Written with the help of BlueOrbs998 (She's written pretty much the entire convo between Tommy/Kelly)!

Chapter 10.

No one knew it, but Kelly was already by the church. She was in a broom closet, sitting on a chair. She was leaning against the wall, breathing slowly. How was she going to be happy for Kris, when she saw the love of her life marry someone else? Kelly felt like killing herself.

But she had to get through this day, she just had to. She knew she could do it. She was sure of it. She would put on a smile and pretend like nothing was bothering her. Somehow, she knew she could do it.

"Jill honey?"

There was a knock on the dressing room and Kris, Jill and Julie turned towards it.

"I'm decent!" Kris called, whereupon it was opened.

The twins tumbled inside, followed by Aunt Lydia.

"Ommy!" Both Jessica and Jacob called as they ran towards their mother. Kris carefully bent down and kissed them both before stretching her back.

"You look beautiful honey." Aunt Lydia smiled as she began to get teary eyed. Kris had gotten into her white wedding dress, and Jill was now taking care of her hair.

"Thanks Aunt Lydia." Kris smiled.

Aunt Lydia looked at Kris for a few seconds, her hand together and her head on its side, before she remembered why she had gotten there.

"Jill, you told me you would take care of the twins, right? They are walking down the aisle with you and Kelly, right?"

"Yes. You can leave them here, I'll watch them." Jill smiled, and Aunt Lydia nodded before she left the room.

Jill grabbed both kids and put them both in the couch in the room, looking them over. Jess was dressed in a pink dress while Jacob had a little tuxedo on, both of them looking adorable. Both kids' hair was hanging perfectly and never needed to be tended to.

Jill walked out of Kris' room a little later, the twins happily following her. Tiffany, Sabrina and Julie were all with Kris, helping her get ready. Bosley had dropped off Ella and Sarah too, who were also getting into dresses.

Jill felt she was getting nervous. The wedding was coming closer, and she had no idea were Kelly was. Nor Tommy.

Jacob suddenly ran past Jill, beginning to hurry down a hallway. Jill stared at him for a second, then hurried after him. He was giggling happily as he walked and he kept repeating "Elly, Elly."

Jill suddenly saw Tommy in the hallway, and Jill reached down and stopped Jacob, who groaned unhappy. Jill looked up at Tommy, who was pacing back and fourth outside a broom closet before he sighed and opened the door to the closet, disappearing inside. He obviously needed to get away and be for himself for a second.

Jill let Jacob go and he hurried up to the door, putting his heads towards it.

"Elly!"

Jill was confused at Jacob, that wasn't Kelly inside, that was Tommy. Jill walked up to the door, and she was just gonna stick her head in and make sure he was okay when she heard a female voice. Jill pressed her ear against the door and listened.

Kelly looked up when she heard the door opened. She quickly brushed the tears off her face, wondering who was entering her closet. She pulled her eyebrows together in confusion when she saw Tommy.

"I can't marry her." Tommy said quietly, immediately letting his thoughts out as he leaned against the door in the crowded area.

Kelly felt her jaw drop before she picked it up and she swallowed hard.

"What? Why would you say that?"

"Because… Look at you. Because... I'm in the way, aren't I? I've seen the way you look at her, Kelly. The way you love her and protect her. You do it better than I can."

"I don't understand." Kelly whispered, putting her face in her hands for a moment.

"You love her. How do I marry a woman who is loved by someone else?"

Kelly took her hands away from her face, after drying her tears. She didn't want Tommy to see her cry, but it was a little too late, and she couldn't stop her tears. They were flowing down her face. Kelly took a deep breath as she straightened her back.

"I... what do you want me to tell you, Tommy? That is doesn't hurt to see her get married to you? It does. It's killing me."

"If I marry her... I'll always be wondering how she feels about you. How I'm ruining your life. I ruined it, didn't I? Changed everything. You hate me."

"I don't hate you." Kelly answered, a bit surprised by what he was saying. Or actually, a lot surprised.

"You looked at me... like I was the worst thing that could have ever happened to you when you met me."

Kelly shrugged as she looked away for a few seconds before she frowned in annoyment, looking back towards Tommy.

"How dare you explain to me my feelings? You don't understand." Kelly sighed, shaking her head as it dropped down.

"Then make understand. If I don't, then I'm going to crush Kris by not marrying her. I can't marry someone whose heart may already belong to someone else."

Kelly looked up at him, Tommy immediately feeling nervous. Kelly's green eyes could really be piercing. Tommy decided to clear his throat before continuing, but Kelly cut in.

"You love her more than I do Tommy. I never thought it was possible for anyone to love her more than me... but God, I was wrong. Because if I told her... if she knew, she would be with me. But it would be out of guilt. I know Kris, I know she doesn't love me that way. But she would stay with me so I wouldn't have to go through any more pain. And I can't... I wouldn't do that to her."

Kelly stopped talking, swallowing hard. She felt like she was suffocating in here. It was too crowded and her chest ached.

"You're better for her. You'd take better care of her. You'd..."

"Tommy, shut up. She doesn't want me. Don't you see that?"

