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This Chapter is Rated M...More of a hard 'R' but I'm saying M (Nc-17) to be safe for sexual content (Blame purplemonkeyys lol...Thank you for the encouragement to write that particular scene by the way)
I'm sorry to all of you if the 'love scene' is really bad by the way...It's my first attempt...
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Chapter 11
"Charlie!" Joey yelled breathlessly as she pushed herself to run faster after the girl who was practically sprinting along the beach "Wait! Charlie!" she groaned when Charlie merely ignored her "Damn she's fast..." she gritted her teeth and forced herself to maintain her speed. Charlie finally began to slow from exertion and Joey managed to catch up to her, practically tackling her to the ground.
"OW!" Charlie exclaimed as Joey straddled her "Was that really necessary Joey?"
Joey didn't reply for a moment and the only sound was her heavy breathing mixed with Charlie's.
"Yes" she finally panted, blowing a strand of dark hair from her face "It was"
"Joey" Charlie struggled half-heartedly underneath the other girl, tears still spilling down her cheeks "Get off me"
"No" Joey said softly "If I let you go you'll run off and I'm not going to let you run from me. Not again" she reached down to wipe Charlie's tears away but the older girl instantly recoiled from her touch.
"You mean like I did the last time?" Charlie questioned sharply "By screwing somebody else?!"
Joey flinched visibly at the harshness of her girlfriend's voice "Charlie..."
"Joey, get off!" Charlie demanded weakly. She winced slightly in pain.
"Am I hurting you?" Joey asked in concern.
"Why do you care?!" Charlie muttered quietly as she finally stopped struggling "Will you get off me now?"
"If I do will you promise not to run?" Joey countered.
"Fine. I promise"
Joey didn't move for a moment instead gazing into Charlie's eyes searching for any hint that she was lying. When she saw only guilt and sorrow reflected back at her she hesitantly stood up, trying not to hurt Charlie any more with the movement. She was about to offer her hand to Charlie but the other girl was already scrambling to her feet and moving a safe distance away from her.
"I thought you said you weren't going to run off" Joey spoke, taking a step forward.
"Yeah, well..." Charlie shrugged, wiping roughly at her tear stained cheeks "I never could keep promises could, I?" she wrapped her arms around herself and looked towards the sea "I'm not going anywhere anyway. If you want to talk to me, I owe it to you to listen"
"I don't know what to say..." Joey said quietly as she moved closer to Charlie.
"Stop" Charlie stated firmly as she glanced back to Joey "Don't come any closer Joey"
Joey stopped short and gazed at Charlie speechlessly.
"So I cheated on you?" Charlie had moved her gaze back to the dark ocean and began to speak quietly "With...Hugo?"
"Yeah" Joey nodded in confirmation "But you..."
"Don't try and defend me Joey" Charlie warned sharply as she pulled the letter out of her pocket "This letter is practically a list of excuses. I don't need or want any more" she stuffed the letter roughly back into her pocket "I was weak"
"You were confused..."
"Stop doing that!" Charlie exclaimed loudly as she spun around to face the younger girl "Don't defend me!"
"But, Charlie..."
"I slept with Hugo" Charlie interrupted her "I betrayed you"
Joey winced slightly but she stayed silent unsure of what to say.
"I hurt you" Charlie spoke, a choked sob escaping her "And you deserved better than that...Especially from me"
"Charlie..." Joey felt her eyes flood with tears as she took a hesitant step closer to Charlie.
"Damn it Joey!" Charlie yelled suddenly through her tears "Why the hell didn't you leave me?!"
"I did leave you!" Joey replied just as loudly "I left you for almost three months Charlie!"
"Then why did you come back?!" Charlie questioned "If you left me then why are you still with me?"
"You're not the only person who has fucked things up" Joey shook her head sadly "You aren't the only guilty person here"
"How could you be guilty when I'm the one who cheated on you?" Charlie asked incredulously.
"I came back to the bay after almost three months" Joey informed her tearfully "Because I needed to see you. And...I told you that I was leaving again. That I couldn't be with you because I hadn't forgiven you. That I didn't trust you. You were a mess when I got back but I made it so much worse." She sniffed back tears and continued haltingly "Have you never wondered why you were out so late? It was my fault Charlie. You were attacked because of me!"
"So what you're trying to tell me..." Charlie stated firmly "Is that you're only with me because you feel guilty about something that wasn't even your fault?"
"No" Joey shook her head obstinately "That's not it!"
"Then why are you still with me?!" Charlie questioned loudly.
"Because I love you, you idiot!" Joey blurted out in frustration.
"You..." Charlie shoulder slumped in defeat "This is so messed up..." she slumped down onto the sand and pulled her knees to her chest, wrapping her arms securely around them. A moment later she felt rather than saw Joey sit down next to her, mimicking her position.
