Chapter 11
L nods his head and says that they might as well go to bed right away; tomorrow will be a long day, Misa is going on an interview with the Yotsuba Group and this will be an excellent opportunity to monitor them closer.
Light agrees and climbs into his pajamas as L gets into the big bed. He asks if Light would prefer to sleep under separate covers or share one.
Light thinks about it for a moment and would prefer to say "separate" since that would be the least embarrassing but knows that he usually sleeps better when L is lying close to him. In the end he answers with the single word "share".
He looks at L who throws one of the covers on the floor. How can he be so unaffected by all this? If it were the other way around, Light would have found it extremely awkward and uncomfortable to sleep so close to the other youth.
But then again, L never cared about other people's opinion about him and he seems to have another set of standards than Light. This is probably one of the reasons why he is such a great detective.
Light gets into the bed and lies down on his back next to L under the cover. While staring straight ahead he asks the youth if he is sure he is okay with this arrangement.
L sighs deeply and reassures Light that he has no problems with this whatsoever. Light is a nice person who doesn't smell and cleans his teeth twice a day, why shouldn't he be okay with it?
Light turns his head in L's direction and states the obvious, because they are both boys.
L turns to look Light in the eyes and asks him why he has such a big problem with the thought of being close to another man.
Light rolls his eyes and replies that society deems it wrong and so does religion. Therefore: it is wrong.
L thinks for a while then asks Light is he thinks that they are mentally close, as if they are friends.
Yes, Light agrees, he feels closer to L than he has ever been to someone else. He is not sure he would call them friends though; it's more like they are equals.
L slowly nods his head at this and tells Light that he feels the same. But, this makes it more difficult for him to understand why Light is so uncomfortable with an equal helping him out when he needs it.
Light says it's difficult to explain, it's just a feeling, a knowing that being close to another boy is morally wrong.
At this L protests; where do you draw the line of what is morally right and wrong? Now, for example, they are lying next to each other under the same blanket. Is that wrong?
Light answers that of course it's not wrong since they aren't doing anything, just waiting for sleep to find them.
L continues, if he were to put his arm across Lights chest because he finds it is the most comfortable position to sleep in, would that be morally wrong of him? As he says this he moves his arm into said position.
No, Light doesn't think it's wrong, L is doing it to be comfortable and Light doesn't find it unpleasant at all, on the contrary. The warmth from L's arm makes him feel safe, like so many nights before.
After hearing this L asks Light if it is wrong of him to put his head on Light's shoulder, like this?
No, Light doesn't think so since they are still not doing anything that society deems wrong and besides they are doing it to feel safe. But as he says this Light can feel L's breath on his neck and along with it a sensation, much like electricity, on his skin.
L's breath stirs something inside of him, it makes him very aware of his surroundings but at the same time everything but the sensation of lying close to L and hearing the detective's voice in his ear vanishes.
The youth pulls himself closer to Light so that their bodies almost touch and whispers, what about now? Upon hearing and feeling the other's presence so close to his own, Light has to hold back a sharp intake of air.
L takes the silence as quiet consent and closes the small gap between their bodies.
Even though both youths are fully dressed, Light in his pajamas and L in his day clothes, Light have the feeling that small sparks are flying between them.
He has forgotten what they were talking about, and why L is lying so close to him, all he cares about is that he is. Light relishes in the sensation of being close to L's skinny frame but at the same time wish they could be closer.
Slowly he turns to his side so as to face L, closes his eyes and gently brushes his lips against the detectives.
Immediately, L pulls his face back and asks Light what he is doing, what about society and its view on morals?
Light replies that tonight he doesn't care about society and its rules of conduct and behavior. L thinks for a moment then asks what will happen if he does.
Light chuckles and says that is a ridiculous question since L never cares about those things. L hums when hearing this and leans in closer again, nudging his nose against Light.
When Light presses his lips against the other youth's for the second time within minutes everything else fades away.