Kelly sighed as she buried her head into her hands again.

"I had it planned. It was right after I adopted Ella. Kris and I kind of became parents together and it was like being in a relationship, Kris was always there to help me with Ella and we had breakfast together almost every morning. But it was all pretend, it was all in my mind. But I wanted to make it real, so I set out a plan. She wanted to move to Washington, and I was planning on adopting another baby. So I thought I'd adopt, move out there with her and really make us a family. It was going to be perfect. When I was shot, I realized how much I loved her. How close I came to losing her. I went to Texas after I healed, she went out to Washington, I adopted Sarah... and Jill called me."

Tommy inhaled deeply, realizing where this was going.

"Kris had met this amazing guy she used to know in college."

Tommy sighed. Yep. Kelly didn't seem to notice him, she kept talking with her face in her hands.

"And I had to listen to every word about you. You made me sick. Your name, your... you. You just being you made me sick. Then I had to meet you. And... it was done. My fairytale, my happy family, you took it all."

"Then she got pregnant, and..." Tommy sighed as he looked down. Suddenly his black shoes seemed very interesting. "I don't know what to say to you."

"She got pregnant and she have amazing kids that I think of as my own. And I had to sit back, and watch you together. I hated it." Kelly said, almost spitting out the words.

"That's why you tried to scare me away." Tommy said, remembering all his near accidents while they were in Boulder's Creek with Sabrina.

"But you didn't scare. And Kris... she loves you. I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't ruin her happiness." Kelly sighed as she got her head out of her hands, finally looking up at Tommy.

"If you went into her right now, she would leave me, Kelly. I know it. I can't marry her knowing that –"

Kelly interrupting Tommy by pressing her face into her hands again, letting out a long groan. She then looked up at him, a small smile spreading from the corners of her mouth.

"No, Tommy. That's where you're wrong. If I went to Kris, she would be with me so I wouldn't hurt. She could never break my heart intentionally, so she would put up with this relationship of never being in love with me, just so I would be happy."

Tommy opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. He closed it, before opening it again. Realizing his mouth wasn't working, he once again closed it, feeling like a stupid fish.

"How could I ever be so selfish to do that to her? When I know that you're the one she wants to spend a lifetime with?"

"My love... it feels so small… compared to yours. Like I… I can't compete." Tommy whispered, suddenly feeling the sweat on his forehead. He agreed with Kelly, the room was getting smaller and it was hard to breathe in here. Like if the air was filled with thick, unbreakable tension.

"It doesn't matter how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others. And her love for you is not so small, Tommy. It's bigger than anything." Kelly said wisely, looking up at him again.

Tommy sighed as he finally walked closer to Kelly and sat down onto a bucket that had been turned upside down.

"She's never going to love me in any other way. I'm never going to get in the way of your marriage, why do you think I've buried myself in the closet?" Kelly said, rolling her eyes slightly as she gestured around in the small broom closet.

"How can you be so sure? That she loves me?" Tommy asked, and Kelly put her hand towards his cheek, smiling slightly.

"Because I know Kris, better than she knows herself."

"It's not easy doing this to you." Tommy more stated than asked, raising an eyebrow towards her.

Kelly smiled as she let her hand fall down, and Tommy gently grabbed it. Kelly looked away for a second. He could see she was getting teary eyed, again. She then looked back towards Tommy, still smiling.

"I'll be fine. You'll be fine too, as long as I don't hear complaints. Don't ever hurt her."

Tommy smiled back as he squeezed Kelly's hand.

"Would never dream of it."

"Jill?"

Jill jumped high when she heard a voice behind her. She turned around and put her hand towards her chest as she saw Kamili standing there.

"Hey, Kam." Jill smiled.

Kam looked at her confused and Jill realized what Kamili wondered.

"Oh, Kelly and Tommy are in there."

"WHAT?!" Kamili exclaimed.

Jill quickly put her hand over Kamili's mouth, but it was too late. The closet door flung open and both Kelly and Tommy stared at the two women outside, Jill still holding her hand over Kamili's mouth.

"What are you two doing?" Tommy asked.

"I… I overheard you talking. And Kamili misunderstood what I meant when I said you two were in the closet."

"Jill." Kelly said softly.

"Yes?"

"Please let my angel breathe again."

Jill looked at Kamili and let go of her mouth. Kamili inhaled deeply, then turning towards Kelly.

"Thank you."

Kamili then smiled and turned towards Jill.

"Unlike you white people, I don't turn into a smurf when you're suffocating me, but that still doesn't mean I can survive without air."

"I'm sorry!" Jill said embarrassed before turning to Kelly and Tommy. "We'll leave you alone to talk and we won't tell anyone what you've been saying. But Kelly… and Tommy. You'd better be walking down that aisle when it's your turn. None of you are allowed to ruin Kris' wedding." Jill said, with seriousness in her voice that only a big sister could have.

"We promise Jill." Kelly smiled.

"I promise too." Tommy nodded.

"Hey Jill." Kamili said, looking over towards the room where several guests had gathered up.

"Yeah?"

"Weren't you supposed to watch the twins?"