"I thought I told you not to come any closer" Charlie sighed as she watched the waves crashing into each other.
"Doesn't mean I was going to listen to you" Joey replied softly. They fell into silence for a while before Charlie spoke up again.
"I hurt you..."
"Yeah" Joey nodded "You did hurt me...But I hurt you too"
"That doesn't matter" Charlie muttered shaking her head "I deserved it. You didn't"
"You didn't" Joey responded firmly "I made a mistake too Charlie. It wasn't just you..."
"What happened with us?" Charlie questioned quietly.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean leading up to when I...Cheated on you..."
Joey exhaled loudly "Well you know we met when Robbo raped me, right?"
Charlie subconsciously tensed and clenched her fists in front of her, hating to think of anybody (Including herself) hurting Joey in any way "Right"
Joey smiled internally at Charlie's reaction "And you know that Brett threw me out because I'm gay? And that's why I moved in with you..."
"Uh-huh"
"People found out about us and started to talk. Your car was even vandalised. Brett pressed charges against you saying that you had used your position as a cop to seduce me..." she closed her eyes for a moment and pushed tears back "That night...At the beach...You said that Hugo said you were gay. I guess it all got too much for you..."
"So I slept with him to prove to myself that I wasn't gay?!" Charlie questioned "God, I'm ridiculous..."
"Charlie..."
"I'm not good enough for you Jo" Charlie said sadly as tears flowed freely down her cheeks "If that's what happened I was never good enough for you"
Joey gazed at her in astonishment for a moment before she broke into tearful laughter.
Charlie frowned and finally turned to look at her "I don't get it...What's so funny?"
"You don't think I'm good enough for you?" Joey asked sceptically "It's just ironic, that's all...All the way through our relationship I was convinced I wasn't good enough for you..."
"I made you feel like that" Charlie said painfully "Like you weren't good enough..."
"No..." Joey shook her head firmly "That was all me"
"How can you just forgive me for what I did to you?" the older girl asked in confusion "How can you not hate me?!"
"Because I love you" Joey answered instantly "I've loved you ever since the day we met and...I know that what we have together is too valuable to throw away..." she shuffled subtly closer to Charlie.
"But I hurt you!" Charlie persisted stubbornly.
"What do you want me to do Charlie?!" Joey asked exasperatedly "Do you want me to leave you again? Because those three months away from you were agonising. I don't think I could do that again"
Charlie remained silent and turned back to stare out at the ocean.
Joey sighed and tentatively pushed a strand of hair from Charlie's face relieved when she didn't flinch "I forgave you a while ago Charlie. You need to forgive yourself"
"How am I supposed to do that?" Charlie questioned tearfully as she turned to face Joey.
"I don't know" Joey whispered "But you have to. Because I can't let you go. Not again. I love you way too much for that"
"I love you too" Charlie replied as she leaned forward "I love you so much. I swear to God I'm never going to hurt you like that again Joey"
"I know" Joey said in a hushed tone of voice "I trust you"
She moved closer to Charlie and kissed her tenderly. Charlie deepened the kiss after a moment but Joey forced herself to pull away.
"We have to get out of here" she said as she stood up and offered her hand to Charlie "It's not safe with that Psycho on the loose" Charlie accepted her hand and they began to walk quickly back home.
"Damn it!" a tall man muttered where he stood in the shadows "I was so close too...Soon...Very soon"
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Joey had barely closed the door to the bedroom before Charlie had pulled her close and kissed her passionately.
"Mmmph" she muttered into the kiss, slightly shocked. She pulled away slightly to look at Charlie "What was that for?"
"Just because I love you" Charlie smiled at her "Because you Joey Collins are amazing." With that said she moved forward and reclaimed Joey's lips with her own in a heated kiss. Joey was slightly startled when Charlie deepened the kiss by brushing her tongue against her lips but she willingly parted them anyway.
"Wait!" She pulled away breathlessly after a moment to look at Charlie "Wait...I don't want to push you into anything...If you're not ready or..."
"You're not pushing" Charlie argued gently "And I'm totally ready...I want to be with you"
Joey swallowed at the desire in Charlie's voice "Okay..."
"Okay..." Charlie moved forward and wrapped her arms around Joey's waist pulling her close "If you don't want to do this right now, it's fine...If it's too soon..."
"No" Joey shook her head adamantly "I want to do this...I do..."
Charlie leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on Joey's lips "Okay..." she moved her hands to the buttons on Joey's shirt and began to unbutton them excruciatingly slowly as she kissed her. When the shirt was finally loose she pushed it carefully from her lovers' shoulders, allowing gravity to take control as it dropped to the ground almost soundlessly.
"Are you sure?" she whispered again in Joey's ear.
