So sorry for disappearing off the planet! This is for CriminalmindsJJEmily who very politely begged for more updates :P Your wish is my command. Please review :)
Emily sat happily reading a baby book next to JJ's desk in the bullpen while her fiancée worked. She was startled out of her focus by the sudden tugging of her chair. The brunette looked up to see the blonde pouting at her.
"You're too far away," JJ whined, pulling at her chair until Emily was right next to her. She immediately put her nearest hand on her fiancée's baby bump and gently rubbed it before kissing Emily on the cheek. She continued to rub her bump as she turned back to her work.
"You can't work like that," Emily laughed patting the hand stroking her stomach.
"Like what?" the blonde said nonchalantly tracing a circling pattern with her fingertips when her hand felt movement from within while continuing to write out her profile with the other hand.
Emily hit her arm playfully, "You know exactly what! If I'm not allowed to do any case files, you're not allowed to have Mommy time!" She teased and moved her chair backwards.
JJ moved quickly to grab her chair and move it back, "Hey! That's not fair. I was enjoying Mommy time."
"Jennifer, you can't get work done while having Mommy time. We'll be here all night," the brunette laughed as her fiancée pouted again. But frowned when an emotion flashed briefly across her blue eyes, "What's wrong?"
The blonde shook her head and flipped awkwardly through the case file in front of her.
"Talk to me," Emily said moving to turn JJ's head to face her.
"I was wrong," JJ whispered.
"Wrong about what?"
"Beating John."
The brunette looked stunned at her fiancée's words, "What are you talking about? There is no competition," she moved her hand to stroke her wife's jaw, "I wish you would stop thinking there is."
"I was happy because I impregnated you; something he wants but never got. But I was wrong. He got to have that with you before me. You already went through this with him," her voice tinted with disgust and jealousy, "and biologically too."
Emily sighed and looked at the blonde, her eyes full of sincerity and love. "I can't say what you said isn't true. It's a part of my past, I can't change that but it wasn't with him. When I was pregnant then I was terrified and alone...except for Matthew. I didn't want to be pregnant," she said sadly, "I couldn't be pregnant then. There was no way I could bring a baby into the world at that time and in those circumstances." She moved to place her fiancée's hand back on her bump, "But this time it's happening. I'm happy to be pregnant with our babies. I made a life, two lives, with the woman I love. Fuck biology, that's not important when it comes to raising tiny people. They may not have your blood or look like you but they're yours, period. While I will never forget or grieve in a way for a living part of me that I lost, not him, me. To me this pregnancy is my first and one that I am going through with you." She smiled widely, "Is that ok with you Jennifer Jareau?"
JJ smiled back tearfully, "Yes," she whispered back. "I'm sorry. I just...Your mine...and I don't like the idea of someone else..."
"I know," Emily interrupted. "I would be the same. It's very hot!"
The blonde smirked at the look on her fiancée's face, "Those pregnancy hormones kicking in again?"
The brunette groaned, "Don't mock me, it's not funny! Oh God let's not talk about it," she moaned feeling herself getting flushed; the thought of being turned on turning her on.
"One coffee for my blonde beauty," the tech said placing a mug on JJ's desk amidst craziness of paperwork. "And one fruit juice for my BAU baby Mama," her smile quickly fading when she saw Emily's face. "You look very flushed," the tech said quickly her voice full of concern. She placed her hand on the brunette's forehead. "I knew you shouldn't have come here. You were in a life threatening accident, you're carrying tiny Emily's you should be at home resting," Garcia berated.
Her cheeks flushed even redder at the sudden unwanted attention. "I'm fine, honestly PG," Emily smiled patting the tech's hand. "I'm just hot," she smiled reassuringly.
"Yes you are," JJ smirked under her breath, chuckling when the brunette glared at her and mouthed 'not helping'.
"This isn't funny Jayje!" the tech exclaimed in worry. "She's your fiancée, she's pregnant with your children, something is obviously wrong with her and you're laughing!"
"What! Something's wrong with Princess? Shall I call a medic? No...hospital?" Morgan said quickly standing from behind his desk parting into view.
"Hospital?" Reid exclaimed in confusion and panic, "What's going on?"
"Oh come on!" the brunette groaned. "Ok," she held up her hands, "Everyone calm down. Nothing is wrong with me..."
"You're flushed, you're burning up kitten...That is not nothing. We should take you to get checked out," Penelope said moving to help Emily out the chair.
The blonde immediately knew she needed to step in. "Pen, honestly...Em is perfectly fine. She's just...well...She's a little," JJ lowered her voice to a low whisper, "Turned on."
