Gemini's Sweet Desire

InuShikaCho

Disclaimer: I do not own anything about Prince of Tennis or Tennis no Oujisama except for the plot of this fan fiction.

(A/N): I'm sorry for the late post XD I'm a bit surprised from CheriDuelle's review for me, I didn't get the word you said "d tragedy". I already had the ending with me and it's too hard for me to change it already. Though I apologize if you will not like the ending… But I hope it won't stop everyone from reading this. Only 4 chapters and it will be the ending, and it's been a long time since I first started this story together with Autumn's Promise. And also, since Christmas is almost near, I already have a present give to the RyoSaku fans out there. I have a new fan fic, but haven't exactly thought how the story goes, but I do have the story line with me. Once again, I'm sorry for the late update. I hope I didn't lose you guys again… I'll see you in the end again, bai bai! XD

Chapter 11: Sweet Dreams

Autumn was like her favorite season. Everything was tranquil and it all ended up well. The park seems to be the best plays for her and so as the roof top that both of them used for them to see each other and spend their free time together. It's been weeks since both of them had been together and during those weeks they had kept it so strong that no one knows the relationship between them. They don't talk too much at Club hours nor on join-classes but secretly, they meet each other at the roof top or when all of the students are already gone, one of them will go to the classroom and there they will spend the time talking.

But even though they met every free-time, the fact that they can't treat each other more than friends in public seems to be so odd. It was already like a bond between two lovers that cannot be separated as if they had been glued to the spot. And when one of them will let go, the other will not be able to stand anymore. That's why during classes, she couldn't stop herself from looking outside the window, hoping that he's there on the grounds waving at her wearing a big smile only for her.

"Ryoma!" Everyone caught its attention as all of the students were watching the captain of Seigaku having a practice match with the vice captain. A minute had passed right after the referee of the game declared his victory. When we say all of the students, of course she's included. The only thing that was surprising was that the girl who shouted his name suddenly jumped over him and hugged him tightly. And after a few moments, she found out that the girl was his childhood sweetheart.

"Ryoma is popular in school…" she started, "Everyone likes him…"

Then, the other girl responded back at her, "I know, but it won't stop me"

"Stop?" there she already had a thought of something amazing yet depressing realization, "The boy you're talking about when we were still young was Ryoma-kun?"

"Yes… he's the boy I left a promise when I left America before… He's my first love!"

A small world seems to grow between her barriers and how much she looks at it, everything was already impossible. There are no rights anymore when you already realize that you're just a second love…

"But why do you envy her?" he looked down from the sand beneath them up to the face of his only one full of tears.

"Because, she can show her affections to everyone without feeling awkward, not like me… And besides, you first met her… she's your first love…"

"But you own me now, right? I love you…"

Every kiss they had shared to each other would resemble the greatest love they had to one another. But sometimes, for every happiness they both have has a replacement of severe loss and suffering. When the other person already let go, you must hold back anymore, because you know that you'll just hurt yourself more.

"I love him! Without him, I don't know how to make a new start?! He's the only person I really loved! Just let us be!"

"Leave you two alone?! How can I give him to you when I really own him from the first place?! I'm the first one to love him!"

"I'm begging you…"

"I will get what's supposed to be mine and forget everything we had from before… Having you in my life is a living hell!"

When the time has come for your own freedom, you just can tell fate to stop and ignore it along the way. When he said it's time to let go, maybe you must follow him and trust him, because maybe, the next time it would be a different way…

"You think I'm okay?! How can I be if I know that I'm much more affected and in pain?! I love him so much and he was the only one whom I fallen for! But what can I do, he chose it?! He decided it! He loves her more than I am! But then, it's unfair! For me this love is unfair?!"

