Exactly one year ago today, I decided to write a story. The idea kind of came to me randomly and I ran with it, thus the first chapter was born. I was proud of it. I was on the verge of tears writing it, because the words I wrote were real, so hauntingly similar. I wrote this as a sort of almost therapy for me. I wasn't in a great place mentally and I was considering taking my life and self-harming (I am getting better now tho). I didn't plan on it going further than that. I didn't plan on posting it. but i did. I posted it, barely edited to this site on a whim. I didn't expect to be noticed. I didn't expect a single comment. But they came. I kept writing chapters, and silently cringing at them, but people seemed to not hate it, so I continued. I used my own struggles as a guide, and exaggerated them for Alex so we can have a nice load of angst and pain because we love that. But time and time again, I wrote myself into holes. I have no plan for this, no idea of where it's going. The chapters write themselves, and sometimes I hate them. But i digress, I suppose the reason I am posting this is because I feel like I owe you guys something. I know my updating is sporadic at best and my work is riddled with mistakes. A lot of the chapters are filler and my ideas are unoriginal. But somehow people keep reading. People comment and leave kudos and I am so grateful for it, but I am scared to let you down. What started as a little story for myself has turned into a several thousand word fic that other people read. I wrote myself into a hole last chapter, in adding the john's abuse when i did. Again, I had no plan for this, it wrote itself. But with Alex now dealing with his own demons, learning to trust the Washington's, about to start school, and trying to get john safe, I have too much. I don't know where to start, or how I want it to end. So, i apologise if there's a bit of a break in posting, I'm just trying to get out of this hole i dug for myself.
If you have read this far, I am in need of some assistance. I am a 15 year old who has never left Australia, and therefore have no idea about the american school system, other than what i have seen in media. I have no idea what classes they take, how many classes, what their lunch times are, etc. In Australia, we are seperated by primary (prep to 6) and high school (7-12) and in my high school we have 4 60-70 minute periods with 2 lunch breaks in between (one 45 minutes, one 15 minutes). We start at 8:30 and finish at 2:30. It would be greatly appreciated if someone could give me these details for an American school and what kind of classes you would take. I'm imagining the characters are about 16-17 years old, if that helps any.
So if you have made it thus far through my rambling, I'd like to thank you in advance if you decide to help me out with this, thank you for your patience and I once again apologise for this inconvenience. I promise to get you the new chapter as soon as I find my way out of this hole.