself that had been hiding with Brooke and although he did love her it was nothing compared to Peyton, he was planning on ending it and today, he was gonna dump Brooke for Peyton and fight for her. And not to be an ass but to so he could be with the one that had had his heart ever since she almost hit him with her comet and from the moment they locked eyes, all he had thought about the past three days was the look of utter defeat and devastation, he hadn't mean't to hurt her and he had been looking for someone to blame and she was his closest target. He had been focusing on their current relationship and how many times she had pushed him away and he just snapped. But what she had said to him earlier really did without a doubt hit it home. He walked around the corner head in his hands as Brooke ran straight into his chest. "Luke hey I've been looking for you everywhere" she rasped as she looked him in the eyes intently, he nodded mutely. "Is something wrong?" she asked as he avoided her stare.

"Look Brooke I can't do this anymore" he said as he let out a sigh, her eyebrows knitted together in a mixture of hurt and anger. "What?" she asked as her glare sliced into him. "us...I'm sorry" he said walking away before she could even get another word out, there was no other way to say it nice or mean. He continued to walk back into the guests but was stopped by her angry shout. "THIS IS PEYTON ISN'T IT YOUR IN LOVE WITH HER" She shouted, he turned around just as the doorbell went

"I'll get it" his mother said but he beat her to it, "It's fine i got it" he said with a false smile and when he looked back Brooke was gone...at least it saved him the drama on this one. Once his mom disappeared around the corner he opened it and was met with the sight of Nathan holding up a doped up looking Peyton.

"She needs to sleep now" Nathan said as he let go of Peyton and she fell into Lucas' arms an utter mess. He nodded as Nathan walked past him and Lucas was left in the hallway with a docile Peyton staring up at him tiredly though blonde lashes.

His annoyance at her was starting to get the better of him, she was high and he could tell just by the state of her. He sighed putting a side her words from earlier and lifting her into his arms bridle style before carrying her up the stairs towards his bedroom.

He rested Peyton on his bed and she was instantly on alert looking around her wildly like a mental patient trapped in a psych ward. "No" she whimpered trying to get up but he pushed her back down firmly before looking her in the eyes. "Look I don't like this anymore than you do Peyton but since your in no condition to be downstairs at the moment I suggest you stay here" he said trying to keep his emotions and bay which was also hard because her disheveled look along with the way her black wrap dress had fallen down her shoulder and was exposing her bra was turning him on more and more as each second went by.

Their sexual tension almost becoming to much for him to bear. He was about to rise when she grabbed his hand tightly staring into his eyes with such fiery passion that he was forced to look away.

"Don't leave me up here alone please" she whimpered out her eyes going glassy with tears. He looked at her for a second contemplating on his options. "Everyone is waiting downstairs and I have to make my speech soon for Keith" he stated coldly before starting to rise to his feet and ruffling his sandy blonde hair, he tried to sound indifferent when he said, it and he wished that his emotions had been numbed like three days before when he had heard the news of his uncles death but Peyton always had habit of making him do things he wouldn't normally do, he couldn't control himself around her, she was intoxicating and he couldn't get enough of her. She shook her head before turning on her side into the fetal position before sobbing out.

"Luke please...you can't..." she all but begged and before he could even blink she had shot up like bullet from her spot on the bed and was now in front of his closed bedroom door back to it blocking him from exiting.

"Move Peyton" he said trying to keep the anger that was starting to boil within him at bay but she stood her ground tears falling from her cheeks. "No Luke hear me out ok, I'm so so sorry that Keith is dead because of me...I wish that it was me that was dead and if I could trade me for Keith in a second I would" she spoke erratically, he didn't want to hear this he couldn't even begin to imagine his life without her, he didn't want to as far as he was concerned there wasn't a him if there wasn't her.

"STOP IT, STOP IT!" He roared as she continued not listening to his pleas, "NO LUKE I JUST NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT I GET WHY YOU BLAME ME, YOU SHOULDN'T OF SAVED ME, I'M NOT FUCKING WORTH IT!" She cried as tears for the impossible fell down her cheeks, he shook his head before grabbing her head in his hands and looking her in the eye with passion. "PEYTON SHUT UP!" He screamed and she stopped instantly her eyebrows knitting together in pain and confusion.

"It wasn't your fault Peyt..." he whispered soothingly as her face started to scrunch up, he knew she was about to breakdown.

"No..." she whimpered her head starting to slump but he forced her to look at him again.