"I'm sorry, but we can't continue this anymore" she cried, "Everything went out wrong! This isn't what we both wanted! We'll end up confusing ourselves and hurt ourselves more than how we feel it now! I just can't continue this anymore… I just really can't…"

When I first turned my back at that time, I just don't know how to tell my eyes how to stop from falling tears. For the very last minute, I had seen him cry and it's already enough. Because, even though he showed how much he was in pain, he still showed me how much he still love me. So when I said, goodbye… there's already nothing left between the both of us… It's the end…

She slowly opened her eyes and felt traces of chills in her cheeks. Her body lightened up as she rubbed her eyes and yawned. "I fell asleep…" She murmured. She looked around her and realized that she was left alone in the teachers' lounge. The cold season already came and it started with a dark and hard rainfall. "What a weird dream…" she murmured once more and stood up. Her body responded with the cold atmosphere as she gave out a heavy chill. "It's sooo cold… I've been sleeping here and yet, nobody woke me up telling me that they will be already leaving?!" She took a step out of her place and in an instance, her body reacted really badly while her head started to ache.

Her eyes showed worried and fear. The rainstorm had added the bad atmosphere when suddenly a thunder stroke. She jumped in surprise and ran out of the room. Suddenly, another vibration was felt inside her bag she was holding in her hand. While she was panting hardly and also leaning on the wall, she took out her phone and saw her lover's number. She hurriedly answered it in joy and thought how much she needed him that day.

"Hello?" she answered.

"Sakuno, where are you?!" she could hear his voice on panic and in a little while, hearing him in worry made her feel a little calm.

"I'm still here in school… It seems like I'm stranded because of the heavy rain…" she replied back

"WHAT?! You're stranded?!" he shouted with a tone of huge worry inside, "Don't worry, I'll be there at once! Wait for me! I'll pick you up!"

"Are you sure?"

"Don't ask questions like that, of course I will! Stay there, I'll be there in a few minutes" then he quickly hanged up the phone.

She was so lucky to have him in her life. His care and attention towards her were given to her equally. The love he shares to her and so as the infinite warmth he gave to her every each day she needs it.

Why do I feel this way…? She thought inside of her as she walked on the third floor of the high school building. She was heading herself down in the school grounds but her dizziness and illness had caused a big delay on her. I feel… heavy… she said once more as she leaned on the wall. Her sight was starting to multiply from one and even though how many times she rubbed her eyes or closed them, it was no use. She cried in pain, "My head is starting to ache so hard…"

Don't go… Sakuno…

You took him away from me! Having you in my life is a living hell!

Sakuno where the heck are you?! I told you to wait for me?! Where are you?!

He will be leaving right now… and it's sad to admit that I need to let go from all… Ryoma-kun

Sakuno, I'm back! I didn't leave!

Pretending would be the best thing I could do right now… but it hurts can I make it?

Let's go Meyrin…

Aaaaaaaaahhhh!!!!!

"H-Help me…" she started to cry. Her glossy hair passed through her fingers as she curled down on the floor. Why am I feeling this?! Ugh… Somebody help me…

Please don't act as if you don't know! I don't want to be played along by you!

Ryoma… I love you… I've been looking for you through these years…

He's the only person whom I really love?!

All was just a big mistake! Sakuno! I never wanted to leave you…

"Stop it! Stop! Stop!" she started to cry in pain and in despair. She stood once again and leap from an open door near her. Voices kept on entering inside her head. The more the voices she heard, the more painful she got. As she held the door cold silver knob, another lightning appeared that caused the place even darker than the usual. Then, it was followed by a very loud thunder. At the same time, her time stopped and recalled a memory… a terrible memory… the worst…

"Ryoma-kun!" the girl, named Meyrin, shouted inside the room. But for Sakuno, it was not her intention to hide behind the door, it was just an accident. "Don't leave" she continued.

"Meyrin, somebody is waiting for me…" Ryoma answered back and turned away from her but then, he was stopped when Meyrin continued her words.

"It's Sakuno, right?" he didn't respond, yet she repeated but louder, "Tell me! It's Sakuno, right?!"

"Y-Yes…" then, he looked away

Meyrin, just then, started to cry, "Ryoma-kun, how could you do this to me?!" quickly, she ran behind him and hit him hardly behind, "How could you do this to me"

"I-I'm…"

Her tears started to become unstoppable while she started to give off a heavy whimper, "Have you forgotten everything happened between the both of us?!" she demanded, "To tell you the truth, I did everything just to see you again?! Just to be with you again…" her voice started to become solemn, "and for me to fulfill my promise, I gave up everything just to have you back to me! BUT ALL OF MY HARD WORKS AND SACRIFICES REPAID ME THIS?!"

