A.N. - Sit back and relax, this is my longest chapter ever, at almost 2000 words!! Thanks to Heavens Immortal for betababe duties, and ignoring Not Her for another day to beta this for me. Thanks to Quirkyalice for being my wifey, because she rocks!!! Also, the Twilight Awards are accepting Nominations, so if you love me enough, do you want to nominate me? (or another story you like) I've put the url on my profile. Also, go check out the Lazy, Yet Discerning Ficster blog, because it has some amazing recs!! So, this ends my too long A.N.

Do I have to tell you I don't own this again??

BPOV

His scent was taking over my body, saturating the air that I breathed in and out. He knew that I knew he was there, but neither of us could tell how the other would react. It was true he wasn't with Alice any more, I had seen that with my own eyes.

But could I trust him? He had betrayed me twice; once by leaving me in a forest 98 years ago, and again only a few short hours before this.

Was there anyone in the world that I could trust? Anyone who had known me when I was human? Wasere there any living humans who remembered me?

Probably not.

The memories of my human life were so foggy, I could hardly remember it.

All I remembered was sadness, and people pitying me. I remembered a guy who I thought may have been my dad, he was tall, with dark hair and brown eyes, with pale skin, but that was it. Even when I strained myself to think, all I could come up with was this. There was nothing else that came out of it, and it saddened me that I couldn't remember it. I remembered emptiness, feeling that my heart had stopped working, that my lungs had stopped pushing the life giving air in and out of my body, but they were still doing their work. I was just empty. Unfeeling. Cold. They were all words used to describe vampires. Those words were what we were, and I thought that they described who I was as a human, but I couldn't be sure, much as I wanted to. I remembered wanting to be a vampire, but I wanted to be changed by Edward. He was the only person I wanted to change me, but it hadn't happened like that.

There was no way to be sure. The only memories that I had kept with me were the ones of Edward, the perfection I saw every time we touched, and every kiss we shared. I even remembered all the times we would just sit and stare at each other, me basking in the intoxication of his presenceeven when we were just near each other, not doing anything affectionate towards each other, but simply basking in each others presence.

One of my most vivid ones was seeing him with the glittering skin of our kind in a meadow, telling me what he was. It was one of my a happiest memories, despite the temporary fear that was normal when a human is in such a predators presence. But that memory was overpowered by the memories of my pain and hurt, of my zombie like appearance. I had kept the most upsetting memories safe for no other reason than that they showed me what love was like, and how easily I could be broken. Not physically, that was almost impossible, to anyone else except another vampire, but emotionally I was still a wreck, and the only way to fix it was to fall in love again.

Sadly, the only person I would ever be able to love again was the one who had hurt me so deeply. It was a Catch-22 situation. Love him, but be so devastated when he leaves that I go to Italy to die, or ignore him and pray to God that he would just go away.

Option two might work, except for the fact that I had never truly believed in any God, my human family never had, at least I didn't think they had. If I had had a strong belief in God as a human, surely it would have come with me into this life... It would have had to, if it was that important.

"Bella, I need to know what you're thinking," he said, in a perfectly normal tone, as if he had the right to ask me whatever he wanted to.

I had to make a decision, now. But what? I had no idea what I could say to him, option one or option two.

It suddenly struck me that I had a third option, one which I didn't particularly like having to use, but it would be less painful for everyone involved. I had to leave him. I had to tell him that we weren't compatible. But I had to make it his fault, he wouldn't believe it if it was mine. He'd tell me that it couldn't be my fault, and not to be silly. But the self loathing Edward I remembered? He'd agree that it was his fault, if his personality was anyway the same.

"No, Edward. You don't need to know what I'm thinking. You walked out of my human life. We had this conversation before, but then Alice walked in, because you had MATED with her. Now you expect me to tell you every little thing just because you say so? That's not me. I'm not the girl you left in the woods almost a century ago, I'm different. I'm Isabella Corelli. I'm 16, I've two brothers, Andy and Ethan, and two sisters, Emma and Sammy. My mom's name is Sarah, and my dad's name is James. Dad's a doctor in Forks Community Hospital, and he's head of Orthopaedic surgery. But my family is weird in one way. We're all vampires. We don't eat or drink or sleep. We hunt animals instead of humans. I know virtually nothing about my human life, except that I was in love with a vampire, who left me."

