Shizuo yawned and looked at the time on his watch that now read 3am; he looked back up at the unconscious brunet and sighed. The blonde had been sitting in the same spot for god knows how many hours, waiting for Izaya to wake up…well at least hoping he would wake up.

Izaya was right...Shizuo was in denial about everything he kept saying to him; he did always think about the brunet. Mostly bad thoughts before but he was still thinking about Izaya, he was the only thing Shizuo every thought about….for eight years.

"Dammit…dammit…dammit!" Shizuo growled threw his teeth; he squeezed the brunet's hand tighter and felt a lump in his throat. He gasped when he felt warm tears start rushing down his cheeks; he let go of Izaya's hand and quickly started wiping them away.

"Dammit stop fucking crying." Shizuo thought to himself as more tears spilled out of his eyes; he took a deep breath and moved his hand back into Izaya's. He flinched when he heard someone else walk into the room.

"Shizuo it's really late and you have to work in the morning, why don't you go home and I'll call you if anything happens." Shinra said putting a hand on his friends shoulder; Shizuo sighed and nodded. He stood up from the chair he had been sitting in for hours and walked out of the apartment.

Shizuo breathed in the chilled air as he walked out of the building; he really didn't care how cold he was the blonde was way too distracted. Shizuo reached into his pocket and took out a packet of cigarettes; he slowly lit one up and blew the smoke into the September air.

Once the bodyguard had gotten home he fell back onto his bed and starred up at the ceiling; knowing he wouldn't be able to fall asleep anytime soon.

The next morning…

"Ah good morning Shizuo; shouldn't you be at work?" Shinra asked as he moved aside to let the blonde inside.

"Tom-san gave me the day off; I wanted to see if Izaya was awake yet." Shizuo asked as he followed the brunet to the room Izaya was in.

"Hm…to tell you the truth Izaya woke up not to long after you left. I wanted to call you but you looked exhausted; he's still pretty tensed so please don't yell at him or anything in the nature." Shinra said opening the door for the blonde. Shizuo quickly moved past the shorter male and went to the brunet's side. Izaya turned his head to look up at the blonde; he was still pretty weak so he was only able to look at his threw his eyelashes.

"Shizu…Shizu-chan?" Izaya mumbled; Shizuo smiled and sat back down in the chair next to Izaya's bed.

"Yea…can you see?" Shizuo asked waving his hand in front of the smaller man's face; Izaya growled and pushed the blonde's hand away.

"I can see a little, but I can't really feel anything." Izaya said trying to move his arms and legs.

"Just relax; your body is really weak on all the medication you took. It'll take a while for you to get your strength back." Shizuo said smoothing the raven's hair back.

"Shizuo can I talk to you for a second?" Shizuo looked back to see Shinra standing in the doorframe with a nervous expression plastered on his face. The blonde stood up and walked out of the room with the underground doctor.

"What's up?" Shizuo asked leaning up against the wall.

"Um…I guess this is as good a time as any to tell you this…it seems that all the medication Izaya took had affected his central nervous system. Basically it's going to take more than a couple hours for Izaya to get his strength back." Shinra said sadly

"…so are you saying that Izaya will never be able to move again?" Shizuo asked with wide eyes.

"Oh, not at all! He'll definitely be able to move again, even write now he can move his arms...but one barely. I know you won't be too happy about the idea of this but do you think that he could stay at your house for a while until he can at least walk again? After everything that's happened I don't really like the idea of him staying home alone. There's nothing else I can do for him here and I need that operating room for all the gang members I need to take bullets out of." Shizuo ran his fingers threw his hair and thought about something to say next.

"I'll take care of him, how long do you think it will take for him to get his strength back?" Shizuo asked nervously.

"A couple months…maybe longer; all I know is it's definitely not permanent. He would have to take the entire bottle of pills to die from it all."

"Well I can't stay with him all day, I have bills to pay I still need to go to work. Ugh I know the flea is going to argue about the whole "not being able to move" shit."

"Ah that's a problem…doesn't he have sisters? You could invite them to stay over until Izaya gets better and "trustable" to be left alone."

"Eh I don't know if that's such a great idea, his sisters don't have a lot of sympathy for him when it comes to being injured.* Remember seven years ago when he fell out of that tree and broke his arm? His sister's didn't even bother to help him so I had to drag him all the way to the damn emergency room then hear him wine about having an x-ray.*"

"Well they're older now right? Maybe they'll be a little nicer to their only brother…and they might actually obey you if you promise them a little something."

"Hm what do you mean?"

"I know for a fact that their huge fans of your brother Kasuka, he's coming to town soon so you can invite him over so they can meet him."

"Hmm I guess that would be a good idea…you really think Izaya is still suicidal?" Shizuo asked as he was opened the door to Izaya's room. They two gasped when they saw Izaya reaching for the plug to the machine keeping him alive!

"Yea I think so." Shinra said before running to the brunet's side.

Author's Note: I made Izaya's physical dilemma non permanent for you guys! I know you guys would kill me if cute little Izaya was unable to move for the rest of his life! I would NEVER do that to him because…well duh he's sooo cute! Hahahahah I'll work on the next chapter now!

*Read my fan fiction "Broken" to read how Izaya broke his arm and how Shizuo helped him to the hospital and gave him a little something to calm the brunet down ;)*