Chapter 11

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Andy had sat in her apartment for the rest of the afternoon contemplating what her next move should be. Part of her wondered how Sam would feel about what she was about to do, they weren't together anymore when she left, he had wanted to try, she wanted him back, but she needed time she was still hurting from what he had done. She knew how Sara was feeling, she loved him, but she did to and she thought he would want her there, was she wrong, she knew just the person to talk to help her figure it out, with that she called the one person she thought would have all the answers.

Andy rounded the corner from her condo and headed into the coffee shop a few blocks down. She ordered a coffee and decided to sit down and wait, hoping soon she would be able to figure things out with his help. When she took a sip of her drink, she looked up and was greeted by a warm smile, she stood up and reached in his arms and hugged him, thanks for coming Ollie, no problem McNally.

Andy filled Oliver in what had happened since she had been back, what Gail had said, her latest run in with Sara also telling him she had heard the conversation with Sara for which she thanked him again. Oliver took all the info in and reached across and touched her hand in comfort. Andy continued to explain about her visits to Sam, his decline yesterday, and finally what was happening with being served, which even shocked Oliver. After a couple of minutes Ollie, gently asked "what are you going to do?" That's why I called you here Ollie, I have a way to see him, for them to let me see him, I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do, I need your help "her eyes looked at him pleadingly.

Ok, Andy tell me how can you see him if there is a court order in place. This should be good he thought.

Nick had entered the barn, his first shift back since leaving almost 6 months earlier. Even though he had been back here since then to see frank and to visit he felt strangely out-of-place. His first stop was to frank's office to dot all the I's and cross all the ts. After his meeting he headed to the locker room to change, and start his first shift back. Frank had informed him he was riding with the new TO Marlo for a 2 week period to make sure all things went smooth for his readjustment period. Nick hadn't heard much about Marlo yet, but what better way than to have a day to spend in the car with her he thought. As Nick approached the parade room, his thoughts of Andy and their situation had him distracted, he was abruptly grabbed on the arm and pulled towards an empty interrogation room.

"What the hell "nick exclaimed turning around quickly

"Can we talk for a sec "Gail asked suddenly?

"Look I need to get to parade, what can I do for you, Gail?"

Nick, I'm sorry for everything that has happened and the way I treated you, I told you why I did and said what I said, but what I want to know now is can we move on. We have both made mistakes and I would like to try to move forward together, do you think we can?

Nick looked at Gail and saw that she had dropped her usual ice queen glare and demeanour, and that she looked truly sorry, the only thing he could think of though was that she had still hurt Andy, and still had not made things right. He also thought about how she had told him her feeling which was rare, but after all was said and done he didn't know if he could actually trust her gain, or if he could forgive what she had done to Andy, his friend, his partner his….Nick shook his head to change his thinking, he looked at Gail, bowed his head and covered his face with his hand

"Gail look I'm not sure what will happen in the future, I will always love you, but this is a hard one to forgive. I know we have both made mistakes but you went too far this time, not only did you turn your back on Andy, you thought that I would act that way towards you, what does that say about our relationship. He looked at Gail like he was waiting for an answer.

"Ok, I understand…"with that she turned in her heel and left the room as quickly as she came.

Nick stood there for a minute longer trying to process what happened, sure Gail had done some bad things, to him and to his best friend, but had he not done the same thing by falling for Andy. He knew the feelings he had for her were real, but were they the same as Gail, he needed to figure this out, because until he did how can he pass judgment on her, when he basically did the same thing, except he didn't cause any harm….YET.

WOW….Andy sat across from Oliver, watching him as his mouth still hung open in surprise….WOW.

"Is that all you have to say, "Andy asked her look questioning

"I'm not sure what else to say, Andy. I must say I never saw that one coming"

"I know it happened before, well you know, what do you think I should do... Do I use this, or do I leave things how they are now, and do as Sara asks and walk away?" I know that is not what I want, but maybe Sara is right and I'm not helping him or her. I'm sorry I know I'm rabbling again but I don't want to cause any more problems, but…"

Andy was interrupted by Ollie's raised hand and soft chuckle. "always the same Andy"

"Look I know that Gail has caused some problems for you with Sara, I did try to talk to her, which you know but Sara is looking out for what she thinks is best for Sam, even though she means well she doesn't know you, and she doesn't know how Sam felt about you or that he tried to fix things before you left.

"But what about…" Andy interrupted

"Look Sam waited for you at the penny, as far as he knows you didn't come, but time hasn't really passed for him, so I think that you should go with what your gut tells you, and if you want to be there then do it, but remember Sara is Sam's sister and well you don't need me to tell you how loyal and caring he is towards those he lets in.

Andy sat there and looked across from Oliver once again, she nodded slowly and stood up, before Oliver could stand to join her she was embracing him in a tight hug "thanks Ollie, you're the best" with that Andy ran out of the coffee shop and headed straight towards the hospital to see Sam, and yes Sara she almost groaned. Oliver watched as she left and smiled to himself, she really was a good kid and worthy of his friend, he just hoped that one day he would get the chance to see them happy again, together.

Sara sat in the doctor's office, listening closely to what he had to say. Sam had had a rough night his heart rate had continued to be erratic and some of his injuries still had not healed correctly due to infections and his immobilization. The doctor had discussed this with Sara before, and recommended she consider his wishes in the kind of measures to take next time, perhaps having a dnr, order, (a do not resuscitate order) put in place so as not to continue to put him through this with no chance of a meaningful recovery given the amount of time that had passed. He had mentioned that he wondered about the change in his vitals, during certain times at night, he even mentioned it was around the same time that Andy had come to visit and it had been more than once, but Sara said it was what it was, and nothing more to it, Sara really did believe this, she couldn't have a good effect, could she. Sara had decided that at this point it may be best not to prolong any further suffering, after the last episode it nearly broke her, and she knew that was not Sam, she hoped but as the doctor mentioned he no longer has a real hope of a meaningful recovery even if she wanted him to stay, he wouldn't want be like this, that was a fact. Sara continued to sit in the chair and look blankly at the doctor, they went over facts and cases and with a tear and shaky hand she signed the DNR for Sam. Sara knew that this was not the end, but only in the worst case, he could still come around, he had to fight, but if he got to the point of too much he could let go and have no more pain of ivs, scans and loss of dignity, this was for him. The doctor excused himself and Sara returned to Sam's room, "I love ya little brother, I know you're going to come back, I know you'll fight, but I love ya even if you are being stubborn and taking your time, "Sara rested her head and closed her eyes on Sam bed, his hands grasped in hers, she did not realize that she had fallen asleep until a sharp alarm brought her to an abrupt awakening, the room suddenly abuzz with movement and the notice of people, the medical staff, the last thing she registered hearing was were losing him again before once again Sara was removed from the room, and the curtain closed in front of her face.

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