Soooooo if I provide the shot gun, who would like to shoot me for waiting over a year to update this story? Are any of my old readers even still interested in this story? AHHHH I'm so sorry! -bows deeply- I have no excuse other than the fact I just couldn't write. Literally I couldn't. I would sit down to start this chapter then scrap it because of how much I hated it. It would have continued on this way if I hadn't decided to re-read this story. That's when I got the inspiration for this chapter and next. Just to let you know, this isn't the last chapter! Don't worry, there is one more after this! Even better news, I've already started writing the next one! SO it won't take me a year, nary a week to put it up!

Well if any of you are still there, or came back, thank you! I always appreciate the support I get from my readers, even though I'm such a fickle writer. As much as I love this story and writing for this fandom, I'm happy to be finishing this story. I don't have much inspiration for Kingdom Hearts anymore. But do not fret, I have not yet given up on the fandom. Who knows, I might randomly get inspired for it again. After kicking my writers block I actually would like to write kpop fanfiction...don't judge me... If any of you would be interested in that, I have an account over on . I haven't actually posted or written anything yet. But I will!

Anyway, I love you all, every single one of you who have taken or is taking the time to read my story. MUAH! Lots of kisses to you! oxox HOOSP.

Axel looked around the hallways in attempt to spot the familiar spiky blond hair of Roxas. All weekend he had been chasing Roxas in attempt to talk to him; but every time he thought he finally caught up to the boy, he had actually missed him by minutes.

Axel sighed for the millionth time in the past few minutes; this caused Demyx to look up at him and roll his eyes. "Sighing a million daisies won't help anything Ax." The mulhawked musician pointed out to his depressed best friend.

"Can you blame me, Dem? I've been looking for Roxas, for days now! I swear Roxas has a sixth sense and can sense when I'm about to find him." Demyx shook his head; "well you better talk to him soon. You're project is due next week and then graduation is right after that. And you know what that means…" Axel groaned slamming his fist into a nearby locker. "I've got to find him Dem. There is one last journal entry, maybe it will tell me something."

Demyx shrugged; "it couldn't hurt to try…" Axel nodded and quickly took off towards the library. He sat down in the all too familiar beanbag chair in the library and pulled out Roxas' journal. He opened it to the last page and sighed; it was dated the day before he found the journal. He let out a shaky breath and started to read.

May 4, 2012:

"Growing up I've always been a little bit afraid of heights. But as this year continues on in the crappy why that is my life, I've found comfort in sitting on the roof staring down at all the students below me. Ironically, here is where I am the safest. Most students have no clue about the door to the roof, so no one tried to come up here, in fact most of them didn't even look up on the roof. I would know, because I've been watching them from up here for months now. No one looks up, even though I freely let myself sob, nobody notices, nobody cares. That's why I've decided this is where and how I'm going to do it. This is where I'm going to end my life, dying in the last bit of comfort I've ever felt seems to be so inviting, doesn't it? Maybe as I'm falling towards my death, I will finally feel peace…

Axel slammed the journal shut; that was it, that was all that was written. A story left unfinished, a story he was determined to sway the ending too. He stood up from the beanbag chair and tucked the journal under his arm. If there was any indication where Roxas was right now in the journal, Axel knew exactly where the blonde was. That's why he raced to the empty hallway that housed the door to the roof.

Roxas jumped when the door to the roof was slammed open. He was 100% sure that no one else knew how to get up here, or if they did, they didn't dare to in fear of getting in trouble. He slowly looked over at the door with wide eyes. There was Axel panting as if he had run across the campus.

"Axel…" Roxas said softly, his heart hammering against his rib cage. He took a step back for every step forward Axel took. That was until his foot hit the edge causing him to have a mini heart attack.

Axel dropped the journal and ran forward, grabbing Roxas by the wrist. Roxas squeaked out of surprise when he was pulled against Axel's chest. "Don't you do it Roxas, don't you dare fucking do it." Axel said, his grip tightening on Roxas.

Roxas let out a soft sob as he started to slightly shake. Axel swallowed his own sob as he continued to talk. "You think that you mean nothing to this world, well it's not true. Think about Cloud, how torn up he would be if you left. Think about your mother, she may not be around, but I know it would ruin her…"

"How…" Roxas tried to ask how he knew about his mother, but was quickly silenced.

"Think about Demyx, he thinks of you as a precious friend, he would cry knowing he wasn't enough to help you." Axel paused in his speech so he could gather his emotions. "Think about me…" He whispered; "I would hate myself for the rest of my life knowing I never got the opportunity to know you and love you."

Roxas pushed himself away from Axel's chest a little bit. "Axel…how…what?" Axel sighed looking away from Roxas. "I'm sorry that I was ignoring you lately, it's not because I hate you, it's because I'm ashamed."

Roxas gave him a puzzled look. "Ashamed? Of what?" Axel sighed and took his hand. He pulled him over to the fallen and forgotten journal. He picked it up and handed it over to him. "I think this belongs to you…."

Roxas took the journal, his hands shaking a little bit. "This is…" Axel nodded; "your journal. I found it a few weeks ago on the street. I picked it up intending to give it back to its owner, but there was no name on the cover. I know I shouldn't have, but I read it in hopes to find a clue on who it belonged to…"

Axel took the courage to look over at Roxas, who looked completely shocked. "You read…the whole thing?" Axel nodded; "I did."

Roxas looked down at the journal; "when did you…you know, figure it out it was me?" Axel let out a nervous chuckle; "I never actually figure it out. You kind of told me, remember; in the nurse's office?"

Roxas let out a little exasperated noise that sounded sort of like a wheeze. "Oh my god Axel, you know everything!" He started to freak out. "Everything! How horribly I was bullied, how alone I felt, how disgustingly I treated myself, how much I lo…oh my god! You know! Oh my god, you know how I feel!"

Axel smiled pulling Roxas back into his arms. "You're right, I do know. As I was reading I fell in love with the writer, at least I thought I did. When I was assigned your partner and started hanging out with you, I started to fall for you too. You have no idea how relived I was when I found out you were the same people."

Roxas looked up at him with wide eyes. "A-are you saying…w-what I think you're saying?" Axel nodded smiling a little bit. "Roxas, I love you, and I'm not letting you out of my sight again." Roxas' lip quivered a little bit. "Even after learning about everything that's happened to me; how I've been in love with you for years?"

Axel chuckled; "it makes me love and want to protect you even more." He tightened his hold on him. "Please Roxas, give me a chance?"

Roxas looked up at him, his heart palpitating at how close their faces really where. If Axel wasn't a giant, he was sure their noses would be touching. He looked into Axel's emerald eyes, the ones he was so in love with, to see the sincerity in them. Axel wasn't messing with him, he could feel it. Roxas smiled a little bit and nodded. "Nothing in this world could make me happier than to have a chance with you Axel."

Axel grinned, one of his large feline like smiles. "You definitely won't regret this Roxy!" He said before leaning down and crashing his lips against the blonde's. Roxas smiled when he pulled away a little bit. "If that keeps happening, there is no way I'd regret it."

Axel threw his head back and let out a loud laugh.

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