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"If YOU don't receive LOVE

from THE ONE who are MEANT to love you,

you will NEVER stop LOOKING for it."

- Robert Goolrick

SANTANA's POV

It's been two months since the last time I've been in this expensive building, that's the day I helped Elle move some of her things into her fully renovated penthouse. But the first time I was here was unforgettable. That was the night Elle and I made love after our first date.

At that time, I had no idea that the sister-in-law Elle had told me that night is Quinn. We've been together for more than six months and I didn't even know about this. "Stupid!" I scold myself. We we're so eager to avoid being hurt again by talking about our past, what we didn't know is we'll be hurt greater today because of not knowing about it.

The sound of the elevator's buzzer brought me back to my senses. Once the door opens, I quickly stepped out of it to walk towards the big door. I stop for a minute in front of it.

My hands are shaking and I can't even feel them. All I know is that all the parts of my body won't do as what I say. Like this fucking heart that won't stop beating so fast, while my lungs chose tonight to not function fully because I feel out of breathe every second that pasts and this damn mind won't stop thinking about her..Quinn.

I need to talk to her and know the truth. I have to see for myself if Elle was really saying the truth.

I rang the doorbell twice then wait for her to open. I feel nervous but at the same time excited, if that's even possible. I let out a deep breath to calm my nerves when I heard a noise on the other side.

"S..santana?" I could see her face turned pale the moment she sees me.

"We need to talk." I said while I wait for her to move aside and let me in.

...TWO HOURS EARLIER...

I've been pacing on our kitchen floor for thirty minutes now, trying to think the right thing to do about my 'situation' with Rachel. When I came home an hour ago, I didn't expect her to be here. My plan was just to get my things and go to Elle's place. But unfortunately, she was here, waiting for me.

I had no choice but to listen to what she's about to say. I sit across her on the couch in the living room. There was complete silence for a minute because neither one of us wants to start the conversation.

I heard Rachel takes in a huge amount of air into her lungs and then exhales it. I could see that her attempt to calm herself did not work. Nervousness is still visible in her face, her lower lip being bit every second and her hands fidgeting.

"I..I have to tell you something Sanny." Finally, she had the courage to speak.

I just stare at her blankly, honestly not knowing what to say. So I just nod at her and motion for her to continue.

She let out a deep sigh. "I'm not a good friend San. I did some outrageous things for the sake of love. I'm weak and worse than Quinn." She said while covering her face with her hands, as if she's so ashamed of showing it to me.

Rachel really confuses me more when she doesn't talk like an annoying walking dictionary. It seems like right now I prefer her paragraph reply, than a single liner with underlying meanings. Like what she's fucking doing right now talking about friendship, her horrid deeds and then compares herself to Q I one sentence. I had no idea what she means.

"Rachel, will you quit beating around the bush! What's wrong?" I said irritated.

Again, she let out a deep sigh. "I.. I thought if I'll ignore what I feel.. It'll just go away. But it didn't." she bit her lower lip trying to stop the sob that she's been keeping inside. Rachel avoided my gaze at all cost. "I..I'm sorry San."

Why can't you just ask her Lopez? What are you so scared of? I scold myself. I need to know if it's me or Elle. Rachel is my friend but I know they've been really close too this past few months. They hang out everytime I'm busy with work and Elle prefers to stay here in our apartment instead of hers.

"Stop fucking with my head Berry." My tone doesn't conceal the annoyance I now feel. She's starting to freak me out every minute that I wait for her to tell me all about it.

"To burn with desire and keep quiet about it

is the greatest punishment we can bring

on ourselves."

- Federico Garcia Lorcia

RACHEL's POV

"I..I am in love with you." My voice cracked once I said it. I looked up at her face, she seems a bit surprised but eventually recovered from it. She didn't throw any snarky comments so I took it as a good sign.

So I continued, "I didn't mean for it to happen San, I was truly happy for you and Elle when you meet each other again. And then you started hanging out with her, at first I thought I was just jealous because I'm starting to lose my bestfriend. Until one day, it started to hurt when I saw you kissed her, and that's when I realized that I do feel something for you."

It feels like there is a huge lump on my throat while I speak the truth about my feelings. My face starts to feel hot and my eyes are getting blurry every second. I bit my lip to prevent myself from crying. I'm not yet done talking and if I cry I'm scared that I won't be able to finish this.

I try hard to read Santana's emotions but there's nothing. She just stares back at me with her blank face. "They said keep your friends close and your enemy closer. So that's what I did. I came out to Elle and ask for her help." Santana's eyes widened with that.

"What the fuck? Y..you told her you love me?" she exclaims as she stood up. She starts to panic.

I quickly shook my head and went closer to her. "Hey, of course not." I said while I reach out for her arms to stop her from pacing. "I just ask her to accompany me to some gay bars and to meet some friends of hers. To..um..experiment and truly accept who I am."

"Rach, you're starting to really confuse me here." She whispered. I can see that this is not also easy for her.

I look deeply in her eyes and cup her face. Before she could react, I kiss her. I let my tongue brush her lips to gain access, but she didn't so I just decided to stop.

