Fell in love with the Game
Out to Get Me
Summary:
Gossip. Lies. Drama. Everyone watches every move you make. Syaoran Li is probably the most arrogant person I've ever met in my lifetime. And I swear by Kami, that he's out to get me. And I, unseeingly ... fell in love with the game.
Disclaimer:
I do not own Card Captor Sakura.
Chapter 11:
Tinkerbelle in Disguise
"Sakura! Over here!"
I looked up to the foreign voice and saw Chiharu standing on a ladder a few feet away. "Hey" I called out as I resumed to putting the banners on the stage wall.
"How are you?" She called out, she wasn't that far away but she was screaming. Seriously...
"I'm good thanks. How are you? What are you being for the Halloween event?" I called out, as I stapled the banner to the stage.
"FUCK" I swore out loud, got a cough in response. 'Stupid bitch teacher' I thought as I climbed down the ladder, my finger oozing blood. I was an idiot, and too preoccupied with Chiharu to watch what I was doing and ended up fucking stapling myself. How stupid can I get?
School was nearly on break for the Halloween run; we get two weeks off at the end of October and then two more weeks in December to celebrate Christmas.
So the principal is putting on a little gathering (whatever the fuck that is supposed to mean in regards to Halloween...) and the fact that Syaoran Li is leaving in two days AFTER the Halloween event ... I guess the principal wanted to do something "special".
It was just supposed to be a regular Halloween day, where everyone gets to dress up like complete morons with a good excuse.
But then yesterday, during bio block, we were doing a stupid frog lab, I had the knife in my open hand ready to cut into that little bastards belly -...
We got interrupted. JUST LIKE THAT.
With a stupid little memo, the box boomed and I ended up tuning it out only to ask my lab partner (I forget their name... oopsies) what happened. She replied with, "The Halloween event has turned into something like the Spring Dance. Because the Spring Dance was such a hit, the Halloween event is now going to be a Halloween Masquerade. Everyone dresses up and puts a mask over their face and they dance with different people trying to find out who is who. At the end of the night, there will be prizes for the most dressed and such. You know, a typical thing for someone like ... " she stopped and glanced back at Syaoran who finally decided to show to school, who was laughing and punching Eriol on the arm jokingly. His left hand was covered in a glove and blood was spattered all over the glove and his apron. He looked like one of those sick fuckers from movies; you know the ones who are like evil doctors.
I coughed and she resumed, "Sorry got a little - ... ahem ... – caught up there. Anyways, what was I saying? Oh yeah, It's a typical thing for someone like Syaoran Li who is leaving in a few days. That's a shame; no one will ever be as hot as him. And the sad thing is, he knows it too..."
--
I plucked the staple from my finger and greedily took the bandage the teacher handed me. Her measly brown eyes were over my shoulder as I sucked my finger dry of any traces of blood. "Are you a vampire Ms Kinomoto?"
I looked up and saw Eriol standing in the doorway, his backpack lying on the ground by his side. His blue hair ruffled, maybe he just came in from outside? Apparently it's pretty windy out there...?
"No I'm not" I said back as I glared and wrapped my finger up in the band aid. It only throbbed a little bit... did you note the sarcasm in there?
"Nice Decorations" he said as he stepped a few steps towards me, I frowned. "What do you want?" I called out as I sturdied the ladder and began to climb it again to finish the banner I was hanging up.
"I just..." he paused; I think he was looking around to make sure no one was around. But I wasn't really paying much attention to the boy.
"I just wanted to say sorry about Syaoran. He's a bit of a dick." He said his voice a few feet below me. I looked back down at him over my shoulder, and glared. "Anyone with half a brain would know that buddy." I said as I smoothed the banner out and stapled it to the stage, finally completing the look.
"Well... I don't know, I just wanted to say sorry." He said once more and I stood up on the ladder, smiling at my accomplishments before I heard footsteps retreating and I came to the conclusion that he had left, probably feeling stupid.
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I sat in my room, the dim lights crawling over my shoulders and pouring onto my desk. In front of me was a white piece of paper, with two figures on them. I don't know what made me want to draw but I just felt possessed to draw. And it wasn't even like it was me drawing; I just let the pencil flow...
How fucking gay does that sound?
There was a tree on the left hand side of the paper, and a field with the sun looming over the hill casting a really serene peaceful look. I was drawing the sunset I saw earlier on the way home from finishing the decorations for the Halloween bash in two days. Am I ready? Hell no, but that's alright.
I'm sleeping over at Tomoyo's house tomorrow night after school so we have till 12 pm on Friday to prepare before heading to the school on Friday afternoon for the Halloween Event. The principal didn't even come up with a fucking name, how gay is that? Or what...
Seriously. What does he expect us to call it? 'Halloween Event'? Because that's only sort of gay. Holy Christ.