"You're turned on!" Garcia exclaimed in surprise.
Emily closed her eyes as the words filled the entire bullpen. Heads turned to look at the tech in shock at the shouted words that left her mouth.
The tech looked around at everyone and smiled awkwardly before ducking behind JJ's desk partition, "You're turned on!" she whispered to her friends in confusion.
The brunette groaned, "I don't think whispering is needed Pen. I think the whole of Quantico now knows my current condition." She ran her fingers over her stomach when she felt some light prodding from inside; JJ's hand immediately joining her own to feel. "On the plus side, that cured all my...cravings. You definitely know how to set the mood Pen," Emily said sarcastically.
"Hey! It's not my fault you get turned on in the bullpen!" Penelope exclaimed standing to her full height again.
"Again...Really?" Emily exclaimed back.
"Anything I can do to help Princess?" Morgan smirked.
"It is perfectly natural for pregnant women to experience an increased level of what some people would term 'being horny'..." Reid stated.
"Why are we discussing sexual libidos in the bullpen?" Rossi walked down the stairs towards them.
"Oh my God!" the brunette threw her hands in the air.
"Emily is experiencing an increased..."
"Thank you Spence," JJ cut him off still rubbing her fiancée's stomach absentmindedly.
"Someone just kill me now...Where's another car when you need one?" Emily muttered sinking into her chair.
All the team whipped around to look at her. Rossi patted her on the shoulder, "Too soon."
"Far too soon," JJ agreed. The memories of what they had been through flooding her head.
The brunette leaned forward and kissed her lightly on the lips, "Sorry. Sorry."
"On that note I was coming to talk to you about work," Rossi said perching on the end of her desk, "You can't do much yet, but I know you and your Prentiss genes and if we placate you then you won't do something stupid."
"I resent that!" Emily frowned.
"Sorry babe, but he is totally right," the blonde patted the brunette's thigh before continuing her working and Mommy time combination.
"So when you get your stomach back," he said chuckling at JJ's choice of work positions, her hand as usual on Emily's stomach, "We'll put you on light duty and paper work. Depending on the next case, we shall review you flying with us." He watched as the blonde's head whipped around, "Obviously health depending."
JJ nodded, thinking about it, "Actually I would prefer it if she flyed with us. If it's safe then I know she's safe with me."
"I thought you might," Rossi nodded. "You know what she's like; 'take it easy' is not a phase in her vocabulary. So keeping her with the team on police station work, suspect/family interviews..."
"I am sitting right here you know," the brunette waved her hand making JJ laugh.
"Sorry honey," the blonde smiled. "And for the record Rossi she won't be getting her stomach back for the next four plus months," JJ said rubbing it happily. "Not physically...or from me!"
"You know Jayje, mathetically speaking if you work like that you are going to take much longer to complete your assignments," Reid spoke up, "If you take roughly..."
"Yes! Thank you Reid!" Emily said triumphantly turning to point at JJ, "I told you! So hands on the desk Mommy and get on with your work because the three of us want to go home!"
JJ smiled at the feeling of complete bliss. Everything seemed to be looking better. They had talked and been honest with each other and now they could move forward. The blonde finally had the chance to stop worrying about healing their relationship and focus on moving forward with it. Even if things were still not completely sorted, she knew that moving forward would bring everything together.
She lay her couch relaxing but not alone. Lying in between her legs, relaxing back against her body was Emily. The brunette's head nestled into her neck dozing in a peaceful slumber. They had been watching television together and she had fallen asleep. It was a common occurrence for her whenever she was comfortable; her energy with the pregnancy and the accident draining very quickly. As usual JJ's hand had gravitated to her baby belly the whole time they were together. She couldn't help it. Whenever she was in touching distance all she wanted to do was feel them moving, hold the brunette, touch the brunette. Coming so close to losing it all she couldn't physically be away from her; even when Emily was in hospital all the blonde did was touch her and her stomach. She couldn't help but think of everything she wanted to do to make the family she'd always wanted with the brunette as she ran her fingers under Emily's t-shirt across her bare baby bump. When she started to feel movement, she focused on that area trying to prevent them from waking the brunette up. When she felt a really big kick she winced knowing that would have almost definitely have woken her up, though she resumed what she was doing hoping that wasn't the case.
"Think quieter," Emily yawned against her chest and neck.
JJ laughed lightly, "How do you know I'm thinking loudly?"
"I can hear the cogs in your beautiful head turning around," the brunette said kissing JJ's neck before moving slightly and stretching out her limbs.
"I knew that kick would wake you up," the blonde said kissing her head as she settled back down, "I tried to calm them, but it didn't work."