Disappointment and hurt, that's what I feel right now. I let my hands fell on my sides as I take one step back, away from her. I want her to see me hurting, so she would know that what I feel right now is real.

She did look at me with concern in her eyes, but it was a kind of look that someone would give to their friend because that's just what I am to her. I'm just her best friend that would take her shit. The best friend who always helps her gets on her feet, every time she's a mess.

"I don't want you to be with Elle, Britt, Quinn or any other woman San. I..I want you to be with me." My voice cracked when I said it. Although it was just a whisper, I know she heard me.

From concern to pity, that's what her face is showing me right now. And it surprisingly hurts more, than to be rejected by her. Who would want to receive pity from the person they love? I seriously don't. "Look, Rach. I know I've been such a bitch and a terrible friend to you. God! I didn't even notice that there was something wrong before it was too late." She said really frustrated with herself, then she step closer to me and reached for my hands and bring it close in front of her lips and kissed it. "I'm so sorry for not knowing about this early. You're my best friend and I hate seeing you like this." Her eyes are also starting to well up.

My heart melted on her apology. I could feel that she meant every word of it. "S..san."

She now placed my hands in front of her chest, and leveled it very close to her heart. I could feel her heartbeat. "I will always love you Rach, but just not the same way that you do."

I couldn't stop myself from crying so hard when she said that. She pulled me into a hug while I sob in her chest. I could hear her whisper 'sorry' repeatedly while sobbing too. So this is it, I've laid out my feelings for her with hope that she would consider it. But she didn't, instead she said we will always be friends. I guess that's all we could ever be.

When we pull from each other's embrace, we just stare. Not knowing the right words to say. Santana then wipes my wet cheek with her finger. I just closed my eyes and savor the moment because I know this is the closest I could ever be with her.

When all of a sudden, I hear my phone beeps. She let go of my face then motioned for me to get it. It was from Elle. Shoot! I forgot, we're supposed to talk tonight.

Rachie, wer r u? ur late, bin here for 10 mins. –Elle

I look up to Santana, who's now in the kitchen drinking water. There's still one thing that I want to tell her but I think I should talk to Elle first about it. I sigh then type in a reply.

Sorry, I'll be there in ten. Thank you for agreeing to talk to me tonight. –R

"San?" I called out her name, she turn around to face me. "I'll..umm..have to meet someone. Don't wait up." Well that was awkward.

"Yeah..umm.. okay." Not awkward at all.

"True love never dies,

even if you found a new love.

The sweet memory of the past

will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life."

- Jeffrey

SANTANA's POV

….TWENTY MINUTES LATER….

"Hope you're thinking about me." I heard Elle whispered behind my ear. I smiled at her and gave her a quick peck on the cheek.

"Bet I am." I wink at her then she sits on the chair across the dining table. "I didn't hear you came in." I said to her confuse while looking back at the door which is now closed.

She smirks at me. "Well, you were so focused on thinking something..or someone perhaps?" I guess she's right. I'm still thinking about Rachel and what I should do. "So?" she stares at me seriously while waiting for me to answer.

I let out a sigh. Should I tell her? She's my girl friend and she has the right to know. "It's Rachel." Her eyebrow rose. "She's been having..umm..feelings..for a friend…umm..a woman actually..that she's knew since high school." I can't believe I just stutter. "Fuck." I murmured.

But I didn't expect the reaction that I got from it. She's smiling goofily as if she just discovered something very important from what I've said. "Is it Quinn?" she asked me very excitedly which made me more confused and shocked. How the hell did she knew about Quinn?! "Is it? San come on tell me!"

My brows furrowed. "How the hell did you know about Quinn?" she loudly squeals and stood from her chair, then jump up and down like a five year old. I came to her side and hold her shoulders to make her stop. "Babe, tell me, how did you know about her?" I'm starting to panic. I have a feeling that I am missing out on something here.

She catches her breath then smile sweetly at me. "They're actually on a date tonight."

"What?! They can't go on a date! That's freaking impossible!" I exclaimed which made her very shock, her smile is now gone and she's eyeing me very suspiciously.

Now I'm freaking out. Quinn is here in NY and on a date with Berry. I now start to pace in the kitchen floor while trying to think. I almost bump into Elle when she stands in front of me. She cups my face for me to look straight in her eyes. "Hey. She's gonna be fine. Quinn is great." My brows furrowed with what she said.

"Remember when I told you about the penthouse in City Spire building? That was hers; she let me stayed there for a while even though she and my brother were divorced already. I know Rach will like her." She said to me in an assuring tone.

Well this is so fucked up. I had no idea that all this time my girlfriend is Quinn's ex-sister-in-law! Yeah, talk about some serious shit!

"Are you okay babe? You look like you're gonna hurl. You look really pale and your hands are so cold." She said to me very worried.

"Yeah,um..I'm just gonna use the bathroom for a while." I lied to her, she just nods at me.

I head to the bathroom door and lock myself inside. I just need time alone to think and absorb what's happening.