There was a hill in the picture, on the right and two people sat on the hill. I really don't know what caused me to draw this, but I did. I recognized the girl character to be myself, she had her medium length auburn hair curled and pulled back and she was wearing a white summery dress with blue and white flip flops. She was leaning on a wider character; the paper seemed a bit wrinkled there. I wanted it to be perfect, but hey – perfection doesn't come easy.
His chestnut hair seemed to be ruffled, maybe blown by the imaginary wind? He was holding the girls hand, his eyes staring straight forward. Almost like his eyes were staring straight through the paper into your actual eyes. But he's a fake, and I'm ... well real.
I found myself sketching Syaoran and I wanted to stop but I kept going. By the time I finished drawing it and coloring it, it looked scarily similar to me and Syaoran. I had written a note on a letter and attached it to the back of the drawing; I included the date on the bottom and SAKURA K on the bottom beside the date.
I planned to give him a going away present even if we were over, there was never really an us. But it wasn't just me that felt something for him. We were both stupid and not made for each other but that doesn't change the fact that I still have feelings for him.
He's one of those guys that once you get hooked, you're kind of stuck for a long time. I could have seen myself falling in love with the guy, I was so happy when we spent those few times together I just never admitted it.
And I never wanted to admit it that I had feelings for him; I suspected that Tomoyo knew but I couldn't say it.
And now I know why she said to stay away from him, he's the stealer of all hearts – one glance your way and your hooked for good. You'd be lucky if you could even get to talk to the guy and that only makes the lust intensify even more.
He's really leaving in four days. Four days? Wow, that's not enough time to say goodbye. I wiped my eyes as a few drops dripped onto the drawing. "Fuck" I cursed out as I wiped the paper, smudging the tear drops across the picture. It kind of gave the picture a bit of a watery look, except Syaoran isn't stupid – he'll know that I was crying while drawing this.
Giving him this package is probably going to be my last goodbye; I'll never see my high school crush again. He'll go back to China – fall in love with some girl and we'll be lost forever.
No matter how many times I can write, "I'll keep in touch Syaoran", we both know it's not true. Decembers coming up, which means exams and then the second semester and I know that once I get over the fact that he's gone...
Well – let's just say, I'll be keeping myself really busy. I have to try and let go of this image of us ... in the future or something meeting by accident – my stupid clumsy self spilling coffee all over his expensive business suite and we both recognizing each other but then I realize that he has moved on and there's a stupid blond bimbo hanging off his arm glaring at me.
What's up with men and blonds?
Fuck this; I'm dying my hair blond...
I sighed as I flopped down on my bed, my heart feeling heavy. School is tomorrow, I have an English Essay due but that's alright, I'll just fail - not like I can't make it up some other time.
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"Sakura Kinomoto?" I heard my name being called and I measly raised my hand. I didn't get any sleep last night, I kept tossing and turning. I managed to get up at 6 am and prepare for the day.
The teacher paced the room as she called out the attendance, it was bio class and we have a substitute. The class is out of control and I'm just sitting by Chiharu as she chatters on aimlessly about how she's going as cat woman to the Halloween event tomorrow.
"Syaoran Li?"
I found myself glancing back behind my shoulder as he stopped laughing and shouted out a "here" before glancing at me. He sent me a small smile before turning back to his friends who were discussing something about porn or something weird like that.
Guys...
I opened my text book and started on the lab with Chi, she was telling me all about her latest date with Yamazaki but I couldn't concentrate.
I found myself dazing off the whole day, every class going by in a blur. I didn't even have time to say anything to Syaoran. I ventured off to his locker during my 4th block, using the excuse to go to the bathroom when in turn I hurried along the corridors to his locker.
There was no one around and I slipped the thin package into his locker, the front was neatly written on in a purple gel pen and it said Syaoran Li.
On the back of the crisp envelope it said "read me on your own time – on the plane home please..."
I felt confident and I headed back to class quickly before the teacher got suspicious. I slipped into English class and continued to work on my essay ignoring Tomoyo. I really gave him the letter and it felt good? Yet, I hope he reads it and understands how I feel.
--
"Sakura, please..." I looked up and watched as Tomoyo juggled two cups of hot chocolate and a bowl of steaming popcorn. I reached up and grabbed the bowl of popcorn before shoving some in my mouth.
We were lying on a big mattress, blankets spewed around us. The TV in front of us displayed a frozen screen of the movie UP AGAINST THE WALL.
"This movie is cute, but Mandy Moore is kind of a ditz" Tomoyo said to me as she grabbed a handful of popcorn and shoved it into her mouth before pressing play to resume the movie.
"Are you telling me you don't love me anymore?" Jamie, the main character [played by Mandy Moore said as she sat on the blanket in the field. Across from her was a blonde haired guy, his face screwed up in contortion.
