Blair looked at herself in her whole bodied mirror. In just a month a baby would be born, her baby. How could she not love it? She had been carrying this baby around when she could have gotten it taken cared of. She felt horrible about the last few months. She had taken everything out on this baby and people who were trying to help her out. She is surprised that they even still talked to her. Thinking she was having a miscarriage really made her think about how much she really cared for the baby, and how much people really cared for her. She called Chuck in the early morning and he came, Serena has been there for her since day one.
"Hey, you know you are not supposed to be out of bed." Serena said. Serena was always protective of her.
"I know, but it gets so boring and I need some time to just walk around and stretch." Blair said. It was the truth; it was the most boring thing in the world.
"Well, I brought some Chinese take out so we can have lunch." Serena said. Blair had been eating Chinese all the time because that's all she wanted.
"That sounds good. I'm starving. Actually Serena, I want to talk to you about something." Blair said as she got a plate.
"Um, okay. I hope it isn't anything bad." Serena said. She hated it when people.
"I just want to tell you how much I appreciate what you have been doing for me over the months. You have been so nice even when I wasn't. I just wanted you to know that." Blair said. She felt better now that she had gotten that off her chest.
"Wow where the hell did that comes from." Serena said. They both sort of laughed. It shocked Serena. It was as if things were just starting to catch up with Blair.
"I don't know. I just have had a lot of time to think with me being cooped up in the bed everyday." It was true.
"Well, I would do it all the time if I had too. That does not mean that you should get pregnant all the time though." Serena laughed. She felt like her best friend was coming back to her.
"Oh, don't worry. After this, I am not ever having anymore kids." Blair said. She never wanted o go through this again. She was sure about that.
"Oh, sure. In ten years you will be coming to me saying that you're pregnant again." Serena said.
"Yeah, but If I am, then I will be married because that's the only time that I'm ever going to have sex again." Blair said. There was too much risk with sex. STD's and pregnancy, HIV. There were lots of things that you had to worry about.
"I think the person you should actually be apologizing to is Chuck." Serena said.
"I know. It's hard though. I hate talking to him because he makes me feel bad about myself." Blair said. Chuck was hard to talk too.
"Oh, Blair. Don't worry; he makes everybody feel bad about themselves." Serena said. They laughed, but it was kind of true.
"You are so right." Blair smiled. She didn't really want to talk to Chuck though.
As Blair started to fall asleep she thought about how her life would be right now if she wouldn't have gotten pregnant. She would probably still be queen bee. She could probably still be with Chuck without this mess. It made her kind of sad when she thought about it. Keeping this baby; she would definitely have to give up most of her teenage years. She would have to think about her every time she made a choice. She didn't like the thought of that. She was still way too selfish to provide for another life. She couldn't keep this baby.
"Do you think you could tell Chuck to come over the next time you see him, Serena?" Blair asked.
"Why don't you just call him?" Serena said.
"Well, I have had a lot to think about since yesterday and if I apologize to Chuck in person then it would be more meaningful. You know what I'm saying? Blair said. She had no idea what she was saying because her hormones were whacked up.
"No, not really. I don't think you even know. I will tell him tomorrow at school. He never comes home so I never see him there." Serena said. It kind of hurt Blair when Serena told her that Chuck was rarely home.
"Well, do you-Do you think he's out with other girls?" Blair asked Serena. Blair hated the feeling that he was. He could do whatever he wants and Blair treated him like carp for the past 5 months.
"Blair. Don't tell me you still have feelings for him." Serena said. Things always turned out messed up between Blair and Chuck. Well, that's what Serena thought anyway.
"No, I don't. It's just that I kind of; you know I am carrying his daughter. That has to mean something doesn't it?" Blair said.
"No, it just means you guys lacked protection." Serena said. She couldn't believe Blair actually had feelings for him, you couldn't tell by the way she was treating him a few months ago. It was as if she woke up.
"I guess." Blair couldn't shake the feeling of Chuck with other woman. It made her hurt so bad. Maybe Chuck realized that he never liked Blair and she was a mistake. Blair was just paranoid and delusional.