"Mhmmm only your voice calms them," Emily smiled as she linked their fingers together. "It's okay. My sleeping patterns are all over the place anyway. If I'm up now I'll sleep later as well. So what were you thinking about?"
"Us," JJ said playing with her fiancées hands.
"What about us?" the brunette pushed. "I'm listening," she said gently.
The blonde took a breath, "Okay, a couple of things that I want for us...as a family, before the babies are born. A) Sort out everything baby...Nursery, clothes, your maternity wear cause you're going to get bigger," she smiled the biggest grin at the thought.
"I can hear you smiling at my future size increase," Emily laughed. "You are probably the only person who actually wants their partner to get physically huge," she teased.
JJ pouted, "I like seeing you pregnant! Most people wouldn't see you as the maternal type but it's not the case. You simply have a tough shell and don't let many people past it, though it broke considerably with Doyle as much as you tried to hide that fact. You constantly joked that Sergio was your substitute for a partner and children but I know you craved that really, even if you were scared. It was, and still is, always child cases that affect you the most. It was a case like that that showed me this side of you and resulted in that moment on the plane when I told you I could see you with kids."
The brunette chuckled, "Well now you can. I just didn't realise at the time they would be yours. And it's nice to see profiling skills have been in action all those years as a liaison. 'I don't want to be a profiler'," she mimicked JJ's voice.
JJ laughed and playfully hit her, "Hey! I didn't! I was determined not to be one..."
"Well you showed them babe," Emily teased knowing her fiancee was now an amazing profiler.
"I girl can change her mind," JJ pouted.
"Like you did with having twins?" Emily smiled enjoying the feeling of the blonde's hands on her stomach.
The blonde nodded, "I'm not scared anymore," she said simply. "It's being scared; just like you were with me when I kissed you in the BAU bathroom."
"Well I'm glad I took a risk with you, I honestly am and I know we've been through hell recently but I love you that's all that really matters. And as for point a) it makes perfect sense and is very much essential. We can't have children with no clothes, toys, equipment or nowhere to sleep."
The blonde knew she needed to continue else she would chicken out. "Which brings me to my second want...b)," JJ took a breath, "I want us to get a house together. Somewhere new; that we chose as a family. Lots of space for the twins inside. A big garden for them to run around outside. The perfect house."
Emily thought about it for a while imagining just what that house would be like. In her head it was perfect. A large house, drive way and garage. Gardens. Maybe a pool. Big kitchen, living room, guest bedrooms. Their own master bedroom. A place she could finally put down roots. A place she could decorate with JJ to fit their joint taste.
"Em?" JJ said nervously.
Releasing she had been silent for a while, "Sorry. Sorry. I was daydreaming. I would love that," she said genuinely excited.
"Really? You would?"
Emily moved so they were lying side by side so she could look into her eyes. She kissed her firmly on the lips before pulling back, "Yes I would. A proper family house to come home to," Emily said dreamily, "And with the twins stuff everywhere. It will be like a proper family house. Toys and kids paintings and noise," she smiled.
"Lots of parental yelling and babies crying," JJ laughed.
"No," she chuckled, "Parents and babies laughing happily. I can't wait to see them as toddlers babbling away at us."
The blonde moved down the sofa and lifted up Emily's top. She placed a series of kisses all over her baby bump. "Hey you two, did you hear that? We are going to buy you a big house so you can have lots of space to run around and lots of places to play. And I'll forgive you for waking your Mama up as you're too cute to be angry at...with your big brown eyes and gorgeous dark hair. I love you so much, both of you," she smiled kissing her belly twice more.
Emily smiled it was always twice, just to be equal. It was the end of the world if it was once. JJ was determined to be the perfect Mom and if she wasn't equal that wasn't being fair, no favouritism...even from the womb. "You are too soppy, you know that?" she laughed.
JJ crawled back up her fiancée and kissed her heatedly, "I thought you liked me soppy?"
There was a slight noise at the back garden window which made Emily turn to look towards it but was quickly distracted as JJ moved her lips to kiss along her jawline to her pulse point. "Jen," Emily whispered between a moan feeling her body heating up again.
"I believe," JJ whispered back moving carefully on top of her, "You had this issue in the bullpen that I wasn't able to help with." She smirked kissing Emily's bump twice as she placing her hands on it and slowly moved them higher, "But I can definitely help you now..."
Slowly moving back up from his crouching position he peered back into the blonde's living room window watching captivated. It was not what he expected to see, but he definitely wasn't complaining his own breath increasing at the events happening before him. Comforted by the thought...this was just the beginning.