Thanks to all my reviewers, I would still like some more but I love the one that already review! Ok and I was researching some spells and if you don't know what they are then look them up on Wikipedia. I think I describe what they do, but if you're confused just look them up!
SOO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED! I actually wrote this chappy like, a month ago, but I had my laptop taken away from me b/c I'm a very bad girl ;) Lol!
I also just saw the HP Deathly Hallows and almost cried twice. It was everything I wanted it to be, and I am so sad that it is over. Like everyone says, it is a bittersweet moment for me. I can actually feel a lump in my throat right now.
If you haven't seen it yet GO SEE IT! I can't possibly tell you how great it was. And Severus's memory was brilliantly done—and very sweet.
Sorry that was so long, I know that half of you probably didn't even read all that ;) Kudos if you did!
DISCLAIMER: I own nothing, if you think you have seen something before as you are reading this, you probably have. This includes J.K Rowling's work, and any songs that I decide to use.
*** ***Sevvy's POV*** ***
Trix cast a spell and I easily dodged it. We have been doing this for hours. She was good for someone who is fairly new to magic, but she still needs a lot of work.
She ran to the next room, and I followed, a few yards behind. I walked in and shut the door. It was pitch black.
I stepped in and waited a few moments. No sound. Then I heard a rustle, about two feet away from me.
"Lumos," I said and my wand lit up. Then I heard a confident, "Expelliarmus," from across the room. My wand flew out of my hand and I heard her grasp it. Then she whispered, "Nox" and the light turned off. I clapped.
"Nicely done, Trix, now may I have my wand back so we can continue,"
There was a few seconds of silence, then my wand rolled over to my feet. I picked it up. Then I heard running. It sounded like she was running up stairs.
I turned the lights back on and ran over to where she was, "Glisseo." And the stairs turned into a ramp and she was falling down. Ha! Got her now. Just when she was about a few feet away she yelled,
"Obscuro!" and a blindfold covered my face.
I reached to take it off, but when I did she was gone, and the stairs were back to normal, "Clever girl," I muttered and walked up the stairs.
When I got to the top I realized it was a dead end. There was no other secret passageway, just this balcony and the stairs! She tricked me! How could she have tricked me!
I scoffed at her intelligence and headed down the stairs. I must have given her a few minutes to escape. Clever girl.
I walked back into the room where we were a few moments ago and I heard, "Locomotor Mortis!"
Immediately my legs glued together and I couldn't move. I was eventually able to lift the spell off, but she had come up to me with her wand pointed straight in between my nose.
"That's two nothing Sevvy dear, wanna give up now?" She said smirking. I glared. How could she have beaten me?
Damn witch! In a swift motion I kicked her behind the knees and she fell kneeling at my feet. I grabbed her wand and twirled it around my fingers and said, "Two-one,"
She smirked off the pain and snatched the wand out of my hands and backed away into the darkness. She sent flying objects toward me, which I easily ducked away from and said,
"Is that the best—" but I was interrupted when I heard a slurred voice from across the room say,
"Trixie darling, I was looking all over for you sweetheart," It was that ass, Carrow. I almost growled, but I still had to show my loyalties toward the Dark Lord, and unfortunately, Carrow was with the Dark Lord.
So I sneered and walked over to the two and said,
"Miss Rayner why aren't you in your common room?" I knew that she knew I had to do this so she replied,
"Sorry, I got lost. I just came from the library. I'll just…go now,"
"You're not going anywhere Miss Rayner," Carrow said in a slurred suggestive voice. I almost threw up.
"Carrow let her go back to her common room now,"
"Snapey, why? Let's have… fun with her," He said and began to touch Trix. She looked up at me completely pissed and frightened.
"No, Carrow." I said and tried my hardest not to show my likings toward her.
"Why not? Are you taking a liking for her?"
"Hardly," I sneered. I hated denying that, but I had to, "But the Dark Lord would not want your Muggle blood tainting hers,"
He sneered, "Too late," and whispered to Trix, "Don't worry darling I'll find a way to get us back together," She looked completely disgusted. Not that I blamed her.
"Leave Carrow. And Miss Rayner, you have detention with me tonight at seven."
Carrow stalked away, and as soon as I heard his footsteps cease I went up to Trix and hugged her. She cried softly into my arms.
"He's never going to leave me alone," She said shaking.
"Don't worry I will make sure he won't touch you ever again," She nodded, not really believing me.
"Let's go back to my rooms now, ok?" She nodded and I let her follow me back.
*** TRIXIE'S POV*** ***
As soon as we walked into his living room, I plopped onto one of his couches and groaned,
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"Do you really have to ask?" I muttered and stuffed a pillow over my face.