"Jamie... I love you but... this has to end." He told her as he got up, patted her head and walked away. I heard Tomoyo sniffle and I felt my own eyes tearing up. That's got to be the WORST way to break up with a girl.
We continued to watch the movie and I soon felt my head dropping. I happened to glance over at Tomoyo and she was passed out on the mattress, her hair messily spewed all over the mattress. I got up, clicked the TV off before turning the lights off and getting back onto the mattress...
Sleep overcame me soon, and I felt myself drift away into a peaceful moment of time.
--
"Sakura come on!" Tomoyo said to me as I quickly checked my appearance in the mirror before hurrying over to her. She was going as JASMINE from Disney. We both decided on something from Disney, the perfect thing to dress up as.
Her hair was braided, purple sparkly eye shadow graced her face, and there were some sparkles that graced her hair when she moved and the light hit it. She had some blush on, but not a lot. Her dress was a purple sparkly one, it was tinted a bit of blue and she had a clear tiara on her head. She looked absolutely stunning. Her mask was a purple mask, with little gems around the left side of the eye hole, and it was sparkly to match the dress and her eye shadow. In fact, everything she wore was sparkly. She said it was to resemble the night sky when Jasmine is waiting for Aladdin. I told her that Jasmine doesn't wear a dress but Tomoyo shrugged and said "run with it baby".
On her feet, she wore purple slippers that were made out of silk along with the dress. She did a few circles in the mirror and I felt myself letting out a giggle, the first one in the last few days. "You look stunning Moyo" I breathed out as she smiled at me.
I had my green sparkly outfit on. The tights were kind of restricting, but I learned to deal. The dress was short and rather slutty. It hugged my chest, so hard that I could barely breathe. The top of the dress was cut into an exquisite pattern; at least there was no cleavage that was to be shown. It was like a tight shirt that went down to my mid thighs which was then followed by some green tights.
On my left arm, I had ivy that was drawn up my arm and wrapping onto the dress (Not real ivy mind you – it was just a green face paint that she used). Tomoyo had spent like all morning tracing it up my left arm and down my right leg. For shoes I was wearing a pair of green heels, the heel had green gems on them that glittered in the light when I walked.
It was a miracle, Tomoyo said earlier. She said that I magically grew from 5"3 to 5"5 again. Two inch heels, thank kami that I can walk in these things.
My hair was curled into pretty girls and put up into a complicated up do. There were lots of bobby pins, and hairspray, mouse, back combing involved, I don't really even know what Tomoyo did to it, and I just knew it looked amazing.
A green sparkly eye shadow complimented my jade green eyes as my face was decorated in sparkles. That's Tinkerbelle's trade mark, to be sparkly and pretty. Tomoyo stole my sparkle idea and I glared at her for it but eventually got over it. We looked totally different, I didn't even recognize myself.
My face was literally packed with sparkles, same with my neck and upper arms. My legs weren't really decorated with sparkles because that would just look simply gay but I thought I looked really pretty.
The mask I was using to cover the part of my face was carved into a pretty upwards design. It fit my face perfectly, Tomoyo said that it was like the last piece to a beautiful puzzle – it made you feel so good once you found that piece and it complimented it perfectly.
It arched upwards at the end of the eye hole and it was colored a dark green. On the end pieces, a light bright green was airbrushed on and it was completely covered in sparkles... yet again.
It was nearing 12 pm as we rushed out of her house. The limo was waiting at the front gate and I nearly tripped as she pulled me down the sidewalk and to the gate. "TOMOYO, HOLY COW FUCK YOUR GOING TO BREAK MY LEGS" I screamed as we rushed into the limo and it sped off towards the event.
It was from 1 pm to 12 am in the gym and it was kind of like the SPRING Dance. One question, why was it called the spring dance when it's nearly winter?
What a fucked up school I go to...
We chattered about nothing for the whole ride there but I had this feeling in my stomach that Syaoran got my package and read it. I don't know what possessed me to do this but I had to, or I felt the need to...
I couldn't say goodbye just like that.
Today's the last time I'll ever see him, and the sad thing is. I can't have him all to myself – I need to share him with his friends... he probably wont even see me until the end of the night.
We reached the school and Tomoyo put her mask over her face, with me following suite before we both stepped out of the car. While I was getting out, people were standing on the side lines watching the different costumes. I looked around and saw the many costumes ranging from Prince Charming to Beasts to Transformers to Cinderella's to Cats. Everything was there. I didn't see a Tinkerbelle at all and that made me smile.
I had this sudden feeling to want to go into the celeb industry. Becoming a celebrity, with the camera's pointing at you and flashes and people screaming because of you – that's like a dream to me.
"Kura, come on!" Tomoyo said as she smiled to the people on the side lines and dragged me along – I nearly tripped in the heels, in front of many people but I managed to smile and was forced to run with Tomoyo into the beautifully decorated hall.
