Conflict

Kaoru

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I screamed at myself as I uttered those words. "Today… I'm on top." Every fiber of my being wanted to put on a silly face and pass off a cute 'just kidding!,' but it wasn't going to happen. I had made up my mind. Hikaru didn't believe that I still loved him, and I had to prove it out right.

I also had to establish some sort of dominance in the relationship or I would always be the little sheep that followed his shepherd everywhere that he went, doing whatever he was told.

He will never allow it.

He will if I make him.

You're gonna rape your brother?

Won't be the first immoral thing we have done.

You have never loosened him up. You will hurt him.

He will completely refuse if he doesn't want to.

What if he does refuse? What then?

I'll think of something

Your relationship would be ruined.

No it wouldn't be.

"O-okay" Replied a blushing Hikaru, breaking the awkward silence that had allowed me the conversation inside of my mind.

"Huh?" I said stunned, forgetting what he was agreeing to. My mind raced to the last actual thing that I had said. DUH

"Y-you can top today… just wait until tonight… I want to get ready first." He looked away, the blush deepening by about 3 shades of red.

A smile lit my face. I kissed him sweetly on the lips and gave him a big hug. "Thank you Hikaru! That's all I ever wanted. You don't need to worry about Lorette anymore! I'm through with her. She's just some stupid outsider. You're my world!" I blabbed cheerfully.

It was true. He was my world, and he still is. He will hate me for saying this, but he was the cutest guy that ever lived. He would hate me of course because we always argued over who was the cuter of the two of us. I usually lost… because he was a stubborn bastard.

He silenced me and my thoughts with a kiss, nibbling on my lip to beg entrance to my mouth. I allowed him entrance and he immediately tried to thrust his tongue into my mouth, and he tried to take control. I let him temporarily, but I took control after a few short seconds, and he let me.

My tongue was finally allowed to explore the mysterious, forbidden cavern of Hikaru's mouth. I explored the wet prize with incredible interest, loving every second of my dominance. Eventually I let him regain control, sliding my tongue out of his mouth and coaxing his into mine.

"Mmmph. Kaoru." He moaned into the kiss, filling me with irreplaceable feelings of love for him.

I knew at that moment that I would never do anything to hurt him. I only wanted to be with him forever. Who cared about the laws, who cared about society, who even cared about polite society? I loved him, and that's what mattered.

"Mmm?" I replied, massaging his tongue with my own.

"I-I want it now." He moved his face away from mine slightly, a deep blush spreading across his cheeks like wildfire through a dried grass field. He averted his eyes and a sudden pleasure wave rolled from my stomach outward, filling every cavity of my body, making me shiver uncomfortably.

"W-what? Now Hikaru? You aren't ready yet." I complained, worried for his feelings, and not wanting to hurt him. Not that I didn't want to fuck him until he screamed my name so loud that the neighbors heard, but I just didn't want my sweet brother to be hurt.

He rubbed himself against me, reanimating my previously lifeless erection. "I just want it. I've wanted it for a long time, and I actually…" He trailed off, turned away again, and continued speaking "I have been readying myself for this day for a while now." I could see the blush practically glowing off of the side of his face.

I didn't know what to say. My own brother, the man that I loved, and would love for the rest of my life was offering me his virginity. "I… Don't have any lube Hikaru." I croaked, trying to find an excuse not to. My nerves of steel have bent considerably at this point, and I didn't know what to do.

"I do." He replied, his usual seme tone returning to his voice. That deep, velvety, sexy, thick quality that I loved so much was prominent in his tone. I just wanted to rip our clothes off and screw him so hard, but I couldn't. I was the quiet, composed, cute one. I couldn't have thoughts like that. I wondered subconsciously when I had started having thoughts like that, but passed the question off and told myself that I would answer it later. Now my attention would have to be completely focused on Hikaru.

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He took a tube of lubrication out of his dresser drawer, plainly marked "Anal Lubricant" in large white yellow letters set against a purple background. A small red blob was next to the words, and I wondered what it was.

Hikaru twisted the cap open and squeezed some out onto his finger, anxiously rubbing it between his legs under his pajama pants.

"Wait." I held a finger up to him and took a piece of paper out of the drawer. I wrote a quick "Do not disturb" on it and punched a hole large enough to stick it over the door handle. I opened the door quietly and placed the makeshift barricade gingerly on the door handle, replacing the door to its previous closed and locked state.

I stripped as soon as I closed the door, only wearing pants to begin with. My erection was still there from Hikaru rubbing on me, and I could see that it turned him on. He dropped his pants and I realized what the red blob on the tube was.

"S-strawberry? Really Hikaru?" I asked sarcastically. He blushed and averted his gaze to the ground. I took him firmly by the arm and laid him down on the bed. My heartbeat quickened, beating in my eardrums like a metronome.

I took Hikaru's legs and gently placed them on either side of me. He quickly hooked them together behind my back like I was so used to doing in this exact same position. Pre cum blossomed at the sweet tip of Hikaru's erection. I bent down and licked it instinctively, making him moan and shudder.

My heartbeat quickened again and my memories flashed back several years…

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Two Years Ago

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"Hikaru… I have a question." I said in a monotone voice that hardly portrayed the fierce dread growing in my stomach at the moment.

"What Kaoru?" He asked in that beautiful ringing tone, the one that always made the girls swoon, and always made me want to sweep him into a hug and smile.

"W-why are you always on top?" I croaked, my apprehension growing with each passing heartbeat.

"Because… I don't really know why Kaoru. It's just the way things are. Do you not enjoy being on bottom? Do I not take care of you?" He said, passing the words as if they were common, as if we weren't talking about breaking the law, and about breaking the one true taboo of society.

"N-no... It's not that Hikaru, don't get me wrong. I just think…. Maybe I could top sometime." I pulled my breaths in, ragged and sloppy. I didn't know what I was saying, my mouth was moving of its own accord.

"Maybe someday Kaoru, but for now." He smiled devilishly as he took my hands in his and pulled me into a passionate kiss. I had never been happier to get a kiss from him.

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I slowly positioned myself over Hikaru, my length at his opening, our breaths deep and heavy, unified, and separate. My senses went into overdrive. I could sense every little detail of the room. The thick oak headboard at the front of the bed, covered in thick, red, intricately woven blankets, which cradled my brother, my savior, my own personal Satan gingerly. I took one last gulp of air, my heart stopped beating, a tree branch hit the window, and I pushed in.

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