"Peyton I was upset and hurt and in shock, I didn't know what I was saying it was my choice to save you and I did it because...because I love you Peyton" he admitted as she started to shake her head, he then realized how close he was actually standing to her their lips were just inches apart and he was pressed hard against her to prevent her from moving.

"No you can't Luke...you can't love me...I'm dangerous I'm not good for you...I'm nothing but Sammy's handy work" she sobbed as he shut his eyes his face scrunching up in frustration before he gripped her chin. "Peyton" he didn't think things had gotten that bad but they had and know he couldn't fix it.

"JUST GO BACK TO BROOKE LUKE AND JUST...STAY...OUT...OF...MY...LIFE!" She shrieked trying to move and when he didn't budge she started hitting his chest hard her emotions were all over the place and he knew that she couldn't even begin to make sense of what she was feeling because of those stupid fucking drugs. "I...HATE...YOU I DON'T LOVE YOU I'M YOUR MISTAKE REMEMBER THE VILLAIN IN YOUR FUCKING LUCAS BROOKE FAIRYTALE STORY BOOK AND I'M NOT GONNA BE YOUR GIRL TO GO TO WHEN YOUR HORMONES ARE RAGING AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S NOT AVAILABLE. ALTHOUGH I KNOW I AM A WHORE!" She cried hitting at his chest with everything she had as the tears flew without mercy down her face, he knew she didn't mean a word of what she was saying but that didn't mean that it didn't hurt any less. He gripped her flailing arms firmly before holding them between them to prevent her from doing him any farther more damage.

"Don't ever say that again you don't fucking mean it,, Sammy was a sick piece of shit...he raped you Peyton and that's not your fault you have no one to blame but him and when I see that disgusting little creep i'm gonna kill him myself, and I'm so sorry that I blamed your for Keith's death it wasn't your fault baby, i'm so sorry...I love you Peyton, I'm in love with you" he stated again it was the desperate truth, she tried to hit him again but he gripped her hands more firmly as his blue eyes bore into her green ones with a mixture of pure love, lust and passion, he had meant every word of what he just said, he didn't care about Brooke he was only hiding he saw that now and now all he saw was Peyton.

It was like spinning into infinity.

They stared at each other for a second their eyes both filled with hurt and passion. And in one swift motion he had his hands on her face and his lips pressed hard to hers. It took her a second to register what was going on but the moment she did she pulled away and slapped him again, making sure to drag her nails across his face. he grabbed her firmly pushing up against the door even more, and pinned her hands down to either side of her body.

"I'm not gonna let you shut me out again Peyt...Let me in, you want all the same things I want remember".

"You don't know anything" was all she could get out before his tongue was invading her mouth again more desperately this time. He pushed his body into hers as he brought her hands up around his neck.

Without thinking she dug her nails into the nape of his neck as his as his fingers trailed back down her arms down to her sides before he gripped her waist and hoisted her body up around his hips, her legs automatically wrapping around him on their own accord. His hips were bucking against hers, pressing her body as hard as possible against his sturdy bedroom door.

A slow moan escaped her lips spurring him on, as his lips trailed sweat soft kisses lower down her shoulder and her head rolled back until it hit the door. This felt so right, but she couldn't let herself give in so she forced herself to imagine him doing the exact same thing to Brooke.

She pictured him saying the exact same things to the brunette she once considered her best friend. "LET GO OF ME!" he ignored her screams as his hand slid the strap of her bra of her shoulder before he place it back onto her thigh and started nibbling at her ear.

He was determined to break her...to make her admit she still loved him.

He needed to hear it from her perfect lips. He smoothed the tears from her face before kissing her cheeks softly he needed her to look at him to confirm it was real, "Open your eyes Peyt please" he begged her eyes slowly opened and he was met with broken minty green ones filled with so much pain that it made a breath catch in his throat.

He planted his soft lips on hers again, she wrapped her legs around him even tighter around his lower half, her back arched of the wall as his lips traveled between her breasts. Her fingers gripped tightly onto the hem of his shirt and quickly yanked it over his head. She bent her neck and managed to capture his lips with hers again in hot kiss.

He moaned as he leaned into her neck and begun trailing kisses down her neck as he groped her breast in one of his palms causing her to let out a choked sob. His eyes darted upwards when he felt a moisture on his hands, which were now grasping hers again. He watched as the tears slipped down her cheeks and kissed her gently wondering how just bringing her upstairs to rest had turned into this throw of passion.