"You're not the only one, Meyrin!" Ryoma shouted back, "Everyday I'm waiting for you! I'm waiting for you coming back to me?!"

With her trembling hands, she wrapped them around his waist as she continued to cry and whisper words, "I Love you…"

"It's painful whenever you're not around… I want to be with you forever… I love you and I'm here to fulfill my promise to you…" Slowly, Ryoma removed her hands around him and faced her. Her head was lowered down while he just looked at him with sad eyes, "please let's return the relationship we started before…"

"But—"

"I'm begging you…" she looked above her and tipped her toe for her to reach his lips. And gradually, she kissed him tenderly and added her last lines, "I Love you so much…"

Back to her life.

Her eyes were widely opened while tears were continuing from falling down. Her mouth was slightly open while her body was trembling. She wanted to speak out but no words were heard. She wanted to close the door but her body was paralyzed. Every bit of heaviness was added twice and the more she stare the room, the more she had torn herself into pieces.

The fact that she had recalled a memory was true, but somehow she couldn't explain everything well. Confusion and Confusion. Everything was full of confusion. She didn't want to judge already, but she can't tell who it is. Ryoma… she thought while hearing a whimper.

[Sakuno's PoV

I want to believe that everything is just a big joke. The voices and dreams I had are just hallucinations of mine. I'm just desperate from how much I want him here by my side. Because every minute without him around me seems to be a room full of darkness; no windows, no doors, no pathways through light. But then, if it's just hallucinations, then why do I cry right now? Why do I feel so much pain inside of me that I cannot control? Every piece seems to be recalled so quickly… but for me it's too sudden…

I hear his name and his voice as well. I do accept that I'm hallucinating all about him, but I don't accept what I had in my thoughts… what I recalled… I want to say that it's not him, yet the name she used to call him and the voice are all the same. His looks are blurred and I'm thanking that it was. Because, I don't know what I will do if I found out that it was him… I don't know if this is true… but I don't want these to be so real… I just don't want… Coz if it is… I'll probably—

[End of PoV

"SAKUNO!" a loud shout was heard around the hallways, but the girl around his arms didn't respond at all. "Sakuno, wake up!" he moved her body to see if she'll be awake, but it was no use. "Sakuno, it's me, Ryoma! Come on, please wake up!"

Her body collapsed with heaviness but just in time, he was there to catch her. He just arrived perfectly to save her.

"S-Sakuno… please, wake up… can you hear me? Sakuno! Sakuno!" he shouted once more

"R-Ryoma…-kun?" at last she spoke! She slowly opened her eyes and saw a blurred vision of her only one, "T-Tell… me…"

"Tell you what?" he cried

"T-That… everything is just… a big… mistake… that… you're not… him…" then she totally ended up unconscious.

He started to wonder what Sakuno was talking about. "Sakuno! Hey! Sakuno!"

He started to have chills. "Sakuno…" he murmured and later on, he looked around him. His eyes widened once more and started to understand what was happening already. The memory… the happenings… and the exact location, "It can't be…"

End of Chapter

(A/N): You know what's funny? During the past few days, I used to think on how will I start my chapters, and then start with it already… but it takes me a lot of hours and days to finish it… but when I started a new concept in the introduction, I always finish my work in less than 12 hours! Hahah!! XD funny isn't it? Well anyways, I hope I had shared you my thoughts (feels like I'm having a speech o.o). I hope you understand the chapter… if ever you have questions, just feel free to ask… it would be better if I'll hear your opinions soon… I'm trying my best to get everything… and btw, some parts of this chapter were taken from one of the chapters in Autumn's Promise, well not literally as copy paste. Hahaha! That's it! I'll be posting the next chapter soon… or again a little late?? XD I'll do my best to update quickly! I just really have a lot of school stuffs that I need to accomplish… that's why I'm having difficulties… I'm going to leave already, bai bai! Reviews are always highly appreciated!! XD (grins)