Rachel: Seb - cut off by Sebastian
Sebastian: Rach, let me finish, you of all people know how hard it was to open up to anyone or to love..heck I just embarrassed myself singing a song I wrote FOR YOU.i know you love me but if you care about they think more than me then where do we stand.. You know what..our date tonight is postponed til you figure out what you want. I'm out of here..
Sebastian turned and started walking out..Rachel just stood there frozen while the rest of glee club just shook heads or smirked. Kurt & Blaine just looked on saddened.
Rachel knew Sebastian was right. She never spoke up when she should have and stood up for both of them.
Finn: So Rach, what's your excuse now?
Rachel: You know what..Sebastian was right..iam so sick of you all dictating my life. Sectionals was not my fault though you want to blame me & Jesse when it was Santana,Brittney and yes even Quinn who spied on us then leaked set list. You always want to replace me but when you need me, I'm always there. I at least can be professional. You can't tell me who to love esp when he's the love of my life?! Thanks to you all I may have just lost him...
Kurt:* looking at Rachel* then go after him Rachel...
Rachel: *shocked* I will thank you Kurt..
Kurt :he loves you..
Rachel ran out of auditorium to find Sebastian but he was gone..
What am I going to do now? Rachel thought..Previously on If You Go Away...
Now continuing the story...
Rachel POV
Kurt:* looking at Rachel* then go after him Rachel...
Rachel: *shocked* I will thank you Kurt..
Kurt :he loves you..
Rachel ran out of auditorium to find Sebastian but he was gone..
What am I going to do now? Rachel thought.
I ran through the school to parking lot hoping that maybe Sebastian was waiting for her so that they could talk. I can't find him anywhere. So I got to my locker to gather my belongings and go look for him. I've tried texting him.
Sebastian,
Please honey Iam sorry. You were right. Please text or call me.
-Rach
I dial his cellphone but it goes to voicemail. REALLY?!
Where could he be? Rachel wondered. Now I know how he felt when he was searching for me. Although this is an entirely different situation.
Damn it, Rachel sighed, why didn't I just tell the glee club about me & Sebastian?! It wasn't that big of a deal and if they didn't approve then they could simply kiss my A... Too harsh?!
Why should I have to sacrifice my happiness if the rest of the team aren't willing to do the same?! Its not like they've ever been there for me. It was always either Finn or Quinn. Heck why did she get songs sung to her just because she was tried to lie about paternity and dyed her hair trying to rebel?! When have they done that for me? Never. Sure Glee means alot to me but having my one true love by my side as i take the next step in my life would be epic.
Speaking of Quinn what is her deal and why is she sooo concerned about me and Sebastian?! She has what she wanted. Wait that text message "If you keep searching for that happy ending you will never get it right" it said. I've heard that before, wait who sent it? It can't. Be. It wouldn't be her..and if so why? Rachel's wondered.
As I thought it over, I drove to Lima Bean to see if Id get lucky. As I parked the car, I see a tall boy with bronze hair and green a Warbler blazer heading to his car. SEBASTIAN?!
I hurried out of my car running to catch up with him before he could get away. "Sebastian?!" I yelled. He looked up and saw me, but the pain in his eyes killed me. Sebastian ignored me and tried to open his car door. So I ran to him, grabbing him by the arm.
Rachel: Sebastian please wait.
Sebastian: Wait for what, Rach? What would I be waiting for? How long?
Rachel: I-
Sebastian: I don't even think YOU know Rachel. Look, Iam sorry I put you I an awkward position. I get it, but I just couldn't Stan there and watch the woman I love, my "so called Fiancee", get bullied and pushed around. That's one thing about the Warblers..despite warning me to keep my head in the game & focus Warblers and Regionals...they honestly don't care if we're together. They accept us. And frankly I don't care approve or not. But I know you do.
Rachel: If you stop interrupting and let me finish my sentence?!
Sebastian: *sigh* Fine, proceed...
Rachel: Thank you. As I was TRYING to say is that you were right..about everything. If we're talking about marriage Someday then we have to be honest and support each other. I just wanted to avoid drama and try to be a team player. I am envious that you have such support around you. As for me, I be a part of something special that makes me feel special. What I thought was glee club I failed to realize that we're special. What you did for me, the song, it was amazing. No one has ever done that before and I know how hard it is for you to express your feelings because you portray yourself as this self-righteous asshole. I love that you tried to show others.
Sebastian: Rach. The reason I'm upset Is not solely because I opened my heart to you in public, but that you just let people walk over you. You didn't believe in me or us enough. You never defend me to others. I don't know.. * running hands through his hair frustrated. He played with his car keys as if he was ready to bolt and put distance between us.
Rachel: Can you forgive me?