"Very" Joey confirmed in a hushed voice as she moved them gently over to the bed. They fell onto it a moment later so that Joey was hovering over Charlie "But If I hurt you...Tell me okay?"
"Okay" Charlie smiled at Joey's concern and pulled her down for a passionate kiss. Joey slid her hands hesitantly under Charlie's shirt caressing the soft skin she found there. They parted only long enough for Joey to pull Charlie's shirt up and over her head and toss it behind them.
"You have a slight advantage on me" Charlie smiled up at Joey.
"Oh, yeah?" Joey grinned "What's that?"
"You remember doing this with me before" Charlie answered "To me this is our first time"
Joey smiled reassuringly at her as she leaned down and pressed a soft kiss to Charlie's cheek "Nervous?"
"Very" Charlie replied "But I'm with you so...I'll be fine..."
"Good" Joey whispered as she trailed soft kisses down to Charlie's neck.
"You're tense" she observed after a moment.
"Sorry" Charlie released a breath, trying to relax "I'm just nervous. Which is weird because I know what to do, roughly"
Joey smiled at Charlie's slight rambling "Really? You remember?"
"Uh...No..."
Joey pulled back to look at Charlie in confusion "But I thought you had never been with a woman before me..."
"I haven't..." Charlie responded awkwardly.
"Than what do you mean?" Joey asked.
"Fine, I'll tell you. But you have to promise not to laugh..."
"I promise"
"I Googled it" Charlie mumbled blushing brightly.
Joey stared at her for a moment before she bit her lip in an attempt to control her laughter.
"Joey..." Charlie warned.
Joey burst into giggles unable to control her laughter anymore and Charlie glared at her half heartedly.
"I'm sorry!" Joey gasped out when she was finally able to stop laughing "But you Googled it?!"
"Well I was nervous!" Charlie pouted "And you're running the mood"
"Sorry" The younger girl smiled. She leaned forward and kissed Charlie gently "Better?"
"Getting there" Charlie pulled Joey down on top of her in a fiery kiss. She gently rolled them over so Joey was on her back and she was on her side, hovering over her. She pressed a gentle kiss to her shoulder "I want..."
"What?" Joey gasped out as Charlie lips began to move lower.
"I want to feel you...All of you..."
The next few moments were a blur to both of them as clothes were shed and thrown randomly around the room. All that mattered to them was that they were finally together with no barriers between them.
"God, you're so beautiful..." Charlie whispered against Joey's skin as she kissed her way down to her navel.
"Charlie..." Joey moaned softly as she tangled her fingers in Charlie's hair. Charlie moved back up her body and pressed a soft kiss on her lips. Joey gasped a moment later when Charlie slipped a hand between their bodies and pressed gently against her wet heat.
Charlie bit her lip and gazed closely at Joey as she pushed two fingers inside of her in one firm stroke.
"Oh, God!" Joey gripped Charlie's free hand with her own as her head thumped back into the soft pillow behind her "Charlie..."
Charlie leaned down and kissed her desperately as she added a third finger. Joey inhaled deeply and instinctively ground her hips down. They moved together for what seemed like hours but may have only been minutes.
"Charlie" Joey gasped out as she grasped Charlie's shoulder with one hand "I think I'm going to..."
"Shh" Charlie soothed as she pressed a soft kiss to Joey's lips "its okay...Just let Go Joey..."
When it happened Joey released a soft sob as pleasure and Love washed over her in a wave. She tensed and for a moment it felt like she was completely weightless. When her head cleared she found herself enveloped in Charlie's arms "Wow..."
"That good?" Charlie grinned as she placed a gentle kiss on Joey's cheek.
"Hell yeah" Joey smiled "Are you sure you've never done that before?"
"I'm sure" Charlie nodded.
"Hmmn" Joey hummed happily "Then Google must have been pretty damn useful"
"Hey!" Charlie exclaimed playfully batting her bare arm.
"Ow!" Joey said in mock hurt before she became serious and pulled Charlie close to her kissing her tenderly "I love you so much..." she didn't allow Charlie time to respond as she flipped them over and grinned down at her devilishly "My turn"
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"Mmmph" Charlie groaned as she snuggled deeper into Joey's embrace.
"Charlie?" Joey whispered in her ear "You have to wake up..."
"Why?" Charlie mumbled as she blinked up at Joey sleepily.
"Because we're Naked" Joey smiled "And your sister has a rather annoying habit of bursting into your room at inopportune times..."
"We have covers on us" Charlie yawned sleepily.
"I guess you're right..." Joey smiled happily "Last night...Was it okay? I didn't push you or anything..."
"No" Charlie shook her head and drew Joey's hand to her lips, kissing it tenderly "Last night was perfect"
Joey beamed with joy and settled back into their embrace, both content to just be with each other.
TBC