Her hips begun grinding against his, as her feet pulled his boxers down by his pants. "I love you" he whispered as he looked into her eyes with sincerity and she gasped as he slid inside her with one smooth stroke, her legs tightening around his waist as his hips rocked slowly with hers. Her breathing growing heavier as his pace quickened and she could feel his warm breath against her shoulder. His breathing equally as heavy as hers.

Her back arched of the wall as his hands gripped her bare thighs tightly. The heat was rising in both their bodies as beads of sweat begun to form on both of them. Her nails dug into his skin as she buried her mouth on his shoulder. He heard her screams on his skin as his built in the back of his throat and caught her lips as the sound left his body and echoed into hers. The kiss grew harder and more intense as the heat begun to build from his body into hers. Slowly the kiss grew into something more gentle as their breathing begun to even back out and they came down from their ecstasy.

Her lips eventually parted from his, her head hitting the wall as he gave one final thrust before spilling his seed deep inside her, but she was to in a trance to even notice that he had and he was too. He settled her body back onto the floor and rested his head against her shoulder. She let in a shuddering breath as she pushed away from him walking over on shaky knees to get her shoes from the side of his bed, and putting her knickers back on that had been tossed to the side forgotten.

"Peyton" he started but she chucked a hand towel from his desk in his direction. He wiped the sweat of his face before discarding the towel back onto his computer stand.

She turned away from him shaking her head as she tried to put on her shoes, her hands shaking so much she couldn't and the next thing she said made him cringe. "I need a hit" she uttered as she started to break down throwing her shoes of and trying again. He finished doing up his belt buckle then took long strides up to her, before pulling her to her feet.

"No" he said firmly his squinted icy eyes boring into hers with so much love she couldn't take it. He grabbed her cheek gently before kissing her softly again.

"I love you" he repeated his words from earlier and she before she could register what she was saying the same words came from her lips.

"I love you too" she said and she actually meant it this time, she didn't have to pretend it was real because it was actually there. He smiled lightly before leaning in to kiss her again but the door slammed open revealing a red eyed Brooke who looked like she had been crying.

They both looked at her like a deer caught in headlights, and Lucas felt the sheer feeling of dread saw through him.

"YOU BITCH!" She shrieked as she launched herself at Peyton slapping her hard across the face with a connection so hard that it echoed of the walls of his bedroom. Before Brooke could try again Peyton was on her and the two were at full blows with each other. Their was screaming, punching and kicking.

With that Lucas' instincts kicked in and the final slap to Peyton's face is what snapped him out of his reverie. He strode over towards his now ex girl friend and love of his life and dragged that little bitch Brooke off of Peyton and Nathan and Haley came into the room out of no where. Nathan coming straight to Peyton's aid as he helped her to her feet as Peyton wiped at her busted lip. "BROOKE WHAT THE HELL!" Lucas screamed his eyes like fire. "WE AREN'T EVEN BROKEN UP FOR TWO MINUTES AND YOUR ALREADY FUCKING HER!" Brooke cried as tears cascaded down her cheeks. He took a minute to swallow choosing his words carefully, "Brooke..." he begun but she cut him of with a hard slap to the cheek with a pain that radiated from his nose and spread to his cheek creating a burning sensation.

"What?" Haley asked staring at Lucas with accusing eyes. Peyton watched on in horror as the scene from her worst nightmares unfolded before her. "CHOOSE!" Brooke screamed as his eyebrows knitted together in confusion. "What?" he asked shaking his head, "It's me or her" she said her voice dangerously low. His blue eyes looked to Peyton taking in her tired, pained broken expression knowing that every second that went by her withdrawal symptoms were slowly starting to catch up with her and she was being triggered with every second that went by. His attention then turned back to Brooke.

Peyton couldn't stand the silence anymore and had already drawn up her own conclusion of what he was gonna do he was gonna go back to Brooke like always and they'd live happily ever after like they were suppose to, married in Tree Hill with kids, the very thought made her heart rip and the nausea begin to settle in again. "Whatever" He heard Peyton's broken voice say and then he saw a flash off blonde curls rush past him. "PEYTON!" He shouted before bolting after her, Nathan hot on his heals. Leaving only Brooke and Haley.

"Brooke" Haley tried but Brooke put up her hand to stop her.

"It doesn't matter" she stated brokenly as she started to cry knowing she had gotten her answer, it was always gonna be Peyton. Haley came over and wrapped her in a hug.

So there's today's update, hope you liked I always love to hear what you think.

LeytonFan4Eva xx