Sebastian: I can never stay mad at you, and always forgive you.
Rachel: Well that's great. So I guess now we can have our date..-Sebastian cut her off.
Sebastian: But Rachel, I think right now we should just postpone our date and have some space between us.
Rachel: *tears fill her eyes* Are you..are you breaking up with me?
Sebastian: *tears fill his eyes too* Break up? NO! I, uh, I just think we need space for a few days to cool down .things through. Plus Regional couple weeks so we need to focus. Then maybe after Regionals we can talk about us more.
Rachel: *crying* If that's what you really want..then okay..I'm sorry for bothering you ill just go...* turning to walk away*
Sebastian: Rach, wait, it's NOT what I want, but I do think you need time to deal with everything like your PTSD, glee club, and priorities. I'm still here for you, I just think we need some time.
* he walked up to me, cupping my face,leaning in and giving me the deepest and most passionate kiss we've shared mixed with sadness. "I love you, Rachel. Don't think I don't. If you believe in us enough then we will work through this. Ok? "
Rachel: *kiss back* I do believe...
Sebastian: Do you trust me?
Rachel: I do trust you...
Sebastian: So if you believe or trust me as you say, then we will be ok. I've gotta go but we will talk soon. Okay? I'll respect you and give you space as well.
Sebastian got into his car, but before he drove I remembered something..
Rachel: Seb wait..
Sebastian: What is it?
Rachel: I am just wondering why Quinn is so concerned about our relationship lately. Do you know why?
Sebastian's face got pale but looked down at his steering then back at Rachel.
Sebastian: How should I know. She's the Queen B and who knows why she's the way she is. Don't worry about her though. Believe in me..in us babe. *blowing her a kiss*
Rachel: *smiles* I do..be safe..I love you Sebastian Smythe.?
Sebastian: I love you times infinity, Rachel Barbra Berry. ?
I stood there as he drove away. I got back into my car and drove home. I held back the tears threatening to spill until I got into my house and ran to my room. I started to cry and I felt like a part of my heart is slipping away. How did we get here?
I get a text..its Sebastian..
Rachel,
Before I forget, check your email. I left a video message for you. I recorded it before today happened. I want you to keep it and think about us. This song is for YOU and YOU alone. I LOVE YOU ❤ I miss you already. But in the end, this will be good for us.
-Seb
I walk over to my laptop, logging into my email account. I open the message, and I was shocked to see Sebastian in his room with Nick, Jeff, and Thad. Sebastian had a guitar I his hand.
"Rachel, the love of my life, I wrote this for you. My first attempt actually. I asked my friends to accompany me. I hope you love it as much as I love you.
I love you beautiful.."
Rachel smiled and sat on her bed as music began.
?"(Thad)
Ever since you came into my life,
(Jeff)
Time after time
Everything that I've tried
Can't do nothing at all
Everywhere I walk, nowhere to turn
I was losing my way
Crying every day
I was givin' up and you walked into my life
(Nick)
I never knew anything about love
In the world that I know
Lovers come and go
Nobody anywhere, talk like you do
Saying dreams can come true
Then you made me feel just like a man should feel
[Chorus: ](Sebastian)
Ever since you walked into my life
All at once, I feel so strong inside
Anything you ask of me
I'll do it faithfully
Since you walked into my life (into my life)
Yeah, girl (Thad)
You're the only one for me
Oh, girl
Oh baby (oh baby) (Nick)
Now I've got a reason to live
And oh darling
How I love the sweet love you give (oh baby)
And I wanna spend my life with you
Wanna make your dreams come true
Every step you take I wanna be with you
[Chorus ](All)
(Sebastian)
I am learning that the touch of love is magic
Feel it once, and you will see your world so differently
Nothing stays the way that it was
Everything begins again
You're not who you've always been
[Chorus ](Sebastian)
Ever since you came into my life
I wanna be with you, girl
Since you walked into
Since you walked into my life
Girl, nothing's ever felt
Nothing's ever felt so right
Baby, I wanna be with you
Since you walked into
Since you walked into my life
I wanna be with you
[Repeat and fade ] (Sebastian walked in front of Rachel singing while looking right in the camera)
Rachel had tears in her eyes. Sebastian: Rachel, I know you maybe upset because I'm opening up about my feelings in front of everyone but I don't care. I want the world to know how much I love you and we will be married someday..
Gawd, I love him so much.
* front door opens *
?: Rachel sweetie, we're home.
Rachel: Daddies!
* running downstairs to greet her fathers *
She rushed into their arms.
Rachel: DADDY! PAPA: I'm so glad to see you!
*she held onto Leroy and his cried. Both of her fathers were shocked but held her.
NKOTB. (congratulations to NKOTB HWOF Star! Its about time!)