The lights were low and it was packed. Worst than the spring dance thing. There was a podium located on the stage, with a few people talking to themselves around it. There conversation was muffled, but you could hear the murmurs that hit the microphone.
In the corner was a few cheap games, like FOOD-FEEL where you get blindfolded and you feel different types of food that are well ... gross and then you need to guess. If you win, you get a prize; it ranges from a computer to 10 dollars depending on how well you guess.
There was a DJ studio in the left of the gym, soft beats flowing through the gym made me want to sleep. "Kura you did an amazing job" Tomoyo said as she glanced around the gym, probably looking for Eriol but used the "good job" as an excuse.
"Thanks" I said as I smiled and glanced around too, I managed to see Becca hanging off that Jordan kid – the one from Gym class. We never really talked, but I knew he existed.
She was dressed up as a Genie, her long brown hair was pulled into a wavy and airy up-do and her face was painted with exotic colors. Her brown eyes were washed with a cream color eye shadow and she was wearing a blue top that expanded at the chest area, and stopped short just under her ribs. The arms were flowy and it almost seemed as if she put on the top and blew it up...
She was also wearing a blue pair of pants that seemed rather flowly as well; they were tight at the hips and flowed out before going tight at the ankles again. She also had some blue slippers on, which seemed to be made out of the same material.
Her stomach was airbrushed with a white color; there were exquisite patterns drawn on her stomach, back, and arms.
Jordan had his blond hair spiked upwards and a cape that fitted perfectly around his neck. His eyes gleamed a red color and I nearly thought I was seeing double until Tomoyo pointed out that they were contacts...
I totally knew that!
His outfit consisted of a black cape, a red dress shirt and a pair of black dress pants with some black dress shoes. His face was the best feature I thought, his hair was spiked vividly, his eyes gleaming red and his mouth had traces of fresh red ... paint (?) on it. He opened his mouth to talk to Becca and he was wearing fangs, not those plastic cheap ones but they actually looked like real teeth. I looked away, I was psyching myself out, what if they are real teeth and he's a real vampire. Heh... heh... what are the chances of that!?
We mingled with a few people, Tomoyo didn't find Eriol anywhere and I didn't spot Syaoran... at all.
Around 3 pm, the principal came onto the stage wearing a butterfly suite. Is he gay!?
He seemed a bit flustered but continued to speak anyways. "Hi there students ... welcome to your first Halloween bash ever. You all look amazing; I can't tell who's who!" He let out a nervous laugh and the students followed, but it wasn't a nervous laugh – they were laughing at him.
"Anyways, as you all know today is dedicated to Syaoran Li as he is leaving us to go home. Many will miss him, and he will forever be missed here at Seijou high but he is required to go home. Where are you Syaoran?" The principal called out and the crowd turned to look around.
I found myself glancing at the doors as they opened and Eriol walked in. He was dressed in a dark blue outfit – a wand in his left hand and his glasses were gone. He had some blue dress shoes on and a cape was fitted snugly around his neck. "Magician?" I called out to Tomoyo as I lowered my hand that was holding up my mask. Not a lot of people had theirs on at the moment, they were only required for the dance coming up. It seems rather... lame.
She nodded, her eyes fixed on him the whole time. He seemed to look dangerous almost, the way he walked and the way his eyes were fixed on the stage. It almost looked sexy, but I'm not attracted to Eriol ... in any way what so ever.
There was a slight pause before he reached the stage and stood on the stage. The crowd looked back at the doors and I jumped when they opened again.
Syaoran was standing in the doorway, his eyes gleaming dangerously. He had a dark brown top on – a sword case swinging around the front of his chest. It was placed on his back, and he had dark brown pants on as well. He was playing the role of a dangerous warrior guy and if I have to say so myself, he looked dangerously... hot.
The way he walked into the gym, made so many girls swoon and I found myself glaring at the girl next to me. Her blonde hair was curled and she was dressed up as little bow peep from that stupid sheep rhyme. She looked lame. I rolled my eyes at her.
"Syaoran Li is the hottest man alive, I swear" I heard her call out to her group of minions who let out a giggle.
"You already know that, you like totally dated him! Hehehe" One of her friends said and I recognized her to be over tanned bitch Barbie.
I stuck my elbow out and elbowed her in the arm, before looking over at her, my mask covering my face. "Oopsies" I called out as I looked at her with mock concern.
"It's alright, your gorgeous darling. Who are you again?" she said, her voice caked with mock sugar. I rolled my eyes before answering. I glanced at Tomoyo and she was peering at me with questioning eyes.
"I'm Syaoran's fiancée from China" I said before turning around and smiling to Tomoyo who giggled.
I managed to see the shock form on the bitch's face and if it was possible, my smile only got wider.