I stare back at my face in the mirror. Elle was right; I looked like I just saw a ghost. I let out a deep sigh to relieve the tension that I am feeling then I heard my phone rings. I immediately answered it when I saw Rachel's picture on the screen. Before I could speak and ask questions, I hear her speaking to another person.

"What's yooouur name?" She sounds like drunk. Fuck! Is she on a bar with Quinn?

"Annie, I'm the nanny of Ms. Fabray's son." I heard an unfamiliar voice. I'm relieved to know that she's currently at Quinn's house. "Are you comfty, miss?" I heard Rachel giggles.

"Thank you Nnaaannny!" Rach jokes. "But you can leave nnoooow, Am gonna talk toooo someone..It's immmpolite to eveeeesdrop."

"What the heck Berry, you drunk?" I asked her irritated.

She didn't reply instantly, maybe she fell asleep. "You ssooouunnds like my Sanny, Elle." I heard her giggle again.

Is she calling Elle but instead her call was connected to me? But why would she call her drunk?

"I just want..you to know..that..umm, I'm in love with..you're..girl. But it's ookay, cos she's mah friend." she fake laugh for a moment then quickly followed by sobs. "Huh, a friend… that's just what she wanted us to beeee. But..don't be too happy yet. Cause her ooonnneee true loooove is back, we're both doooomed yah know?" Even if I had a hard time understanding her drunken speech, I get what she wants to say. She's warning Elle about Quinn.

"I doont want youuu for Sanny cause yooouur a cheeeaaater!" she sounds very angry. "I thought yooou're fine for her, I'mm reaaddy to let gooooo and stay aawaaaay but you fucked me! Aannd that's whhyy I haaad thhee courage to tell Sanny my ffeeeelings! But yah know? Weee both don't deserve heeer…."

Did she just say they had sex? "Hey, Berry what the fuck do you mean?!" I didn't hear any response; all I could hear is her heavy breathing. She fell asleep. "Berry wake up!" I shout at the receiver but still nothing.

"Hey, babe everything okay in there?" I heard Elle knocking on the door. Perfect! If I can't talk to Berry then better talk to the sober one involve with it. I hastily opened the door to meet the worried face of Elle. When she sees that I am angry, her brows furrowed.

"Tell me Berry was lying. Tell me you didn't.." I bit my lip hard not to cry. When she looked down I knew it. But she confirmed it when she starts to cry. I was so mad that I punch the door. My hand hurts but I didn't care. I'm mad and I don't want to hit her. "Why?" Tears are now falling down my cheeks. She can't even look at me.

"I'm s-sorry." Her voice cracked. When she looks up and tries to touch me I step back.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I shouted at her then push pass her. I went straight at the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mouth is getting dry so I need something to drink before I lose my voice.

"S-san. I'm so sorry." Elle said with her pleading eyes and stand in front of me. "It was just one time when we went out with my friends. We were drunk and I..I didn't mean for it to happen."

I wipe my tears and shook my head. I want to say hurtful things to her but still I can't make myself hurt her like she's doing to me now. I'm not like that anymore.

"Just stop, Elle. I don't want to hear it. You can't just expect me to forgive you after saying sorry. It's now how things work." I want to get away from her as soon as possible but she forcefully grips my arm to stop me.

"I admit, I lied and cheated once but I regretted after. I never loved anyone besides you. Santana, I only love you." I scoff at her and rolled my eyes. My heart knows it's true but my mind tells me otherwise.

She lets go of my arm and gave me a stern look. "Fine, you want to talk about cheating? Then tell me that you never, not even once, thought about your ex! That she never cross your mind when you're with me. Tell me you don't love her anymore!"

I want to tell her something to make her stop but I can't say anything. I would be lying to her and to myself. She's right; I'm still in love with Quinn after all those years.

I look away and she took it as my answer. She sobs again and leans on the kitchen counter. "Now who's been cheating every day?" She managed to murmur.

Now it's my time to feel guilty. I let out a sigh. "You're right. And I think that we'll just hurt each other if we continue this." I said calmly looking at her. She bit her lips to ease the sobbing a bit. "I may still have feelings for her but I did love you. I tried to forget her for you. I really did try."

I walk towards her. I put my hand on the back of her head and kiss her temple. "Goodbye."

My heart is breaking hearing her cry like that. I know it was wrong of me to feel like something heavy was lifted off my shoulders. Knowing she cheated on me which led us to end our relationship should devastate me right now, but it didn't.

Yes, I am upset and hurt but still, deep inside I feel relieved. I don't know where my feet are taking me. All I know is, I'm walking towards the place where my heart wants me to go.

…PRESENT TIME…

Santana rang the doorbell twice then she waits for Quinn to open. Fear and excitement very evident in her, she let out a deep breath. Her body tensed when she heard the noise on the other side of the door.

"S..santana?" Quinn's face turned white instantly when she saw Santana standing outside her door.

"We need to talk." Santana said while waiting for Quinn to let her inside.

Another cliffhanger? LOL Nah, not really..

Not really sure if I'll continue with another chapter or just end it here. Haha I'll base it on the views and reviews I'll get on this chapter. ^_^