When we got home Hayley slept for like three days. The gang was set to release their first album in three months and the month of recording had killed all of them. Now they would have to make trips into town, use a studio there and record all the background and pickups. They were all fuelled on it but it was beginning to take tolls on everyone.
Zac quit school. He figured why keep going he finally made it. That put a huge rift in the Farro family. The rents weren't too supportive of that decision. In their opinion money was no substitute for education. I can see the merit in that, I mean I had money but I still felt the need to be educated.
Josh was wavering, everyone was watching him and Hayley for indications of whether or not they were getting coke again. Hayley I knew for a fact wasn't but Josh wasn't his usual self. Pressure could kill sobriety. I was worried about him.
Jeremy's first relationship was taking a hit, she had issues with touring. He wasn't sure if she would stick around for him. I hoped so, he was happy as fuck with this girl. I didn't want to see him hurt.
Hayley was exhausted about 95% of the time lately. I could hardly spend time with her. I was beginning to feel like things were on pause until this album cycle was over. When I thought about that I worried, what if she didn't want me holding her back. I knew it was stupidity and insecurity fuelling that thought but even still I was scared.
The days dragged on. Josh and Zac moved out, started renting in the city. Me, Jere and Hayley were looking for something and were planning the same thing.
One day while Hayley was working I decided to swing by the guys place to kill some time. We had a key so I just let myself in and headed up to the stoner room as we called it. I walked in and saw Josh, head over a table snorting lines.
"Shit, Selena. I'm sorry, you weren't supposed to be here. Fuck." He cleaned everything up.
"Josh, what's going on? You gotta be honest... Is Hayley doing it too? I need you to be real with me."
He lowered his head and nodded. "Not much, but yes. She is, and it's my fault Sel. I wanted someone to do it with and she was here after her shift one day and it just happened. She stops by sometimes and has a few lines... I just, I couldn't handle the pressure and lost it. Please don't say anything. I'm going to meetings starting tomorrow. I'm embarrassed. I never intended to drag her down with me."
"Dude! You're fucked. She's fucking been on edge since you guys got this stupid deal and now you've got her doing gd blow? Get bent dude." I turned and stormed out. SORRY IT'S SO SHORT GUYS!