Turning my attention back to Syaoran, I saw him standing on the stage, his eyes glancing over the crowd. He seemed puzzled, and Tomoyo tapped me on the shoulder. I knew what she meant, he couldn't find me and I felt satisfaction bubbling in the pits of my stomach.
The principal coughed and Syaoran moved slightly, "Right... err... Thanks to everyone who put this organization together. I just wanted to say goodbye to everyone I knew... met and was friends with." His eyes flickered over the stage again and I found myself lowering my eyes. I didn't want to draw attention to myself.
"This year has been really special. I'm sorry for causing anyone trouble in anyway. Eriol will remain here and from time to time you'll hear of me." he said as he caused a laugh throughout the students that were whispering amongst themselves.
"It's been great, really. But its time for me to return home. I'll miss you all but lets the party start!" He said as he let out a laugh and looked to the principal before setting the microphone down and heading into the student body to mingle. I stayed far away from him as I mingled with some of my friends. I was sad, inside but I masked it by the stupid fake laugh that I had practiced till it was perfect.
Fuck guys.
A few hours later, after we all ate and finished talking the principal had the girls and the boys line up in separate lines that each led to a box. Tomoyo stood anxiously in front of me as the line moved quickly. "What are we supposed to do again?" I asked her as I leaned forward to be able to hear her.
The music was loud and it was some stupid trance song, it was kind of annoying but I put up with it.
"We have to put our name on the slip and put on who we are aiming to get. Then we line up and start dancing. At the end of the dance, we line back up and put down if we can guess who we are looking for. The most number of tallies that are gained for the people that are being looked for win. Kind of like a prom king and queen..." Tomoyo said as she smiled at me as realization dawned on me. "Oooh..." I called out as Tomoyo stepped up to write a name down. I knew she was writing down Eriol. She smiled and winked at me as she turned to line up in a separate line.
I stepped forward and glanced over at the boys' line. I couldn't find Syaoran. Whatever...
Everyone knew who he was and it almost pissed me off. I scribbled his name down and stuck it inside the box before heading to the line that Tomoyo was in.
A few minutes later, two boys came bursting in. They were both dressed in matching out fits but one had darker hair. They resembled some one but I couldn't place it. Both of the boys scribbled down an answer before getting in line and laughing.
They were dressed in a gold and brown outfit. Both boys had crowns placed on their heads, and a brown shirt underneath the gold rimmed vest. There was a line of gold down the side of their pants, which led to their black shoes. They looked like princes.
Really hot princes.
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The music had started and the point of it was that when the song was over, we needed to switch to a different partner really quickly. I found myself in the hands of a guy dressed in a pink butterfly outfit. "So..." he called out as he moved back and in sync of the fast paced music. "Who are you?" he called out as I let out a small laugh. I smiled up at him, he seemed oddly familiar. I think he was in my gym class. "You're Kit?" I called out and his eyes widened in recognization. "Ohhh, you know me! How totally cute!" He called out as he dipped me and I glanced back at the crowd. Syaoran was no where to be found and those two prince guys, the mysterious guys were dancing with random girls who seemed to be fawning over them.
"Indeed I do" I called out as he lifted me back up again to face him. He smiled at me as the song ended and I found myself in the arms of another guy. His brown hair was glittering under the light; his blue eyes were fixed on mine. He was dressed up as a fighter.
"Mika" I called out and he laughed, he looked really good.
"Sakura" he called out, a small smile forming on his face.
I let out a giggle as I placed my head on his shoulder, a sigh escaping my mouth. The song was slow and sad and it almost made me want to cry.
"You look stunning tonight. If you hadn't called out my name, I wouldn't have realized it's you." He told me, his mouth placed by my ear. I let out a laugh and pulled back. "I recognized your blue eyes anywhere. They are so dazzling. Any woman can get lost in them" I said nonchalantly as I smiled my first real smile tonight.
"Do you love him?" he called out and I found myself staring at him in shock. I almost forgot to dance, I couldn't believe him.
"I don't know what love is Mika. I'm only 17." I said as I stared at him, I was still very shocked, I couldn't believe him. How dare he ask!
Right before Syaoran leaves too...
I glanced around the gym and sighed. He had already left. I knew it, and to make matters worst, Mika knew what was on my mind.
"He's gone. His flight came early. He told me to tell you he's sorry." He told me as he placed a hand on my cheek. I looked up at him, my face softening.
"I know he is. He told me that a few days ago after driving me home." I said as the music ended and I parted ways with him.
The dance was rather boring, I kept on dancing with people I didn't know but I happened to make a lot of friends that night. I saw Tomoyo dancing with some dark haired guy and she was laughing to no extent. That was probably Eriol or something.
The song came to and end and the principal told us to stop for a moment. We stood there on the dance floor as we looked forward careful not to disrupt our dance movement.