"I guess not," He muttered and came to sit next to me.
"Thanks for not raping me," I said casually.
"Why…why would you think I would … rape you?"
I shrugged and he tore the pillow away from my face. He said,
"Answer me," He said more forcefully.
"I don't know! Carrow was going to, and…I don't know! And all I'm saying is thank you for not,"
"I would never hurt you, Trix,"
"I know," I muttered and looked away from him. He forced me to look at me and leaned in and kissed me on my forehead and said,
"I love you,"
I smiled and said, "I know. I love you, too"
"You did great today by the way,"
"I know. Thank you for teaching me."
"No problem," He said and smiled.
"You should smile more. It makes you look younger," I said and kissed him on the nose.
"Ahh, there's another we need to talk about,"
"What?" I said slightly confused. Smiling? I thought I did plenty of that…
"Why…I mean I don't… you," He sighed and ran his fingers through his black hair and said, "I don't deserve you,"
"Huh?" What was he talking about?
"I mean… I am about twice your age, I could be your father for Merlin's sake! I just don't think…"
"What? That I won't like you in a few years because you older than me?" He nodded. Aww! He's so cute.
"Severus I will always love you. You know that,"
"Yes, but, there are so many more men out there. You know, better looking, younger, nicer job, younger…"
"I'm not that shallow to stop liking you just because you're…wait how old are you?"
He paused. I don't think he wanted to answer, so I repeated saying, "Severus…?"
"Thirty-eight," He closed his eyes and I could see him mentally cursing himself, "And you are…?"
I didn't want to answer him. It would make him feel bad. And I thought he was going to say something worse like, 40! ...but that's only in two years. Oh God I feel so shallow!
"Trix…?" He said just like I did.
I paused before saying, " Sixteen,"
"You see! Twenty two years! Oh gods, Trix! I don't know if—"
OK, now I'm pissed, "Look," I said interrupting him, "You were the first person to start complaining about the age difference, so I seems like you're the one who had a problem with it. You don't seem to understand. I. Don't. Care. About. Your. Age!"
And to make my point even clearer, I leaned in and gave him a nice, chaste kiss on the mouth. I closed my eyes and then opened them when he wasn't kissing me back. He just stood there staring at me. Like an idiot. I broke away from our first kiss and scoffed.
Bastard! He just didn't get. Stubborn ass!
I walked back to my room and locked the door, and jumped on my bed. After a few minutes I realized that I wasn't going to fall asleep, so I got up and went into my bathroom and turned the water on hot and turned the music on and sank into the water.
I listened to the lyrics of the song California King Bed by Rihanna,
Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us
I find this kind of creepy how accurate this song is to my current problem…
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king
Well, Severus is from Britain, so he can be my British king I guess…
Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
-oohhh next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on the stars
For your heart for me
My California King
Yep, I definitely have. Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused, when I asked you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming
Ugh I think I have been just living in my own dream world. Where everything was perfect and I could just live with Severus.
In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I bet California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California King
My California King
It feels like that sometimes… In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California King
At this point of the song I am just sitting in the tub, stunned for two reasons:
a) Rihanna's song was surprising accurate
b) I'm in love with Severus Snape.
Yes, I've said it before, but it seems more…honest now. Do you know how sometimes you say things that you think you mean, but you realize you don't really mean them until later? This is one of those times.
I quickly finished my bath and washed my hair and body, and I got out and shaved my legs and pits and put on deodorant and threw on my . I'm ready.
I walked out of my room and over to where we were sitting a half an hour ago.
"Severus?" I called and opened the door to see him laying on the couch with his large nose in a book. I love his nose… I shook myself out of my thoughts and walked over to him.
"Severus?" I said again.
"What?" He said it so cold that I blinked a few times and took a step back, "I just wanted to apologize for…leaving like that,"
He just nodded, all the while not looking away from the book.
"Why won't you look at me?" I said and narrowed my eyes. Now I'm pissed. And why was I apologizing?
He sighed and laid his book flat on his stomach and asked, "What?"
"What's your problem?"
"Mine?"
"No Obama's. OF COURSE YOURS!" I yelled exasperated.
"I don't know," He said and reached to get his book and continued reading.
I left the room without another word and began packing my bags. I threw all my crap into my suitcase and headed back to my common room.
*** April 30th 1998*** (still Trix's POV***
It had been months since we have talked. I didn't show up for that detention I had with him, and he never came up to ask me about it. During Potions class I never raise my hand and all I ever do is make potions (duh) and put it on his desk to grade, and do homework.