A tall boy came to mind, but I couldn't remember his name. I could remember feeling happy around him, and him being happy that I was with him, but nothing else. Places, times, even any other people with us were missing. All I could remember was the face, a tanned face with black long hair, and he was always smiling. I never remembered a frown on the mysterious boy's face. He was like my own personal sun. Shaking my head to get rid of the memories, I made it seem like I was shaking my head at Edward. But he didn't seem to want to listen to me.

"Bella, we can work through this, I know we can. I was so ungrateful when we were together before. I thought I was doing a good thing by leaving you, but I was wrong. I know that now, but we can do it, it's fate," Edward sounded like he actually believed that we could work it out, that I would give him another chance.

But I couldn't.

I couldn't tell him that I wanted to give him another chance so much it almost hurt, but that I was afraid. I had to stick to my plan, tell him that it was his fault, but how? What words would convince him to let go of me, that he wasn't right for me. What were the reasons that he would accept. My brain would only come up with one.

Trust.

Could I trust him? I probably could, but I'd be afraid of the day he'd get tired of me and leave again. So I couldn't truly trust him.

"Edward, we can't. I love you, I do, truly. But I can't trust you. That's a deal breaker right there for me. How am I supposed to agree to spend my life with a man I can't trust? Would you agree to spend your existence with somebody you couldn't trust. No, you couldn't, because every day you would be thinking that it was the day they were going to say it was over, that the love they used to feel was no more. And I can't cope with that. There is no way that I can put my heart out there to risk that again. The last time, it almost killed me. So it's best if we don't talk any more, I don't think that my heart can put up with it again."

Edward looked at me oddly, as if he could see through the façade I had put up. But it was impossible that he had. My acting skills had improved a lot since I was human, and I didn't have blood making me blush, or a heart to speed up, indicating I was lying. "Are you sure that this is what you want Bella? If it is, I'll stay away,"

My heart was screaming at me to stop, to say that I didn't want him to leave, that I wanted him to stay. But as usual, my head won out. "I'm sure. Goodbye Edward.,"

"Goodbye, Bella" he whispered, looking like he was about to cry.

Edward walked out of the room, and I sank down, crying the tearless sobs of my kind. I had made a mistake, of that I was sure, but it was the right thing to do, wasn't it? It had to be. There was no way that I could have done anything else, I couldn't put my heart on the line.

EPOV

I knew I had hurt Bella,. God, it was obvious that I had. She had sunk down to the ground all those years ago, sobbing and screaming my name. I could still remember the pain and anguish on her face. It was as vivid to me in my memory as it had been that fateful day in the woods, the day which had ruined my eternity.

I realised that I had to do something, but what? If she wanted me to leave, I had to. I had agreed to.

I knew that I had to do what she asked… because there was nothing else to do… yet my entire body was screaming at me to run back to her and take her on the bed, to mark her as my mate. But she didn't want it, so I wouldn't. I had promised to stay away, but she needed someone, and I would be there, like I was those years ago.

Suddenly I heard a noise outside, it sounded like animals approaching, but what animals would come near a house surrounded by vampire scent?

None, their self-preservation instincts were too good. Listening out for thoughts, I realised that it was wolves.

The La Push pack were back, but why? They shouldn't have been there. They had died out before we had arrived in Forks in 2003.

But why were they coming, the treaty was still in force for us, we had not violated it in any way, they couldn't attack us.

But not for the Corelli's. They had no treaty with the wolves, and the wolves were perfectly within their rights to attack.

I couldn't let that happen to Bella, I wouldn't.

They were getting closer, and one of them had phased back to human form to speak.

"Leeches. You have invaded Quileute lands. Leave immediately, or we will be forced to take immediate action. My name is Robert Uley, and I am the tribal leader. If you do not leave, we will attack. You have two hours."