"This is the last song of the evening. And it's dedicated to someone" He said into the microphone and we moved forward, not giving the song a second thought.
I felt someone grab my hand and I soon found myself face to face with that mysterious prince charming. "Hello" he called out, his voice foreign.
I smiled, not really knowing what to say. "Who are you?" I found myself asking and he gave a small chuckle. I had this feeling of butterflies erupt in my stomach and I found myself smiling. "Who are you!?" I said as I let out a small giggle. He kept laughing as he turned me around to face the crowd. I could feel him behind me as he placed his mouth near my ear.
"Open your eyes..." he said as he pulled away and I opened my eyes, not sure what I was to see.
A guy stood in the middle of the dance floor, he was staring at me and I found my breath hitch. I looked back at the mysterious prince charming and saw it to be Eriol. Giving him a puzzled look, he nodded and pushed me forward.
I suddenly felt really naked and exposed. I walked towards the figure and people stopped dancing to watch, he grabbed my hand and pulled me close before glaring at everyone to continue dancing.
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
"You thought I left didn't you?" I heard him say and I looked up at him, almost scared. I didn't want to say goodbye, I really didn't. It was hard.
"No." I heard myself answer, it sounded automatic and cold. I wasn't trying to be cold but after everything we went through, and after how he treated me – from the good to the bad, I didn't want to see him leave.
Maybe it was love? Like a childhood love type thing? I don't know, but it hurt so bad to think of him leaving in two days...
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
He let out a small chuckle as he pulled me close as if he was saying sorry, for like the millionth time. I swear to god, Syaoran Li you dragged me into this stupid game and I fell in love with it. I almost didn't want to see it go but I knew it was time we went our separate ways.
What's he going to think once he reads that letter? It was so stupid to write, good god what was I thinking!?
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
And me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
"I'll miss you Syaoran" I heard myself croak out and a few tears leaked down my face. I had it pressed into his shoulder, the smell of his sandal wood and spice came rushing back to the night where he stayed with me and we talked. I got to know the real Syaoran Li then and I found myself falling for him more and more ever since then, I just didn't want to ever admit it.
But here, I am... admitting it to myself and myself only. I won't ever tell him that I fell for him ... all because of this stupid game that he pulled me into. It's not even considered a "game" just knowing that meeting Syaoran Li is apparently supposed to be a "bad idea" got me interested and then he started to tease me and my fiery temper got the best of me.
And before I knew it, I was wrapped up in it all.
"I won't ever see you again will I?" I called out as I sniffled, the song was ending but the start of a different song was in the distance. I thought it was the last song? I felt Syaoran's hand move off my back and he snapped it a few times.
Maybe he didn't want this song to end?
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
"You're beautiful" He whispered to me as the song ended slowly, and he pulled me back to look me in the eyes.
I could hear the next song started and I almost wanted to cry out in pain. I couldn't stay in his arms; it made me want to cry because he's really leaving.
It's for real, its not a stupid joke, he's going home and he's going to meet a girl there and fall in love while I'm here missing him terribly. Why!? Why does everything I like have to be taken away from me?
We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide
Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside
The new song made me want to cry, it was like it was telling the life story of me and Syaoran. I sniffled and he made me look at him as we danced slowly.
I forgot about everything and everyone, except for me, Syaoran, the song and us dancing. I had a distant hope in the back of my mind that I hoped Tomoyo was taping this but if not... oh well.
"When I first saw you in bio class fighting that stupid blonde bitch, I knew you were special. I'm a guy and guys don't know how to express how they feel so they do the only thing that they really know. They tease girls hoping that they make a lasting imprint in their mind. That's what I did with you. I was hoping that once you met me, you'd feel what I felt the first time I saw you. You have this fiery temper but your such a caring girl on the inside." He told me and I started beating on his chest slightly, my eyes tearing up. "Why are you telling me all this Syaoran!?" I choked out as a few tears escaped.
"I'll miss you, I really will. I'm sorry we went through all this and that I led you on this stupid crazy roller coaster. I'm sorry, I know I keep saying it but its all that I know how to say. I know you're hurting and I am too..." he said as he wiped some tears away, and stared into my eyes.
His face was soft and sincere and I just wanted to kiss him right there and then but I wasn't going to.
I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time
The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes
"It's like I'm in love for the first time." He said as he rubbed my waist and pulled me closer, if it was even possible. He kissed the top of my head and we just stood there, swaying slightly to the music.
I didn't know what to say to him, I didn't know how to say anything. I just wanted him to stay so we could have a chance but I knew it wasn't happening. I couldn't force it, maybe some day in the future we'll run into each other but I really doubt it.
Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside
I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time
We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home
"I took a big risk Syaoran. I did, and I let down my guards a few times. Tomoyo told me you were dangerous and of course curiosity got to the best of me. I mean what can a 17 year old really be capable of?" I found myself saying as we swayed, the song was ending, and I could feel it.