I have managed to escape Carrow's clutches during this time, which I am eternally grateful.
During this time, I joined Dumbledore's Army, and most didn't accept me and Bella because we were Slytherins, but we eventually proved ourselves.
It took me a while to get back into things, but whenever I feel like crap (which is about 5 times a week) I find my way to that old, grand piano and play whatever memorized song comes to mind. Occasionally I see Severus's feet on the map, but he doesn't stop me. He seems to just sit there, listening.
But I ignore him of course. I still don't know what really happened that day. I wish that I didn't leave. I wish that he stopped me from leaving. But most of all, I wished he had kissed me back.
Back to the present I walk to the Astronomy Tower and give Killer my letter to send to my parents. We have been talking now, which is good. They wouldn't tell me anything until they see me in person, just in case the letter gets intercepted.
Which makes sense, although I don't understand why they won't send just regular emails.
I look at my watch. 10:30. Great. Out after curfew.
I head down the tower and sneak into the main part of the castle and head down toward the dungeons. It really is a workout let me tell you.
As I manage to make it to the first floor without breaking a sweat…well before I hear a silky voice say,
"Out after curfew?"
I turn to see Snape. I haven't been this close since…well since I kissed him. I hold back tears and replace my sad expression with a neutral one.
"I guess I will see you in detention at seven tomorrow?"
"You will," He sneered and I turned on my heel, but he held my shoulder.
I looked up at him. His eyes were filled with sorrow and love, but his regular bored expression was still present.
"Don't…don't skip it this time," He stuttered.
"I won't" I said, eyes watering. Trix you wuss!
He closed his eyes and said, "Trixie,"
I summoned all the courage I had and hugged him. I was surprised when he hugged me back and rested his head on top of mine.
I cried softly and he hugged me tighter.
He let go and grabbed my hand and started leading me down to the dungeons.
As soon as he stepped through the portrait door, we lead me into his bedroom and set me down.
"Trixie," He started and we stared into each other's eyes, "Kiss me,"
I pursed my lips and said, "Will you kiss me back,"
He closed his eyes and nodded. I leaned in and kissed him. He returned the kiss and ran his large hands through my thinish, light brown hair.
I wrapped my hands around his neck and sat up with him and sat in his lap. Before anything got out of control, I broke the kiss and leaned my forehead against his.
He closed his eyes and smiled.
"I've been waiting for months to kiss you," I pulled away and glared at him.
"Then why the bloody hell didn't you kiss me when I did?"
"I just…I didn't…I don't know!" He said exasperated and put his face in his hands, "I don't know,"
I sighed and hugged him. Maybe I was being a little dramatic and mean when I left him.
He hugged me back and cried softly into my shoulders.
"Why are you crying?" I asked and wiped a tear away from his cheek.
"I… I won't be able to see you again,"
My eyes widened, "Why not?"
"I… I am going to die on the second of May,"
"WHAT!" I said and hopped out his lap.
"Please," He begged looking at me in my eyes, "Don't…just…please just…stay with me,"
I took a deep breath and said, "How? I had a dream…Was my dream correct?"
He nodded, "I need you to listen to me. You cannot follow me. If I die and you come, you will die. I can't let you die. I can't. Please, just stay safe in the school and wait to see if I … make it out of the Shrieking Shack"
"And what if you don't?" I said eyes narrowing.
"You will move on. You will—"
"YOU BASTARD DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT I ONLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU?" I yelled. I hoped he got it now.
"Please…just stay with me tonight. Please I just need you to stay,"
I just nodded and cuddled with him. As soon as he fell asleep and he could no longer read my mind (if he ever was…anyway I made sure he couldn't read my mind) I began to devise a plan. I reached into my pocket and grabbed my map.
I looked all over the map and I couldn't find the Shrieking Shack. I almost gave up until I saw the Whomping Willow. In the smallest letters imaginable it read "Leads to Shrieking Shack"
I almost jumped for joy, but I realized that Severus was sleeping right next to me.
OK, so tomorrows plan is to research the Whomping willow and try to find a way into the tree without killing myself (Ginny told me about Ron and Harry's 2nd or 3rd year and the Whomping Willow incident)
For now, I stuffed the map in my pocket and fell asleep in Severus' arms, and for a moment not having a care in the world…
PHEW! Another 9 pages! MY GOODNESS!
Hope you liked, and I promise that it will all make sense in the end!
This fic is almost done, maybe a few more chapters and then an Epilogue, but I'm not too sure yet…
Ideas? Suggestions? Please tell me!
Yours truly,
Vamp Girl