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"Wow" Alison looked at Emily obviously impressed. Her mermaid certainly satisfied her craving; in fact she went above and beyond. "That was amazing" Emily said, still trying to catch her breath. Alison beamed. "You're amazing." It was corny but she was too happy to come up with something better. They had rocked each other's worlds yet again. The last time the two were this close was years ago in Ali's room. "I didn't think I'd ever get to experience this again" Emily said, her arm wrapped around Ali's hips.
"You'll get to experience this every day until you get sick of me." Alison reassured Emily.
"I'll never get sick of you" Emily was baffled that Alison could even think that.
"You say that now. What about when I'm old and in diapers?" Alison chuckled.
"I'll love you even more. Nothing could ever make me not love you anymore Ali." Emily was unbelievably sincere. Alison beamed from ear to ear. She didn't know what she did to get so lucky. All she knew was she didn't deserve the perfect mermaid that was Emily Fields.
"What?" Emily asked. She knew Ali was thinking about something.
"Nothing, it's stupid." Alison was embarrassed Emily had caught her daydreaming.
"Tell me" Emily encouraged. She wanted to know everything Alison thought all the time.
"I'm just thinking about how lucky I am right now…and how stupid I used to be. We could have had this years prior if I had just told you how I felt. I was so afraid." Alison was starting to get choked up.
"Ali look at me. That was a long time ago. I know how you feel because I went through the same thing. I was terrified to tell people I was gay. But I had Aria and Hanna and Spencer and my family…, and you. We wouldn't be here right now if our past was different."
"Maybe not…I just wish this didn't take so long to get. You deserve to be this happy all the time." These hormones were a bitch.
"You don't need to worry about that. I'm so lucky to be here with you now, and I'm the happiest I've ever been. You've always made me happy, even if we were just friends." It pained Emily to see Ali this upset.
"If you say so…" Alison couldn't believe Emily. She knew what her mermaid said was true, but she wouldn't believe it. If she believed it, then she could let herself off the hook, and she was never going to do that.
"Ali?" Emily nervously asked.
"Yes, love?"
"That day the doctor told us it could be my eggs…what were you really thinking?" This question had been hanging around Emily's mind since she watched Alison try to convince her this was a good thing. They had both been thrilled at the idea of this baby, but neither seemed to really acknowledge the way it came about. "Like I said, I'd rather be having your baby than Archer's" Alison left it at that. She didn't want to have this talk. Not now, not ever. She was perfectly happy pretending the baby was Emily's, always had been Emily's and their future together was perfectly planned. She was not ready for this harsh reality to come crashing down on her.
"Ali…" Em tried to keep going but she was cut off by Alison.
"Can we just drop it Em? The baby is yours. That's it." Ali's tone was sharp and firm. Her words made Emily wince. Emily couldn't understand why Ali didn't want to discuss this.
"Ali, A.D took advantage of you…and me! You haven't said a word about it." Emily kept going. Years ago she would have left the room and sat like a wounded puppy, but the post A, Uber A, and A.D Emily spoke up.
"Emily I don't know how many times I have to tell you to drop it. Are you deaf? Enough." Alison got up to go to the kitchen and grab a glass of water. She never yelled at Emily, never. But she couldn't talk about this right now. Her anger was rising, old habits coming back like they had never left, and she filled her glass up still trying to believe the lie that she was okay with this baby.