And then it would be all over. After this song ended, the polls were tallied and a few prizes were handed out before we all headed home.
Syaoran was to take a few pictures with people and I wanted him to myself. I didn't want him to say goodbye to the girls that fawned over him.
I wanted him to say goodbye to me and me only.
I wanted him to stay with me, and not go back home. I was being greedy and I knew it but I couldn't help it.
He just laughed at my confession and I found myself smiling before letting a little giggle. Our laughs crashing together, it sounded amazing.
I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time
Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time
I felt him slip something cold on my hand and I glanced down at my hand. There was a gorgeous ring on my ring finger and I gasped. "I'll come back for you" he whispered as he pulled my face up and gave me a kiss.
I felt my insides squirm and I kissed him back with all my might. I don't think we ever really kissed, sure there were some intimate moments but we never really kissed this passionate.
The song ended and we pulled apart before I glanced around. People had stopped to watch and I felt my face heat up, some people let out cheers and some people just growled at me in anger. My face was so red I didn't know what to do so I just stuck it in Syaoran's shoulder.
He laughed at me before pushing his way through the crowd to the table of our friends.
So what happens in the end of the story you might be asking?
Let's see, everyone is kind of mellow now, there's no stupid fucking rules to deal with at a stupid school. People mingle with each other, I got the guy but he's leaving. Tomoyo is dating Eriol and they're so in love it drives me nuts.
That stupid bitch over tanned Barbie isn't that bad anymore, she's still mean but I think she learned her lesson. Which is good?
Eriol and the guys hang out with us now. If Syaoran was staying, he'd hang out with us too but he's leaving.
I think this is the first time in a long time that the school's in peace and it kind of feels really good.
I showed off my ring to Tomoyo and the girls and they all let out a squeal. It was kind of like I'm engaged, or something like that Tomoyo said and I just giggled.
Syaoran was sitting with his friends; they had all pulled out a beer and were sitting on the tables looking straight forward talking.
I could hear some of the conversation. I didn't mean to listen in but it was just kind of there.
"- I'm really going to miss you guys. School in China won't be the same without my buds." I heard Syaoran say as he brought the bottle up to his lips.
Tomoyo nudged me but I gave her a dirty look as if I was trying to tell her to shut her trap.
"Yeah, I know man. Chasing after girls won't be the same anymore without you..." Mika said as they all let out a laugh. Syaoran grunted. "No way, I'm done with girls for a while."
I almost let out a gasp, Syaoran done with girls? What!?
"What? Are you leaving your heart here in Tokyo with a certain someone?" Mika said again and Eriol let out a snort. "He never really had a heart" Eriol added and Syaoran punched him in the shoulder. "Shut up guys. When you meet the right girl, no matter how old you are and they are special. It's hard to just walk away without a second thought." Syaoran said as he gazed forward, the beer bottle was pressed against his lips and I let out a silent sight.
"Eriol you should know. Imagine if Tomoyo just walked out like that. Saying she was done and found another man, you'd be crushed hey?" Syaoran said as he turned to look at his friend who nodded to him, totally feeling him.
"I get you man. Come back eh?" Eriol said as he put his arm around Syaoran's neck and leaned in to give Syaoran a nuggie. "Fuck off!" Syaoran said as he started play fighting with Eriol.
I turned back to Tomoyo who was staring at me with big eyes. She nodded and I smiled. "I got it all on tape for you, I had a feeling that you'd want to watch it while eating ice cream." She said as I felt my eyes tearing up.
"He's really leaving me." I said as I glanced away, not wanting to show people I was crying. I got up, and brushed passed my table and the table where Syaoran was sitting. I needed to go freshen up.
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I could hear the announcements going off, and people were cheering. "Sakura, come on your name has been called!" Tomoyo said as she poked her head into the girls' bathroom. I nodded and stared at her through the mirror. "I'm coming" I said as I turned off the water and turned around, a bright smile plastered on my face.
"Anyways, I'd like to read the contestants again incase some of you missed them. " The principal said as he coughed and looked my way. I smiled up at him as I followed Tomoyo through the crowd and stood by Syaoran.
He looked at me and smiled before reaching for my hand and giving it a tight squeeze as if he was trying to say it'll be alright.
I knew it would be, it would just take a lot of time to really realize that he's not going to be around anymore.
"Will you call me? Or write me?" I said to him, as I turned to look at him with my emerald eyes. He leaned in and kissed my cheek, the sparkles rubbing off onto his gorgeous lips.
"Of course I will. I'll never forget you. You're one in a million."
I smiled up at him before kissing his cheek. "So are you Syaoran Li."
The principals' voice jerked us out of our conversation and I watched the principal open the letter. "The Halloween best costumed queen is... none other than Sakura Kinomoto." he said as he smiled down at me, I looked over to Syaoran who told me to "get going".
