Renesmee's Point Of View

Chapter Ten: Second Thoughts.

"I have to tell you, so you can know. I want to fight for you Ness. I have to let you know that I'm in love with you." He went on.

I paused and I think I just stared at him for a while. That was really brave of Jake to confess his feelings for me.

"Jake, that's really sweet," I began, "But I'm sorry. I can't just break up with Daniel because you like me. I do like you Jake. Just not in that way. I love Daniel. We're still friends right?"

He looked hurt. Poor Jake. I've been a really crap best friend lately. I left him waiting in the rain, lied to him twice and now I've even rejected him. I hated hurting Jake, but I was in love with Daniel and I didn't want to hurt Daniel and myself by breaking up with him. After all, this was Jake; his crush probably wasn't even serious.

I wonder if my parents knew about Jake's feelings. Knowing my father he probably tried to kill him. Jake was like 18 appearance wise but he was actually 26. I mean the way he interrogated Daniel I couldn't imagine the way my father treated Jake. I still remember how my father reacted when Daniel was over.

"So you're roughly 60 years old," my father said giving Daniel a look.

"That would be right give or take a couple years," he replied.

"Hmm…" my father thought hardly.

"Dad you do realize you're like 100 years old." I said rolling my eyes.

"Renesmee…" he sighed.

"So I hear you and Bella conceived Nessie when she was human." Daniel said trying to lighten the mood.

"Yes." my father replied.

"I didn't even know that was possible." Daniel remarked.

"Now listen Daniel," my father started, "I don't want you and Renesmee doing anything until she's married. Keep it… PG."

"Edward, these kids were brought up in a different generation. Why don't you just tell them to use protection?" my mum said.

"Mum! Dad!" I said going red and giving them both a look.

I swear parents can be so embarrassing.

"Renesmee?" Daniel snapped his fingers to wake me from my daze.

"Yes. Sorry did I zone out?"

"Yeah. Um I'm sorry Renesmee I'm going to be out on Saturday so I can't go to the concert with you." He mentioned.

"Why?" I asked.

"I'm working on a project." he replied.

"Can't you work on it some other time?" I sighed.

"Nope. It's a group assignment so I really can't." he told me.

"Aw. Okay. What about Sunday?" I asked.

"Sorry no. I can't. But maybe the Sunday after that?" Daniel pleaded.

"Okay. Can't wait!" I told him.

"I should drive you home, it's late." Daniel told me.

"It's okay my family won't mind." I said. I didn't want to go home, suddenly it seemed different between Jacob and I. Now that I knew his feelings for me, being around him was just awkward. Not that I felt the same way or anything, of course not I was in love with Daniel.

"No I should get going I have to work on that project tonight anyways," he said.

I walked up to the front porch and waved nervously to Jacob. He did the same. Could it be he felt awkward around me too?

"Hey Jake, can we talk?" I asked him.

"Sure what is it Nessie?" he replied.

"It's just I don't want things to be awkward between us." I began.

"Oh thank Gosh! You feel it too, I thought I was the only one." Jake breathed out in relief.

"You're my best friend Jake. I don't want to lose us." I told him.

"I don't either. Did I ruin it with my good for nothing words?" he asked.

"No. Your confession was sweet. But we're friends Jake." I smiled and gave him a hug. My heart pounded faster and electricity seemed to pass within me. I quickly pulled away.

"Well this was nice! I'm going to go!" I said quickly. I think he felt it too cause he pulled away just as fast.

"Yep! Got to go! Bye," he said racing upstairs, while I went the other direction.

I felt… nervous. Almost like the feeling I get around Daniel, but more comfortable. There is no way I could like Jake. He was my best friend. I sat up thinking about it on my bed.

I heard a knock on my door. "Ness?" Jacob said softly.

"Hey Renesmee?" Jacob said softly.

"What is it Jake?" I asked.

"I just want to ask you if you love Daniel." He started.

"You know I do Jake." I replied.

"I just don't trust him Ness. He's always avoiding Madison and you don't even seem to care. A relationship should be built on trust and how can you have that if he's hiding things from you?" he explained.

"Jake, it's because I trust him that I don't ask. Won't asking him to tell me seem like I don't trust him?"

"Still. There's something off about…" Jake said but I interrupted him, "Enough Jake! I trust him and love him. So just leave it okay?" I snapped.

"What is it about him that makes you love him so much?" Jake asked.

"I don't know… Maybe his eyes, his smile and the way he's… manly. The way he makes me feels, I can see sparks flying whenever I'm with him." I continued.

"I'm a man aren't I?" he asked.

"But you're not a man, to me. You're my best friend Jake. That's all you'll ever be." I sighed.

He left the room and I fell asleep.

"What is it?" I asked blushing. He came over and kissed me. I actually felt fireworks in my head. I forgot about everything instantly. I felt butterflies in my stomach. I thought of nothing and kissed him back. We were interrupted by the sound clashing dishes.

And I woke up from my dream.

"Earth to Renesmee." Derek snapped me out of my daydream.

I looked across the room. "Jake stop! Stop!" a tall brunette giggled. "Nope! Not stopping!" Jake laughed as he tickled her.

"Hey guys, who's the brunette flirting with Jake?" I asked.

"Oh that's Olivia Jennings. Why? You jealous?" Madison teased.

"No way! I have a boyfriend!" I said without thinking. I forgot Daniel had wanted me to keep this a secret. "I mean I already like someone else." I quickly said.

"Who?" Logan asked with his mouth full of pizza.

"It's just some guy I met in the gym, you don't know him." I lied quickly.

Jake walked towards us with Olivia. "Hey guys. Liv is going to hang out with us today!" he said to us. Liv? He knows her for how long and already gave her a nickname? Suddenly my nickname didn't seem that great anymore.

"Hey Ness. You're with us for lunch today? This is – " he started to introduce.

" – I already know!" I snapped.

"Maybe I should leave…" Olivia suggested.

"Maybe you should!" I agreed.

Olivia ran away quickly while crying. I instantly regretted saying that.

"Wait Liv!" Jake called after her and started running for her.

"Whoa…" Derek and Logan said I unison.

"Renesmee that was really rude." Nora said abruptly.

"Yeah Liv didn't do anything wrong. You should apologize." Madison added.

"I know I know." I sighed.

"Go, she probably went to the creek, if not that then try the volleyball courts." Nora suggested.

Great. I should really think twice before opening my big mouth.