Chapter 11 apologies
Edwards p.o.v
My beautiful angel my Bella was lying in front of me. Her face contorted in pain when she saw me. I have never seen someone's body so destroyed before. The doctors had to put her in numerous splints because they were afraid the burns would get infected if Bella sweated. She had burns all over her body but some of the worst were on her arms. They stretched from the tips of her small fingers and went to her elbows. The other bad burns were on her legs, torso and back.
"Why are you here?" She asked somewhat acidly. My dead heart shuddered in pain and I'm sure it showed on my face. I walked over to Bella and got down on my knees looking deep into her eyes. I saw an undying sadness in her eyes that shredded my heart into pieces. "Bella I'm so sorry.
I LIED about everything in the forest, it was the worst thing I have EVER done. I LOVE YOU Bella. Please, please, please, believe me. I lied thinking I would protect you because after the incident at your birthday…" I shuddered.
"I never forgave myself. I put you in danger, but I realize now that without you I am NOTHING my world means NOTHING and maybe if I had stayed with you wouldn't have gotten hurt. You amaze me in every way and I want you to know, even if you hate me, that I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU. If you never forgive me I will understand because I don't deserve you. You're beautiful and innocent in everything you do. PLEASE FORGIVE ME!"
I was dry sobbing at this point when I felt a hand rest on my shoulder and saw my angel look deep into my eyes as if looking for the truth. I showed all the love, sorrow and pain that I felt in my eyes. I then saw in her eyes denial. "Edward how could you love me? I am NOTHING. I am BURNED and shall never look the same. You could find ONEHUNDRED other girls that would love you the first SECOND they saw you. Why do you love me? HOW could you love me?" she cried.
Bella my world shattered when you left. You are the ONLY woman I will ever want. I love you to the moon and back. NO, I love you more than that. I love you to the very end of space and time one-million times and back. I love you more than you would ever know.
I don't deserve you. I chanced a glance in her direction. She looked me in the eye and smacked me. "EDWARD CULLEN! IF YOU EVER LIE TO ME AGAIN I WILL KILL YOU! I DON'T CARE HOW LONG IT TAKES!" Then softer at almost a whisper she said "please don't leave again, I don't think I could handle it." Even though the sack obviously hurt her more than me (she used her splinted and burned hand) I knew that I had been forgiven.
I kissed my angel on the lips as passionately as I could without hurting her and sat with her as she started to fall asleep. She turned to look at me, once more before closing her eyes and said "Edward I feel like something bad is about to happen. I don't know what it is, but if I am going to die I want you to change me. I want to be with you forever. Please understand this. I want to be with you forever."
Before I could reply she fell into a deep sleep.