I didn't really expect it to be me but I guess it is and it seems kinda cliché if you ask me. But hey, I'm not complaining!
"And the best dressed costume king is ... none other than our very own Syaoran Li. You're going places son"
Syaoran met my eyes as he climbed the stage stairs. He grabbed the mic and put his hands around my waist. "I'm going to miss you guys" He called out and the majority of the school clapped.
He turned to me and kissed me on the stage. I couldn't believe it; I could hear the faint cheers of people and the whispering of that stupid over tanned Barbie bitch. But I didn't care.
I wrapped my hands around his neck and kissed him back fully, probably the last time I'll ever kiss him. Or see him for a really long time.
"I'll miss you." he said as he took my tiara and put it on my head. "You're gorgeous. Don't ever let anyone tell you different." he told me and I smiled, my eyes tearing up again. A lone tear dropped down my cheek and he wiped it away.
He took my hand and led me down the stairs to some where more private. The garden. I told Tomoyo I'd call her tomorrow on the way out and he led me down to the path. He sat down on the bench and told me to sit on his lap. His left hand was wrapped around my waist and I had my hands around his neck playing with his hair.
So I guess I did get my wish, I'd spend the rest of the night with him.
"I..." he started and I stared at him. He looked troubled and I immediately widened my eyes.
"If you have something bad to say, don't you dare say it Syaoran Li" I said harshly as I stared him down.
He looked up, at me and I blinked. His eyes seemed to be watering slightly. Was Syaoran Li ... crying?
"I don't want to leave you." he finally got out as he looked away and I swore I saw a few tears drop down his cheek. "I'll miss you more than you know. And we didn't even have that good of a fucking relationship." He confessed to me and I put my head in his shoulder, letting my tears fall freely.
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I rolled over and came face to face with a sleeping Syaoran. I looked down at my body and saw that I was in a clean shirt, an oversized shirt. It smelled like Syaoran.
"We didn't have sex if you were wondering that." He said from his side of the bed and I glanced at him, he looked like he was sleeping still – his eyes were closed...
"You fell asleep in the park and I took you home to my house. I got my mom to call your mom and then my sisters changed you and cleaned you up a bit. You were so exhausted that you collapsed on my bed. I wasn't going to move you and I wasn't going to sleep on the bloody floor." He said as I emitted a laugh and rolled over to face him.
He was shirtless and I moved my legs to feel his. He wasn't wearing pants either. I felt his legs and put my head on his chest, drawing circles around his nipple.
He growled at me, "Don't" he said as he took my hand away, and I glanced up at him giggling. "Does that tickle?" I said as I took my other free hand and drew circles on his chest. His, oh...so fine chest.
"No it turns me on." he growled out and I felt him shift. I let out a giggle but made no movement to move my hand away.
"Don't Sakura" he warned and I let out a laugh as he pushed my hand away and pulled up the covers. I was turning him on, that's a good thing to know right? That you can turn someone on?
I snuck my hand underneath the covers and placed it on his chest again. He glared at me dangerously but I saw the fun in his eyes.
"Don't, your going to make me mad missy." He said as he pushed my hand away only to be greeted with my whole body. I rolled over and pushed the blankets off of him. "I d-o-n-t c-a-re." I said as I traced circles on his chest and I saw him push my hand away, a growl emitting from his lips.
"Don't!" Fuck off!" He growled out and I leaned down to kiss him. He pulled back and growled at me. His eyes were widened. "I'm horny now. Fuck off" He said as he pushed me back onto the bed and I let out a high pitch giggle as he glared at me before grabbing the blankets and standing up, probably going to take care of his business.
I watched him walk into his personal bathroom and I glanced around his room when the door shut. I saw a picture of us, from last night. We were standing together and we asked Tomoyo to take a picture of us.
I got up and traced the picture, I stared at him. "Why are you leaving me?" I said to no one in particular and when I heard the shower turn on, I jumped.
Glancing at the keys on the dresser, I grabbed them and headed to the bathroom door. Trying each key, I finally unlocked it and headed into the big spacious bathroom. I could see him standing in the spacious frosted shower door and I stripped myself of his shirt (that I'm defiantly keeping and never washing!) and my undergarments before opening the shower door and stepping in.
"I love you" I called out as his lips came crashing down on mine.
Oh he was defiantly awake now, if you get what I mean...
Well; that's the second last chapter. I worked extra hard for you guys. Got to 19 pages and said, okay well that should be enough!
I hope you all loved it and just so you know...
The next chapter is indeed the LAST chapter and it will be portrayed in many different point of views. You'll see when I next update.
I'm going to work on Fantasy later tonight and I hope to have the next chapter up ASAP!
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"You and Me" and "First time" are NOT mine.
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